This Is my take on my Favourite Non Wilson moment when sonny gives will the '' Coffee for live Card'' I have always wondered what if will had realized that he had feelings for Sonny too. xxxx
For So Long sonny had pulled it off being just pals with will, but after today's Episode he just didn't know if and could he keep doing this to himself it was slowly killing him inside, For so long he had been kidding himself that he would be fine with just having will in his life as a really good friend .
He knew that he had promise will that he would be there for him any time but it was just getting to hard for Sonny , so he decided that he would take a few days off and go camping maybe it was time to move on, if he put some distance between him and will then with time his feelings would fade , he will miss him but today just proved that sonny can't be just friends anymore ''.
Sonny went into the office and made some calls to get all the ordered items in for chad and the staff so that they didn't need to worry about it and got his jacket and headed for home to back his bag but on the way he spotted will heading his way he tried to find a way out of this but he had been spotted by will already so couldn't do much.
'' hi Sonny you finished for the day already '' will walked up to stand near him as they talked but stepped back a bit .
'' Look I was kinda in a hurry so maybe we can catch up later O'K '' sonny said as he started head off not giving will any chance to answer.
Sonny made it back to his Flat as he started to pack his Camping gear into the bag that he used for times like this he couldn't help but think of Will remembering how he looked this morning and felt in his arms.
'' Knock Knock '' Sonny walked over and opened the front door .
'' Can I come in please we need to talk Sonny
'' Sure I guess'' stepping back to let him in only to shut the door after will walk in.
Will looked around he could see some clothes on his bed and a big huge bag sitting on the floor
'' You going away for a few days '' will asked as he turned around to face Sonny .
'' yes I am heading off early in the morning for a few a week , I just need a break from here ''
'' And you weren't going to tell me before you left , some friend you are Sonny'' will joked.
'' Maybe I don't want to be anymore '' slightly snapping out the last word harder than he wanted it to be but he couldn't take it back now so he just hoped that will hadn't taken it the wrong way .
Will was a bit shocked and hurt to hear that from sonny, he really didn't know what to to say or how to
react to that so he turned around and headed for the door .
'' Have a Good Time away '' and was gone shutting the door behind him.
Sonny knew that had been a mean just then but he just couldn't do it anymore as he started to pack there was a knock at his front door so he went to answered it
It wasn't will but his Cousin Abigail instead .
'' Hi can I come in ''
''Yes why not ''
''You want to tell what has you so worked up that you have to dropped everything to go camping mid week when it's only three more days till the weekend and you could go then''
'' I just can't do it anymore it hurts to much I tried but I need to move on and today just proved it for me '' throwing his clothes on the bed out of sheer frustration
'' Sonny what are you talking about ''
''I have wanted to be with will from the second I met him, I liked him from day one but as time went passed I fell hard for him , but he was with Gabby so I knew that it was a waist of time so I kept my feelings for him to myself and I have been fine with just being friends if it mean's I still get to be near him everyday from a safe Distance.
But Today something happened it was my own stupid Fault that I let it happened I wasn't even thinking normally we are fine when we Interact as mates but I Lost it Today and I let my real feelings show for him. It made me realize that I can't be around him anymore like that , it took all my willpower to act on my feelings today when he was in my arms , I have been fooling myself that it would work out fine but I was so wrong.
'' What happened tell me I won't judge you I love you and have your back ''
Well We were fooling around because I was going to give him a Coffee Card for Life , and not even realizing what I was doing I had put it behind my back so that he would have reach for it.
During this time we had started to fool around a bit differently than we should have and he ended up being a lot closer to me than a normal person should be .
For Will it would mean nothing but me I found myself starting to react to his body being in my personal space, all I wanted to do was take will further into my arms and kiss him like I have wanted and dreamed every night.
''I have woken up nearly every night from dreams that have will and I being together in the bed , I have dreams where we are marry and happy with children or I am showing him the world , I want to grow old with him by my side but I know that it will never happen in real life only but only in my dreams and I just take it anymore to be near him and not have him like I want so fucking bad so I need time to
breath so I am going away for a few days and when I get back I will be able to tell him that we can't be friends anymore , even though it will kill me to turn by back on will after promising him that I would be his friend I need no I have too to be able to breath normal again''
''Sonny you don't think that maybe you and will should talk before you make this final decision about not being friends with him , Sonny give will a chance he might surprise you ''
'' No Abigail it won't work as Will won't ever admit that he is gay ever and I just can't sit about and wait for some thing that will never come true for me ,so if you don't mind I have a lot to do before I leave I don't mean to be rude but I need you to go so that I can focus on this as I can't lose it and if we keep talking about him I will''
''Alright I will leave you alone but I think you are being silly and I think you will be sorry in the end but it's your life and your decision in the end stay safe while you are camping Cousin '' shutting the door behind her .
Will had found himself standing at the spot that he had met sonny remembering back to that day he met him for the first time , and then when he found out that sonny wasn't into girls if he was really honest with his own deep feelings he was actually kinda happy , and he has never been happier since sonny came to Salem .
And if he stopped fighting what was going on with him since meeting Sonny he knew that he could be happy ,he never knew if he was really into to men that way but today with after the coffee card moment he was really sure that yes was into men but mostly it was sonny that he was starting to wake up too , he would wait for sonny to come back from his camping trip and try to fix this before it goes any further .
Abigail went looking for Will she needed to find him fast hoping that what she had seen slowly happening with both her dear Cousins was for real , not real where to look she went to a place that maybe was something for them both .
Abigail found will at the one spot that she had hoped he had gone too , he look so lost and lonely , she walked over to him not real sure if she was doing the right thing by letting him know that she knows his secret that he has been hiding for so long.
''What are you doing here when you should be back there with him , Come on will don't let the best thing walk away from you because you scare of how our families are going to take it that your gay , I love you both so much and I want you happy ' '
''Abigail it doesn't matter even if I did have feelings for him it's too late he doesn't want me around anymore , and I can't be like that , god my father freaked out when he saw us fooling around he said that it was sending the wrong Signal to people , maybe it is better for us to not be friends anymore ,Anyway he is better off finding someone that doesn't have a screwed up life''
'' Is that what you want to do will '' Abigail could see the tears welling up her cousins eyes
'' Then stop fighting what you want to do and go and do it before it's too late and when the time comes I will be there for you both''
Will got up and headed back to sonny hoping that it wasn't too late as he walked he sorted out his thoughts and words to know what to say .
Twenty minutes later will was standing at sonny's front door for the second time today.
''knock ''knock'' will waited silently freaking out inside for the door to be open .
Sonny opened the door as was mad to see that will had come back after what he had said to him just hours ago .
'' what do you want will?'' sonny asked
''Can I please come in I need to talk to you before you leave for camping trip it can't wait till you get back if our friendship mean't anything to you ''
'' Fine but you can't stay long'' as he stepped back for the second time for will
Will had wanted to talk to sonny but he could see that it wasn't going to be easy so taking a deep breath he slowly turned around to face him hoping that he wouldn't make a Complete fool of himself by taking a chance like this .
''Sonny when I left here I found myself wandering around and I ended up at the place where we first met at first I didn't know why I went there until I started to think back to that day when you came to town ,you have been there for me since day one just as a dear friend , we hung out working on the web site with chad and that was cool but as days weeks went by it was just us and I was cool with that , you were there for me when I needed someone to talk too , you never push me into anything that I was going through , you were if I need a shoulder to cry on or just too talk so many times I look for you and you were there just being a good friend and I love you for that .
When sonny didn't say anything back will got more comfortable and started with what he wanted sonny to really know silently praying that at the end of this he would be in his arms again .
'' Remember that day when we met and I was a bit cold at first, well it wasn't because off being chad 's Loyal friend , I was actually mad that you were taken already as I found my self interested in you , that's why I was so rude to you, Sonny I was already confused with my feelings ,and then you walk into town and turn it upside down on me when we would hangout just as friends I was happy and then chad couldn't always show up and I was secretly happy as I had you to myself , you never pushed me even though you knew that I was fighting a battle that was losing each day that I had you in my life I would look forward to our cuddles as it got me closer to you and times when I had my back turned I felt your eyes on me and I felt amazing to think you were watching me like that ,it was making easier for me to except that I was gay and that what I was feeling wasn't wrong or bad but it was love .
So stepping into Sonny personal space again for the second time today will answered his question
'' Sonny I want you ''
Hey Readers!
should I continue this one ?