Hey! Don't worry, I'm still doing this challenge! It's just for the twelfth and thirteenth days, I wrote something original for myself. And, alas, I missed yesterdays deadline due to computer troubles. But fear not, you will be getting two freewrites today! The first is a continuation of number two and, I believe, number ten, although I could be wrong. In any case, I hope you enjoy it! Oh, also, this could somewhat be interpreted as SasuSaku, but a really angsty version. Take that as you will.

Dear Sasuke,

I don't know why I'm writing you this. You've been dead for months now, and are nothing more than a memory. You were cremated, in fact. Kakashi-sensei and I were the only ones that came.

This is meant to help me deal with... my problems. The problems you caused, Sasuke. The problems you never needed to cause.

I'd always loved you, you know? I adored you when we were in the academy, but that was different. You were aloof and stoic and rude, but I saw something in you. I saw a flicker of hope, that you might whisk me away in your golden carriage, crown on your head, and beg me to be your bride so we could rule over the kingdom together.

Wow. I really was pathetic, huh? Why didn't you tell me?

Right, you did.

Looking back, you were a giant dick, you know that right? Everybody that tried to give you the time of day, you'd spit on it, and throw it back in their face. I can never understand what happened to your family, but the way you treated everyone? You treated them like utter shit, Sasuke. Complete and utter shit.

But, back on topic (sorry that I'm rambling). It was never love when we were in the academy, it was just infatuation. A crush.

That all changed when we became genin.

Or, rather, you changed.

I don't think you noticed, to be honest. But we all did. Well, Kakashi-sensei and I. Naruto didn't because he was... Naruto.

I hate you so fucking much.

You would smile more. Well, not really smile, the corner of your lips would upturn. Even though it was only the slightest thing, it was noticeable to those of the more intellectual disposition.

I thought you were finally beginning to like me. I thought maybe you didn't hate everybody as much as you believed you did. And it was nice.

And then you left.

I understand why you wanted to leave, because I felt the same way you did. I wasn't getting any stronger under Kakashi-sensei, I was merely wasting away while you and Naruto defend me at every turn. From Wave to the Chunnin Exams to Gaara, you always had to step in to save me. It's not that I minded you saving me at first, Sasuke, after all, a dashing prince has to rescue a fair maiden, right? But then it got ridiculous, and I felt like a burden to everyone. So, I offered to go with you. To leave my entire family and friends, my home behind, just to be with the one I loved.

And you said no.

And I sincerely thank you for that.

Without you telling me no, and without you thanking me, I wouldn't be the woman I am today. I wouldn't be one of the most highly requested ninjas of all time.

But, fuck you. I hate you so, so much Sasuke. So very much.

And then, we met again.

I had trained for three whole years under you, Sasuke. I had fought and bled and cried myself to sleep each night waiting for you to come home. You didn't, but I kept on getting stronger.

And my love for you grew.

When Naruto came back, I was over the moon. He still wanted you to come home, and he would do it. I had faith in him. Naruto Uzumaki would bring you home, and we could all be a team again.

You completely disregarded me when we met at Orochimaru's hideout. You didn't even spare me a glance. I was nothing to you.

But I didn't see it. I thought you still liked me, because you didn't try to kill me. I thought we could save you from yourself.

Then I tried to kill you.

I really, really wish I had.

And I could've. You were almost out of chakra, and my kunai was poisoned. You would've died, and that would've been the end of it.

You know why I didn't kill you, Sasuke? It wasn't because Naruto wanted you home. It wasn't because I was scared of the repercussions with him. It wasn't because I was scared you'd end up killing me.

I didn't kill you because I loved you, Sasuke.

I loved you so much..

And then you joined our side in the war, and I was so, so happy. We had you back! You were working with us, and we worked together as a team. You smiled, and I mean really smiled, for the first time! I was over the moon. All of the fighting, all of the death, it was all eased a little by your presence.

I loved you. But now, I fucking hate you.

Why did you do it, Sasuke? Why did you feel the need, after I won, to give into jealousy!? We could've all been happy, and we could've been Team Seven again! At that point, it wasn't about love, we all just wanted you back Sasuke. We just wanted you home..

But, instead, you killed Naruto Uzumaki. Your friend, your rival. Your brother.

You killed him without a second thought, because you're a selfish, disgusting piece of work. You murdered a man that had just achieved greatness, that for the first time in his life was acknowledged by everybody around him. He was to be The Sixth Hokage! But you, you took that all away from him, didn't you!? All the blood and the sweat and the tears he poured into every moment of his life, just trying to reach his dream and become acknowledged, that was all he wanted!

But you, and your selfish desires, and your petty jealousy, and your black heart had to ruin it all. You had to take him from me, a man I saw as a brother.

So, I killed you.

You murdered Naruto in cold blood, and I chased you down, and we fought. We fought long and hard, and we refused to give in to one another.

But I won. Because I was better than you.

You got cocky because of your Mangekyo Sharingan, and because you're an Uchiha. Everything can be countered and reversed, Sasuke. Everything.

And I regret nothing. When I crushed your skull as you looked up at me with horrified eyes, I did it with pride. Because you deserved to die. You were a monster, Sasuke, while your brother as a victim of circumstance.

I loved you more than you could ever know. We all loved you, Naruto loved you more than I loved you, in fact. We would've done anything to you. But you threw it all away, only this time, you took one of my precious people with you. And I can never forgive you for that.

Kakashi-sensei was right, this was therapeutic. I'm glad I got my feelings out, and wherever you are in hell, Sasuke, I'll be joining you soon enough. I'm sure of that.

Goodbye, Sasuke Uchiha. I always loved you.

Signed, Sakura Haruno.

PS: I fucking hate you.

PSS: I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE YOU WOULD DO THAT, I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH! FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU!

PSS: I miss you both so much.