So I decided to not leave you hanging and give you another cliff, you can hang on to. Ehehe! Lol Im so wonderful to you arnt I?

Well don't worry, The next chapter will be up soon, I promise! I have working on it for a little bit. But for now since I know you want something more, I will leave you with a little sneak preview while I work on chapter ten. Enjoy!!!

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Chapter 9

Entries Of A Love Struck Teen

Justin sighed as he set his book bag down onto the bed and flopped onto his computer chair still feeling the mundane empty feeling from that day. He sighed and ran his hands through his dark maple brunette hair. He took a deep inhale as he robotically turned on his computer and awaited for his pc to boot. He leaned on his hands as he starred down at his computer desk thinking of the event that happened today. How could he let that happen?! He couldn't of let Zeke just slip away. Zeke was the one person just trusted the most. The most important person in his life next to his mom of course. He sighed again, he had no clue what happened or what caused that explosion of emotion. He just wish that he had a bit more understanding for why it happened, if he just had a little insight into Zekes mind and saw what was that matter. That would bring his whole day up! Maybe then he would find out a way to apologize to Zeke. Properly that is. Just then as though he shocked with a 112 watt plug the idea came to him. Peering over with a devious smile he beamed as he remembered the very special book that was laying on Justin's bed. Zeke's Journal. Though Justin usually would have very strict moral standings on privacy and such, the curiosity and the yearning desire won over his decision and he pounced onto the bed and cracked open the book, slowly as though it was a sacred artifact that would beam out light as he read its thousand year old words. Though it didn't shine, but it was all enough special to Justin for it to be sacred.

He gazed down as he opened up to a random page and began reading.

And he is what it read.

Jan 4th 09

Sparks dazzled across my buttercup fingers as he spoke my name.

"Zeke" He said with a lustful passion, his soulful desire smoldering through his eyes...

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Dear Diary

Today was,...um interesting to say the least. It started like any other day and then it got interesting. I was just walking to my next class when I soon saw a group of people gathered together chatting and laughing and some poor unsuspecting commoner. Gosh darn they really got to get a life. They cant be observing every little thing that goes on different in their school. Seriously is there life that dull that the only laugh they get is out of other peoples embarrassment. SIgh anyways as I was walking to go see who the poor guy was, I was shocked to see that it was none other then my best friend Justin Russo. Apparently he had come to school wearing no pants. And God was he hot. Excuse me lord for using your name in vain but really sometimes their are excuses for that and THIS WAS DEFINITELY one of them. Oh man his long muscle legs his toned body and oh so cute butt. He was wearing short red and white boxers with hearts all over them. They were so cute! And strangely harper said she has the same kind. That girl is so weird. Ah but I cant get distracted! I HAVE to focus on my studies. I gotta get at least an A- if Justin is going to consider changing his sexual orientation for me. Oh if only it was possible. Sigh I know the probability is very low but a guys gotta have hopes right? Well wishful thinking I guess. But maybe, If I just got Justin to notice me, if I tried to impress him or show him how smart I am or how good looking I can be then maybe just maybe..

No its hopeless. How in the world could I do that? Even if Justin some how changed his sexual preference at the last minute for some unknown reason, how could I talk to him. I can barely look at him without blushing and stuttering, let alone ask him out! I just got to keep my cool my calm, I CANT let Justin know that Im gay or he will be creeped out and will not wanna be my friend anymore. Let alone my boyfriend. But I just can help it, whenever I look at his face I just see him embracing me in his bold strong arms and gentling resting his hand on my cheek as he caresses my lips with his kissing me passionately and...

Uh oh there I go again. Gosh its going to be harder to hide this then I thought. Well dont worry Zeke just stay calm and cool and whatever you do don't bring up the subject of girls or crushes. Just stick with Science, Fan ficiton and twilight and you will be good. OK...time to go to lunch!

Jan 4th 09 Lunch

Gosh damn it! It makes me so mad, watching justin Gap over that stupid Mille just makes me boil inside! What does she have that I dont? Other then breasts and a ew..lets not think of that. So Today was extremely hard to control my feelings. Just looking at Justin's face made it hard to resist the urge to jump on him and make out with him right there on the spot. But I had to resist the urge. He would so get weirded out if that happened and I dont think he would ever talk to me. So I just stayed calm and focused and didnt talk to Justin. Maybe just a few small responses but I cant let my self look at him. Though I think that Justin suspects something. I hope he is not worried. I just got to go through the day without Justin. As difficult as that is.

He pulled out all the stops! Even the Galaxies of the North Wind Star series! How ruthless is that! He knows thats my favorite sci fi book series. Though I still dont see how that shawndra making out with leenazian line would get me interested. Seriously girls anatomy are so gross why would too of them sucking face topless be any less disgusting. Ew. I first I thought he was catching on when he asked me if I was ok so I covered up with the polar compass line. Of course it was half true I was doing that, but mostly I was...sigh writing songs about Justin and writing about him my journal. But you know that diary. Man if justin ever found out about that he would think Im such a girl. I gotta make sure he never finds out about the song book or my diary, it would be an embarrassment of a lifetime. And I cant let that happen, no Justin is one of the most important people I care about, well next to my mom that is. But I would never want to french my mom.

Egh. Anyways..

So then Alex made a comment about how geeky her brother is and Harper is a stalker wohoo Clay AIkens Gay, The Olsen twins are anorexic and linsey lohan is in rehab, AGAIN.

Nothing original.

But what was a bit different was when Justin asked me to talk outside. I had no clue what he wanted to talk about but it made me nervous. A part of me hoped it was him asking me out. Of course thats impossible. But like I said wishful thinking. What was strange is that we went outside he said something about a super man action figure, said a weird rhyming poem and boom I was back inside and had no idea what had happened. Weird huh, it was almost magical..

Justin's heart dropped as he read that. He never knew that he meant so much to Zeke. It made him glad! He felt appreciative and loved. And a bit flattered, did he really look that good in boxers? I gotta tell Max thanks! Reading this sent a bolt of rabid curiosity and as though he was reading an enriching novel, he dove into the next chapter, flipping through the pages as fast as he could!

Jan 5 09

Dear Diary,

Today was entertaining..

Really it was absolutely hilarious.

So this is how it when

First I was just putting my books away as always, (I swear some times thats all we ever use our locker for...Hmm)

When Justin came to my locker to ask me to come over to his place. It was funny as I swear he was saying come out. Lol wishful thinking again.

So then as he said those magic last words it reminded him of his favorite song, which of course was mine too! All I want Is You By Christina aguleira. Or however you spell her last name. Gosh I LOVE that song. Heck it can be 11 years old it will still be a top hit for me. So fun and awesome. Anyways, he said "Come on over around 5" and soon we start breaking out into song and dance! It was amazing! It was like a musical, like..rent! But without a crosser and a black guy. But still awesome! And man is Justin so hot when he dances, he was so...close to me. A part of me wants ot think it was sign saying that he was interested in me. I mean it was like he was singing each word of that song to me! He was so passionate and fierce in his dancing, and really dirty. Grinding all up on me, like this was some high school dance. Not complaining though it was hot! And fun.

Though I know its just more wishful thinking. Justin can be such a dork sometimes. He can get carried away by the darnest thing! Its so neat and hilarious to watch. I only wish he wouldn't give me these mixed signals. I dont know if he likes me or not. I mean its not regular for any straight guy to grind to 90's pop songs with his best friend, but then again Justin really isn't straight. He is his own category of sexual orientation. Mmm Sexual and Justin. Ah stay focused Zeke you know its not going to happen so dont get your hopes up! Though Im curious to what we are going to do later today. Justin has never invited me over, so formal like a date. Does this mean something?

Sincerely,

Zeke, Future Mr. Cullen/Russo

*If its ever illegal. And if I can ever make my mind up. Hot Fictional Teen vampire, or Cute straight dorky real life crush. Hmmm*

Justin blushed and laughed at all the things that Zeke said. All these things about Justin in Zeke's point of view really made Justin think different about himself, and about Zeke. Though not in a bad way, it a great way. In fact the journal had the exact opposite effect that Zeke had feared it would. It now made Justin want to be around Zeke even more! Not less.

Even thinking back on that silly day when they danced made Justin giggle and smile. It really was a fun expression. And Justin sure got in to it. Hmm Im definitely going to dance with Zeke like that again. Yet this time not mixed signal, just one giant glowing green signal. Go.

Woah that was weird, he had never thought about a guy like that before. Still strangely enough with Zeke it was different, he was cute and fun and attractive and..his friend.

Would this ruin his friendship with Zeke? Well not they didnt even get close to that part in their relationship. For Zeke still had to forgive Justin for that fight, whatever that he did. He was slowly getting the pieces together. Though he swiftly flipped to the next page. This was same fateful day that he had kissed Zeke. And It was..amazing!

This would pull it all together and Justin would finally understand what he did wrong and how to fix it.

Though he was surprised as he read the few words on the next journal entry.

Jan 5th 09, Later that day

Dear Diary,

Justin.....KISSED me?!

Just..Wow..

Was all that Justin could read. He was confused and in a state of horror. This couldn't of been it, he had to have wrote more! Justin thought, flipping through all the rest of the journal pages. Those to his dismay, all of them were blank.

Except for one....