Hey, thanks for reading the last chapter. All the positive reviews are really making me happy with what I'm writing.
I must say if you are offended by swearing then I am sorry but this chapter does contain some foul language.
Here's the next chapter.
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Chapter 4.
I was stunned as I watched Jasper lying on top of the tree, debris covering his form. It registered in the back of my mind that I shouldn't be able to see the debris on Jasper, but my main thoughts stayed on the fact that he had just tried to attack me.
He stood, brushing the dirt off his clothes and blinking insanely fast many times.
"Bella," he looked at me, at my neck, worry projecting from him. "Did I hurt you?" I shook my head. He walked over to me, grabbed my shoulders and inspected me closely. "Oh Bella, I am so sorry." He pulled me in for a hug, stroking my hair as he embraced me. "I am so sorry for doing that, I don't know what came over me, its such a good thing that your different."
"What? A good thing I'm a freak." He pulled back, probably shocked at my tone.
"Whats wrong?" My emotions exploded. Suddenly all I could think about was everything they had done to me, all the changes I had made for them, all the time i've wasted on them.
"Whats wrong. WHATS WRONG! Are you freaking kidding me! Because of your family i've almost been killed three times, i've had to run away from home, hurting my dad in the process, i've been exposed to a world I wasn't made to be a part of and now, now I am a freak of nature somthing that isn't supposed to exist, something that none of you have seen before. All of this is because of your family, my life has been fucked up because of YOU! And then the family leaves me with only you for help, to go to for explanations. How dare you ask me whats wrong." My voice was barely a whisper at the end of my sentence. Jasper looked pained, hurt from my words. He took his hands off me but stayed stood close to me.
"Bella, I understand how you feel, really I do, and I am sorry for all that we have done to you, all the pain we've caused, but I promise all we want to do now is help. Carlisle still wants to do those tests-"
"Tests? What are tests going to do Jasper, prove that i'm a freak? Well guess what we already know that. You don't understand anything, you may feel how I feel but that does not mean you understand anything. Empath or not your still clueless, just like the rest of your damn family." I was glaring at him, not purposefully, but I was feeling bad and it was the only way my face could show my emotions. Not that Jasper didn't already know how I was feeling.
"I know that your angry, I know that your hurt, so I understand why your taking it out on me, but really all I want to do is help you." He went to put his hands on my shoulders but I pulled away.
"How were you helping just then when you tried to rip my throat out. If it wasn't for the fact that Edward is an incompetent little prick then I would be dead right now and my blood would be running through you. How is that helping?" Jasper looked so ashamed of himself and for a second I felt really bad about using it against him, but only for a second.
He was quiet for a long time and I considered going home. But when he spoke I knew I couldn't have left.
"You have no idea how sorry I am for that, my control hasn't got to that point in over thirty years, I am so ashamed of myself for doing that, I can't believe I could do that to you. Bella, I will do absoloutely anything to make this better. What can I do to make things better?" The guilt in his eyes, the plead in his voice, did nothing for me. I was angry and I was stuck on anger, it wasn't going to change for someone I didn't really know.
"Leave me alone, give me time to adjust to this life without your family."
"But-"
"No Jasper, I need time to be myself again, to be alone again. I will talk to you when I'm ready but not before then." I started to walk back and he let me with only a few questions.
"What about your answers? What about the tests?" He was talking in his normal tone, no louder than usual but I could still hear him perfectly.
"When I'm ready Jasper."
"And Carlilse? What about his promise?"
"Have you forgotten Jasper, Carlisle isn't here to keep his promise." With that I was back in my front garden, back at my front door. I walked into the house, but before I closed the door I looked back and saw Jasper staring at me with worry clouding his eyes.
School was hell. For most of it I either had Jessica Stanley making snide comments about Edward dumping me or Mike Newton trying, and failing, to hit on me. But I have to say it was refreshing to have my friends be normal with me, they used to change when Edward was around but now they were just, them.
The only completely normal thing was Angela. She was always the same Angela and it was nice to be able to hang out with her without Edward tagging along everywhere. She was more open with me, at first she tried not to mention her relationship with Ben, so I brought it up with her in English.
"How are you and Ben?" I started, totally randomly as we watched Romeo and Juliet for the millionth time. She looked at me, slightly taken with the random question and a little wary.
"We're good, thanks." She turned back to the front.
"How long have you been together now?"
"About five months."
"Do you go out much?"
"Sometimes." The short answers were bugging me and I found myself losing my temper a little.
"Why won't you talk to me?" Angela sighed. She looked at me and hugged me. When she pulled away she gave me a little smile.
"I just didn't want to make you uncomfortable."
"Why would I be uncomfortable?"
"Because after whats happened between you and Edward, I didn't want to go around and flaunt the fact that I've got a boyfriend, especially after the way Jessica's been acting its totally insensitive and plainly cruel." This was one of the reasons I love Angela.
"Oh, Ange, I'm not bothered about the way Jessica is, her jealousy is quite amusing. And I want you to talk about your relationship with Ben, its refreshing to see a healthy relationship and its lovely that he makes you so happy." I smiled, showing her that I was telling the truth.
"But what about you and Edward?"
"Lets just say we weren't as happy and loved up as we looked. It hasn't really hurt me, him leaving, all I want is to be happy and normal again, and hanging out with you and talking to you about you and Ben will be the most normal thing." She smiled and we hugged again.
"Bella, your great."
"Thanks." We pulled away as the teacher looked towards us. Turning back to the screen we stayed silent for the rest of class. When the bell rang we got up and started to pack our stuff away. We began to leave after everyone else.
"Bella," Angela's voice stopped me and I turned to look at her. "What do you mean, its refreshing to see a healthy relationship?" I smiled at her.
"Like I said, we weren't as happy and loved up as we looked." I watched as her brow furrowed and I could almost see the cogs working in her brain. "You coming?" She looked up at me again, for a second the crumple in her forehead stayed. But I smiled and she smiled back.
"Yeah, course." And we walked to our next class.
On friday afternoon I drove home happy to be able to relax for the next few days. I had some cleaning to do when I got in after school but it didn't bother me, actually I quite liked it, it was relaxing.
I prepared a lasagna and once it was in the oven I did some laundry and tidied the living room and kitchen; Charlie had a habbit of leaving a mess in his wake. When there was nothing more to do I grabbed a book from my room and sprawled out on the couch reading.
Three chapters in I got up to check the food and I heard Charlie's cruiser drive onto our street.
The lasagna was done so he was right on time as always, I swear he can tell when I start cooking. The cruiser pulled into our driveway along with another car. I was hoping to the high heavens that the other car did not belong to Jasper.
Charlie opened the front door laughing as I plated out the food.
"Hey Bells, we have company again." He stepped into the kitchen followed by Billy Black and his son Jacob. The smile that lit up my face was one of relief and surprise. "Smells great as always." Charlie sat down and took his boots after hanging up his gun. Jacob wheeled Billy up to the table and then sat down himself.
"Hey guys, you hungry?" I asked gaining a smile from both Billy and Jake.
"Yes, thanks Bella." So I got out two more plates and more cutlery. I put out the food and we ate around the table. Charlie and Billy talked about sports and every now and then I would catch Jake watching me, something I usually wouldn't notice.
After we ate I cleared the table and watched as Charlie wheeled Billy into the living room. It was as I watched them that I realisled since I'd started living here Charlie had become dependant on me to do things like cleaning and cooking so I stopped him in his tracks.
"Where do you think your going?" They turned around taken by my words.
"We're going watching the game." He went to start walking into the living room but I stopped him again.
"Well someone has to clean the dishes and put them away and it is not going to be again." I looked away from the adults and turned to Jake. "Wanna go for a walk?" He grinned at me and I have to admit seeing him smile made me smile.
"Yeah sure." We left our dads looking shocked in the kitchen. At the front door Jake stopped me. "You not gonna get a jacket?"
"Nope, I don't get cold easily." So we left the house, and the dishes.
"How come you wanted to go out?" Jake asked as we got down the steet and began walking.
"I'm not fond of sports and I don't think I could stand listening to them shouting a load of crap for the next few hours." He nodded.
"So you expect us to be out for the next few hours?"
"Only if you want to be."
"Obviously." He grinned and I couldn't help but grin back.
As we walked we talked and laughed, I haven't felt this natural around someone in so long. Jake made everything so easy. I could be myself as we walked and it was nice. The night would have been great, Jacob was hilarious when he wanted to be, but the night was slightly ruined for me because when we started walking back I happened to glance into the woods and see Jasper watching me as we walked.
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