They Took It Away From Me:
"Alright, so if they've been generally known as Sea Monsters since the dawn of time, then maybe dehydration would be bad for them?"
Toni came back into the living room with a cup of coffee in each hand listening intently to her dad's new theory. "Yeah… Maybe keeping them away from water and using something to expedite the dehydration process is the key. What? What's so funny about my theory Angel?"
The look on her dad's face almost made her laugh harder because he looked so innocent and genuinely hurt by her reaction. "I'm sorry dad, really I am. It's great that you're trying to think outside the box, but treating them strictly like Sea Monsters might be looking at their origins a little too literally, you know?"
"Right, right," he agreed with a soft nod. "So what did Bobby have to say?"
"Well he's been working for practically the last twenty four hours straight trying to find something that could incapacitate them. So far beheading them seems to do the trick, but it doesn't actually kill them." Her dad's eyes widened and Toni couldn't help but laugh nervously. "Yeah, somehow the Leviathan reattached its head to its body even though it was chained to a chair. The more I hear about these things, the creepier they seem."
"Decapitation doesn't kill them?" Her dad clarified in stunned disbelief.
"No but it does seem to stop them so long as you keep the head separated from the body."
"Okay," her dad started as a thought-filled scowl settled onto his face. "But how do you get close enough to them to chop their heads off? I mean it isn't like you or the boys can travel around with a nine hundred year old witch to bind them for you or to ask them to sit still so you can do the deed."
"Well lucky for us Bobby's all over that too. He found something that burns them like Holy Water burns demons. It's something called…." She pulled out a piece of paper from her jeans pocked and read, "Sodium borate… Apparently…"
"Industrial cleaner? These things come out of Purgatory, can shape shift at the blink of an eye, they laugh off being shot, they don't react to any known metals, they don't actually die when you cut their heads off their bodies, but they melt if you give them a bath in Borax?"
Toni mirrored the humorous smile on her dad's face, replying with a shrug, "When you say it like that it doesn't sound very impressive, but apparently it was how Sam and Dean were able to take out their clones."
"They… Oh well good… Okay… Well that's definitely good to hear…" The Colonel let his focus wander from their conversation back to the book in his lap, so Toni let the rest of her commentary remain unsaid. After only a few breaths, her dad slammed his book closed, turned to her with a frantic look on his face and exclaimed, "Wait! Does that…?"
Toni placed a gentle hand on his arm saying, "Yes it does dad… The FBI thinks that they're both dead… Again. Just like they did after that whole ordeal in Monument, Colorado."
"Oh, right. They've had practice at being dead already. And they have their new IDs… Right, so they have it all figured out… Oh… Of course they do."
Her dad continued to mumble to himself as he went back to his research, so Toni didn't bother to disturb him when she left the room to retrieve her phone. Since Sam's most recent 'passing', she had spoken to Bobby more than once, but she had yet to hear anything from her boyfriend. Since things had been fairly hectic and chaotic (to say the least) on his end, what with getting arrested and being accused of being psychotic mass murderer, she was willing to let his tardiness in calling her slide. But that sentiment didn't mean that she was going to let him off the hook completely Scot free and without a generous amount of good natured teasing.
"Well… Well… Well… Look who finally…" Toni abruptly cut herself off when she heard Sam softly sniffle in a breath and completely dropped her teasing tone as she asked, "Sam? What's happened? Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine… I guess," Sam replied almost timidly. "But… Uhh… Do you think…? I mean… Would you maybe be able to come and pick me up? I'm sort of stuck here."
"Pick you… You're…? Umm… You're alone right now?" Toni questioned while covering her fear with her genuine confusion.
"Yeah… Dean and I… We decided… Well after everything that's happened, we… I… Well I thought it might be high time for you and me to spend some time together before the shit really hits the fan again. I mean… We… You and I haven't really been able to spend more than a few hours alone since…"
"Mississippi," Toni whispered. After she heard herself, she quickly recovered, "Shit… I guess that doesn't actually count since you… Oh God I didn't mean to bring up… Fuck… Okay I'll try again. Yeah, it's been a while… That's true. But… Are you sure now I a good time for any type of sabbatical with me?"
Sam let out a soft, sardonic laugh before replying, "Well I don't really foresee things getting any easier on us anytime soon. Plus Dean's already left me here… Stranded… Alone… In the cold… Down by the river…"
"Alright… Alright. Where are you little Orphan Annie?" Toni questioned through a soft chuckle.
"Just outside of Ankeny, Iowa. It's about a…"
"Five hour drive from here… I looked it up when you were in jail," Toni interrupted with an embarrassed tone when Sam softly replied "Of course you did." She was already gathering up her jacket, wallet and keys then added, "I should be able to get there in about four."
"Toni I'm good to wait… You don't have to get a speeding ticket or anything getting here."
"Moi? Get a speeding ticket? Never Sam," she replied with a mock offended voice. "Besides, getting pulled over would just delay me, so that would be counterproductive. I'll see you in a bit, just sit tight."
The Colonel caught the very end of Toni's conversation, but before he could question her about what was happening she called out, "Hey dad? Uhh… How would you feel about entertaining for a couple of days?" Her father's eyes widened in anticipation as he sat up straighter in his recliner in response to her question. "Oh… And it'll just be Sam… Umm if that's okay with you. If not, I totally understand and we can go somewhere else… Honestly I understand."
"Don't you dare think of staying anywhere but here with Sam, Antonia Wayne McNamara! You've already told both Winchesters that they're welcome here any time and you will not make us look like a couple of Welchers!" He was standing now and put his hands on his hips as he evoked his well-used fatherly tone that she had gotten used to hearing during her youth. "And what have I said to earn that smirk on your face young lady?"
Toni bit her lip so hard that it turned white in an effort to keep from laughing out loud as she stepped closer to him. Before speaking she leaned up to kiss her dad's cheek. "Sorry Colonel but it's been so long since you've scolded me by using my full name that I had forgotten that mom and I never did ever get around to changing my middle name."
The Colonel blushed then focused his attention on his feet as he meekly said, "Right… But in my defense, he was a very…"
"Well respected General during the Revolutionary War," Toni finished for him as she hugged him tightly. "And I'm still unbelievably honored to be his namesake and I'm really sorry that it still makes me giggle to hear you call my 'Antonia Wayne'."
He relaxed in her arms and allowed himself to chuckle as he said, "It' alright Toni… I… I guess I understand the smiling now."
Toni leaned back and patted his cheek softly with a bright smile on her face. "I love you so much dad. But…" She held up her wrist to how him her watch. "I promised Sam that I would get there sooner than later so I should hit the road."
"Of course you should. Now you drive safe and make sure to check in with me if you get a chance," he instructed as he led her by the hand to the front door. He held her by the cheeks and placed a determined kiss on her forehead. "And I love you too Angel."
After navigating through a couple of standard pockets of congested traffic, Toni was able to make as good of time as she had originally hoped. She hadn't been above using her contacts with her brothers' military friends turned State patrol officers to learn the habits of the various highway patrol departments in the category of the ideal areas to set up a 'speed trap'. To date she had been able to use that knowledge to avoid not only getting a speeding ticket but to also avoid ever being pulled over and having to use her feminine wiles to talk her way out of a ticket in order to just get a stern warning. Luckily for her this trip was no exception and she made it to Ankeny in record time. She decided to refill her tank before picking Sam up and used that time to call him to get directions to his exact location and to call her dad to let him know that she had made it there safe.
It didn't take much effort to find Sam seated on a bench on the boardwalk with his elbows resting on his knees and his head cradled in his hands. Even after she had parked her truck he still hadn't seemed to have moved a muscle, so she decided that she would have a little fun at his expense.
"Hey handsome! I'll give you five hundred bucks, cash, for the whole night," she called out playfully as she got closer to his slumped over figure.
When Sam looked up at her, Toni immediately noticed that he looked like he was on the verge of tears or that he might have already had a bout of tears. Either way, the look in his eyes made her stomach drop into her toes and made her quicken her pace to get to him to try to erase that look from their memory. Even before she got close enough to see how puffy and blood shot his eyes were, Toni knew that spending some quality time with her wasn't the actual reason for the Winchester brothers splitting up right now, so she decided to completely change her tactic.
"Hey… Hey… Sam, I'm here," Toni sympathetically stated as she gently gripped Sam's face in her hands before kissing him softly.
He instantly wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled Toni close enough to him so that he could rest his cheek against her stomach. Toni froze in her spot for a second because she wasn't used to being the person that someone would call on for emotional support in their time of need. She had always been the girl that was called in as the 'clean-up crew' or a 'fun distraction' and she felt comfortable in those roles, but 'shoulder to cry on' wasn't something that she had been called on to be often, if at all. But right now she felt like she was more than ready to be a strong pillar of support for Sam.
She didn't know what she could say to him to ease his pain, especially since she didn't know the actual cause of it, so she just shifted her arms so that they were wrapped comfortingly around his broad shoulders and press him impossibly closer to her body.
"Take your time Sam," she whispered against his hair. "There's no rush, so just take your time, okay?"
Sam shuddered softly then pushed back against Toni's hipbones so that he could look up at her face as he said, "Th-thanks for coming to get me."
Toni's eyebrows unconsciously knitted together into an annoyed frown as she ran her fingers through his hair replying, "Sam… You don't… Sam, I'm just glad that you call me." She easily slipped onto Sam's lap and crossed her ankles behind his back when he shifted forward slightly on the bench seat. Toni's fingers continued to massage Sam's scalp as she kissed his temple and then placed her lips by his ear whispering, "I've really… REALLY missed you. We should have planned some time off together a hell of a lot sooner than now."
Toni sat back a bit to show Sam her mischievously quirked eyebrow before she covered his mouth with hers. Even though Sam was momentarily stunned, he quickly matched her pace until they both were completely breathless. Toni continued to attack Sam's lips even though her breaths were coming in as short, uncomfortable pants between her embraces. After Sam finally managed to dislocate his lips from Toni's, she still continued to kiss his face and neck as she gently grinded herself against his lap.
"Toni?" He protested softly without actually trying to actually stop her movements. Toni bit lightly on a sensitive spot behind Sam's ear causing his next statement to come out sounding breathier than he had thought that it would. "Toni… I thought you weren't much of an exhibitionist."
"I'm not," she replied with a satisfied smirk as she made a show of checking over each of her shoulders. "But since this place is virtually deserted, I thought that we could just considerate an overly-exuberant display of PDA on my part. No harm, no foul."
Sam chuckled and genuinely smiled for the first time since Toni had seen him this time round, she placed a soft kiss on his lips then said, "There… A smile. That's all that I was hoping for."
He hugged her close saying into her chest, "I'm sorry… It's just that…"
Sam might have finished his statement, but she wasn't able to hear it. All that she could focus on was Sam's shuddering again before he fell completely silent. Toni petted the back of Sam's head then slowly crawled off of his lap. Sam watched her with a sad frown and she couldn't help but kiss his lips again to try to reassure him.
"It's alright… You don't have to explain everything yet, but…" She paused to tug on Sam's hand to coax him into a standing position. "We should get going so that we don't get back to Madison too late."
Sam just nodded then picked up his bag and followed her silently down the walkway. When Sam went to the passenger side of the truck, Toni paused to watch for a moment and swallowed the offer she was going to make to let him drive at least part of the way. He loaded his bags into the area behind their seats and Toni actually had enough presence of mind to move to the driver side of the truck before Sam could turn and catch her watching him because she knew she would never be able to hide the sad look that she knew would be on her face.
They passed the next five hours in her truck in a comfortable silence with the music of her five disc stacker filling the space that their words would have normally filled. Sam spent the vast majority of the ride staring out of the passenger side window and every so often Toni caught a glimpse of his reflection, but forced herself to continue to stay silent to give him space. Something big was happening between him and his brother and she really needed to get Sam to confide in her, but she was more than willing to give him time in order for him to do so. Nearing the end of their journey, Sam had slouched down in his seat, crossed his arms over his chest and looked like he had fallen asleep so Toni just tried to focus on the road and ignore the nervous feeling in her stomach that accompanied the thought of her father meeting her boyfriend for the first time in person. She knew that they did actually get along alright because they had talked on the phone, at length, many times, but she still couldn't shake the feeling that their meeting in the flesh seemed to be more nerve wracking for her than she had originally anticipated it would.
Sam still appeared to be sleeping when Toni parked her truck and cut the engine in front of her father's townhouse complex. She didn't want to disturb him just yet, so she slipped out of her truck and unloaded his bags as quietly as she could. Once she had them loaded onto her shoulder and had closed her door, she stared at the door handle while she mentally prepared herself for the next inevitable step. She knew she had to keep her emotions in check so that she could keep her face as soft and as open as she could so that Sam knew that she was prepared to give him whatever he needed from her.
"Hey… Are we here already?" Sam called out from his side of the truck before closing his door.
Toni walked around to where he was now standing beside the truck and smiled sheepishly while he reclaimed all but one of his bags. "Yep… This is it… Sorry I… I thought that you were sleeping."
"I did for a bit," he replied as he slipped his hand into hers as they started towards the townhouse's front door. Before they got too close to it, Sam stopped and turned Toni by the shoulders so that she was facing him and asked, "Toni? Are you okay?"
She gave him an uneasy smile and rubbed the moistened palm of her hand that he had been holding on her pant leg. "Yeah, I'm alright… I guess I'm just a little nervous."
"Nervous?" He questioned with a soft laugh. "Why are you nervous?"
"I've… Umm… Well… I've never brought a guy home to meet my parents... Or my dad before," she explained while staring at her feet.
"You're…?" Sam was visibly trying not to laugh when he tilted her chin up to force her to look at him. The look on her face caused him to drop any teasing comments that he might have said in exchange for a soft kiss on her lips and a quiet, "He and I have talked a few times you know, so I'm pretty sure that he doesn't hate me or anything."
Toni nodded then nearly whispered, "I know, but seeing you in person make you like more real or something and… And I really want you two to get along because… Because… Well you two are the most important people in my life and if you don't then…"
Sam leaned down to kiss her again. "I want that too, but in all honesty the only way we'll find out if we do is if I actually meet him in person, which means…"
"We have to go inside," Toni finished. "Alright… That does make sense. So, I guess here goes nothing."
Toni unlocked the door then took in a long deep breath before she turned the knob and pushed it open. Sam remained stationary to watch her body language and immediately started to regret having called her because this situation was starting to seem like it was going to be more awkward than he had originally anticipated. Toni paused again in the threshold of the townhouse, but she didn't have to turn to check if Sam was following because he had hurried up the stairs to catch up and he rested his chin on her shoulder to let her know that he was right there with her.
"Dad?" Toni called out as she stepped to one side and took Sam's left hand in her right. "Dad… We're here."
The Colonel stepped into the hallway slowly while practically wringing his hands together. Before he turned to face the two of them, he took in the briefest, nearly imperceptible bracing breath and then he was suddenly facing Toni and Sam with a bright smile on his face.
Toni pulled Sam a couple of steps forward then confidently said, "Dad I'd like to officially introduce you to Sam Winchester." The Colonel extended his right hand and as Sam gripped it Toni finished the introductions with a little less gusto. "Uhh… Sam this is my dad…"
"It's an honor to meet you Colonel McNamara," Sam stated with a firm handshake.
Toni's dad let out a tension easing chuckle replying, "Please Sam, I thought I had broken you of that, please just call me Tom."
The Colonel squeezed Sam's forearm with his other hand and didn't release his grip until Sam nodded and agreed, "Okay Tom… It's an honor to meet you, Sir."
The elder man smiled brilliantly a he said, "And it's an absolute pleasure to finally get to meet you in person too Sam. I was starting to think that my daughter was going to hide you and Dean away from me forever… Like I would embarrass her or something. Now why don't you two come on in, make yourselves comfortable and I'll scrounge us up something to eat because you must be hungry after that long drive."
Sam tried his best to hide his reaction, but both of the McNamaras caught the sad look that flashed through his eyes. "Alright, thank you Sir. I… I should probably get these out of our way," he stated with a mildly flat tone while pointing to his bags.
"Right. Umm… My room's just up the stairs and to the right," Toni explained as Sam nodded and started towards the stairs.
Toni turned back towards her dad who was mirroring her concerned look. "Angel? Is…? Did I…?"
"No, Dad it isn't anything that you said," she interrupted and then quickly pecked his cheek. "He hasn't told me about it yet, but I'm pretty sure that he will… Eventually… I swear it wasn't you Colonel, so try not to worry about it, okay?"
"He'll tell you Angel, I have absolute faith that he will," her dad replied with a soft smile. "Now, I'm going to head out and get some groceries to make up something special for our guest. Plus I thought that I should give you two some time to…"
"Dad!" Toni exclaimed as quietly as she could so that she wouldn't disturb Sam upstairs as she lightly slapped his arm when he started to trail off.
"What? I was going to say 'settle in'. What did you think I meant Toni?" He asked with wide eyed innocence.
Her cheeks had already started burning under a blush that got even darker as she replied, "Nothing Dad… I mean, yeah that's what I thought you were going to say. Thanks for taking care of dinner."
He flashed her a sympathetic smile then he turned he turned and walked towards the front door. Toni stayed in the kitchen by herself and didn't really remember actually walking up to her room until she was standing at her closed door. Her dad might have believed that Sam would tell Toni the truth, but Toni wasn't so easily convinced. But if she were to be completely honest with herself, she wasn't sure that she was ready to help him work through it all even if he did confide in her about the cause of his emotional turmoil.
Okay Toni, one step at a time. First you go inside and then whatever happens happens. You can't control it, especially from out here in the hall, so stop trying to skip ahead, she coached herself when she hesitated with her hand on the door knob.
She eased the door open slowly and forced herself to stay composed as she stepped inside of her bedroom. She found Sam in practically the exact same position that she had found him in earlier in the day. He raised his head when he heard her close the door and watch her as she approached him almost apprehensively.
"The pictures by the stairs… Your mom was beautiful," he commented when she stopped a few feet shy of being able to touch him. "You look a lot like her."
Toni smiled then whispered, "Thanks. Everyone says that, but I honestly don't see it."
Sam reached out a hand towards Toni as an invitation for her to come closer. They both stared at his out stretched hand for so long that Sam almost let it fall back to his lap. Toni finally grasped it and took the three steps she needed to so that she was standing in between his legs. Sam let go of her hand to wrap his arms around her waist and jerked her even closer to him so that it was easier for him to hug her.
"Toni, you are gorgeous," Sam asserted while he helped Toni to settle onto his lap. "I can't believe that you don't believe that."
She sat up a bit straighter with her legs wrapped around his waist so that she was eye level with Sam then kissed him slowly and deeply. "I do when I see that look in your eye Mr. Winchester."
"Good," he replied as he pulled her into another kiss.
Once their lips touched, Sam ran his hands up her back and tangled his fingers into her hair so that he could keep her face in the position that he wanted it. Toni couldn't keep any part of herself still so she started grinding against his lap and ran her hands over every inch of his body. Both of Sam's hands drifted back down to her waist and then he slipped them into her rear jeans' pockets. When he squeezed her butt cheeks through the denim, Toni moaned deep in her throat and froze momentarily in her spot.
"Toni," he breathlessly protested as he tried to catch her hands that were now feverishly fumbling to undo the buttons of his over shirt.
Toni smacked his hands away forcefully and continued her task as she looked him in the eye and said, "Dad's gone grocery shopping… We'll have the place to ourselves for at least an hour."
"Really?" He questioned as he helped her remove his over and under shirts.
The sight of Sam's bare chest caused Toni's breath to catch so she just nodded vigorously in response because her voice had failed her. Sam couldn't help but chuckle at how Toni seemed to be utterly fascinated with his tattoo because her eyes remained laser focused on it while her right index finger traced it with a feather light touch. She slowly raised her eyes to meet his as she continued to move her finger over the ink just above the swell of his well-defined left pectoral muscle with a soft leer on her face.
"The place is completely ours," Sam stated mostly to herself before he mashed his mouth onto Toni's.
While they continued to practically attack each other's mouths, Sam checked that Toni's legs were still wrapped around his waist. After that was confirmed, he then guided her arms up and around his neck. Since Toni hadn't been paying attention to anything but Sam's lips and tongue, she nearly fell to the floor when Sam stood up. He laughed into her mouth when he felt her squeeze her arms and legs around him because he knew that head had a firm, strong hold on her even if Toni hadn't been so sure. Toni nipped down hard on the inside of Sam's bottom lip in retaliation to his laughter while he carried her to the head of the bed as if she weighed nothing in his arms.
At his destination, Sam tried to toss Toni onto the bed, but she was clinging to him too tightly to allow him to complete such a maneuver. After trying more than once to unlatch Toni from his body, Sam finally realized that he was going to have to try a different approach to accomplish his goal. It was more than a little awkward, but Sam somehow managed to crawl onto the bed so that he could gently lay Toni's head on her pillow. Toni's pace quickened against Sam's lips as soon as she felt her back hit the mattress and she only released her death grip on him so that she could work at undoing his pants.
Sam eased away from Toni and sat back on his knees despite Toni letting out a low, protesting growl. Her hands fell, palms down, onto the bed as she stared up at him in utter disbelief that he was backing away. Sam put his hands over hers as he leaned in and kissed her softly.
"I bet that you can't keep your hands right here," Sam whispered huskily against her ear.
Toni huffed out an annoyed breath then replied, "Seriously Sam? This isn't the type of bedroom game I'm used to…"
He had lifted her shirt up and was kissing her stomach during her response and she could feel him starting to smile. When she was finished speaking, Sam raised his face up just enough so that he could look up over the length of her body to show her his mischievous smirk.
"Well if you don't think that you can," he teased with a shrug. "I guess we could try something else."
Sam eased back off of Toni's stomach and kept moving backwards until he was standing beside the bed. He watched her as he reached for his t-shirt while he awaited her reply. Toni glared at Sam and dramatically slammed her hands on the mattress saying, "You know that I can… So…? What do I get when I win this little bet of yours?"
Sam continued to smile, but he didn't say anything as he balled up his shirt and threw it towards the vicinity of his bag. Toni almost scolded him for looking so smug, but she held her tongue at the sight of him working his jeans off of his body and let them drop in a pile on the floor. Once he was down to just his boxers, Sam crawled back up the bed towards Toni where she was frozen in her place. He slowly unbuttoned her fly then tugged the zipper down without breaking severely direct eye contact with her. As he started to work her jeans off of her hips, Toni barely had the presence of mind to raise her buttocks up to help make Sam's job easier.
After slipping the legs of her jeans off Toni's feet, Sam tossed them haphazardly over his shoulder. Despite her best efforts not to, Toni cracked a smile then nearly giggled in nervous anticipation. Sam smiled satisfactorily as he bunched her t-shirt up to expose the skin of her abdomen with a hungry look in his eyes. He could see that her heartbeat was racing which was causing her breathing to speed up as well. He then bent down to kiss and nip at every inch of flesh that he exposed from pushing her shirt's hem up past her chest while trying not to show Toni his contentment because he knew it would tip the stakes out of his favor if she did see it.
Once he had her bra covered breasts unveiled, Sam struggled against Toni's strength to lift her arms so that he could completely remove her shirt. Toni's face maintained a stubborn scowl during Sam's efforts so he thought that he could complete this task if he found a way to distract her. He gently bit the sensitive skin between her breasts causing her to gasp in an excited breath before he moved up to claim her lips again.
"Toni?" He questioned against her mouth when her arms wouldn't move an inch, even with the efforts he made to distract her with his mouth.
She nearly head butted Sam as she shook her head and replied, "Uh uh uh… You aren't going to win that easily Winchester… Especially since you never told me what my prize will be when I win."
Sam suckled her throat as he unhooked her bra before slowly running his fingers up the lines of her ribs. He couldn't help but smile against the skin of her neck when she gasped and held her breath the moment that his hand slipped under the black cotton of her bra and cupped both of her breasts. His fingers continued to massage her flesh and then he gently bit her ear lobe causing her to shudder and hold her breath again.
"It'll be the same amazing prize that I get if I win," he whispered so lowly that Toni mostly just felt his words instead of hearing them.
Toni started to turn into complete putty under the palms of his hands as he began to groin against hers. Now that he had massaged all of the fight out of her, Sam easily ran his hands under her shirt and guided it up and off of her arms. Her top ended up as a messy cotton necklace under her chin and it was now Toni's turn to smile at Sam smugly. He wouldn't rise to the bait and instead kissed her gently to take that look off her face. She remained completely passive as Sam lifted her head off of her pillow so that he could work the shirt over her head. Toni did help him somewhat by slipping her bra off of her arms and threw it off one side of the bed.
The weight of Toni's head rested comfortably in the palm of Sam's hand while they just stared into each other's eyes. Sam let his free hand ghost down her side before he cupped one of her breasts so that he could dive down and engulfed it almost completely into his mouth.
"S-S-Sam," she stuttered breathlessly and letting her hands fall down onto the back of his head.
Sam then switched his attention to his other breast and Toni showed him her appreciation with a strained moan and an almost uncomfortable, painful grasp on Sam's hair. He nearly bit down on her tender flesh in retaliation, but suddenly she quickly released his hair and started massaging his scalp with a breathy "S-s-sorry" when she noticed what he had done.
After he slowly released her breast with a lingering lick across her nipple, Sam again kissed a spot between her breasts replying into her chest, "It's fine."
Sam then started to zigzag kisses down and across her torso and let his hands find hers so that he could guide them back to the bed. Toni had become completely compliant once again as Sam paid particular attention to a spot between her belly button and the waist of her boy-cut cotton briefs.
"S-S-Sam… Pleeeeease," she quietly pleaded after Sam hooked his thumbs under the legs of her underwear and stopped all of his movements. She fisted large handfuls of her comforter in frustration while she breathlessly begged, "Please… Please… Pleasepleasepleaseplease…"
Toni's reaction to his gentler pace was more than he had hoped for, so he slowed his hands as he worked his panties off of her body. She wanted to do nothing more than to grab Sam by the hair and pull him back up into a messy kiss, but Toni couldn't argue that the soft kisses he was placing on her inner right thigh weren't turning her on, so she tried to just relax and let her legs fall ever further apart as an invitation. When Sam reached her feet, Toni had expected him to stop there and then rejoin her, but he just kept shimmying down the bed until he was standing at the foot of it.
She raised her head off her pillow just enough so that she could see him at the end of her bed. Right now she wasn't fisting the comforter tightly in her hands as a sign of sexual frustration; she was gripping it tightly to gain the proper grounding she needed to look up at her boyfriend's towering height where he stood.
"Sa-a-a-am," she whimpered, not really sure what she was begging him for a she watched him twist her not so sexy panties in his hands.
He held up his right forefinger to his lips in an attempt to quiet her mind while simultaneously tossing her cotton briefs across his body towards the pile of Toni's clothes that he had created. Toni's head flopped back onto her pillow with a thud in, well she wasn't sure if it was in exasperation or desperation, so she immediately tried to stay strong and lift it up by the neck again. Much to her surprise (and delight) Sam had stripped off his boxers and Toni was immediately confronted with glaring evidence that this new pace had him beyond aroused as well. Sam's grin widened at how Toni unconsciously licked her lips and at the look of anticipation on his girlfriend's face as he gripped himself tightly at the base of his erection to showcase it as he started to climb back onto the bed.
Once he was kneeling on all fours above Toni's body, Sam dipped just his head down to catch her lips in another soft, lingering kiss. When Sam pulled his head back, he noticed that Toni still had her eyes closed. He allowed himself a few moments to marvel at the peaceful expression on her face and was so lost in the moment that he couldn't stop himself from reverently saying in a solemn voice, "You are so unbelievably beautiful."
Toni's opened her eyes slowly to look into Sam's eyes as she swallowed hard. For the briefest of moments she felt completely insecure about his adoration and she inadvertently let it show on her face and in her eyes. When Sam's smile started to morph into a sad, concerned grimace, Toni forced herself to regain control of her expression so that she could give him a teasing smile as she said, "Already naked here Winchester so you really don't have to feed me any lines to make this a sure thing."
Sam frowned at Toni's joke and opened his mouth to reply, but Toni stopped him with a firm grip on his buttocks, "Sam? Can we just get to the amazing sex now? Please?"
"Well… Since you asked so nicely," Sam commented against her mouth as he carefully lowered himself against the length of his body.
Toni helped Sam to gain access to her body by pulling her knees up towards her chest. She shivered in anticipation of what was to come next because she was sure that she could feel every inch of Sam's length as he slowly thrust forward. Once he was in as far as he could go, Toni wrapped her legs around his thighs to brace herself for keeping up to a vigorous round of sex. Sam had his torso raised up off of her for so long without any movement at all that the muscles of his arms started to quiver under his weight. Toni was rarely patient in bed so she dropped her feet to the mattress in order to give her the leverage she would need in order to move herself at a pace that she had grown accustomed to over nearly sixteen years of enchanting men into pleasing her.
She started to work him as fast and as hard as she could but her rhythm faltered when she heard Sam call out a strained, "Toe-knee… S-slow down."
Sam eased back onto his knees so that he could free his hands to grip her hips tightly which finally made her pause mid-motion. Before she could question him, Sam slowly eased himself out of her until he was dangerously close to pulling out completely. Now that he could keep Toni still, Sam eased his hips forward just as slowly as he had pulled them back and then maintained that speed as he continued to rock back and forth.
This new, gentler tempo wasn't something that Toni was used to and she was sure that she would never reach her climax if Sam insisted on retaining it. Sam's grip eased up slightly on her hips in order to ensure that he wouldn't hurt or bruise her, but he didn't do so until he had made sure that Toni seemed to understand what he needed from her right now. When Toni looked up to his face to protest out loud, she noticed that Sam had his eyes closed and seemed to have completely given himself over to the feelings of bliss that radiated between them, so she tried her best to let go of her controlling nature to just follow his lead without question.
Sam started to breathe much more heavily and seemed to have to force himself not to quicken his pace while Toni moved her hands up his thighs and over his firm rump to the small of his back as a reminder to just let her body feel without overthinking anything. As she tried to lose herself in the sensation of Sam's body working against hers, Toni realized that being able to practically feel every inch of him brushing against every intimate inch of herself was too foreign and intimate compared to anything she felt in the past which made her feel vaguely self-conscious. After her hands drifted up to his shoulders, Toni opened her mouth to voice her concerns, but suddenly she felt her climax building and her breath got lost somewhere in her throat.
Sam moved his hands back to the mattress so that he could keep his torso from crushing Toni to kiss her lips again. Their kiss ended up mirroring the slow, steady pace of Sam's hips and then Toni suddenly started to rock her hips in a complementary motion. Sam smiled during their kiss at how amazing Toni's body felt around his and then he hid his face against her neck as he added a light circular motion to his thrusts because he knew that it would help to push her over the edge that she was so close to stumbling over. As soon as his hips added the clockwise motion to his excruciatingly slow pace, Toni's hands convulsed around Sam's upper arm as she moaned her pleasure out softly.
She had barely come down from her high to regain her breath before Sam altered the pattern in which he was moving his hips again. Toni didn't seem to be capable of drawing in a deep enough breath for her to do anything but whimper quietly until another orgasm hit her hard and she completely lost her ability to breathe, let alone make any type of sounds. Sam worked her through her climax until she nearly blacked out during yet another and he found his own with one last thrust that had more force behind it than any of his previous movements.
Toni regained consciousness while Sam was trying to get more comfortable against the left side of her body. Once she was fully alert she turned over onto her right side and spooned the back of her body against the front of his muscular frame. Once they were both settled and had relaxed into their spots, Sam started to lovingly embrace the long, pink bumps that stood out on her left shoulder as a reminder of the werewolf that had tried to kill her on the first night that they had originally been reunited.
Toni tried to snuggle back even closer to Sam's chest which forced him to focus his embraces on another part of her body because her shoulder was too uncomfortable to reach from this new position. She pulled his left arm up over her chest to kiss his knuckles before she breathlessly commented, "Sam that was… Was… Was… Fucking amazing."
Sam squeezed her in his arms then kissed her ear then replied, "You better believe it was." His hand slipped down to cup her left breast and he squeezed it gently before he added, "And I do believe that both of us were on the winning side of my bet."
"Uh huh," Toni sighed out under his touch.
She rested her head against his shoulder and let him move his hand down to her stomach where it petted her flesh in a circular motion. They both remained silent and let their breathing synch up as they relished in the scent and feel of each other's warm bodies.
"Sam you were right, we waited WAY too long to do this. I don't know what Dean did, but I'm thinking that I owe him…" Toni cut herself off when she felt every muscle in Sam's body tense up against her back. She flipped over in his arms and kissed a few random spots on his chagrinned face as she apologized, "I'm so sorry… I shouldn't have brought that up. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry."
"It's fine," he stated sounding sadder than he had meant to as he laced the fingers of his left hand with her right and coaxed her even closer to his side by hugging his right arm under her body and around her waist.
Toni gently shook her head and tried to push up against the mattress but Sam's right arm kept her pressed against his chest. Since she couldn't do what she had originally planned, Toni just rested her cheek on his chest and replied, "No it's not Sam. You need… Need space from him and here I go… I'm such an ungrateful… Especially after…"
Sam could have counted on his one hand the number of times that Toni had had this much difficulty completing a thought like this and he'd still have fingers left over, so he tried to refocus her attention on just one thought by asking, "Especially after what?"
"Oh… Uh…" Toni turned her face into Sam's neck letting him feel her hot, embarrassed blush. He squeezed the fingers of her right hand encouragingly and started running the fingers of his right hand through her hair which gave her the freedom to move her head to look up at his face. "Especially after…" Sam could tell that she had to force the eye contact that she was making because she was feeling uneasy, but Toni was trying to be strong so Sam just let her soldier through her explanation at her own pace. "Okay… I don't want you to take this the wrong way because you know that I have never been unhappy and have always been beyond satisfied anytime that I've been with you but… Well people have always talked about the difference… Damn it! Why…? Why is this so fucking hard?" Sam remained silent while he massaged the back of her neck. "Alright… Here goes…" Toni finally closed her eyes like she had been wanting to in an effort to try to finally finish this thought. "I… I think I now get the difference between actually making love and… Well just having sex with someone or being their fuck buddy."
At the end of her statement Toni squeezed her eyes even tighter because she knew how utterly ridiculous and juvenile she must have sounded and she wouldn't have blamed Sam for laughing at her actually saying it out loud. Sam continued to watch her in complete silence and could practically see every self-deprecating thought that was running through her head. His fingers never hesitated as they kneaded the muscles of her neck while he tried to keep from letting his body react to the sorrow he was feeling at seeing his strong, confident girlfriend look so fragile and unsure. When Sam didn't respond negatively to her comment like she had predicted, Toni hesitantly opened her eyes to find him looking up at her with a warm smile illuminating his face.
Toni worried her bottom lip between her teeth, but was stopped from speaking by Sam pressing his forefinger against her mouth. "I didn't think that I could love you anymore than I did, but the fact that you would be so honest with me, I… I can't even begin to thank you for that."
Toni had a half-smile, half-frown expression on her face with tears welling up in his eyes by the time that Sam finished his declaration. Sam's eyebrows fell into a worried frown to which Toni responded by shaking her head slowly and said, "They're tears of joy Sam. I love you more than I thought I ever could love a person and it just kind of chokes me up every time that I'm reminded that you actually feel the same way."
Sam shook his head then pulled her down for a soft kiss. "I just don't get how you can be so insecure sometimes."
Toni shrugged before she cuddled back into his side. "I'm complex… It keeps things from getting boring."
"Boring?" Sam let out a hearty laugh that caused Toni's head to bounce against his pecks. "Tell me that no one has been dumb enough to call you boring."
Toni kissed his chest as she burrowed even further down against the side of his body with a wicked grin on her face replying, "Not yet."
Sam rolled onto his side again so that he could hug her against the front of his chest. They both moved in an almost unnatural fluidity as they wrapped their legs around each other until they were as close to each other as was humanly possible. In this moment they didn't need to talk or pet each other to prove their feeling to one another. From the beginning of their relationship they had always been at ease with just holding each other and they were both beyond elated that that was one aspect of their relationship that remained the same.
While they laid there in a comfortable silence, Toni started to shiver and Sam could feel goose bumps blossoming under his palm. "Hey? Are you cold?" He whispered into the crown of her head where he had his cheek resting against her head.
Toni nodded softly and replied, "A little, but we just got comfortable, so it's fine."
"Toni," Sam chastised good naturedly. He ran his hand up and down the length of her back saying, "Come on, off the bed."
Before she could object, he was rolling onto his back and then over and off his side of the bed. Once he was standing, Toni propped her head up on one arm and just openly stared up at him. Sam stood in his spot patiently for a bit to let her admire his body, but then he started to feel uncomfortable, so he turned to search for his boxers.
"No!" Toni called out as she rolled over to get off the bed. "Please don't get dressed yet."
Sam turned back towards her and found that she was already crawling under the covers. He just smiled at her eagerness and then accepted her invitation to join her by slipping under the covers that she was holding up for him. They once again settled themselves against each other quickly and easily. As soon as Toni's head hit Sam's shoulder, he started to comb his fingers through her hair and she relaxed so much against him that she nearly started to fall asleep right then.
"Comfy?" He questioned quietly. Toni hummed out a sound in agreement. Sam wasn't sure if she was actually falling asleep in earnest or if she was just letting him know how content she was to be with him, so he took a chance and announced in a soft voice, "Dean killed Amy… That's why I had to get away from him for a bit."
Toni's eyes shot open, but she forced herself not to move anything else at all. It took a second or two for her to place the name of the woman that Sam had mentioned, but then again there had recently only been one person that the brothers had held differing opinions in regards to how Sam had handled the situation so she quickly scolded herself for not immediately making the connection. She knew that Sam expected her to agree with his anger because she had already told him that it had been his call about how to handle the situation. But on the other hand she couldn't find it in her heart to completely condemn Dean because he had killed a monster that had been murdering humans. The fact that this particular creature had saved Sam's life years ago had gained it some lee-way, but still it was a murderous monster that she wouldn't be mourning in its death.
Toni made sure that she had her face under control before she pushed up on Sam's chest and looked into his eyes to sincerely say, "I'm sorry Sam. If you don't mind me asking, how did you finally find out the truth?"
At the end of the day Toni decided that the death didn't really actually matter to her, but she did hate seeing her boyfriend in pain so she was going to do whatever she could to ease his heavy heart. Plus she knew that Sam would have forgiven Dean for being so clinical about killing Amy and that his anger right now was directed at his brother's deceit instead of the reason Dean had given for lying to Sam. Toni did genuinely feel remorse about Dean's dishonesty because she knew that Sam valued the truth, especially from his brother which made this whole situation that much worse.
Sam stared up at the ceiling with his hands folded on his stomach answering, "The Leviathan that had stolen Dean's face, he told me. At first I thought that it was just trying to get under my skin and mess with my head, but… But it's true."
"I'm so sorry," Toni whispered again when she saw tears glistening in the corners of Sam's eyes.
He turned his gaze towards her face then explained, "I wanted to tell you about it right away, but I… I just…"
Toni leaned down and kissed him gently. "It's okay Sam. I told you that there was no rush and I meant it."
"Yeah… Alright… Thanks again for letting me stay with you."
Toni smiled with a hint of sadness. "You're welcome here anytime Sam, you don't have to keep thanking me. Especially not after you just gave me some of the most intense, mind blowing orgasms I have ever experienced."
Sam laughter quickly turned into a yawn before he replied, "More than happy to oblige with one of those any chance that I get."
"I'll hold you to that," Toni said only half joking. She kissed him one more time before settling against his side again. "We have some time before dad gets home if you wanted to grab a little more shut eye."
"A nap would be great… I mean if that's okay with you," Sam said with a soft sniffle covered by another yawn.
Toni forced her voice to remain cheerful as she asserted, "Of course it is."
Sam kissed her head then squeezed her closer to his side before he drifted off to sleep. Toni was still wide awake long after Sam had fallen into a deep sleep and she tried her best to quiet her racing thoughts so that she would be able to sleep off some of her usual post-sex exhaustion before her dad returned from shopping.
Ho-oh-me-ward bound I wish I was Ho-oh-me-ward bound…
"Dad?" Toni questioned into her cell phone trying to wake herself up completely so that she could figure out where she had been sleeping this time around.
Toni checked over her shoulder and instantly recognized that she was in her own room. "Umm… Why are you calling my cell when you're in the same house as me?"
"Well Angel when I got home and you and Sam hadn't made it downstairs yet, I figured you might be sleeping… I didn't want to disturb you if you were because I know he's had a rough day…"
"Sam?" Toni questioned through a thick, lingering haze of sleep. She lifted her comforter to look at herself then quickly dropped it when she noticed that she was naked. That sight sobered her up like a slap in the face or a cold shower. She had initially thought that she had dreamt about Sam being with her and then she heard her shower running. "Oh… We did fall asleep; he's in the shower right now."
"That's good. Okay… Quickly… How's he doing?"
"He's okay. He told me about everything and it's pretty not good Sir."
"I'm sorry to hear that Angel. Well… Dinner will be ready in about ten to fifteen minutes. If there's anything else I can do to help out, just let me know, okay?"
Toni heard the bathroom door open so she was looking over her shoulder as she replied, "I'll definitely let you know. Thanks again."
She returned her phone to its resting place on her bedside table then flipped over so that she was facing Sam. "I almost thought that I had just dreamt up our amazing afternoon… Now that I know it was real I am most definitely going to have to insist that we do that again."
Sam ran his fingers through his hair nervously as he ignored Toni's comment and asked, "Who were you just talking to?"
Toni swallowed hard to rid herself of any humor that may have lingered in her tone and sat up holding her comforter over her chest. "Oh… That was my dad… He wanted us to know that dinner will be ready in about ten minutes."
Sam didn't try to hide his suspicion as he replied, "Toni… Come on. Like your dad would call you on the phone from the kitchen. Seriously? Who was it?"
"Cross my heart Sam," she stated with her right hand over her heart as she walked slowly towards him, still completely naked. "It was the Colonel. When we hadn't made it downstairs, he didn't want to walk in on us if we were in a compromising position or anything. If you want to check my call log, you can."
Sam cast his eyes to the floor and replied with an embarrassed tone, "No, you don't have to show me it. I'm sorry, I… I had no right to accuse you like that."
Toni gripped Sam's arm to help her balance so that she could go to her tip toes to peck his lips. "Hey, I know what it must have looked like, so we're good on that so don't beat yourself up okay?" Sam nodded then gave her a tight smile in response. "Good. Now I'm just going to clean up quickly, but if you want to head down first…" The look on Sam's face made Toni stop mid-sentence. The fact that Sam was nervous about spending time alone with her dad made her feel completely at ease about how the rest of Sam time with them would most likely unfurl. "Or not. Just give me a minute and I'll be presentable for dinner."
She had moved to her chest of drawers to pull out a fresh change of clothes so Sam stepped up behind her, hugged her to his chest and said, "I know I don't need to say it, but thanks again Toni."
"My pleasure Sam." She patted his arms then added, "And I meant it Winchester, I expect a repeat performance of this afternoon sometime soon."
Sam made eye contact with her in her full length mirror and they shared the same knowing smile. "I'd offer to right now, but I don't think that being late for dinner would help me make a good impression with your father."
"Right… Of course not," Toni agreed with a chuckle. "Okay, I swear I'll just be a minute."
They parted from each other's arms almost reluctantly and then Sam found himself alone in his girlfriend's bedroom again. This time he actually took a moment to look around and take it all in. The first things that he noticed were their clothes thrown around the bed haphazardly, so he made quick work of cleaning them up. He shoved his clothes into his duffle bag and after a short deliberation; he decided to put Toni's into her wicker hamper instead of folding them and leaving them on her bed.
Once he had finished cleaning up their "mess", he stood and looked around her room somewhat awkwardly. His gaze ended up on her small study area at the opposite end of the room. He could still hear water running in the bathroom so he figured that he had some time to snoop around before he would be ready to head down for their meal.
He didn't know why, but he was actually kind of surprised by the variety of books on spirits and monsters that he found on her bookshelves. He knew that Toni had thrown herself into the job feet first, but he hadn't anticipated seeing some texts that looked as old as some of the volumes that you could find in Bobby's library. There were a few sitting out on a chair and he smiled to himself as he flipped through them because he could tell that she and the Colonel had taken to finding out everything they could about Leviathans to heart.
As he skimmed the pages of one of the books, his eyes wandered back to the well-stocked bookshelves where he saw some all too familiar novels. He replaced the text he was holding gently where he had found it to investigate this new finding further. Toni had told him that her dad had bought the entire series that Chuck had penned, but seeing them all on the two shelves seemed completely surreal. He read over each title and noticed that a couple of books seemed to be missing from the set. Neither Sam nor Dean had taken the time to memorize all of the titles and they both had to read the backs of the books to refresh their memories about what part of their life each book focused on so he couldn't be one hundred percent sure which books were missing right now. One thing Sam hadn't told anyone was that he had memorized the titles of a few books that had him as the central character or that he had been particularly embarrassed to read because of their intimate or unflattering subject matter.
Toni rejoined him in the room to find him looking over her copy of 'Heart', so as she pulled her hair into a ponytail she called out, "Trying to make me jealous by rekindling memories of old lovers Winchester?"
Sam jumped at the sound of her voice and he accidentally dropped her book a he turned to face her. "No, no it's not that Toni. It's just… Your dad's read all of these, right?"
"Something like five times," she replied earnestly.
"Five…?" Sam repeated in wide-eyed astonishment. "So he knows all of it… The girls I've… And then when I…"
Toni squeezed his arm then replied, "He knows everything up until Dean's deal came due and then everything after you got out of Hell. He doesn't know about the demon blood addiction or all the nitty gritty details about the Seals."
"Really? You didn't tell him everything about that?" He questioned looking almost scared because he had already told Toni about it all in depth and invivid detail.
"Sam," she started sympathetically. "Even if I did give him all of the details, he'll still feel the same way about you as he does right now."
"I'm not so sure about that," he countered with a snort of derision.
Toni gave him a strong smile asserting, "I am. We all make mistakes Sam and I'm pretty sure that you've endured more than enough punishment for yours." Sam cracked a soft smile and nodded. Toni took him by the hand then started to lead him towards the door saying, "Although I should probably warn you about one thing…"
Sam froze in his spot causing Toni to stop before she could exit the bedroom as he worriedly asked, "And what's that?"
"Well," she started with a cheeky grin. "He's probably going to grill you about when you're finally going to make an honest woman out of me."
Toni couldn't stifle her giggle which caused Sam to let out his own tension easing laugh. He knew that Toni wasn't completely comfortable with him meeting her father and he wanted her to know that he appreciated her efforts to make him laugh to keep everything from becoming too serious, so he replied with his own mischievous grin, "I couldn't exactly ask for your hand without getting his blessing first, now could I?"
All of the color ran out of Toni's face as she stared up at Sam, so he gave her a quick side hug asking, "When'd you lose your sense of humor McNamara?"
Toni shook her head and punched Sam in the side before continuing down the stairs almost grumbling, "Yeah you two will get along just fine." The look on Sam's face made her laugh so she added more sincerely, "Honest Sam, now I know that I was nervous for no good reason. But that being said, we should hurry up because I'm starving."
Any residual tension Sam had been feeling simply disappeared because he now knew, without a doubt, that calling Toni definitely was the right thing to have done.