Untold Secrets
Kimiko's POV
"Try concentrating more Kimiko and focus on controlling your power from within you." Master Fung instructed.
I took some deep breathes and then tried to focus once again all my chi in my body to create fire in my hand. Once I did that I tried again, but nothing came out from my hand. I felt so angry and frustrated with myself and I sighed deeply and sat back down again in front of Master Fung.
"It's no use, my powers aren't as strong as they once were . . . I can't control fire anymore . . . It's gone . . ." I spoke and a single tear slipped from my eye, until Faster Fung wiped it away and lifted my chin so that I would face him.
"Not gone, just lost . . . And things that are lost can always be found . . . You just have to reach deep into yourself and find it . . . Maybe mediating can help clear your mind and maybe help find what you have lost . . . I can help guide you as long as you let me into my mind . . ." He explained.
I needed help and I knew that with Master Fung's help maybe I could regain what I had lost. Maybe I could finally be free from my fear that haunted me for the past two years . . . I slowly nodded to him and then he nodded to me to close my eyes and clear my mind and just relax. As I closed my eyes, I did as instructed and then took some deep breathes. Once my mind was cleared, I began to see something play in my mind now.
I saw myself walking down the streets of Tokyo at night. It was cold out and I think I was on my way back to the company. On the way, I could sense someone following me. I picked up my speed, but then eventually I turned into an alleyway where I thought I could lose him, but I ended up in a dead end . . . Oh god . . . no . . . not this memory! I remember all too well that look on his face as he grinned at me and moved closer to me. I tried to use my powers to scare him off, but I couldn't . . . I tried and tried, but eventually he pinned me down hard and all I could feel was fear inside me. He leaned closer to me as I turned my head away, and heard him whisper in my ear those words that haunted me . . .
"Shhh . . . It's going to be alright and you know why?" He whispered as he traced his finger on my cheek and gave a small laugh.
"Because no one will hear you scream . . ." He grinned.
"AHHHHHHH!" I screamed and fell back out of my seat.
"Kimiko!" Master Fung exclaimed trying to help me, but I only backed away.
"No . . . please . . . don't touch me . . ." I cried as tears poured from my face and shook with fear . . ."
I hugged myself tightly and didn't look at Master Fung as I looked weak and pathetic. I was so scared and seeing that memory . . . It only made things worse for me again . . . I thought I could have locked that part of my life away, but it keeps coming back. All that pain and suffering I went through that night . . . I didn't want to remember . . .!
"Kimiko . . ." Master Fung spoke as I looked up to him and he lead me a hand.
"You have been through a lot young monk . . . I believe now it is time for you to rest for today." He replied with a sincere smile.
I slowly nodded and took his hand as he helped me up and guided me to my old room. I had a lot of memories in here. I looked back and saw all the guys now in the little dining room and I saw Raimundo glance at me, but I quickly looked away and closed my bedroom door and slowly slid down to the floor. I could feel the tears slowly fall from my eyes as I covered them from my hands. No . . . no . . . I have to be strong . . . I can't show them how weak I have become . . .
Raimundo's POV
Two weeks has gone by now and it's been a surprising event as we all got to reunite two week ago. However, the question for all of us is how long will this all last with us being together. I've thought a lot about it since the first day I arrive and even phoned my brother's about it, but they've encouraged me to do whatever my heart tells me too and that they'll be there waiting for me whenever I want to visit. I truly want to stay at the Xiaolin Temple's but . . . I've also got a life back home waiting for me . . .
Once I made it to the dining room I could see Clay and Omi already eating and talking, but no Kimiko. I looked around, but I couldn't find her. I noticed lately she isn't usually around us anymore like she used to back then, as she seems more distant.
"Hey guys where's Kim?" I asked.
"I believe she is with Master Fung and having a private training session." Omi explained.
"Private training session?" I questioned.
"Not sure what it's about, but I'm sure everything will be fine partner. Kimiko is one tough little lady and she can handle herself." Clay responded.
I nodded to them and joined them for breakfast, but I still couldn't stop thinking about Kimiko. I noticed about two weeks ago on the first day I saw her and Master Fung walk toward her old room she looked my way, but then quickly turned away and went straight into her room. I was a little concerned, but maybe I'm just over thinking it. After breakfast the guys and I decided to do a little training together again, as it has been a while since I last fully used my powers. It felt good to be able to control the wind again.
"It's been a long time since, I last used my powers feller and I have got to say it's been way to long." Clay grinned as he used his earth power again.
"The feelings mutual," I replied using my wind powers along with Omi as we all practiced some more.
Suddenly I heard someone clapping and we turned to see Kimiko sitting down watching us as we practiced with a small smile on her face. I walked over to her and noticed how her hair was down and how she wore a red summer dress. She looked beautiful . . .
"How about it fire girl? You think you can top us?" I smirked and she grinned at me and gave a small laugh.
"Of course I can, but I think I'll save you all the embarrassment and let you all off easy." She replied grinning.
"Is that a challenge?" Omi questioned, but then her expression changed a little as she stood up and dusted herself off.
"No, besides I actually am pretty tired of training . . . I've been training all morning with Master Fung . . . I think I'll go inside and rest up a bit." She said about to leave, until I spoke on impulse.
"I'll go with you!" I exclaimed as she turned around surprised, but then gave a warm smile and nodded to me.
"Smooth Raimundo," Clay said loud enough so I'd only hear, but I just ignored him and went inside with Kimiko.
We went to the dining room area where got some tea and food and just sat for a while in silence. I haven't really had any time to talk to Kimiko much, since I barely see her around. She always seems so distant from us and spends all her time training with Master Fung which none of us no why she trains alone. I watched as she sipped her tea quietly and noticed her expression wasn't as happy as before, but maybe a little bit of sadness and fear? I watched as she held the cup in her hand tightly.
"Kimiko is everything alright?" I asked her and suddenly she blinked and released her grip of her cup and looked at me and put on a fake smile.
"Of course! I'm just . . . overwhelmed I guess you can say . . . I never thought I'd actually see you guys again . . ." She replied with a small smile and then then turned away from me.
"So much has changed over the past three years and to be reunited like this again . . . It just seems like a dream. When I wake up every morning, I still sometimes can't believe I'm actually back at the Temple again. I know it sounds a little weird, but I really missed this place and everyone . . ." She explained.
Without even realizing it, I reached over to her hand and laid mine on top of it surprising her as she looked at me with those blue eyes. I gave her the best smile I could and then spoke.
"It's not weird at all, in fact I'm pretty positive we all feel the same way. Trust me . . ." I reassured her and she smiled then spoke again.
"You know, you look like the same Raimundo from three years ago, but you sure don't really act like yourself anymore. You seem a little more mature." She grinned and I gave a small laugh.
"We all had to grow up sometime right Kim? I mean we can't always live in the past right? We just have to keep moving forward."
Suddenly her eyes widen and I saw that same look in her eyes like before. Sadness and fear, but she quickly brushed it off and spoke again to me.
"You're right, but sometimes it's hard to forget your past . . . no matter how much you want." She spoke surprising me as I looked at her confused and then she suddenly noticed my reaction and quickly spoke.
"Anyways, what about you?" She asked.
"What about me?" I replied.
"Well I haven't really gotten the chance to really catch up with you. I mean I told you a little about my life the past three years . . . So what about you Raimundo? How was your life like after you know . . . with your mother and all . . .?"
"Oh . . . that . . ."
I didn't speak for a while, as I truly didn't want to talk about it . . . Life was hard for me and my brothers and sisters. I was only 17 years old when my mother had died and it was the hardest year of my life as I got into a lot of trouble and did things I regretted. Thinking about it now only made me feel angry and worse about myself.
"Look Kimiko I don't want to be rude, but I really don't want to talk about my past . . . It's like you said "The past is the past" and it's like I said "We can't live in the past, we just have to keep moving forward". What happened to me back then after my mother's death is just something I don't want to bring up . . . It was really complicated back then and there was no one at the time that could help me." I explained to her.
Kimiko's POV
"Why didn't you call us? We would have been there for you." I explained to him, but he just shook his head.
"I needed to deal with my mother's death alone . . . I didn't want anyone to worry for me . . ." He replied sipping his tea as I spoke.
"Still . . . it must have been lonely . . ."
"Yeah well you get used to it . . ."
"Why didn't you at least tell us about your mother? I mean I only found about her yesterday from you . . . why not tell me before?"
"Well we haven't exactly kept in touch with all of you guys "busy" and all."
As he said that, I felt a little upset about that last remark he made. Raimundo had no idea what we we're going through, especially with me back then. I shuddered at the thought of it . . .
"Well it's not like we had a choice Rai, I mean Clay had his dad's ranch to take care of, Omi was busy training and fighting evil, and I had to save my father's company from going bankrupt. I mean it's not like you tried to keep in touch with us either." I stated and he now looked at me a little upset as well.
"What's that supposed to mean?" He questioned and he looked a little mad now.
"Well I mean the last time we ever spoke was before your mother's death and it was after her death, that you cut all ties with us. I mean I've tried reaching you, but you never replied back to my calls or emails and eventually I just stopped trying."
"Oh so now it's my fault, I haven't been keeping in touch."
"I'm not saying that Raimundo . . .! God we used to be such great friends! I mean we used to tell each other everything and now . . . it's like we're complete strangers . . ." I explained, but he still looked a little pissed.
"Well forgive me for trying to deal with my own mother's death and not responding to you as your call or email was so important then my own mother's death."
"That's not what I meant!" I exclaimed.
"Whatever let's just drop it, besides I already said I didn't even want to talk about it so just leave it at that."
Ok now I was seriously pissed off at the last comment he made. I got up from my seat in disbelief and was about to walk away, until I turned back to him and gave him a piece of my mind.
"Look I'm sorry for bringing up this whole conversation, but all I was trying to do was catch up with an old friend. However, now I see you're not the same Raimundo I once knew anymore . . . You've changed . . .!" I exclaimed and he only looked at me with those green eyes of his looking still mad.
"Well it's not like you haven't changed either Kimiko! I mean you're always so distant now from all of us. You haven't really made the effort to talk to anyone of us the past two weeks." He exclaimed back standing up from his seat.
"Well I've been training a lot with Master Fung and it's been very tiring."
"And what Omi, Clay, and I haven't been training either!? What exactly are you training for, that makes you more tried then us!?" Raimundo questioned and I walked over to him, until we were face to face and spoke to him.
"Nothing you need to know . . .! You have your secrets and I have mine. The truth is your right I've changed. You don't know me anymore, just like I don't know you . . .!" I replied and he stared down at me still with those same eyes of his, but I soften mine a little as I spoke.
"The only thing I know about you is that you had a choice to change and that I didn't. So I'm sorry if I seemed so distant from you all, but I can't be the same person I once was anymore . . . no matter how much I want to be . . ." I spoke sadly.
I noticed Raimundo's eyes soften a little bit and saw a hit of sadness within him. I turned away from him and left the room with that last comment and went to my room. I laid on my bed again and sighed deeply and covered my eyes with my hands. I never wanted this to happen . . . Maybe I shouldn't have come back . . . Maybe I should just go back to Tokyo . . . No, I can't go back . . . That place holds a memory that can never be forgotten and can never be taken back. . .