I've had terrible writers block. I've not been able to think of one thing to write for either of my stories even though I know exactly what I want to happen. It's annoying, but with this I am trying to push through it, so please blame the block if this is terrible. Lol.
Sorry about the wait.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Twilight.

Chapter .20.

I watched as Jasper's face lit up in excitement and love. He grabbed me and kissed me harder than he ever had done before pulling back and telling me the only thing I needed to hear in that moment.

"I love you too, Bella." This time I grabbed him and kissed him. He responded desperately and we lay together for what I would happily say was an eternity before we remembered the rest of the world. He pulled away, clearly reluctantly, and helped me up.

"We'd better get back to the others, they'll be wanting to comfort you." I nodded and let him lead me back to the wolves, not entirely wanting to leave the beach.

We got back and the first thing I saw was Sam and Emily, he was holding her so tightly and protectively it looked like he would never let go, he didn't even seem to notice us come in, but the rest of the guys did.

Straight away I was engulfed in a hug by Paul, he didn't even seem to mind that Jasper was stood not even an inch away from us. Once Paul let me go, one by one the others came to hug me. Last was Sam, which he pulled Emily into as well, clearly not wanting to let her go.

"Bella, I am so, so sorry that we didn't get to you sooner, what you went through, no one should ever have to go through that, not under our watch." I smiled up at Paul as he spoke.

"It's okay, really, I'm okay and at least she's dead now, she can never hurt me again." I smiled at them all and was engulfed in a big group hug, the most surprising part about the hug was that Jasper was included. It made me smile.

After, the hugs, the comfort and the apologies, Emily practically forced me ad Jasper into staying there that night, saying that none of them would be able to sleep if I went home, saying that they would be too worried. I, of course, tried to argue that the threat was gone but she wouldn't have it and Jasper seemed to think staying with the wolves was a good idea, so we were stuck in the guest bedroom I had woke up in with the noise of four snoring wolves in the living room not too far from us.

I lay snuggled up to Jasper under the covers but my mind just didn't want to relax. Everytime I closed my eyes Victoria's rage filled face and flaming hair would dance across my eyelids. I couldn't think about anything else even though I knew she wouldn't be able to hurt me again. Jasper could obviously sense my restlessness but he kept quiet, leaving me to think about the day's events.

I wasn't sure how long it had been, possibly an hour, possibly two, since I started trying to get some sleep but eventually I admitted defeat. I shifted position so I was lying on my belly and faced Jasper. He looked down at me and smiled.

"Is everything all right?" He asked, moving his hand from my hair to my face and starting to stroke my cheek. I shook my head and leaned into his hand. "What's troubling you Bella?"

"I just can't get it out of my head, can't get her out of my head." He leaned down and kissed my head, pulling me closer to him.

"You just have to remember that she's dead, she's never coming back."

"I know, but I think it's just going to take me a little bit of time to come to terms with that and with what happened." He nodded and kissed me. Knowing exactly what I meant.

"Is there anything I can do?" He asked as I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes.

"Just tell me something, anything, I just need to hear your voice." I felt him smile as he kissed the top of my head; I think he liked keeping his lips in contact with my body.

"Well actually I do have something I need to talk to you about. And I'm guessing now is better than ever." Hearing the tension and reluctance in his voice made me look up at him.

"Go ahead." I encouraged.

"Well, before Laurent got hold of me I was on the phone to Carlisle. He wants to know how you are, how you're developing and getting along with things." Jasper stopped talking and I knew there was something more.

"And?"

"And he wants to hear from me personally, to go to see the family in Alaska." I nodded, that wasn't what I wanted but I couldn't keep Jasper away from his family and, even though they had left, I had no real hard feelings towards them.

"When do you leave?" I asked. He looked at me curiously for a moment before he spoke again.

"Day after tomorrow." I nodded. It felt like too soon, he'd only just got back and I still didn't feel all too safe, but if he needed to go then who was I to try to stop him, after all I knew he'd come back.

"Okay, we'll have to spend a lot of time together tomorrow then won't we." He smiled and kissed me.

"You are wonderful, you know that." I grinned and kissed him, slowly, passionately.

"Yes I do." I said as I pulled away.

I lay back down onto Jasper and was thankful when sleep finally engulfed me.

I woke up the next morning after a night of restless sleep. The noise coming from the kitchen made it sound like there was a herd of hungry elephants rampaging through the house. Damn those wolves were noisy.

I sat up and saw clothes on the end of the bed. The strange thing was that they were mine from home.

"Jasper did you…?" I asked, not able to finish my sentence.

"Yes I thought you'd feel more comfortable in your own clothes." I moved over to him and kissed him.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome. Why don't you go get a shower and I'll let them know you'll be out soon." I smiled and nodded and then did what he said.

Having a shower was nice and relaxing after the restless night's sleep I had. I didn't take long though, knowing that Jasper was leaving tomorrow made me anxious to get the day started. I washed quickly and dressed even faster. I left the room to find Emily sat in the same seat as the day before. She took her clothes off me and told me to get something to eat.

I walked into the kitchen to find no empty seats, typical. Jake got up to let me sit down and they all stopped grabbing the food, letting me fill my plate before they started to devour the rest of the food.

It was all delicious and I was happy to sit there and slowly fill my belly until it would burst, but I was too eager for my day with Jasper and I ended up giving myself hiccups because of how fast I ate.

"In a hurry to leave us Bella?" Sam jokingly asked and I felt bad confirming his question.

"Actually I am. I need to –hic- see Charlie and I have a lot to do at home and I really just want to –hic- spend a day with Jasper." Sam smiled and nodded in understanding

"Well, I hope you'll come round again soon Bella." Emily said as she hugged me goodbye.

"I will, I promise." I said as I hugged everyone else before we left.

We drove back to mine in a comfortable silence and I was happy to be properly alone with him.

When we got back to mine I found a note on the kitchen table telling me that Charlie had gone on a weekend long fishing trip with Billy and Harry, which meant he had never known I was gone. I laughed at the small twist of fate and smiled at Jasper.

"So, now that I don't have Charlie to worry about, what shall we do today?" He grinned and pulled me to him, planting small kisses down my neck making me moan and bite my lip.

"Well, we can do anything you like until about five in the afternoon when we will have to be at my house."

"Okay, how come we have to be at yours then?" I asked but I didn't really care for his answer as his lips were still working away on my neck.

"It's a surprise." I wasn't bothered about any surprise so I let it drop.

We ended up at Jasper's straight away. He picked out his a few of his favourite films, Gladiator and 300, and I picked out two of mine, Grown Ups and Role Models (you can't go wrong with a good comedy) and we picked one of each. We ended up watching Gladiator and Role Models, thankfully in that order, before Jasper insisted he make me lunch.

I watched him as he cooked and it was so natural to him that it made me think about him as a father. He would suit the role so perfectly, even as a vampire, that it made me crave pregnancy, I wanted to have his children more than anything else. I smiled at the thought of a blonde haired, chocolate eyed young boy, play fighting with Jasper and a curly, dark haired baby girl sitting in my arms giggling at her big brother. It was such a vivid image that for a split second it felt real, and I wanted it more than anything.

Jasper placed my food in front of me and I ate without really tasting, I was too caught up in the image of the children we would never have.

"Bella darlin' what's wrong?" I looked up into his gorgeous kind eyes and smiled.

"I just… well…" I didn't know how to start.

"It's okay, you can tell me anything." I smiled and kissed him softly.

"Remember that dream I had about us getting married?" He nodded. "Well remember how vivid it was, how real it felt?" He nodded again and I could see that he was wondering where I was going with this. "Well I just had a little image pop in my head and it was like that, it felt so real."

"What was the image?"

"It was of us with our kids, you were play fighting with our son as I held our baby daughter. It felt so real." Jasper smiled at me but it was a sad smile.

"Bella, you know we'll never be able to have kids don't you." I nodded and sighed, suddenly not very hungry. Jasper pulled me to him and settled me on his lap. I hugged him close to me and felt like crying for those gorgeous little children we'd never have. But I couldn't cry now, because Jasper was leaving tomorrow and I didn't want to ruin today.

"What should we do now?" I asked.

"The other films?" I smiled and nodded.

300 was a bit too gruesome for me but having Jasper cuddled up to me made me feel better about watching it. I was really glad though when we put Grown Ups on. Half way through the film Jasper checked his phone and I saw that it was almost five o'clock, it made me really wonder for the first time what this surprise was.

It was only a few minutes later that I heard a car pull up outside Jaspers house. Jasper grinned and got up. He opened the door and greeted whoever it was, but neither spoke.

"Come this way." Jasper said and led this mystery person into the living room. I turned and looked up as they entered. Jasper followed by Emmett and Rosalie.

"What's going on?" I asked as Emmett grinned at me and Rosalie smiled very slightly.

"Did you really think I'd leave you alone after what's just happened.".

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KV =D