''' I Can't Do This Anymore''
Chapter Five!
When Samantha walked through her door she found her baby boy sleeping soundly on the couch. He didn't stir, so she grabbed a blanket and placed it over him. She could see that he had been crying as he had tear stains on his cheeks and it broke her heart to see him like this. She didn't want to put blame on Sonny, but why else, only hours after seeing them happy,, was her baby boy sleeping on her couch instead of with Sonny like he was last night?
"I love you, Will, and I am very proud of you. I hope you and Sonny can get work things out."
Samantha got up and started to walk away, heading for her bedroom when she heard Will's voice.
"Mum, I can't make Sonny understand that I ant this with him. After you left us this morning, he freaked out about the looks that we were getting, so he made it look like we were just friends having breakfast after a long night of studying. I told him that I didn't care what they were thinkiing about us, but he still walked away from me and went camping without even telling me where he was going.
"I just don't know anymore. Last night we were so happy in his bed, just cuddling, and this morning it all changed because I asked him for a real morning wake-up kiss. I just don't know what to do or think. And then today I find out from Chad that Sonny's ex-boyfriend is in town looking for him. They have a history. Maybe I can't compete with that."
"Will, just be patient with him. He has wanted you for a very long time, and now he knows that you are in love with him too. He's scared that he's going to fuck this up with you. I think that's what he might be feeling."
"Maybe I should just give up and walk away from him. I mean, I did this for him so that we could be together in public, and now he doesn't even kiss me behind closed doors. I think I'll just go to bed, Mum. I'll see you in the morning. Thanks for listening to me."
"Good night, Will. Of course I will always listen to you."
Being that it was the middle of the night, Sonny was getting really frustrated that he couldn't go faster and pass the traffic that was on the road with him. We was anxious to get back to Will and his future.
With a growl, he approached a very slow driver. He didn't even think twice and hit the peddle, passing the slow car and from then on he stayed at the speed of 110 until he got home. He didn't care if he was pulled over by a cop. Right now he needed to be with Will and fix the mistakes he had made since he woke up this morning.
Two Hours Later he made it home to his flat. He kinda wished that he knew where Will lived. He looked at his watch and noticed that it was just on 5am, so he rang Chad and asked for Will's home address so that he could go over there and beg to him for his forgiveness
"What the fuck! Are you kidding me man? It's too early for this call!"
"Chad, I need your help, please. I need to know Will's home address. Do you know it?"
"Sonny, it's not hard to find. Go to the new apartments that my family built. He lives in apartment one. Oh, does this mean you're going back to work or are you still going to be away for three weeks?"
"No, I'm not back. And should someone come looking for me, tell them I said goodbye and to leave me alone. Thanks, Chad."
"Sonny, Don't push Will. Let him control this. You've been out for years, but he's new to everything. Just be patient."
"Chad, he's been in control from day one, and I have loved him and patiently waited for him to accept his truth and be ready for a relationship, hopefully with me.
"But what do I do as soon as he tells me he's ready and that he loves me? I fuck it up before we even really start to date. I just hope that he will forgive me and give me a second chance."
"Well, good luck, Sonny. I hope it works out for both of you. Just please be careful with Will."
"I will, I promise. Thanks, Chad." Sonny hung up and grabbed his car keys, then headed out the door to go and find Will's place.
As Sonny got in the Lift and pressed the down button, he pulled out his phone and typed in a quick message for Will, hoping that he would reply.
'I miss you. I came back for you. I only love and want you in my life, Will. I don't want my past, just my future with you. Please let me explain and give me another chance. Please answer me.'
Sonny got out of the lift and headed for his car and got in. He started it up and drove out of the car park, then headed down the street toward Will's apartment. Twenty minutes later, Sonny was pulling up outside Will's place. He turned the car off and grabbed his phone and checked the display, but he had no new messages.
Sonny sat in his car for two hours, hoping that his phone would ring but it didn't. Finally, he started up his car and drove away. He wasn't going to give up, and he decided he should sit down and write his thoughts out, then send them to Will.
Sonny pulled into the local super market, as he needed to get some writing paper and a packet of envelopes so that he could post it to Will later today.
Sonny walked through the entrance doors and headed for the office aisle. He didn't know that he was being watched by someone, or that Will was just driving into the super market..
Sonny was looking at the packets of paper, and didn't see that his ex was coming up behind him.
''Hello Sonny! still looking good I see. I have missed you so dam much.'' He walked up to Sonny and reached for his cheek
"Hello? Hands off my boyfriend, thank you! Baby, we really need to grab the items and get going. I miss our bed, and if I know you, you're ready to get back in it too!"
Will grabbed Sonny's hand and started to walk away, taking away any chance for Sonny's ex to ask questions. Sonny didn't bother to look back and say goodbye, he was just so happy that Will was there and holding his hand in public. Will really needed some milk for his breakfast, so he headed for the milk fridge, still holding onto Sonny's hand. Will looked up into the big mirror and could see that they were still being watched and followed.
Sonny couldn't help but notice that Will was still wearing the same clothes that he'd had on yesterday. Those nice jeans that fitted his backside so damn well.
Will could feel Sonny's eyes on his ass, so he knew that Sonny was already in that frame of mind. It gave him an idea. Just as he was three steps away from the milk door, Will turn around slowly and began walking backwards while pulling at Sonny's top. No one was around in the aisle, but Will didn't really care.
When Sonny realized what was going on, he looked Will straight in the eye to ask him if he was sure. Will answered by reaching for Sonny's jeans and pulling him harder and closer to him and slowly running his fingertips over his front.
Sonny forgot everything and everyone and he leaned in and claimed his boyfriends mouth and really kissed him.
It wasn't enough for Will. He suddenly wanted Sonny really close, so he grabbed Sonny's backside, bringing his lower body against his own. It was amazing to feel the effect he was having on his boyfriend..
It made his heart miss a few beats to finally realize that Sonny was very interested in him and his body, but most of all it was heaven to feel his own body reacting to Sonny. He had never been that turned on, and it was totally hot! .
Brian didn't need to see anymore. He put down his basket and turned around and headed for the entrance to go back to his hotel room to book the next flight out of Salem.
Sonny pulled away slightly to get some air and he also needed to adjust his jeans. Will looked back over Sonny shoulder and noticed that Brian had gone.
"Well, he has gone, so it worked out nicely," Will said after catching his breath.
Sonny's body was screaming at him to claim Will right now, so he leaned in close to Will's right ear and whispered, while leaving quite a bit of space to prove to Will that he was in charge.
"I want to be inside you so damned bad right now and I don't fucking care about that. I'm glad that he has gone because all I care about now is you and us. All I want to do is make love to you and to hear you say my name while you fall apart in my arms.
Sonny stepped back then turned around and headed straight for the third aisle to get condoms and lube. He had big plans for the next three days, starting from the moment they were behind closed doors, and he needed to get supplies.
They both made to Will's place without getting booked for speeding and were currently walking up to the front door of his apartment. Sonny couldn't believe what he was seeing when Will lead him through the foyer into a very large but open-spaced lounge room that had two large glass sliding doors that opened out onto the main beach. As he looked around, he could see that the kitchen was to his right and that was a massive area also by just a quick glance.
"Will, I can't believe this place! How can you not love it? My whole place would fit just in this loungeroom!"
Will didn't answer but instead he took Sonny's hand and turned left and headed for his bedroom. Walking in, Sonny expected to see a room that was just outstanding as the rest of the place was, but it was a nice and simple room with a bed and amazing large flat screen hanging from the wall.
Will walked Sonny over to the bed, and he turned around to face him to make sure that Sonny did want this to happen. As soon as he turned, Sonny stepped into Will's space and slowly started to help Will out of his clothes, starting with his black hooded jacket, followed by his brown shirt. Sonny's hands starting shaking slightly as he started to lift up Will's blue T-shirt, so Will took over and just pulled it over his head and let it fall to the ground not really caring where it landed.
Sonny couldn't help but want to touch Will's chest. Ever since that day on the beach, Sonny had always fantasized about being able to caress and touch his body and now he could so. He did so slowly, reaching up with his fingertips, he caressed his boyfriend's amazing chest with a six pack to die for. Will just stood there, watching his soon-to-be-lover look over his body. What he was feeling from just Sonny 's fingertips slowly moving and caressing over his skin was out of this world.
It was like his finger tips were leaving a trail behind of little electric currents, running through his blood system from the top of his head all the way down to his toes, and it was simply a whole new sensation.
When Sonny reached Will's face, he couldn't help but want to caress those lips with his fingertips like he had so many times in his nightly dreams of Will. But when Sonny went to put his fingertips onto Will's lips for the very first time ever , he didn't expect Will to react by slightly opening his mouth or taking a nip with his teeth.
Sonny's heartbeat was racing as he looked into his boyfriend's beautiful blue eyes. He could see that Will really wanted to be with him right now, but also there was real love shining from his eyes for Sonny. Not just RAW SEXUAL WANT, but the connection that soul mates have.
"Will, Baby, will you make love to me?"
Will helped Sonny take off his clothes, and soon they were both naked. Will knew that he should be scared, but he wasn't because he knew that Sonny would be gentle and caring. He lead Sonny to the bed and laid down next him but suddenly Sonny pulled Will on top of him and opened his legs so that Will could lay between them.
"Hey, where did that hot stud go that had me pinned to the fridge door just minutes ago?
"He was staking a claim and proving a point to you."
"Baby, just breathe. I'm not going anywhere. I promise I'll be right here with you, and I promise we'll have the talk about my past tomorrow."
"Why tomorrow instead of later today, Sonny?" Will knew the reason why, but he decided to have a little fun.
Sonny couldn't help grin. "Because, for the next 24 hours, I want my boyfriend making love to me or being made love to by me over and over again. If I were you, I'd get started on that. Or should I go first?"
Suddenly Will's nervousness reared its ugly head, and he wouldn't meet Sonny's gaze with his eyes. Sonny realized just how scared Will was since this was his first time having sex with a man. He decided to slow things down and concentrate on making Will comfortable.
"Baby, do you have a tub in that bathroom of yours?"
"Yes, I have a tub that can also be used as a spa. Why?"
"Because we are going to get in it and have a nice warm bubble bath together. You go get it started and I'm going to go into that massive kitchen and get us some drinks."
So Will climbed off Sonny slowly and headed for the bath, filling the tub with hot water and adding some smelling salts and a cap full of muscle soothing powder that always takes the aches away of a hard day running around after his boss.
By the time the water was ready, Sonny was walking into the bathroom carrying two bottles of beer and a bowl of strawberries. As he looked around the bathroom, he could feel Will's eyes watching him but he didn't want to push Will into anything. He wanted Will to make the first move. He wanted them to both be comfortable just enjoying being near each other with NO PRESSURE.
"Oh my god! Not only a massive bath, but you have a shower for two in the corner!"
Will turned the taps off and walked over and turned on one of the lights on the wall and put the bowl of strawberries and the bottles of beer on the window seal.
"It's ready for us."
He climbed into one side of the bath and watched as Sonny climbed in the other side .
Sonny got Comfortable against his side and looked at Will, giving him a look that told him to get his backside over to him. Will moved over and snuggled in between Sonny's legs and laid back onto Sonny's chest.
"This is nice. I have never bothered to have a bath. I just jump in the shower instead," said Will.
Sonny entwined his fingers through the ones on Will's free hand as his other one was holding his bottle of beer, and just enjoyed having his boyfriend laying in his arms while they were relaxing in the bath.
Will was playing with Sonny's fingers and caressed his wrist and arm while still being quiet. It was getting Sonny worried. Just as he was about to ask what was wrong, Will carefully and slowly moved around so that he could look at Sonny.
"Sonny, I promise that I won't bring up your past again, but I just need to know something. I know that you haven't been a perfect saint, and I'm fine with that because I didn't have any rights back then."
"Baby, what is it? You can ask me anything."
"Did you ever have a bubble bath with him while you were together?"
"Will, I have never had a bath with anyone ever. You are the first in so many ways for me. You see, when I was with Brian it was just about the raw sex for him. We never did anything that a normal couple would do. He would come to my flat all the time, at any hour, and be gone when I woke up. The sex was great, but it had no feeling or love with it. I had always thought that with time he would begin to treat our time in bed as making love and not just sex or a great fuck, but he never did. So when I walked away I promised myself that I would never be with a guy like that again until I had met my true love.
"And when I was with a guy, I would top only. If they wanted to be the top then I would walk away. But honestly, Will, I haven't been with anyone like that in a very long time, as I could never forget what he had done to me by keeping me his dirty little secret and making me believe that I meant more to him than I did.
"I guess you could say that I lost interest in sex until you walked into my world that day. Now I have a reason to want bubble baths and to cuddle after making love and to have breakfast in bed after you spend the night."
Will couldn't believe that his baby had just pretty much told him that he had been used by Brian. He was so furious that he had let him walk away this morning. He took Sonny's bottle from him and got on his knees and looked into those beautiful brown eyes. Will began to speak from his heart, hoping it sounded right.
"My promise to yu is to treasure and cherish you from this day on. I promise to love and hold you andnever let you go. I promise to you that I will love and cherish you completely when the time comes for us to become one, and I promise to you that one day I will call you my husband. Sonny, you are my one true soul mate, my boyfriend, and one day when we are both ready we will be lovers."
Sonny finally released all the hurt he'd been carrying for so long. Will quickly moved in behind Sonny's back and pulled him onto his chest, holding his baby tightly against his own body and let Sonny have his time to cry. Beers and strawberries were forgotten, but that didn't matter. That would come later when they were healed and ready.