Chapter Three!
WILL noticed that the bag was closed up and leaning against the wall , and he could see the hiking boots placed right next to the BAG, everything was just ready to grab and go for the in the Morning .
Seeing that SONNY was getting ready to go to bed for the night, WILL was thinking that maybe coming here this late wasn't a good idea after all and that he should just home after all.
''WILL WHAT HAPPEN WITH YOUR PARENTS , ARE YOU ALRIGHT ?''
When WILL didn't answer he started to get scared that it hadn't gone well, for WILL with telling his parents that he was gay or, was he here to tell SONNY that he couldn't do it after all.
After a few minutes WILL did start talking but he wouldn't turn around and look Sonny in the face.
'' SONNY! I KNOW THAT YOU WANTED TO GET A EARLY NIGHT! , BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO HOME TO MY FLAT, AND BE ON MY OWN TONIGHT , WHEN I CAN BE HERE WITH MY BOYFRIEND , I JUST NEED TO BE IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT SO CAN I STAY HERE .
AFTER JUST TELLING MY PARENTS THAT I HAVE BEEN LIVING A LIE FOR MOST OF MY LIFE , I PROMISE THAT I WON'T TRY ANYTHING , BUT I NEED TO BE HERE RIGHT NOW AND NOT ALONE FREAKING OUT AND WONDERING IF I HAVE MADE THE RIGHT DECISION ABOUT COMING OUT TONIGHT .
So SONNY locked the front door , and took WILL'S hand leading him to the bed without a single thought .
'' IS A PAIR OF SWEATS IS THAT ALRIGHT WILL AS THAT IS ALL I HAVE? ''
YES A PAIR OF SWEATS IS FINE THANKS , AND IS IT O'K THAT I GO AND TAKE A SHOWER , I WILL BE QUEIT WHEN I COMEOUT IF YOU HAVE GONE TO SLEEP ''
Sonny went over and pulled a pair out of the bottom draw and threw it at will , both were nervous but for different reasons , Sonny watched Will walked to the bathroom and he heard the door shut , Sonny just got into the bed and laid down trying not to picture a very wet and naked will in the next room.
WILL started to strip off his clothes as he started to go over in his head what he had said to his parents , as he pulled down his boxers and climbed into the shower it suddenly hit home as to what he had just done with finally coming out to his parents and even telling his best friend that he had been keeping his feelings hidden from him , It just become to much for him and he broke down in the shower letting go of all doubts and fears that he could Survive this, as he was crying he tried to keep his sobs to a low noise as he wasn't ready for SONNY to see him like this.
''SONNY could hear that WILL was crying in the shower , he really wanted to go in there and take
WILL into his arms to comfort him as he cried but he just wasn't sure if WILL would want that so SONNY just laid there and waited for WILL to come out when he was ready and if he wanted to talk or cry some more than SONNY would be there to hold him if he wanted to be held by SONNY as let go of all his fears.
After WILL had a good cry he was to worn out to even have a real shower so he turned the water off and got out , he dried his body and put sweatpants on , he took a long look at his Reflection in the mirror seeing that his eyes were red and SONNY would see that WILL had been crying under the Water.
When Will walked back into the room he noticed that all the lights were off but the bed Light was turn on for him to be able to see his way to the bed and that SONNY was facing the other way, and he was sleeping , so WILL pulled back the bedding and carefully climbed in trying not wake SONNY as he climbed in his bed.
WILL turned the light off and laid down onto the pillow, he decided to lay on his back even though he really wanted to be in SONNY'S arms right now , he wouldn't wake SONNY up and let him just see how messed up he was at the moment .
SONNY could tell that WILL was trying to focus on going to sleep for his sake, but his body was just to worked up over the talk to his parents tonight , he couldn't fall asleep in this bed when SONNY was laying right next to him so close that he could reach out and touch, knowing that WILL couldn't help but roll over so that he was facing the same way as SONNY was .
As SONNY Laid awake facing the wall , he could feel WILL'S eyes on him and then Suddenly he could hear WILL whispering some words to a sleeping SONNY .
'' I KNOW THAT I SHOULD BE SAYING THIS TO YOU WHEN YOU ARE AWAKE BUT I JUST CAN'T FACE YOU AND TELL YOU HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT MYSELF AND YOU.
I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE , I WILL NEVER TAKE YOU OR YOUR LOVE FOR ME GRANTED , I WILL LOVE ONLY YOU TILL MY HEART GIVES OUT , I WISH I COULD MAKE YOU NOT GO CAMPING, BECAUSE ,I WANT US TO BE TOGETHER ALL DAY AND EVERY NIGHT TO FALL ALSEEP IN YOUR ARMS AFTER WE HAVE MADE LOVE TO EACH OTHER ,BUT I KNOW THAT I CAN'T ASK YOU TO STAY.
WHEN YOU THINK THAT WE SHOULD WAIT UNTILL I AM OUT AND COMFORTABLE WITH US BEING SEEN IN PUBLIC , BUT SONNY EVERY PART OF MY BODY WANTS YOU NOW AND NOT IN THREE WEEKS ''
SONNY was silently crying listening to WILL pour his heart and secrets out because he thought SONNY was sleeping soundly , Listening to those words being spoken by him only made SONNY love WILL more.
As he laid still so many things were running through his mind now , should he stay and start his life with this man that had owned his heart from day one or should go away for the trip knowing that he will miss him every minute and that all he will be thinking and wanting is WILL.
SONNY knew that WILL was still awake as he could feel those beautiful blue working their way down his body even though it was completely dark in the room , he could feel them and it was amazing, but it was also making SONNY 'S willpower of staying away from WILL was quickly fall apart.
Suddenly WILL'S phone got a text ,it was in his back pocket of his jeans on the floor but he could hear it go off so very carefully he climbed out of the bed and walked over to his clothes and went looking for it , he found it and pulled it out of the back pocket of his jeans , and opened his messages to see who it was from , it was his mother .
''WILL WE HAVE TALKED AND WHEN YOUR FATHER GETS BACK, WE WOULD LOVE TO HAVE A FAMILY DINNER TO WELCOME SONNY INTO OUR FAMILY ,I'M SURE THAT YOU WEREN'T GOING TO TELL US TONIGHT BUT WITH YOUR DAD LEAVING WE REALLY DIDN'T GIVE YOU MUCH TIME TO GET COMFORTABLE TO TELL US SO FOR THAT WE COULDN'T BE ANYMORE PROUDER THAN WE ARE RIGHT NOW WE LOVE YOU ''
WILL went into the bathroom and carefully closed the door and made a phone call as it was only just going on 12;30 so he knew that his mother would still awake .
''HI MUM !DID YOU REALLY MEAN WHAT YOU JUST SENT JUST NOW ,THAT YOU ARE BOTH PROUD OF ME AND THAT YOU WANT TO WELCOME SONNY INTO THE FAMILY, ARE REALLY O'K WITH ME BEING GAY , I MEAN YOU WONT HAVE ANY GRAN CHILDREN UNLESS WE CAN FOSTER OR ADOPTED CHILDREN .
YES MUM I DO , I SEE SONNY AND I TOGETHER FOR VERY LONG TIME HE IS THE ONE FOR ME , UM YES I AM AT HIS PLACE, BUT HE IS SLEEPING AS HE IS GOING TO HEAD OFF IN A FEW HOURS FOR A CAMPING TRIP, NO I COULDN'T GO TO SLEEP TO WORKED UP AFTER COMMING OUT TO YOU BOTH, NO ACTAULLY I WAS THINKING OF SNEAKY OUT QEUITLY TO HEAD HOME AS I JUST CAN'T SLEEP HERE.
, I GUESS SONNY WAS RIGHT AFTER ALL , NO I AM NOT GOING TO TELL YOU THAT, IT'S BETWEEN US ,LOOK IT'S LATE AND I'M PRETTY SURE YOU ARE DOING PAPERWORK NOW AND I CAN'T STAY IN THE BATHROOM ALL NIGHT TALKING TO YOU ABOUT MY LACK OF SEX BYE MUM AND YES I WILL SAY HI TO SONNY FOR YOU ''. WILL hung up from his call and then he went to the toilet before he went back into the bedroom but when he open the door he realized that light was on and that SONNY was awake and was sitting up in the bed.
'' LOOK I THINK I WILL JUST GO , I CAN'T SEEM TO GET TO SLEEP , SORRY THAT I WOKE YOU UP IF YOU LAY DOWN NOW AND CLOSE YOUR EYES IT USALLY WORKS STRAIGHT AWAY , I WILL JUST DRESSED AND I WILL BE GONE O'K '' ,WILL LEAN DOWN AND PICK UP HIS JEANS AND STARTED TO PUT LEFT LEG IN WHEN SONNY SPOKE ''
''WILL DO REALLY SEE ME AS THE ONE TO GROW OLD WITH AND HAVE CHILDREN WITH YOU ?''
'' YES I DO SONNY! I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE ! I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU! , I WANT US TO HAVE KIDS , TO WATCH THEM GROW UP , I WANT US TO BE MARRIED , AND I WANT TO START OUR LIFE NOW ! I KNOW THAT YOU WANTED ME TO WAIT UNTILL I WAS READY.
BUT SONNY MY FAMILY IS ALL THAT MATTERED TO ME AND NOW THAT THEY KNOW , YOU SEE I DON'T CARE IF I LOSE FRIENDS BECAUSE I LOVE BEING KISSED BY YOU AND I MISS YOU ALREADY , I THOUGHT THAT LAYING NEAR YOU WOULD BE ENOUGH FOR TONIGHT BUT I CAN'T DO IT SO I WILL GO AND LET YOU SLEEP IN PEACE'' and will pulled his jeans up and done the zipper up and was reaching down for his top as SONNY sat on his knee's trying to work out if he should go with his heart or follow his Brain .
'' WILL! DID YOU REALLY MEAN WHAT YOU SAID TO YOUR MOTHER ,ABOUT ME BEING THE ONE FOR YOU ?
'' YOU HEARD THAT , WAS YOU AWAKE ALL THE TIME SONNY ''
''YES I HAVE BEEN AWAKE ALL THE TIME I WANTED TO BE HERE FOR YOU .
BUT I JUST DIDN'T KNOW HOW OR IF YOU WANTED ME TO KNOW SO I JUST LAID STILL LISTENING TO YOU BREATHE, HOPING THAT YOU WERE O'K INSIDE YOUR HEART , I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO PROUD OF YOU AS I AM NOW ,FOR CHOOSING TO TELL THEM STRAIGHT AWAY , I COULDN'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE FOR MAKING YOUR DECISION TO START YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW ,YOU KNOW I FEEL THE SAME ABOUT YOU , I WANT EVERYTHING WITH YOU ''
'' YOU SAY THAT YOU HAVE BEEN AWAKE ,THEN YOU WOULD HAVE HEARD ME TELL MY MOTHER HOW I AM FEELING ABOUT YOU THAT I WANT NOTHING BUT TO BE WITH YOU NOW, NOT IN THREE WEEKS WHEN YOU COME BACK.
SONNY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU , I DON'T NEED TIME TO SIT DOWN AND SORT OUT MY FEELINGS FOR YOU ,YES I AM SCARED AND I KNOW THAT IT WILL HURT BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT YOU WILL TAKE CARE OF ME '' he could see that WILL wanted to reach for him .
''WILL IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T WANT YOU , I DO SO BAD ,IT'S JUST THAT I'M SCARED TOO OF GETTING HURT AGAIN .
YOU SEE WHILE I WAS TRAVELLING I FELL IN LOVE WITH A YOUNG MAN AND I THOUGHT HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME AS MUCH I WAS WITH HIM ,BUT I WAS JUST A PLAYTHING ON SIDE WHILE HIS BOYFRIEND WAS AWAY ON A BUSSINESS TRIP BUT I DIDN'T FIND THAT OUT UNTILL ONE TIME HE FLEW HOME EARLY AS A SURPRISE FOR HIM BUT INSTEAD HE AND WALKED IN ON US.
''HE LIED TO HIM OF COURSE SAYING THAT IT WAS JUST A ONE NIGHT STAND EVEN THOUGH WE HAD BEEN TOGETHER FOR 3 MONTHS ,I DIDN'T EVEN SEE HIM FOR A WEEK AFTER THAT NIGHT , SILLY ME LET HIM INTO MY HOTEL ROOM AND WE HAD SEX AGAIN AND THEN HE TOLD ME THAT I WAS JUST A BIT OF FUN ON THE SIDE AND THAT'S ALL IT WAS EVER GOING TO BE FOR HIM , BUT POOR ME I WAS JUST SHATTERED AS I GAVE MY WHOLE BODY AND SOUL TO HIM BUT I WAS NOTHING TO HIM .
'' SO I FLEW OUT OF PARIS ON THE LATE FLIGHT AND SHOWED UP HERE AS I NEEDED TO BE NEAR MY PARENTS AS I TRIED TO GET OVER HIM.
WILL YOUR FRIENDSHIP HELPED ME GET OVER, WHAT I THOUGHT WAS REAL LOVE WAS ONLY LUST AND PURE INFATUATION FOR THE GUY .
WHAT I HAVE FELT FOR YOU FROM DAY ONE IS SO MUCH MORE THAN JUST LUST IN MY EYES , I WANT US TO GROW OLD AND WATCH OUR KIDS GROW UP , I WANT TO TAKE YOU TO MY FAVOURITE PLACES AROUND THE WORLD , I WANT TO SEE THE WORLD THROUGH YOUR EYES NOW .
''BUT WILL ALL I ASK YOU OF YOU IS TO GIVE ME A FEW DAYS JUST TO WRAP MY HEAD AROUND THE FACT THAT YOU ARE ACTAULLY INTERESTED IN ME, BECAUSE FOR SO LONG I HAD MADE MYSELF BELIEVE THAT I WOULD NEVER GET WHAT I HAVE REALLY WANTED IN MY LIFE TO BE WITH YOU LIKE THIS , I WON'T GO CAMPING NOW BUT CAN WE JUST TAKE IT SLOW FOR NOW PLEASE BABY ''
''SONNY WE WILL TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED , YOU WAITED FOR ME SO NOW I CAN WAIT FOR YOU , BABY I AM SORRY THAT YOU GOT HURT , I PROMISE THAT I WILL NEVER EVER HURT YOU LIKE THAT EVER , YOU ARE MY WORLD, MY EVERYTHING , YOU ARE THE REASON WHY I GET UP EVERY DAY , IF I DON'T HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE THEN I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ON THE EARTH ANYMORE NOW LETS GO TO BED BECAUSE I AM REALLY TIRED AND I'M COLD JUST STANDING IN MY JEANS ''
'' O'K YOU HOPE IN BUT I NEED TO TAKE A LEAK ''SO SONNY WENT TO THE TOILET AS WILL UNDID HE ZIPPER AND PULLED DOWN HIS JEANS AND QUICKLY JUMPED IN UNDER THE SHEETS .
SONNY came out and climbed into the bed and WILL didn't waist anytime snuggling into SONNY'S arms and SONNY pulled the sheet up over both of them after a few tender kisses they snuggled into their sleep both with smiles on their faces at last .