Chapter Two!
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SONNY could feel his heart racing even faster as WILL stepped closer to him , he had wished so many times for this moment to come true , but now that it was, he was slightly freaking out.
WILL 's heart was starting to Race Too, and he was so nervous and wasn't real sure how or what to do but he could hear his heart beating faster as he was Getting closer to SONNY so he guessed that he was making the right move .
WILL just looked at SONNY slowly taking in everything about this person ,Yes they had been friends for awhile.
But WILL was really and Truly seeing SONNY for the first today .
It was like he had just woken up from a very long sleep in which was had been living a lie all his life,
and now things and people were looking so different to Him .
WILL had always seen SONNY as a dear friend for life but now looking at the guy standing in front of him , he could only focus on the beautiful big brown eyes and the lips that were chewing due to nerves ,as his his eyes moved done SONNY'S frame , he noticed that SONNY had changed and that he was wearing his sweats now, WILL'S own body was starting to feel things that he had never really felt before , Yes he thought SONNY was very cute that first day when they first met but he would have never thought that it would lead to this being something more .
WILL could see that SONNY was starting to freaked out with the way that he had been looking at him but WILL just couldn't help it as he was liking what was standing in front of him.
Suddenly WILL had a overpowering need to kiss SONNY he had always noticed that when he was nervous or thinking he would lick his lips with the tip of his Tongue but now it had a whole new meaning to watch SONNY lick his lips.
So WILL leaned forward taking his time in case SONNY didn't want this to happen just yet , but instead SONNY reached for him pulling his body closer to his own stopping and doubts for WILL.
Being that this was all knew to WILL he was only guessing that kissing was the same but as soon as SONNY 'S Tongue Caressed against his own nothing was the same, he felt a overpowering Sensation from his toes all way up to the top of his head, it was like his whole body and all senses were finally realizing what a real kiss was , SONNY could feel that he and WILL were getting aroused so he pulled back slightly, letting go of WILL as they both needed some air and SONNY needed to step away from Will before he did something to push WILL away , Yes he was kissing him and telling him that he had feelings for him .
But SONNY didn't want to make an sudden moves towards WILL that would lead to WILL taking a step into a new world that he wasn't really ready for just now , so SONNY would keep his Emotions in hand when it came to getting to work up around Will , he would wait for WILL to be ready and Comfortable with his feelings just being kissed and told that he had feelings was a reason to be happy for him was enough now.
'' SONNY ARE YOU STILL PLANNING ON GOING CAMPING NOW '' He didn't want to sit on the bed with SONNY making him feel anymore nervous ,so instead WILL slowly slid down the door onto the floor and leaned up against the door looking up at SONNY sitting on his bed .
'' WILL I SHOULD REALLY GO AS CHAD IS TAKING THE TIME OFF TO AFTER THE SHOP FOR ME AND I HAVE ALREADY PAID FOR THE CAMPING SITE , IT WILL ONLY BE THREE WEEKS THAT WILL GIVE YOU TIME TO FEEL MORE AT EASE WITH YOUR NEW LIFE AND WORKED OUT IF AND WHEN YOU TELL YOUR FAMILY , WITH ME BEING AWAY IT WILL GIVE YOU TIME TO SORT OUT YOUR TRUE FEELINGS FOR ME,IF YOU STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY ''
'''SONNY CAN I ASK YOU A QUESTION ABOUT SOMETHING THAT I HAVE BEEN WONDERING''
'' WILL OF COURSE YOU CAN ASK ME ANYTHING ''
'' DO YOU HAVE ANY FEELINGS FOR ME THAT IS MORE THAN BEING JUST FRIENDS AND IF SO WHEN DID YOU REALIZE THAT''
''WELL I GUESS THAT I WAS KINDA ATTRACTED TO YOU FROM THE FIRST DAY THAT ABIGAIL INTRODUED US , BUT I KNEW THAT YOU WEREN'T OUT OR EVEN READY, I WAS ALWAYS HOPING THAT ONE DAY YOU WOULD REALLY SEE ME, BUT YOU NEVR DID SO I MADE FRIENDS WITH YOU AND CHAD INSTEAD AND I TOLD MYSELF THAT I COULD BE JUST FRIENDS WITH YOU , BUT AS TIME WENT ON IT GOT HARDER TO NOT LOOK AT YOU THAT WAY AND I THEN ONE DAY I REALIZED THAT I HAD FALLEN IN LOVE WITH YOU SO BAD .
SO I WENT OUT WITH GUYS TO TRY AND FORGET YOU THAT WAY ,BUT MY HEART WANTED YOU AND IT HURT THAT I WOULD NEVER HAVE YOU LIKE THAT SO I MADE A CHOICE TO SHUT DOWN MY FEELINGS FOR YOU LIKE THAT AND JUST MOVE ON WITH YOU IN MY LIFE AS A DEAR FRIEND AND I WAS DOING SO WELL WITH THAT.
BUT TODAY THAT CHANGED I LET MY WALL DOWN THAT I HAD BEEN KEEPING UP AROUND YOU , I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE THAT I HAD UNTILL IT WAS TOO LATE , I LET YOU SEE THE REAL ME IN THAT ONE STUPID MISTAKE,FOR SO LONG I HAD BEEN FOOING MYSELF THAT I COULD BE NEAR YOU AS A FRIEND AND NOT WANT MORE TO TAKE YOU IN MY ARMS OR TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU''
''SONNY THAT DAY THAT WE WERE PLAYING POOL AND I ASKED YOU IF YOU HAD ANYONE IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU , IT WAS ME WASN'T IT , YOU LOVED ME EVEN BACK THAT FAR ''
'' Y ES IT'S ALWAYS BEEN YOU THAT I WANTED IN MY LIFE BUT I HAD EXCEPT THAT MAYBE YOU WOULD NEVER ADMIT TO YOURSELF AND FAMILY THAT YOU WERE LIVING A LIE WITH WHO YOU REALLY WERE INSIDE , SO I DECIDED THAT I WOULD STAND BY YOU AS A FRIEND IF THAT WAS ALL IT EVER WAS TO BE FOR ME ''
WILL had got up of the floor and was walking towards SONNY on the bed he picked the bag up and placed it on the floor near the bed and sat down facing SONNY , he grabbed SONNY'S hands and held them in his hands as he looked into SONNY'S brown eyes and said .
'' I AM SO SORRY THAT IT TOOK ME THIS LONG TO REALIZE TO WHAT I HAVE BEEN HIDING AND THAT I MADE YOU SUFFER FOR HAVING FEELINGS FOR ME FROM A DISTANCE FOR THIS LONG ,IF ONLY I HADN'T TAKEN SO LONG TO SEE WHAT I HAD STANDING RIGHT OF ME WE COULD BE TOGETHER A LONG TIME BY NOW BUT INSTEAD I AM HEAR ASKING YOU NO PLEADING TO YOU TO GIVE ME A CHANCE TO TELL MY FAMILY THAT I AM GAY AND THAT IN A SINGLE HEART BEAT YOU TURNED MY LIFE UPSIDE DOWN AND THAT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU , BECAUSE SONNY YOU HAVE HAD MY HEART IN YOUR HANDS FOR A LONG TIME TOO AND TODAY MADE ME REALIZE JUST HOW MUCH WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS TOO AND THAT I DON'T WANT TO HIDE ANYMORE''
''WELL IF YOU WANT TO HAVE A CHAT WITH THEM WHILE I AM AWAY IT'S UP TO YOU IF YOU FEEL READY FOR THAT TALK , BUT DON'T DO IT JUST FOR ME , O'K I WOULD NEVER FORCE YOU INTO IT UNTILL YOU ARE REALLY SURE TO BE OUT TO YOUR FAMILY AND BE SEEN TO GETHER , YOU KNOW WE CAN BE TOGETHER AND NOT BE VERY PUBLIC WITH OUR AFFECTION TILL YOU FEEL AT EASE WITH BEING SEEN LIKE THAT WITH ME ''
''SONNY WHAT TIME WILL YOU HEAD OFF IN THE MORNING FOR YOUR CAMPING TRIP '' WILL really wanted to lean over and kiss SONNY but he didn't after what SONNY had said about going slow
'' Well I WAS GOING TO TRY AND GET GOING BY 5 AM '' SONNY REALLY wanted to reach out for WILL but he didn't as he didn't want to start anything that would only lead to a very cold shower for both boys .
'' Well I HAD BETTER GO AND LET YOU FINNISH PACKING AND GET A EARLY NIGHT , SO HAVE FUN BUT STAY SAFE AND COME BACK TO ME , BECAUSE I WOULD REALLY LIKE US TO GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AGAIN ''
WILL got up off the bed and started to head for the door not completely ready to say goodnight or goodbye to SONNY .
SONNY couldn't help but checkout WILL'S backside as he followed him to the door , he had been so focused with his thoughts about that backside of WILLS'S that he didn't see that WILL was turning around to face him and that he was leaning against the door looking back at him.
'' SONNY I REALIZE THAT YOU WANT US TO GO NICE AND SLOW FOR ME TO BE COMFORTABLE WITH MYSELF BUT I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE HERE OR YOU WITHOUT GETTING MY GOODNIGHT/GOODBYE KISS , SO UNLESS YOU DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE HERE , YOU HAD BETTER GET THAT CUTE BACKSIDE OVER HERE AND KISS YOUR MAN UNLESS YOU DON'T WANT KISS AT ALL ''
He didn't need to be asked a second time so stepped between WILL'S legs and he kissed his boyfriend like had wished and dreamed for so long , WILL pulled at SONNY'S t-shirt bringing him closer enough that he wasn't even sure where his body started and SONNY'S stopped WILL was so focused on enjoying every new Sensation that it body was feeling and he could feel that SONNY was enjoying it too he could hear and feel what his kissing was doing to SONNY it was amazing to think that he was causing this reaction and he was just learning , SONNY could feel that he was going to lose his control if he didn't stop right now so he pulled back away from WILL even though all he wanted to do is lay WILL down on his bed and make out some more .
'' IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE HAVING YOU LIKE THIS FINALLY IN MY ARMS, BUT I REALLY NEED YOU TO GO NOW SO THAT I DON'T GIVE IN TO WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO WITH YOU IN THIS ROOM ,SO YOU NEED TO GO NOW AND I NEED TO HAVE VERY COLD SHOWER , WILL I LOVE YOU BUT IF YOU STAY ANY LONGER AND LOOKING LIKE YOU DO RIGHT NOW I CAN PROMISE YOU THAT I KNOW THAT I CAN'T DO SLOW AT THE TIME''
Looking at SONNY was thinking the same thing about not going slow but he knew that SONNY wasn't go to let anything happen when he was going away for the weeks, plus when they did make love for the first time , WILL already knew that he wouldn't be able keep his hands to himself so he needed to tell his family and friends while SONNY was away .
''SONNY ALRIGHT I WILL GO NOW, BUT ONLY BECAUSE I AM FEELING THE SAME WAY ABOUT YOU TOO SO JUST BE CARFUL AND HURRY BACK TO ME ''
'' I PROMISE THAT I WILL BE SAFE AND COME BACK TO YOU AND I PROMISE TO TEXT YOU EVERNIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP , I WILL MISS YOU EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY ''
'' O'K WELL I GUESS I WILL SEE YOU IN THREE WEEKS '', Will turn around to open the front door , he really wanted to kiss SONNY goodbye but he wouldn't unless SONNY made the move towards him , but SONNY didn't as he didn't want to make it any harder than it was to say goodbye so just a simple Caress of his cheek for both was the goodbye for now SONNY watched WILL walk away from him.
And it was just pure torture but he wouldn't give in to his wants or desires until will been out to his family he knew that he was being selfish but he had been hurt by someone that was living a lie and he made a promise to himself that he wouldn't give his heart and soul away to someone that wasn't really completely and comfortable with own Sexuality.
So SONNY was going to wait for WILL because he was worth waiting for , he didn't know how it was going to take for him to tell his family as SONNY knew that WILL'S family was completely different so he didn't know how they would take the news that WILL was gay, but SONNY knew in his
heart that WILL was the one for him, so he would wait forever now that he knew that WILL was feeling the same that he was interested in him both Emotional and physically was going to make it much harder for SONNY not to make a move on WILL now that he knew that he was interested in him like that , he was going to miss not seeing WILL everyday but it was good .
WILL was walking through the H,T,C when his phone started to ring so he answered it, it was his mother asking if he would be home for tea as his father had to fly out tomorrow for a business Trip and he would be away for three months.
So WILL said that he was on his way , after hanging up from his mother , he started to slightly freakout , could he do it and tell them tonight before Lucas flew out of Salem.
As he headed for his mother's place he tried to workout in his head what he was going to say, by the time he got there it was rolling around in his mind how he would tell them after tea , he knew that his younger sister and brother was having a sleep over at their father's house so WILL wouldn't have to worry about them hearing what he was going to tell his mum and dad .
Just as WILL made it to the front door his phone got a message so he pulled it out and opened to see what who it was .
'' I MISS YOU AND YES I LOVE YOU '' seeing that took away any doubt that WILL was having about telling his family about being gay , so he quickly typed back a message to SONNY.
'' I LOVE YOU TOO AND MISSED YOU SO MUCH , I WANTED SO MUCH TO KISS YOU BUT I DIDN'T , I AM GOING TO TELL MY FAMILY TONIGHT AS I WANT US TO BETOGETHER WHEN YOU GET BACK TO ME '' . WILL hit the send button and opened the door .
'' HEY MUM , DAD WHAT TIME DOES YOUR FLIGHT LEAVE IN THE MORNING ?'' '' as he closed the door and went and put his coat on the hook for the coats .
'' WILL I FLY OUT AT 9AM AS I HAVE SOME MEETINGS BEFORE I LEAVE FOR THE AIRPORT , WHY DO YOU ASK WILL?''
'' WELL I WOULD LIKE TO SPEAK TO YOU BOTH ABOUT SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT THAT CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU GET BACK HOME DAD , I WOULD HAVE LIKE MORE TIME BUT WITH YOU LEAVING IT CAN'T WAIT ''
''WELL WILL WE COULD TALK NOW IF YOU NEED TOO AS TEA ISN'T QUITE READY '' just then he felt his phone go off with a message tone , needing to know what SONNY had said he got his phone out to see it .
'' LOVE YOU BE BRAVE BUT IF YOU NEED ME I WILL OPEN THE DOOR FOR YOU '' he couldn't help but smile at that .
Lucas had been watching WILL look at his text message and when he smiled after reading it ,he was interested in what his son had to say .
'' WILL DOES IT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH WHAT I WALK INTO TODAY AT SONNY'S COFFEE HOUSE ?''
'' YES DAD IT DOES , ACTUALLY AND SINCE YOU HAVE BROUGHT IT UP NOW , WE MIGHT AS WELL SIT DOWN NOW , WILL WALKED OVER TO THE COUCH SITTING DOWN HE TOOK A DEEP BREATH AS HIS PARENTS SAT DOWN TOO.
''SO FOR A LONG TIME I HAVEN'T BEEN HAPPY WITH MY LIFE, I HAVE BEEN LIVING A LIE FOR TOO LONG , AND I DON'T WANT TO ANYMORE AS IT'S SLOWLY KILLING ME INSIDE OUT , I LOVE MY FAMILY BUT WE ARE VERY FUCKED UP FAMILY AND YOU CAN'T DENY THAT , I FOR THAT REASON I HAVE STAYED BY MYSELF AND NOT GET INTERESTED IN ANYONE , BUT I CAN'T AND I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE, I SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY JUST LIKE YOU ARE, BUT I CAN'T LIE ANYMORE I HAD HOPED TO HAVE MORE TIME BUT I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO BE BACK IN THREE MONTHS.
''I WANT TO START REALLY LIVING BECAUSE I HAVEN'T, MY DAYS ARE SPENT EITHER WORKING FOR EJ , OR STUDYING MY FRIENDS ARE LIVING AND DATING EACH OTHER , AND I WAS REALLY O'K WITH THAT FOR A LONG TIME BUT NOW I DON'T WANT THAT HORRIBLE AND LONLY LIFE AND FOR THAT TO START I NEED TO TELL YOU BOTH SOMETHING ABOUT MYSELF , YOU SEE I HAVE BEEN KEEPING A SECRET FROM YOU ALL ABOUT ME THAT I AM GAY AND THAT I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE '',
WILL could see that his mother was wanting to ask a question about something.
'' MUM WHAT IS THAT YOU WANT TO ASK ME ''
'' WHEN DID YOU REALLY KNOW THAT YOU WERE GAY''
'' IT'S SONNY THAT YOU LOVE ISN'T IT WILL ?''
'' YES DAD IT IS ''
'' BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE UNTILL JUST RECENTLY THAT SONNY HAD FEELINGS FOR ME TOO , I CAN'T UNDERSTAND HOW A WONDERFUL AND VERY TALENTED YOUNG MAN COULD EVEN BE INTERESTED LIKE HE HAS FOR SO LONG, HE TOLD ME THAT HE HAS LOVED ME FOR A LONG TIME BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO PUSH ME INTO ANYTHING THAT I WASN'T READY TO ADMIT , HE COULD SEE ME SLOWLY FALLING APART FROM THE INSIDE BECAUSE I WAS FIGHTING AND HIDING THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF ME ''
'' SONNY TOLD ME THAT YOU WILL NEED TIME TO AJUST TO THE NEWS ABOUT ME , YES I WANT THIS AND I AM HAPPY AT LAST , MUM I KNOW THAT YOU ARE WORRIED FOR ME BUT PLEASE JUST TRUST ME THAT I AM REALLY O'K WITH SOME OF MY DREAMS, THAT I HAD , WILL NEED TO CHANGE BUT I DON'T CARE AS LONG AS I HAVE SONNY BY MY SIDE '' I DON'T REALLY FEEL ANY FOOD NOW SO I WILL JUST GO AND LET YOU BOTH TALK , BUT THANKYOU FOR LISTENING TO ME , DAD HAVE A SAFE FLIGHT AND STAY SAFE , I LOVE YOU BOTH '' will got up and left his parents sitting on the couch still .
'' Aren't you even mad or worried that WILL just told us that he is gay and that he has been keeping this Secret for so Long and why aren't freaking out like you normally would ''
'' Lucas yes I am mad that my own son didn't think that I would care or understand or even trust me enough to come and tell me something that was tearing him apart for so many years until he was forced by you leaving , and I am so happy that he has finally found that one person in his life that will love him and treat him so much better than we have since I gave birth to him ''
As WILL reached SONNY'S apartment block he got out his phone to send a text to him just to see if he was still up .
'' SONNY ARE YOU STILL AWAKE '' and he hit the send button hoping that he was still awake as it was only 8pm as he waited he couldn't help but wondered what his parents were thinking or if they were having a discussion about him suddenly his phone started to ring so he answered .
'' BABY WHAT IS WRONG , ARE YOU O'K DO YOU NEED ME TO COME OVER TO YOU ''
'' NO I AM FINE REALLY I JUST NEED TO SEE YOU ,CAN I COME UP ''
'' YES I WILL BUZZ YOU IN AS THE FRONT DOOR WILL BE LOCKED NOW ''
SONNY started to freakout wondering why WILL was here and needing to see him after speaking to his parents , Suddenly he was at the door , SONNY walked over to the door and slowly opened the door slightly hoping that WILL was O'K as he didn't sound too bad on the phone call just few seconds .
'' Hi SONNY '' his knees nearly gave out as he could see that SONNY had just recently got out of the shower as he was in sweats and his hair was still damp.
'' Hi WILL '' as he stepped back to let him into the room .