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Chapter 23.
Empty. That's how I felt once Jasper was gone. I never thought I could feel so alone and, well, empty, but I did, without Jasper I was just a shell of myself.
He'd been gone eleven days and although I spoke to him every night, I hated that every night he told me he'd have to stay a little longer and I hated even more when he had to go, but the loneliness after the line died was the worst.
It didn't help that for almost two days I had been sick, puking my guts up after every meal, just the smell of food made me nauseous, except pancakes, I was practically in love with pancakes.
I was currently eating a huge batch of pancakes made by Rosalie who turned out to be an excellent cook. Of course she was sharing them, occasionally Emmett would steal an entire pancake and shove it in his mouth whole which made me and Rose giggle, which brought back my nausea.
"Maybe you should go to the doctors." Rose suggested as I heaved over the toilet. Once the horrible churning in my stomach stopped I sat up and flushed the toilet.
"I just don't think it's something to worry about, it's probably just a stomach bug, people get sick all the time." I started brushing my teeth.
"Yeah, but you're not just people Bells, you're different." Emmett said from the door, watching me brush my teeth. Once finished I looked at him and sighed.
"I know I just don't think it's something to worry about and neither should you, anyway me being different is another reason I shouldn't go to the doctor, what if they notice I'm a freak." Rosalie gave me a stern look but Emmett spoke before her.
"You're not a freak, Bella, you're special." I smiled and kissed his cheek before squeezing past his huge frame and back into the kitchen.
"Thank you Emmett, but I'll be fine, I'm sure." The conversation ended there and they left me alone. But the sickness didn't give in and by the two week mark after Jasper left I was exhausted, I was barely eating or sleeping and he noticed.
"Bella Darlin', are you alright?" He asked on the phone that night. I sighed, knowing I wouldn't be able to keep this from him.
"I've just been unwell for a few days and it's really taking its toll on me."
"What do you mean unwell?" He asked, the concern and worry extremely evident in his voice, it made me smile.
"I've just been being sick a lot and I'm barely sleeping, at first I thought it might be a stomach bug but now I'm starting to think maybe it's the separation from you, I'm sure I'll be fine when you come home, which will be soon, right?" He sighed this time and I knew what he was going to say.
"I don't know Darlin', Carlisle has said he needs more time and he wants me to stay so we can work it out together, your blood samples have come back very strange Bella."
"What do you mean, strange?"
"Well we noticed that your cells are regenerating at an exceptional rate and, out of curiosity, we added venom to your blood and it fought back, the venom couldn't grab hold of it like it would with a human, he thinks you're now immune to venom." I gasped, I knew this was something that they had never seen before; venom could take hold of anything.
"This wasn't what I was expecting." Was all I could think to say.
"I know, same." I heard a door opening and closing on Jaspers end. "Esme's just got home." He explained.
"Tell her I say hi." I heard muttering on Jasper's end and when he spoke there was a smile in his voice.
"Why don't you tell her yourself." And the phone was passed over.
"Bella?" Was Esme's soft motherly voice. She sounded nervous and I knew I couldn't be mad at her for leaving; I still loved her like a second mother.
"Hey Esme, how've you been?" A happy gasp escaped her lips and I heard her sob.
"I've been good Bella, how are you?"
"Honestly a little ill but I'm sure I'll be fine." I heard another sob from her.
"Well, I hope you'll be fine." And she lost it. Her sobbing increased exponentially and I could hear Jasper comforting her.
"Esme, what's wrong?" I asked softly, comforting her as much as I could over the phone.
"It's just…We left. And I thought," sob. "You would…hate me. I'm so sorry Bella." Sobbing.
I smiled down the phone and I knew she would be able to hear it in my voice. "Esme, I could never hate you, I understand you thought you were doing the right thing, and I know Edward can be extremely manipulative, I don't blame you." Her sobbing continued but she didn't sound so hurt anymore.
"Thank you sweetheart, thank you." She must have moved away from the phone because I could barely hear the sobbing anymore.
"Thank you for that Darlin', I know she needed it." I could hear the smile in Jasper's voice and I had never been more thankful for my forgiving nature.
"Anytime."
"I have to go now Bella, Carlisle will be home soon and I need to set up." I sighed and I knew he hated this as much as I did.
"Okay, I love you Jasper."
"I love you too Bella." And the line went dead.
I barely slept that night, but then again, I barely slept most nights without Jasper.
The next morning I was woken from a restless sleep by my phone ringing. I considered not answering it but I would have hated missing it if it was Jasper (although that wasn't likely), so I lifted my body off my bed and answered.
"Hey B, how've you been?" Paul's cheerful voice called through the line and I smiled. I hadn't spoken to Paul since just after Jasper left, apparently the arrival of more Cullens had set off a sort of chain reaction and three more wolves phased within twelve hours of each other. The rest of them were all too busy training the new wolves to hang out so they'd asked me to stay away for a few days. I was glad to have Paul calling, it would be nice to hang with the wolves.
"Hey Paul, I've been okay, considering, how are you?"
"I'm great Bells, everyone wants to know if you're coming down to meet the new wolves, so get your cute butt at Emily's within the next hour or I'm dragging you here myself." And he hung up. I smiled and got up. I made sure to shower and I grabbed a bag containing my phone and purse, before skipping breakfast and getting in my truck.
As my I drove to La Push I realised that I could now run faster than my truck, it was a weird thought. Within half an hour of Paul's phone call I was pulling into Emily's driveway hearing happy chatter and laughter from inside her house.
I smiled as I walked up to her door. Before I could get up the porch steps I was engulfed in a wolf hug from behind. I laughed, turned around and hugged back, noticing that it was Jacob.
"Hey Bells, how ya been?" He asked as he let me go and we walked into the house.
"Okay, I guess, how about you?" He grinned brightly and shrugged.
"Same old." I turned around to see Sam, Paul, Emily, Quil, Seth and Leah in the kitchen. Emily was cooking and everyone else was eating. I smiled at them all and Emily and Leah came over and hugged me.
"It's great to see you Bella." Spoke Emily before she went back to keep an eye on another batch of muffins.
"Hey, guess who made it on to the pack, lucky me." Her voice was dripping with sarcasm as she hugged me and I smiled.
"Getting to run around with a bunch of half-naked guys all the time, yes you are lucky." I joked and she giggled. She dragged me over to a seat and shoved her plate towards me, passing me a fork. I gave her a quizzical look.
"You look like you haven't eaten in days." I rolled my eyes and took a bite of the eggs. By stomach churned a little but other than that they went down well. Paul got up and shifted Quil out of the seat next to me so he could sit with me. I smiled as he gave me a half hug.
"She's right you know, you look like shit." I laughed around the eggs in my mouth. "Have you even been eating, or sleeping?" I swallowed.
"Barely, I've been ill." He nodded but didn't push it any further.
Everyone chatted and Leah told me she was the first female wolf ever, it was a bit of shock but she seemed proud of it. I noticed that Emily was snapping every now and then and that shocked me, he was always so lovely.
After a while all the wolves left saying they were going to do some training leaving me and Emily alone together, I was glad for the alone time so I could ask her if everything was alright.
She sat across from me with a cup of coffee between her hands. She started down into the dark liquid and I could tell there was something on her mind.
"Emily, is everything alright?" She looked up at me and smiled.
"Yeah, just the wedding planning is really getting to me and Sam's mum keeps trying to butt in and tell me what she thinks we should do which is really annoying, plus my period hit today which is a bummer." She was ranting and by the look on her face she hadn't meant to say the last bit.
"Is there something you want to tell me Em?" She blushed and smiled.
"Please don't tell anyone 'cause we're doing everything we can to keep this a secret which is obviously very hard for Sam with the wolf mind and everything." I smiled at her.
"It's okay I promise I won't tell anyone."
"I know you won't Bella, I trust you." She took a deep breath before she explained. "Well, you see we'd both wanted to have kids as soon as possible but with Victoria on the loose we thought it was a bad time, but now that she's gone we've been trying every chance we get these past few weeks and I was late so I got my hopes up but this morning I woke up and got a huge disappointment." I got up and hugged her, she hugged me back and smiled.
"Thanks Bella, I really needed to get that out." As I pulled back I took a deep breath through my nose to answer her and got hit intensely with the smell of her perfume. My stomach churned violently at the floral chemical smell and I felt my body starting to heave. I bolted for the bathroom and barely made it to the toilet before the retching started and I was throwing up every last little thing in my stomach. After what felt like forever I sat back and leaned against the sink. I wiped the sweat of my forehead and turned to see Emily watching me from the bathroom door.
"Are you sure you're not pregnant?" She smiled with humour and I was about to reply that I wasn't when it hit me.
I was just over a week late, and I was never late. Everything started to fall in place, my new aversion to most foods, the nausea, the vomiting, my new almost obsession with pancakes. But it didn't make sense if I was pregnant, which is completely impossible as vampires can't have kids, I would be barely a few weeks and there was no way I would be having all these symptoms so soon. Not unless the baby's affected by yours and Jasper's vampire genes. A small annoying voice spoke in my head and I knew it was true.
I looked up at Emily to see it dawning on her face.
"Oh my, God you are aren't you? You're pregnant. I thought Vampires couldn't get pregnant." There was shock in her voice.
"So did I." There was silence for a moment.
"You have to tell Jasper." Emily's voice was calm but I was a bundle of nerves on the inside.
"What if I'm not and my body is just reacting badly to my separation from Jasper?" I asked, grasping at straws even though I knew there was no point.
"There's only one way to find out." She moved across the room and opened a cupboard under the sink. She pulled out a little box and passed it to me. "I'll be in the kitchen." Then she left.
I was on autopilot as I took the test, and I was an anxious mess as I waited the three minutes for the result. I washed my mouth out with their mouthwash and wrung my hands over and over. What did it mean for my baby if I was pregnant, what would my baby be? How was I going to raise a child when I wasn't even out of high school? And how was I going to explain to everyone about my freakishly fast pregnancy? Because just by how fast the symptoms came on I knew this pregnancy would not be normal, just like my child wouldn't.
I turned back to where I'd put the test on the edge of the sink knowing instantly when the three minutes was up. It took all of my courage to look at the little stick and I gasped as I read the word on the small screen.
My hands flew to the bottom of my belly as I gasped. "Pregnant." I whispered and I felt a small nudge against my hands where they rested on the slightly rounded skin of my abdomen.
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