A.N. Alright, I think everybody knows this is the last chapter… thank you for sticking out with me till the end! ^-^
It makes no sense,
You're going through…
Luffy's POV
"Traffy…" I looked at his face. "You're an idiot. The biggest idiot there is. You run away from me with an excuse that you're not worthy of me when in truth you're just afraid. You're afraid of me, you tried driving me away so hard, but I'm still here. Living with Doflamingo didn't give you confidence in trusting people, what to talk about love…" I made a pause. "I remember how at first you weren't used at me being kind to you no matter what you did. You were like a scared kitten who never was petted. I never hatted how possessive you were, it made me feel loved."
I put my head next to his hand. "I never hated you being a little rough during sex, I'm not a doll – I won't brake. I know you think that I will be able to live happily even without you, but that's not truth… I hate living without you, I want to be with you, I want to be the one who calms you down, the one in which you seek relief. I want to be the shoulder you lean on… So please, please, wake up… I don't want to be alone…"
The tears finally broke down and started steaming down my face; I want Traffy back…
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I must have fallen asleep, because I woke up leaning on the edge of Law's bed, my back hurt a little from the uncomfortable position, so when I straightened it cracked. I looked at Law's lifeless face and my insides clenched; seeing half of his face bandaged isn't really the view that gives you courage… I brushed my fingers through his un-bandaged cheek; I want him to open his grey eyes… I leaned down and put a peck on his lips. "I love you."
I saw Law's eyelashes flutter and held my breath; is it possible? The eyelids opened and grey eyes met mine. "Luffy…"
A silent and a little cranky voice reached my ears, my heart started beating faster. "Yea?"
Law's lips opened to say something, but his eyelids closed and he said nothing, my heart was still beating like crazy, but I still heard how he breathed so I knew that he only fell asleep. I pushed the button which was used to call the doctor.
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It's been two days since Law first opened his eyes, after then he would wake up for a short period of time and would simply look at me for those several minutes, he even ate several times. Chopper said that he falls asleep so fast because of the all medicine he has in himself. Law never spoke though, sometimes he would open his mouth, but no words would ever come out. When I asked Chopper he said that there's nothing wrong with Law's vocal cords, so he can speak.
I put my head next to Law's good arm and closed my eyes; oh how I wish for him to speak, to tell me at least something… Suddenly I felt my hair being ruffled, I raised my head and saw Law looking down at me, he wasn't smiling or frowning, he looked a little concerned. "Traffy…?"
The injured male's eyes focused on mine. "Yea?"
My heart fluttered; he finally spoke with me! "Do you… are you feeling fine?"
A small snort came as an answer and I felt my body ease up; he's behaving like himself, things must be getting better… "I don't it's possible in this position to be fine…"
I looked down. "Uh, yea, you're probably right…"
"Luffy." I looked up at Law's bandaged face. "I remember what you spoke to me…" I continued staring at him; he could have never mentioned that, if he did then it means he wants to talk about it… Traffy looked away. "And I know that I'm an idiot, but I truly believed that you're better off without me…" His eyes met mine. "I'm sorry for making a decision like that on my own…"
"Is that a request of coming back?"
Law nodded. "I'm sorry."
I closed my eyes. "You always say 'sorry'." I opened my eyes, and put a kiss on the corner of his lips. "We will start doing so you don't need to use that word anymore…"
I saw Law's eyes light up a little, his body relaxed a little. "Thank you…"
The whisper was so silent I even doubted I heard it, but the grateful and loving expression on Traffy's face said everything I needed to know…
A month later
I walked into the shared hospital room where Law was now kept and saw him scribing something on paper, I sat beside him on the edge of his bed. "What are you doing?"
Law raised his head and looked over me, yesterday the bandages from his face were taken off, there was a nasty scar were the glass cut. His right leg was already out of gypsum and he walked with it sometimes and his left arm and leg were still healing. "Well as I no longer can be a model… I don't know, I just kind of got inspired?"
"Hmm?" I peeked at the piece of paper Law writing on. "Can I look?"
Traffy looked at me for several moments then rubbed the back of his neck and pushed the paper to me. "Sure."
Law turned his eyes away as I took the paper; is he embarrassed?
I can't lie to myself I know there's no use
Let's not try again, the ends are too lose,
Don't give me last chance 'cause if you do
I won't be able to stay away from you…
So please don't make that face, don't say it hurts,
Ignore my harsh words and break through this curse,
I know that deserving you is the last thing I'll earn
But wishing for more is all I've that left…
I suffocate as I think about life without you,
But everything stays the same - I can't fight for you,
'Cause I don't have what it takes to win for you,
But maybe I'm just afraid of having you?
Maybe it's just an excuse to stay away from you…
But I won't stain you with the dirt I've become,
So please be good and stay away from me,
I don't wanna hurt you, I can no longer stand
The ground is shaking I'm falling down…
The rain pours down and I think of my lose,
I want to destroy the world 'cause life without you
Got me freaking confused, I can no longer stand
And it makes no sense how I came to lose everything I've ever used…
So I suffocate as I think about life without you,
But everything stays the same - I can't fight for you,
'Cause I don't have what it takes to win for you,
But maybe I'm just afraid of having you?
Maybe it's just an excuse to stay away from you…
Don't give me that, please look away
From the senseless mess I've became,
Don't make me say those hurtful words
Please look away, forget me...
So I suffocate as I think about life without you,
But everything stays the same - I can't fight for you,
'Cause I don't have what it takes to win for you,
But maybe I'm just afraid of having you?
It makes no sense,
You're going through…
I felt a lump in my throat; is that how he feels? I put the paper away and hugged Traffy. "Oi, oi, Luffy! My ribs!" I released him and felt tears gathering. "I don't really like it, fourth and fifth columns have the same line which I don't find how could I change…"
I pressed my lips to his to shush him. "It's good!" My voice was a little cranky from those tears gathering. "It's really, really good!"
Law eased up a little. "Well this is my first try…" I took the paper and looked through it again; if he really does feel like this… I felt hands wrap around me. "When I started writing I wanted to say how much I love you, but instead it turned out into that."
I chuckled. "You don't need to write how much you love me, you can just tell…"
I heard how Traffy took a deep breath. "I love you."
My heart skipped a beat and I felt a huge grin appear on my face. "See - wasn't that hard!" The hand round my waist only tightened.
THE END
A.N. Well this was completely out of the mood from the whole story… I have no idea how it turned out like this… Btw, I hope you enjoyed it! As today is New Year Eve I will be busy and later it's my friend's birthday… So yea… There also won't be any New Year Special, sorry guys… I wanna thank jam klaoo, South Boy and katasana for reviewing a lot of chapters, you guys made the updates come faster! ^-^ Bye!
