A/N- I didn't realize how many people were reading this fic until I checked my Hotmail. I was surprised at how many emails I had saying this fic was being followed or favored. Thanks for reading!
Chapter Eight- Kagome's Blog
InuTaisho scrolled through the blog entries to try and find where they actually began. There was a lot. Most of them looked to be like poetry. None of the entries were long. The old youkai settled down as he began to read one of her earlier posts.
Feb. 17th
These Roots were Cut long Ago
mood: tired
music: Sleeping with Sirens
I'm not grounded at all...where did my anchor go?
Feb.19th
Lets make it a House
I have all my walls in place. What about a ceiling? For the extra security /3
Feb.27th
Shinjitsu
mood: anxious
I was right...I shouldn't be here.
"What's the matter, dear?" Izayoi asked her husband. "Your brows are all furrowed together with such a look on your face. What is it that you are reading?"
"I am actually trying to help Sesshomaru with something. This blog belongs to one of his friends. I'm not sure really what advice to give him since he will not allow me any details so I'm reading this blog in hopes of having a little light shed on this situation."
"Sesshomaru actually asked for your help," the woman asked in surprise.
"Yes; which just goes to show how much he is concerned for his friend. Would you be a dove and get me a cup of tea?"
"Of course my darling. I'll be right back."
InuTaisho scrolled past February and March and on into April as he continued his reading.
April 13th
Don't you see this big smile on my face?
Ignore the crimson tears
That leave these stains behind
Ignore the empty look in my eyes
That makes you wonder if everything is alright
Cuz I'm smiling, aren't I?
I'm smiling...so really its all just fine...
April 22nd
Behind Bars
It's a thorn in my heart
A pain I can't resist
Its deep within my soul
Didn't you know, I'm a masochist?
I cry to feel the shame
I bleed to know I'm sane
Underneath the calm
Hides years of pent up rage
Trapped inside…
My very own cage
April 29th
why must such things cloud my thoughts and vision?
why is it sometimes...all i can see is the red...
May 1st
Puppet Master Poem
Current mood:cynical
Always telling the truth
Even when I lie
Deep down inside
You can see it in my eyes
Nothing's hidden from you
You choose to ignore
You choose to pretend
Acting so ignorant
Like there isn't any pain
My will crushed beneath your fingers
Too much of a strain
You manuvear me around
Like a puppet stuck with strings
May 12th
At Peace, Only When You Sleep
Current mood:cold
Darkness fills the sky
The best kind of time
When I get to close my eyes
And pretend today never happened
Pretend that this isn't my life
Leave my miseries behind
I'll cry softly
Falling soundly to sleep
And maybe I'll dream
Cuz anything is better than this reality
June 25th
Unanswered Prayers-
I tried to find God
But I guess he don't care
He was never there
Where was he when I was scared?
Tears running down my face
My heart a crumpled mess
Groping around for the light
A light that will never shine
These aren't mere lines of disrespect
Cutting down the one from above
But whatever happened to a God of love?
InuTaisho scrolled down further to a more recent entry. Her posts, though poetic, were definitely unpleasant to read. How did Sesshomaru come across such a broken soul?
Sept 22nd
Where I belong-
A distant echo in my mind
Always upon my heart
Near and far at the same time
I sit numb and alone
As I count the miles
The miles to where love lies
To the only place I could feel at home
The only place
That could hold my heart
InuTaisho sat back from a moment. Was this Kagome writing about his Sesshomaru? Had his son lied about them only being friends? There was only one other entry after that one. She had updated her blog today. Scrolling down a little, he read over it. A chill ran down his spine.
"Sorry I took a moment. I had biscuits in the oven that had to come out. I brought some for you with your tea..." Izayoi quickly put the plate down. "What is the matter? You are worrying me with such a look. You've gone very pale, dear!"
"Where is Sesshomaru? I must speak with him right away."
"He's at kendo right now. Won't you tell me what's wrong?"
"I fear the person that our eldest son seems to treasure is…in a way like InuKimi."
Izayoi put a gentle hand on her husband's shoulder. "Why do you think such things?"
"It had crossed my mind more than once while scrolling through her blog…the last entry and her most recent one at that however, has only confirmed such thoughts." He clicked off of the blog. "I would rather you did not read it. My love, I am going to need your help in the future but right now what I need is for you to get Inuyasha for me. He is at least at home?"
"Yes, he is outside with Kikyou. He wanted to show her the gardens. To impress her I suppose. Shall I entertain her then while he speaks with you?"
"If you could, I would appreciate it. I must speak to her as well actually, once I am done with Inuyasha."
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Kikyou smiled nervously at Inuyasha's mother as they had tea in the reception room. She had only visited her boyfriend's home a few times but this was the first time she was meeting his parents and InuTaisho would be summoning her after he spoke to Inuyasha…what could this be about?
The women were not kept long before a sullen looking hanyou appeared. "Dad's waiting in the library. He wants to speak to you alone so I'll be waiting here. You remember where the library is, right?"
"At the end of the hallway, on the right," Kikyou nodded as she got up to go greet the great dog youkai.
InuTaisho gave her a weary smile upon her entrance. "I am sorry to bother you during your visit with my son."
"Oh not at all," Kikyou replied nervously.
"Inuyasha has spoken very highly of you," the dog demon said before pausing.
The dark haired girl blushed, looking down at the floor.
"He says you are a very skilled miko and I just so happen to be in need of a miko's assistance. Kikyou…will you please assist me and my family in saving a young miko from the states? I do not ask this lightly. This miko seems to be very important to my eldest son."
Kikyou didn't know what she had been expecting but it certainly wasn't this! "Um…how would I insist in helping this miko?"
"Well, have you heard of the Divine's Organization?"
The young miko's face colored in embarrassment. Though she did not associate herself with such a group, her best friend Tsubaki did belong to it. It was why said "friend" strongly disapproved of Kikyou's relationship to a hanyou.
"Um..I have a friend that belongs to the Divine's Organization…but my views are very much different from her own," Kikyou added nervously.
InuTaisho nodded. "Do not worry; I am not here to question your loyalty to my son. I merely ask because I want you to be able to mirror someone who belongs to that organization. The fact that you have a friend from it will be quite helpful to you."
"I'm not sure I understand…sir… how acting like a Purist will help this other miko?"
"During my earlier years as a psychiatrist, I had a patient that was an ex-purist. In order to understand some of the things he was going through, I did a lot of research on the Divine's Organization. It is not uncommon for young purists to travel and stay with other families. These new replacements normally include countries that have very small numbers in purists and need the extra help….like say Japan?"
Kikyou's eyes lit up in understanding. "So this other miko must come to Japan to help spread the good news and rally up the numbers?"
InuTaisho let out a low chuckle. "Well yes, something like that."
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Kagome took her time in putting on her miko robes. She really didn't care if they were late to the meeting. The Divine Organization had meetings three times a week. Every Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday. Each one lasted about two hours. Not only did she have to endure these boring meeting in the most uncomfortable seats but the Purists also had what they called "service time", where they were required to teach others of the evil of youkai and hand out magazines on it. Kagome tried to avoid that portion of it as much as possible.
"Kagome hurry up! We are going to be late! You know how much I can't stand having to sit in the back!" Her mother yelled from downstairs.
The raven haired miko let out a long sigh. She did not feel like going to a boring meeting where some high and mighty pompous fool was just going to tell her how they have to purify all the demons and be nothing less than perfect or Kami was going to swoop down and rain down armageddon on them all and blah blah blah blah.
Though the worst part lately was now she was no longer allowed to leave before her so called family did because they had to look the loving family part. Now she was forced to stay back with them and "socialize" with the other loony bins who believed in all this bull crap.
Hojou was sure to be there. He was always the first person by her side once the meeting ended. He was so annoying. Uggh, tonight was going to be a long one. She didn't even get a chance to chat with Sesshomaru today when she had been able to sneak on and update her blog.
She scratched at her arms in annoyance. They were both sore and itchy. Having to wear heavy robes like these ones weren't helping the matter either. She tried to think of happier things. Maybe Sesshomaru would be on tonight by the time she got back for this cursed meeting.
Yes, that was a nice thought. She would hold on to that.