A/N:
So I reviewed my Poll results and the reviews you guys posted I am going with the greatest percentage on what you guys voted which is not pregnant Just because I make it sound like she is pregnant doesn't mean I'm going to keep her pregnant, so please stay with me on this!
Thank you for voting it really helped me decide. And if you haven't notice yet this story unless otherwise will be in only Katniss or Finnicks POV.
Disclaimers: I shouldn't have to say it, but I don't own the Hunger Games or the Characters'. The only thing I own is the Plot and the story line which are probably the same thing.
Anyways back to the story: )
Finnick's POV:
I wake to the bed shifting. So I crack one eye open and find Rose getting out of the bed.
" Babe, where are you going it's-" I pick my head up to check the time, " 6 o' clock on a Sunday morning you don't need to get out of bed so early." I say sleepily.
" Shh..I'm just going out for a run. Don't worry Finn go back to sleep." She soothes as she kisses my forehead. I barely give a nod before I fall back under.
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I wake back up an hour later and see Rose not back yet. I start to get a little worried, so I get up and go into her sister's room to find out how long her runs are. When I get their I only find Rory sitting up in the bed rubbing his eyes. He looks up at me when he hears me opening the door.
"Hey man, why are you up so early?" He yawns.
"Rose said she was going for a run at 6 and that was an hour ago so I got worried and wanted to talk to Sophia to see how long she is normally gone. Why are you up so early?" I ask crossing my arms. He shrugs.
"I couldn't go back to sleep." He says and gets up from the bed in only some basketball shorts. I nod.
"Well, I'm going to see if Johanna knows what time she normally gets back since she lives here too." I say and turn around heading to Jo's room.
"Wait, I'll come with you." Rory say and catches up with me as I open Jo's door. We step in and only find Gale still asleep. I walk over to him and shake him. He wakes up slowly.
"What?" He ask still half sleep.
"Where is Johanna?" I ask him.
" She right here-" he yawns and pats the side of th bed where Jo should be. He looks confused because she isn't there anymore. " Hey, where the hell did she go?" He ask more alert. I just shrug.
" Probably where Rose and Sophia went. I think they all went for a run." I say thinking about it.
" Yea, lets just wait until they get back. Come on let's go down stairs to get something to eat." Rory says. We nod and Gale gets out of the bed. We walk downstairs and sit in the living room to watch some TV. We sit there for about 2 minutes and I start hearing some noises from the basement we aren't allowed in. I put the TV on mute.
" Dude, what are you doing?" Gale ask me and Rory looks at me confused.
" Shh..just listen." I shush them. We all listen and hear faint thumps coming from the basement. " Do you guys hear what I'm hearing?" I ask them raising an eye brow. They nod.
" Don't tell me this house is haunted." Rory suddenly says. Gale and I look at him stupidly.
" No you idiot, someone is in the basement-" I roll my eyes at him, " I think it's Haymitch trying to get some liquor. Come on let's go check it out." I add and get up walking to the stairs that lead to the basement and they follow me. We go down the stairs and come to a door. I press my ear against it and hear the thumping getting louder. I turn back to Rory and Gale. Gale gestures for me to continue while Rory looks nervous.
"Dude why the hell are you so nervous?" I ask him confused. He shakes his head and I just shrug it off, he is probably scared at what's behind this door. So I turn back around and turn the knob and find it unlocked. I open it and we all step in to a very big gymnasium. We get frozen in our spots because a knife flies through the air and lands in the wall just above my head. Then I hear Roses voice, but her back is to me so she can't see me.
"Fucking hell Johanna, where the hell where you aim a...Oh Shit." She starts yelling at Jo as she turn around to find where the knife went, but she cuts herself off swearing when she see's us. She just stands there with a shocked expression on her face while Jo just smirks at us.
"Katniss what the hell are you staring...Oh now I see." Sophia says with wide eyes like her twin sister.
" Sweethearts, why the hell have you stopped training, I haven't blown the whistle yet." Haymitch yells at them. This snaps Sophia put of her shocked expression and she glares at someone behind me.
" I told you that they couldn't know yet. They had to tell them on their own, not like this." Sophia glares with her hands on her hip. I start getting confused at to who she is talking to. That is until Rory walks around me with his hands up in mock surrender.
"Babe, I swear to you I did not tell them. They found out on their own I promise you." He pleads for her to believe him. She looks over at us for confirmation and we nod our heads numbly. She looks back at Rory and softens her glare and nods. I'm finally able to find my voice.
" S-Sophia, why did you call Rose ' Katniss' ?" I ask her. She doesn't look me in the eye ask she speaks.
"My name is not Sophia and I think you should talk to her about that." She says softly. This snaps Rose out of her own little world.
"Sophia-" She starts, but gets cut off by her sister.
"No, don't start with me. It's about time to drop the act around them in private because they have the right to know, so don't ' Sophia' me. I gave you a long enough time for you to tell Finnick on your own. So right now I am not giving you an option you will tell him this instant." Her sister tells her sternly stomping her foot on the ground. Rose turns to look at Haymitch who has his arms crossed.
"Don't look at me Sweetheart, you heard your sister. And while you're at it bring Jo with you so you both can tell them." He tells her. She sighs and puts her head down and her shoulders slump also. Her and Jo walk toward me and Gale.
" Come on, lets go to the living room." Rose mumbles not looking me in the eye as she passes us. We follow her out of the basement and in to the living room. We all sit down silently not uttering a word yet.
"Her name isn't Rose." Johanna speaks first. Gale and I look at her confused.
"What?" I say. "Then why has everybody been calling her that.?" I ask looking at her.
"Well it isn't her name. It's her cover name." She explains.
"Then what is your real name?" Gale ask who I thought was Rose, but I don't know who she is anymore. Then it hits me I have been going out with a total stranger and she has been lying to me. That Bitch, I think to myself she probably doesn't even love me everything she has been telling me were probably all lies. I get brought out of my internal rant by the lying girl herself.
"My name is Katniss Rosabella Snow- Everdeen and my twin sisters name is Primrose Giovanna Snow- Everdeen." She sighs picking her head up still not looking at me, but at Gale. Those are beautiful names, I think to myself. Wait did she just say Snow? Snow the principle of our school and she has two last names? .
"Yes, I have two last names my Mom's last name is Snow and my Dad's is Everdeen. And your correct Mr. Snow is my Granddad along with Peeta who is my cousin." She answers me.
Oops I must have said that out loud.
"So..what your saying is that you and Peeta are related, right?" Gale ask slowly. She nods slowly back.
" Gale I love you, but some times you are so slow. She said they're cousins what more do you freakin' need." Jo says exasperated.
"Hey, I was just making sure I heard her correctly. No need to be snappy Jo." He rolls his eyes and then adds, " Jeez, what clawed up your ass and died." Jo glares at him obviously she heard him.
I would have laughed at that if this wasn't such a serious matter.
" Anyways, why do you have a cover name." I ask Katniss cutting Jo off as she was about to retort back.
Katniss tells us everything. about her Mom dying, her concussion that I already heard before, why she's here, what happened to her Dad, how she trains, and how she saved Jo. Jo tells us that she's going to help them get their Dad back from the people who kidnapped him. As they explained everything, me and Gale are just sitting there just staring at them listening to everything they are saying and not missing a word out of it. I can not believe she kept this from me for this long. I mean we've been going out for what? A month or two not very long, but still how are we going to have a good relationship and still be together in the future if we don't have trust. Everything she is doing for her Dad and Jo was cool, great, selfless and brave, but that still doesn't forget the fact that she lied to me and I still feel like she is hiding something from me, but I don't know what yet.
"Finnick, you ok?" Katniss ask softly finally looking at me. I nod and get up and walk out of the living room, she follows me.
" Finnick." She says softly again. " I'm s-" cut her off before she can finish that sentence.
"Did you even love me?" I ask desperately. I just need to know because I finally felt loved by someone who isn't my nanny Mags. My parents never loved me, I was just a mistake to them that they couldn't get rid of because they found out too late about me.
"Of course I do, why would you think that Finnick?" She ask obviously hurt by my question.
"Because of all the lies you have been telling me. Are you sure that you love me or are you only just using me to seem normal at school and to keep up your ' identity'" I ask a little harsh and use little air quotes for the word ' identity'. I see tears well up in her eyes, but she blinks them back.
"Finnick that isn't true. I lied to you to protect you. Please you have to believe me. Don't leave me Finnick." She then cries stepping towards me, but I take a step back.
"Rose, Katniss, see I don't even know who you are anymore. It's like you're a complete stranger to me. I don't know what to believe anymore." I confess to her. Even though I know exactly who she is. She is a brave, selfless, courage, strong woman, and puts other's before herself, but I just can't help but feel betrayed by her for keeping this from me for so long and I just can't seem to get passed that, like how does something like this slip your mind?
"Please, Finnick I was mostly telling the truth. It was for your own good." She sobs trying desperately to wipe away the over flowing tears streaming down her face. This just pisses me off when she says ' own good' because I still feel like she isn't telling me something.
"For my own good, Katniss. Is that why I still feel like you are keeping something else from ' For my own good?'. I can handle myself. Look at our relationship, how do you expect us to be together in the future if we can't be completely honest with each other?" I ask her in a deadly whisper. She just cries louder.
"I- I-I'm not hiding any- I don't k- know." she stutters cutting herself off before completing her first statement and finishing with another.
"Yes you are! I have a feeling you are hiding something from me! And you don't know, well I do. It gets us Nowhere because if we don't have trust then we don't have nothing!" I shout at her not really meaning to shout, but that's how it comes out. So I lower my voice and my last words come to her in a broken whisper, "Nothing, Katniss, nothing, we have absolutely nothing." I have tears rolling down my cheeks now.
"F-Finnick are you b-bbreaking up with m-m-mmeee." She's sobbing uncontrollably now hugging herself. I turn away from her and go out the door unable to answer that question because I don't know the answer myself. I start to walk home crying my eyes having mixed feelings. One part of me hates that she betrayed and lied to me and the other part of me still loves her and maybe even more for her bravery. I go straight up to my room and get in my bed and throw the covers over my head and just cry. I have never felt more lonely than I ever did before. I keep asking my self.
What the hell did I just do?...
Katniss Pov:
Half a week later...Wednesday...
Half a week and he still won't talk to me. I have tried everything I've called, texted, and even went over to his house. All no such luck, I hate myself for keeping everything from him for so long. See this is why I don't have relationships and have never wanted one because I know somehow I will always fuck up in the end and be all alone. I just wish he would talk to me. I miss him. I miss hearing his voice, his laugh, his bright green eyes, I just miss everything about him and it has only been two days since the last time I saw him. After he had left that day betrayed and broken, I crumbled to the floor crying my eyes, sobbing hysterically. I would have stayed on that floor crying if it hadn't been for Prim who helped me off the floor and into my room in my bed.
I did absolutely nothing that day except cry all day and that was the longest I have ever cried in my life besides my Mom dying after that I had locked all my emotions away. So seeing myself like this has made me see that not only do I want Finnick in my life, I need him in it he is my rock that keeps me grounded.
The next day I was craving to smoke something to relieve my stress and just not give a fuck anymore and I haven't been wanting to smoke since I have been going out with Finnick, but I knew I couldn't smoke it, it would put our baby at harm's way. So I had just went through the motions of school and not talking to anybody, but Prim, Jo, and Peeta.
Peeta wasn't surprised when I told him Finnick isn't talking to me. He said "You should have told him sooner rather than later and he would have never acted like this. You knew he was going to react the way he did and yet you still withheld it from him for so long. I'm sorry Katniss, but I'm on Finnick's side with this. So just give him some space and he'll come around. He stills loves you never doubt that."
I had sighed , but nodded my head in agreement. I remember being mad when Annie started talking to Finnick, but I knew I couldn't say anything because it was my fault that we aren't talking anyway even though that still doesn't mean the fact that I can't help but get jealous that Finnick is actually talking to her and not me..
Tuesday was the worst I had a headache the whole day and plus Gloss would not leave me alone if the world depended on it. So I just gave up trying to tell him to back off and let him walk with me from class to class. Cheer practice was unbearable because I felt hot, but really I was freezing cold for no reason. Prim made me eat something because she had told me that I look liked I was about to faint. When we had gotten home that night I just went straight to my lonely bed and cried myself to sleep.
Now today as I get out of bed I have dull pain in my back and my headache has gotten worse. I try to ignore them as I make my way to the bathroom. I open my medicine cabinet and take two pain relieve pills hoping this will go away soon. I walk back out of the bathroom and over to my drawers. I get a pair of light pink boy shorts and a black bra to go with it and make my way back in to the bathroom. I turn the shower on, strip, and get in. I turned it all the way to hot because I'm still cold. I wash up slowly and do the same with washing my hair because of the pain in my back. After I am done I get out and dry off. I pull my underwear on and pick out my clothes. Not really caring how I'm going to look today I get a pair of athletic sweats that are black, I get one of Finnick's green shirts that says ' Adidas' across it in white letters and sigh as I put it on, it still smells like him. Now I feel tears start to fill my eyes thinking about him, but I quickly busy myself with putting my green and white Adidas shoes on so I won't have to think about him. I leave my hair down, do my make up and put my contact in.
I walk out and grab my things for school and go down stairs. I find Prim in the kitchen wearing a long peach dress with brown sandals and her hair is in a high bun with a few pieces of hair hanging looses around her face. Prim turns to me when I sit beside her.
"You weren't at training this morning." She states.
"Where's Johanna?" I say completely ignoring her statement she made because I know it will lead to Finnick, everything always leads to Finnick and then I will start crying again.
"I'm right here brainless." I hear Jo say behind me as Sae hands us our breakfast. "And why the hell weren't you at training this morning?" She ask me shoveling some eggs into her mouth.
" Where's Hunter." I ask ignore her question like I did Prim's.
" You know he get up later than us because he is in middle school." Prim says confused about why I even ask that question.
"Oh" Is all I say and eat slowly feeling like if I eat to fast it will all come up in a matter of minutes.
"Brainless, you still didn't answer our question. Is it because your still sad about Finnick?" She ask annoyed, but when she asks about Finnick she says it softly.
"What no, why would you even think that?" I say not convincingly. They just shake their heads and stay quiet. I go back to eating my food, but after a couple of more bites I already start to feel sick and I guess it shows on my face.
"Hey, Katniss are you alright? Your shivering." Prim puts her hand on my arm then takes it off. " God Katniss, why the hell are you so hot? Jo feel her." she say. Jo feels my head and then my cheeks with the back of her hand.
"She's burning up. I think she is getting a fever." Jo says concerned. Slap her hand away.
"I'm perfectly fine."I scowl at her.
" Stop being so stubborn brainless. Prim get the thermometer and lets check her temp." Jo instructs her. She nods, but before she can get up Sae comes with it instead.
"I heard the conversation." Is all she says and goes back into the kitchen. Prim takes the thermometer and tries to put it against my forehead (A/N: This is a high-tech thermometer that the doctors use.), but I back away and jump out of my seat and immediately regret it, it just made my back hurt worse but I play it off as if it was nothing. Resisting the urge to put my hand on my back where it hurts I hiss.
"I told you I was fine. I don't have a fever."
They roll their eyes at me.
"Brainless just let us take your damn temperature. You are at risk here." She says annoyed. I shake my head no at them.
"I will not let you take my temperature." I say defiantly. " Even if I do have a fever you guys will make me stay here alone all day and miss school. I don't want to be on my own I- I" I don't get to finish as I break into a sprint to the nearest bathroom and throw up my breakfast in the sink since I couldn't make it to the toilet soon enough. Prim and Jo were right on my heels.
"Katniss, you are staying here. You are clearly sick and still having morning sicknesses." Prim says sternly. I wipe my mouth and turn the sink water on so my throw up can go down the drawn. I walk right past them when I am done and go up stairs to my room. I can tell they are following me, but I just go in my room, straight to my bathroom and brush my teeth again and then rinse with mouth wash. Prim and Jo are blocking my way out of the bathroom when I am done.
"Leave me alone. I'm fine." I say hoarsely since I just threw up. They shake their heads.
"Nope, I will not. You are my sister and I will not let you leave this house. You are a complete mess." Prim says and Jo agrees with her.
"I don't care if I am sick. I am leaving this house and going to school." I shout irritated at them. "I can't stay here all day. I will just wallow in my own self pity. " my voice breaks and I walk past them seeing as though they aren't blocking my way anymore. I go back down stairs and grab my things where I had left them and go into the garage and get into the Jeep and start it up. I wait for them and they come out two minutes later with their thing and get in.
"Here, I got you an apple encase you get hungry during you classes before lunch." Prim says softly from the passenger's seat. I nod and take the apple without looking at her. I put the apple in my back and open the garage. Once open I drive to school
My first period was terrible. Only because Finnick and Cashmere where in the class. I just sat in the back and watched Cashmere flirt with him and him not doing anything or even paying attention to her, but it still rubbed me the wrong way when I saw how close she was to him. After that I just put my head down for the rest of class and then started shivering because I was so cold.
Second period was better I only had Gale in my class. I sat next to him and put my head down and went straight to sleep. I got woken up by Gale shaken me.
"What?" I yawned.
"Dude, your fucking hot as shit." Gale says shocked and then tries to touch me again, but I slap his hand away.
"No, I'm not leave it alone." I hiss at him.
"Alright, well class is over that's why I woke you up." He says and starts walking out the door. I sigh and get my things. I can barely keep my eyes open. I'm about to walk out the door when Effie says something.
"Rose dear, are you alright? You don't look to good."
"Mrs. Snow I am fine thank you for your concern. Have a nice day." I say stiffly. (A/N: Remember guys her last name isn't Abernathy because Haymitch Dad's last name is ' Snow')
"If you say so dear and you to." Effie says as if she was talking to a student and not her Niece. I just give a curt nod and walk out of the door. The pain in my back as moved now to my upper abdomen and it hurts if I walk to fast or try to bend over. Since I'm feeling like this I decide not to dress out when I get to gym. I go sit down slowly on the bleachers inside the gym. As soon as my butt hits the bleachers Coach Boggs yells at me and makes me jump startled and it makes me hurt more at the sudden movement.
"Deen, why are you not getting dress?" He says.
"I don't feel good sir." I say looking at him.
"Go to the nurses office then and they'll send you home." He says.
"No." I shout no really meaning to thought, so I lower my voice. " I don't need to I'm good."
"Alright, but stay out-of-the-way." He walks off to get the rest of the class.
I feel like someone is staring at me, so I turn to my right and see Finnick looking at me from where he sits on the Gym floor by Peeta and Cato. I think I see a hint of a smirk that appears on his face, but it is soon washed off and turned into a frown. I think I imagined him smirking as he looks away from me.
Finnick POV:
I walk out of the locker room and hear Katniss tell Coach she is not feeling well and he tells her to go to the nurse and she yell no at him, but then lowers her voice and tells him that is not needed. I sigh as I go sit down on the gym floor still looking at Katniss. She looks even more beautiful than before. I just stare at her and notice her wearing my green Adidas shirt that she stolen from my closest one night and as you can see I have never gotten it back since. I smirk at how she still wears my clothes so she can feel close to me. My smirk quickly turns into a frown when I see her cheeks are red and her seen looks a little pale. She is more sick than she is letting on. I scrutinize her more closely than before and see she is shivering slightly. I look away when she notices me staring at her. I mean I'm not mad anymore, but I'm still not ready to talk to her just yet even though it is killing me being apart from her for so long.
"You should just go talk to her already, she is nothing without you." Peeta says. I look at him.
"How would you know?" I ask him even though it's a stupid question I mean he's her cousin for crying out loud how is he not suppose to know.
"Do I really have to answer that? Anyways, I had to drag her downstairs to eat when I got there after your fight. She didn't even eat she just pushed her food around the plate and stared at the table as if it was the most interesting thing." He exclaimed. This breaks my heart.
"She hasn't been eaten for the last two days?" I ask in a whisper.
"Barely, but she eats. We make her eat because of the.." He trails off looking nervous
"Because of the what?" Cato ask before I can even ask the same question and plus I had forgotten he was even by me. Peeta just puts his hands up and shakes his head.
"Sorry, I said to much..It's not my place to tell you her business. If you want to find out Finnick then your going to have to get her to tell you herself because I'm not doing it." he states. I want to argue with him about she could barely tell me who she really was so how is she going to tell me whatever it was he was going to say, but I just keep my mouth shut knowing Cato is here and I wouldn't tell Katniss's secrets jus because we aren't talking at the moment. So I just nod instead.
Gym goes by quickly and we get changed heading to our next class. I am currently walking with Peet since we have the next class together, when Prim calls for us.
"Finnick, Peeta, wait up!" She yells, we stop and wait for her to catch up.
"Yeah, what's up?"I ask her.
"Are you still mad at Rose." She ask using Katniss's fake name since we are in public and someone could be listening. I shake my head no.
"No, I'm not. It's just that I'm not ready to talk to her yet." I explain after she gives me a confused look. She slowly nods her head.
"OK, anyways. I think Rose has a fever, but I don't know for sure because she won't let anybody take her damn temperature and she refused to stay at home alone." Prim states. So I was right she did have a fever, I think to myself.
"Wait why didn't she want to stay home?" I ask perplexed.
"You should know. She said she doesn't want to wallow in her own pity or guilt, so she refuses to stay home alone." She explains. I nod understanding what she means by I should know because I left her alone when I walked out.
"So what do you want us to do about it? That is why you came to us right?" Peeta asks her. She nods and then looks at me. I can tell she is thinking about saying more. When she finally does say something I don't understand a word she is saying. She must not want me to know yet. Damn it why can't I speak or understand another language. I ask myself.
"Sono preoccupato per il bambino. Si prega di portarlo per aiutarvi perche` e` troppo testardo per ascoltare nessuno tranne lui." (Translation from Italian to English: Please get him to help you because she is too stubborn to listen to anybody except for him.) Prim says in what I think is Italian.
"Non ti preoccupare ho capito." Peeta answers her back. She nods her head and reaches in her bag and pulls out a thermometer .
"This is the high-tech one so just run it across her forehead and it will tell you her temp in under a minute." She explains and hands it to me. I look at her confused.
"Why me?" I ask trying to think.
"You already know why you." She rolls her eyes. I do know why me now because she is too stubborn to listen to anybody else, but me.
"OK, well I'm late for class bye." She says and walks away. I hadn't even notice the bell had rung 5 minutes ago, but I don't care. Because right now I want to know what they were talking about in Italian.
"Peet, what was she saying to you in Italian?" I ask him slipping the thermometer in my back as we walk the rest of the way to class.
"Oh, ummm..just some stuff." He shrugs nonchalantly. I scowl at him.
"Don't give me that bullshit. I know it was about Rose, but I just don't know what you guys were saying." I say.
"Look, it's not my business to tell. Ask Rose if you want to know." He says annoyed having to repeat himself again.
"You know she wont tell me unless someone forces her to tell me. That is what gets me so mad at her because she acts like she can't tell me anything." I rant, he just rolls his eyes.
"Then make her tell you. See the thing is you have to push her into telling. You just leave her alone when you ask if something is wrong with her and she just tells you she's fine when she really isn't. That basically tells me that you don't care enough to keep asking and pushing her to really find out what's wrong. Rose Is a tough person to get to open up. She always keeps everything to herself or her sister and that's it. She doesn't like to burden other people with her problems." Peeta explains.
"I do care for her. I- I just- Oh god your right Peet I never did push her for anything. I knew she was hiding something big from me, but I just never asked and if I wouldn't have found that basement that day I still would have been kept in the dark. Then when she actually told me. What do I do I just walk away from her at the moment she would need me the most. Gosh I'm such an idiot. How could I not see it? Now look at her she's sick and in need of someone to lean on and I just sit there and stare instead of asking what's wrong with her. This all my fault, the reason why we are like this and I had the nerve to blame everything on her. She just wanted to protect me and not have me worry about her. She doesn't deserve me. She should have someone better than me. How could I have been so fucking blind? " all while I'm saying this I keep punching the a locker repeatedly. " How-" just as I'm about to punch the locker again Peeta catches my wrist mid-punch.
" Finnick calm down. It's both of your faults. She should have told you sooner, but she didn't because she knew what your reaction was going to be like and you should have pushed her into telling you sooner, but you didn't and you should have never walked out on her when she need you the most. You should have stayed even if you felt betrayed because I would have felt the same way and reacted the way as you, but I would have stayed to make sure she was ok because I would have loved her too much to ever leave. Now I'm not saying you don't love her because I know you really do and you were just caught up in the moment to really think. See I'm on your side in this and I told Rose that because it is mostly her fault, but know that it is yours to. So I'm just going to be straight with you, you both need to stop acting like a fucking coward because that isn't who you guys are and talk to each other, talk this out with each other instead of wallowing in both your own self pity." He all but yells at. I drop my head down and fall against the lockers in a defeated posture, crossing my arms and sighing. That's when I notice how much my hand really hurts from punching the lockers repeatedly.
"She won't want to talk to me." I mumble and somehow Peeta hears me because I can hear him letting out an annoyed huff.
"And why is that?" He ask and I can feel him rolling his eyes at me.
"Because I blew her off every time she tried to come and talk to me. I just didn't want to hear what she had to say. So what makes you think she would want to hear what I had to say or even listen to me?" I ask him frustrated finally picking my head up looking at him to find him shaking his head at me.
"Sometimes you can be so oblivious, dense, and stupid. Look she is wearing YOUR shirt today and that is not a coincidence. Stop being so fucking blind and look. Stop making up excuses and just talk to her. One thing you need to know is that when she first start talking to you she will be cold to you, but don't be phased by it. It is only her mask she wears because she doesn't want anybody to know that she is hurting on the inside because she doesn't want to be a burden. She feels like she has to be strong for everybody."He explains.
"Okay, okay. I understand. So when should I talk to her?" I ask him. He put his hand on my shoulder.
"That is your choice to when you talk to her not mine. But do it sooner rather than later because she need you she might not admit it, but trust me she does." He says wisely. I nod my head.
"You know I should become a psychologist so I can get paid for the advice I give." he says smirking trying to lighten the mood. I chuckle
"Yea, you would be getting a lot of money." I say just as the bell rings ending class.
"Looks like we missed class. Let's just go to lunch early." Peeta says walking in the other direction and I follow him. Once we get in to the lunch room I turn to go to an empty table, but Peeta's voice stops me.
"What the hell are you doing?" He ask confused. I look back at him even more confused.
"I am going to sit at an empty table. She wouldn't want me at her table with her." I say. He just shakes his head and laughs.
"Dear god, now I know why Johanna calls you Pretty Boy. All you are good for is your looks. Did you not just listen to what we talked about for the whole fucking class period?" he ask. I glare at him and huff as I walk past him to their table mumbling.
"I did hear you. I just wasn't thinking."
I sit down and Peeta sits down next to me.
"So you going in line?" He ask me, I shake my head.
" No, I brought me some Chinese food. I'm just going to go and heat it up. Watch my stuff for me." I say and get up walking over to one of the lunch women and she heats it up. I walk back to the table and start eating my lunch not noticing everybody starting at me until someone clears their throat. I look up and see Prim smirking.
"What?" I ask
"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with you new slutty girlfriend over there?" Katniss ask coldly. Peeta was right she is acting harsh with me, but I see straight through it because of her eyes. She's hurting inside and it's my fault, I caused that.
"Last time I checked you were still my girlfriend." I say.
"And last time I checked you left me." She retorts back. I know she's right so I stare at my food and mumble so quietly I don't think she heard me.
"I'm sorry."
I don't get to find out that if she did or didn't because she starts eating an apple. I sigh and go back to me staring at it not really hungry any more.
"Is that all your going to eat?" Cato ask Katniss making me pick my head up.
"Yes, now leave it alone." She glares at him. He puts his hands up in mock surrender.
"Okay, okay geesh sorry I even asked." He mumbles. Then everything goes back to being silent.
Then abruptly Katniss stands up and drops her half eaten apple on the table and walks quickly to the lunch room doors. Johanna stands up to follow her, but I beat her to it.
"I got it." Is all I say and make my way to where Katniss went. Once she is outside the lunch rooms doors. She breaks into a run and I can see her limp a little as I follow her into the girls bathroom not even thinking about the consequences. She goes in a stall and starts throwing up then apple and whatever else that was in her stomach while I hold her hair up and rub her back until she is just dry heaving. She flushes the toilet and stands up. She goes over tot he sink and watches her hands and rinse her mouth out. When she's done she turns around to me ready to start yelling, but she doesn't get a word out because I have her in a tight embrace and my lips are on hers in a matter of seconds.
I don't care if she just through up I just had to feel her again, her lips, her body, everything. I notice how hot her lips are and it makes me pull away to feel her face. Her face is hot to.
"Your burning up." I tell her. This must get her out of a daze she was in because she snatches my hands away from her face and takes a couple of steps back away from me.
"No I'm not. I"m perfectly fine." She says in denial. I roll my eyes at her and step closer to her while she steps back more until she is up against the bathroom wall.
"No you not. You might have a fever." I tell her.
"Why do you even care?" She ask and I can tell she breaks a little.
"I love you that's why. I will always care for you never doubt that. I am so sorry I left you when you needed me the most. I'm sorry I didn't listen to you and just jumped to conclusions. I'm sorry I have been ignoring you when you have been trying to fix us. I'm sorry I have been so stupid and stubborn to realize that you did all of this just to protect me. I just felt so betrayed that you kept it from for so long so I didn't know what was real and what was a lie, but I do now. I love you too much to let you go even though you deserve someone better than me. Someone who will always listen to what you have to say and never walk out on you and, and someone who isn't insecure and who believes it when you tell them you love them. I should have listened to you then we wouldn't be like this. I should have stayed with you that day and just suppressed what I was feeling. I don't know how I have been so blind to not see that you were hurting just as much as me. I am so sorry Princess. You deserve someone better than me." I tell her sniffling. I see she has tears running from her eyes. I cup her face in my hands and wipe her tears away with my thumbs.
"I'm sorry to because I did this to us not you. I should have told you sooner like Prim did Rory. I know this is both of our faults because I kept you in the dar k and you left me when I needed you. I know you where in the moment and your weren't thinking clearly and I understand that, but your here now and to me that's all that matters. Whats past is in the past and this is the present. I don't want to dwell on it anymore. Just know that I forgive you just like your forgive me. I'm not good with words, but know that I will always love you forever and ever baby never doubt that. I don't want anyone else all I want is you and only you because your it for me." She smiles through her tears and I smile through mine.
"So...are we ok?" I ask timidly. She nods.
"Better than ok." She giggles when I lift her up and twirl her around and kiss her soundlessly, but she winces when I tighten my arms around her and it makes me put her down. I look at her and I an she is trying to play it off, but I see right through it. I lift her shirt up to uncover her stomach. I move my hand over her stomach until I hear her wince again and I stop with my hand on where it hurts.
"Does it hurt when I do this?" I ask her and put pressure on the spot just below her naval. This time she hisses and smacks my hand away.
"Don't do that." She scolds at me still whimpering in pain. I grab hold of her face in my hands.
"Tell me what's wrong." I demand her. She thinks about it for a minute, but tells me anyways and I smile inwardly as she is finally starting to open up.
"I don't know why it hurts. It started last night, but it was my back hurting and I wasn't throwing up last night I felt cold all day yesterday and I had to sit out in practice.. The throwing up started today in the morning and everybody has been telling me that my skin is hot or that I'm shivering and asking if I'm ok. Every time I walk to fast my side has a dull pain in it and I can't bend over without making any noises. I just want to go home and curl up into the fetal position and go to sleep. But I don 't want to alone." She sighs.
"You need to go home and not be here." I tell her softly. She shakes her head.
"I don't want to be alone." she sniffs.
"And you won't because I'm coming with her." I tell her with a small smile. I don't get one back in return and I feel her growing distant again. "Let me take your temperature. Okay?" I ask softly. She nods her head. So I let go of her face and walk over to where I left my book bag on the floor and take out the thermometer from it and walk back over to Katniss. I turn it on and run it over her forehead then take it off. Prim was right it doesn't take long before the results come up. I swear my eyes were going to pop out of my head when I looked at her temperature.
103.5
"What is it?" Katniss ask. I show her, her temperature and just makes an 'O' with her mouth. I nod my head in agreement because 'O' is right.
"Come on we need to get you home and in an ice bath to get your temperature down." I tell her and put my arm around her shoulder and pull her close to me. I grab her and my bag and we walk out of the bathroom with on 3 minutes of lunch left. We walk back into the lunch room and head straight for the table with everybody at.
"So did you two work it out?" Rue ask who notices us first making everybody turn to us. We nod.
"Yea, we are still together. I need to get her out of here. Her temperature is too high." I explains.
"What's her temp.?" Prim ask worried.
"103.5" I say. "She needs an ice bath. I'm going to stay with her tonight to make sure she's ok."
"OK, Rose give me the car keys." Prim says. Rose gets out of my arms and goes behind me to where her book bag is and gets her keys and tosses them to Prim.
"Alright see you at home. I'll tell coach what's wrong." Prim says. We nod and I put my arm back around Katniss's shoulders and we walk slowly out of the lunch room since Katniss told me her side hurts, I don't want to make it worse.
We get to her house and find that Haymitch is home.
"What are you doing here?" Katniss ask him. He looks at her like she is stupid.
"Uh duh, I live here. What are you doing here?" He says sarcastically but it's the truth. I know Katniss is rolling her eyes at him with out even having to look at her.
"I live here to."She retorts.
"I think I know that. It was a rhetorical question you weren't suppose to answer it." He chuckles at her then moves his eyes to me squinting.
"What's Pretty Boy doing here?" He ask confused. I"m surprised he wasn't harsh to me..
"I'm here because we are still together and we worked everything out. " I tell him.
"That's great and all but what is the other real reason why you both are here and out of school early." He demands.
"Katniss has a temperature of 103.5. So I took her home and now she needs an ice bath." I tell him.
"Let me guess, she wouldn't let Prim or Jo take her temp this morning and they had to come to you and Peeta for reinforcements because she is too stubborn to listen to anybody, but you. Then you guys talked it out and she let you take her temp. Am I right?" He smirks raising an eyebrow. I nod my head.
"Yeah, right on the money." I say impressed. "How'd you know?" I ask him.
"Because she's just like her father." He shrugs and walks off into the kitchen.
"Hey, how about you go upstairs and start the water and I'll bring up the ice. Sound good?""I ask her. She nods and gives me a kiss on the nose and I scrunch it up because it tickles like I always do. She makes her way upstairs and I make my way into the kitchen where I find Haymitch. I get a bucket and start filling it with ice.
"Is she upstairs yet?" He ask me.
"Yeah , I think. Why?" I ask him turning around to face him stopping what I'm doing.
"Like I said she is just lie her father too stubborn and always thinks she is right. Look boy don't let her fool you. She needs you a lot more than whatever she told you and she's hiding something else from you. You have the right to know. Sweetheart has a good heart, but the things she does that she thinks she is protecting you is only making it worse. She has a good heart but bad action. So don't be too hard on her when you find out. Don't let her know you know this until she tells you about it. Here." He says handing me something in a plastic bag. I take it out of his hands and look at it.
Holy Fuck...It's a pregnancy test...and it's POSITIVE!
A/N:
Hey guys sorry for the wait. I was just busy and I had to think about how I want to go with this. So, I know you are probably confused as to why I still made it sound like she was pregnant in this chapter because the votes results a lot of people voted not pregnant.
Be patient. She is not going to be pregnant. I only stopped right here is because I was typing really fast and I didn't notice I had hit the wrong button so I had basically deleted everything I typed like 2 twice. And I got so fed up that I was just like I'm done. I' ll put whatever I had in the next chapter because I didn't want to type anymore..
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