Chapter Five- This Wasn't Family

Of course Kaon had met her mother at one of the Divine's meetings. If she had ever bothered to stick around at said meetings, she probably could have seen this coming. As it was, the raven haired girl preferred to be anti-social. She had already learned what it was like to have Divine friends. She hated the whole lot of them. Back stabbers and gossip hens…she had not time for them.

Kagome shut herself down as she tuned out the older man as he ranted and raved. He was even worse than her mother. Noticing this, Kaon yelled even louder. When that didn't get a response, he did something she had never expected him to do…he back handed her. She would have been less shocked if someone had poured a bucket of ice over her head.

"You listen to me you ungrateful little brat! I am the head of this household, which mean you listen and respect me! And when I talk to you, you look me in the eye!"

Kagome dug her nails into the palm of her hand. She really wanted to kill this man and she hated that there were tears in her eyes when she had promised herself that she wouldn't cry anymore…especially in front of him.

"Oh what? Are you going to cry now? Are you going to cry like a little baby?"

"Fuck off", Kagome mumbled under her breath as she left the room. She wasn't going to stick around for this. Climbing up the stairs, her body tensed as he laughed behind her back. Whatever. She really just didn't care anymore.

Slamming her bedroom door, the young miko made sure it was locked before turning on her computer. She hoped Sesshomaru was on. These past couple of months of being able to talk to him had really saved her. He was her only friend.

She could feel herself crumble as she looked at her friend's list. He wasn't on. Kagome inhaled shakily. She needed to calm down. She needed to be in control of this. Bringing up her music player, the raven haired girl brought up her favorite playlist. Music always helped with her nerves.

'And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am'

Kagome logged onto her blog. She could also type while she waited for him to get on. She really hoped he would be on tonight. She stared at a blank screen. What would she type? She needed to clear her mind first. Closing her eyes, the little miko listened to the lyrics of the song, singing quietly to herself.

'And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am'

Feeling a little better, Kagome felt ready to type. Music had always been good inspiration. It cleared her mind and allowed her to take a good look at the thoughts floating around in her head.

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Kagome was almost done with her poem when Sesshomaru got online. Clicking on his name, she instantly sent him a message.

TaintedMiko- i was hoping you'd be on!

Taiyoukai- are you ok? is something the matter?

TaintedMiko- its fine. now that you're on.

Taiyoukai- ok…what have you been up to?

TaintedMiko- just updating my blog. almost done.

Taiyoukai- am I interrupting then?

TaintedMiko- no it just needs a couple more line and then i'm done. no biggy.

TaintedMiko- what about you? What have you been up to?

Taiyoukai- homework. I can't wait to graduate this year. i can't stand high school. There's just too much drama and immaturity.

TaintedMiko- i like school lol. its like vacation time for me.

Taiyoukai- so do I get to see this entry when you're done?

TaintedMiko- yeah, ill send it to you in a link when im done.

Taiyoukai- ya know, if you need some cheering up, we can always go into random chatrooms and shout out dane cook jokes lol.

TaintedMiko- NO GRANPA! GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME! NANA IS A CHEATING WHORE!

Taiyoukai- AND I SHOULD CUT YOUR HEAD OFF WITH THIS LITTLE DOGGY! Lol so want to?

TaintedMiko- ya sure, gimme a sec, im posting the blog now.

Taiyoukai- k

Kagome stilled at the sound of her door knob turning. When it didn't budge, her mother knocked. "I need to speak with you Kagome. Open this door."

TaintedMiko- brb!

Quickly clicking out of everything, the raven haired girl shut down her computer. Letting out a sigh, she opened the door.

Her mother walked in, looking around the room. "Why do you lock it?"

"For privacy obviously," Kagome responded tonelessly.

"Don't get sassy with me. I came in here to let you know that you are being grounded. No phone, no friends and no computer," her mother paused to examine her face, "you'll have to put some make up on that when you go to school."

Kagome jerked her face away from the older woman. "That asshole bruises my face and that's all you have to say about it?"

"It's your fault for not listening."

If looks could kill, the person who claimed to be her mother would be dead right now. Kagome took a menacing step towards her mom. "Get out now."

Her mother took a nervous step back, surprise showing on her face. "You know, lately I really don't know who you are anymore." Hastily, she left the room. It was the first time she ever felt fear towards her daughter.

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Sesshomaru logged into the blog site Kagome used, while he waited for her to get back on. The dilemma he was in right now annoyed him to no end. He really wanted to tell Kagome how he felt about her. He was ready to be more than just friends. She had told him once though in one of their earlier conversations that she didn't think much of internet boyfriends. Those words were the only thing keeping him back from saying what was on his mind.

The silver haired boy typed in her username and then read over her latest blog. He would figure this out somehow.

Stars of Darkness

Little star
In the palm of my hand
Shattered
The sharp edges poking through
Under my skin
As I close my hand
Tighter
Let it cut
Let it scar
It taints
These little shards
Poison in the veins
Unraveling these emotions
Shattered
Let it cut
Cut cut cut
Underneath the skin

This was another dilemma. Sesshomaru wasn't really sure how to help Kagome out with her home situation. If she wasn't considered under-age, he could just whisk her away from that place. What was he supposed to do? Her blogs were getting more depressing and erratic.

He had such a strong desire to see her and make sure she was okay. Was that possible? Could he visit her somehow?