"What the hell was that all about" she said out loud as she closed her apartment door behind her. She looked down at her elbows, which were now red raw from the wall in the alley, and touched them tentatively, wincing as she did so. Why was he there? What bought it on? And why couldn't she say no? She held her head in her hands hoping for some clarity but with only more questions surfacing instead she walked to the kitchen, poured a large shot of Saki and knocked it back in one. She felt the burn all the way to her stomach as she poured another, hoping the haze of alcohol would make everything clearer.
What was happening? She never felt anything like this for him in the village, he as just Naruto's Sensei. Or was that why? All she could see back then WAS Naruto, blinkered to everyone else maybe she'd never allowed herself to feel for anyone else? Argh! She slammed the glass on the counter and threw herself on the sofa. The room was beginning to spin now as she placed her hands either side of her on the cushion to steady herself. "Ok - so you obviously feel something for Kakashi or else or else you wouldn't be sitting here so confused." She said out loud "and slightly drunk. But what do you feel?" She threw her head back against the headrest and tried to think, but the alcohol fog was getting thicker. She needed Kiba here to talk things through. Where did he go anyway?
"Do I only have feelings for him because he's a link to the past, to Naruto? Or so is now that I've left the village that feelings that were under the surface can come to light...?" She thought about how she felt on the stage earlier, about how she felt when he was behind her, and how she felt when she woke up that morning and saw him standing in her room - all those times she felt happy, content, wanted. But it had only been just over 24 hours! It was crazy! Also he was going back to the village in 2 days latest and she wasn't going back with him - was she? It had only been a day but already she didn't like the thought of never seeing him again. She thought back to before she left, how did she feel about him then? She appreciated him in battle, he was a formidable foe and a good tactician. She always felt safe with him about. She could see he had a good body - but they all did. She could never really see his face as it was always covered with that mask, maybe that was it. Seeing his face properly for the first time...? She stood up and went to pour another shot. "Grasping at straws now Hin-" she stopped herself mid sentence as she realised that was the first time since she'd re-invented herself that she was going to use her real name. "Dammit" she said, knocking back another shot.
The other side of town Kakashi was roaming the streets. He didn't even know why he went to her club that evening, it may have been born out of a desire to check up on her,but then why meet her after. "That came out of nowhere" he mumbled as he thought back to how he ended up in the alley. He was just going to scare her for a joke, make her take more precautions when she was out and about, but when he had hold of her and how helpless she was in his grasp he just couldn't stop. Somehow being around her he lost control of himself, almost like watching his actions from someone else's eyes. Surely if she didn't want to she would have said no. He didn't take advantage - did he? The night before they'd both been drunk, one thing led to another but tonight, that was just pure lust. Thinking about it he felt a stir in his jeans, so tried to focus on something else.
He was meant to leave her alone to decide what she was going to do, that was why he sent Kiba home in the first place, wasn't it. Damn why does everything bring up more questions?! He tried to empty his mind by walking, although he had no idea where he was going. That was until he ended up outside Hinata's apartment, where inside she was dreaming about the village, and why she ended up leaving.