It's been too long I know but I'm having internet problems at home and the only way I can get online is by staying at my boyfriends. My internet should be fixed on or after the 11th June but until then you'll have to bear with me. Thank you.

Sorry it's just a short one but I have other things to do and write as well.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Twilight.

Chapter .19.

I turned to Jasper and saw him looking at me questioningly. I knew exactly what it was about, the whole mate thing, but I didn't have the energy to start explaining myself and I was thankful when my stomach growled alerting everyone to how hungry I was. Jasper smiled and patted my belly before Sam led us back inside.

I felt my mouth water as I saw all the food Emily had laid out on the kitchen table, everything looked delicious and I couldn't wait to start shovelling it all into my mouth. I sat down, dragging Jasper with me and started loading up my plate. I was surprised to find myself not the fastest to start eating as Paul had started before he even sat down or got a plate.

I ate everything I could get my hands on. Bacon, eggs, toast, muffins, banana's, oranges with a big cup of coffee to wash it all down with. I was devouring a muffin and trying my best to listen to whatever it was Sam was saying because I didn't want to seem ignorant, but the food was just too good to care about anything else. I did listen when Sam asked Jasper if he minded me and him staying over there so then everyone could keep an eye on me overnight. Jasper was fine with it and as long as he was here I didn't mind.

It took me a whole half an hour but I finally finished the humongous amount of food on my plate when Jacob and Embry came in. I was slightly ashamed to say that while food was on my mind I hadn't even noticed their absence.

"Did you find anything?" Sam asked as they walked in with a bag on Embry's shoulder.

"Yeah." Embry put the bag on the table and pulled out a video camera. It took me less than half a second to realise it was the camera Victoria had used to film my torture. I jumped up and tried to grab it but Embry moved away too quick.

"Please don't watch that." I begged as Embry looked at me with sadness in his eyes.

"We already watched a bit." Spoke Jake and I saw as his body shook a little. "I'm glad she's dead." I sighed as saw hatred, anger and pain on Jake's face. He never should have seen it.

"Well you shouldn't have. It's not important and I just want to forget about it so can we please destroy it?" Jasper pulled me down into his lap as Sam took the camera from Embry.

"What's on it?" He asked as he stared at it suspiciously.

"Bella's torture." A collective growl reverberated through the room and I hid my face in Jasper's chest.

Sam sat in silence for a moment collecting his thoughts before he looked at Jasper and nodded. "I think we should see it." I whipped my head up fast and stared at Sam as if he had two heads.

"No, I don't want anyone to see it and I certainly don't want to see it myself. I can't go through that again and I don't want any of you to have to go through it with me. Please, just destroy it and let's move on." There were tears in my eyes and as much as I didn't want to cry I was getting close to my emotional edge. Jasper pulled me closer to him and stroked my hair.

"Bella I know you're just looking out for us, I know you don't want us to be hurt because of what you've been through but I agree with Sam, I think we need to see it in order to fully understand not only what you've been through but what you can withstand. We need to know what happened, so we can help you and ourselves. Please Bella, please try to understand." I was about to protest even though what Jasper said did kinda make sense but then Emily spoke.

"You don't have to be here Bella, you can join me for a walk to the beach, I really don't want to see it and I know Sam would never let me anyway, plus I have something to ask you." She stood up and extended her hand towards me. I kissed Jasper one last time before I took Emily's hand and left the house with her. I knew there was no way to stop the boys from seeing that tape and I also knew that they needed to see it.

We walked in silence out the front door and onto the street. We stayed silent until we came to the beach and she led me off the path and onto the sand. We were a good distance away from the house when she spoke.

"I'm really sorry about what happened. I wished they had gotten to you sooner so you wouldn't have had to go through all that." I smiled at her.

"You don't have to be sorry, it's not your fault and to be honest I'm just glad they got there when they did, I don't know how much longer I could have lasted." She smiled back and nodded.

"I'm glad you're safe now."

"Me too." We walked for a while just trying to kill time so then we didn't go back while they were watching me get tortured but with hours of footage I didn't know how we would stay out long enough. We had been walking for about half an hour along the beach when Emily stopped. She looked at me long and hard for a second before she plonked herself down on the sand. I quickly joined her and we sat in the same comfortable silence for another ten minutes before she finally turned to me.

"Look Bella, I know we don't know each other well and this might be a little strange to ask after everything but because of everything with Sam and knowing about the wolves I don't exactly have very many girlfriends, well actually I have none, and so I was wondering if, well…" She hesitated, she stared at me again for another few minutes before the hesitation began to bug me.

"Come on Emily, whatever you have to say is fine just say it, I don't bite." She smiled at me before she shook her head and took in a deep breath.

"Will you be one of my bridesmaids?" She spoke so fast that if I didn't have super part-vampire hearing I wouldn't have heard what she said.

"Of course I will. Thanks Emily." She released a breath I don't think either of us knew she had been holding and squealed before hugging me.

"Oh, thanks Bella. I know it will make Leah happy as well that you'll be right there with her, she seems to really like you and no offence to her but she doesn't make friends easy." I said no problem and it didn't take Emily long to start talking about the wedding and once she started I swear there was no stopping her, it was like Alice when she started talking about shopping.

I'm not sure how much later it was, maybe an hour maybe two, of wedding talk when Jasper and Sam suddenly turned up looking very grim.

"You okay?" I asked as I watched Sam quickly scoop Emily up into his arms and kiss down her scars. I saw tears in his eyes as he pulled back and looked at me.

"Not really, it was horrible seeing all that and all I could think about was what if that had been Emily." He looked back down at Emily as Jasper wrapped his arms around me. He pulled me so close to him that I swear if I'd gotten any closer we'd have become one person. He kissed all over my face and my hands and arms until he realised that he couldn't really kiss all the other places because that would be weird, so he stuck to kissing my lips. Every few kisses he would pull away and apologise and I had to tell him multiple times that it wasn't his fault until he stopped apologising.

I hadn't noticed Emily and Sam leaving until they weren't there anymore but it didn't matter, nothing mattered while I was in Jasper's arms.

We collapsed onto the sand holding each other, sometimes kissing, sometimes watching the ocean but not talking. I didn't want to talk because I knew the only thing we would talk about was what Victoria did and I couldn't stand to ruin the moment. It was as I laid in Jaspers arms and felt his soothing cold fingers comb through my hair that I realised it was time I admitted something to him, time I admitted something to myself and made this confusing relationship completely real.

I moved so I could look into his beautiful butterscotch eyes and placed my hand gently on his face. I brushed my fingers across his cheeks as I looked into his eyes and smiled.

"I love you Jasper."

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