Not the Same Chapter 10: 97 Problems, a glee fanfic

So my birthday was this week. I was going to be 16 and able to drive. I don't think that there was much more to it than that. What I didn't like was that my parents always threw a formal birthday party that didn't really have many people my age there, though maybe that will change this year. I don't know if I'll be able to convince my father to allow Quinn there. They haven't seen each other in three years.

I sat in Glee club, wondering what we were going to do this week. Before Finn could speak, Sam got up.

"I'm sorry to interrupt, but I suggest that we take a break and point out that our very own Charlie Fabray is celebrating her birthday this week." He stated. I blushed at that.

"You know what, that gives me an idea." Finn remarked. "You're 16, right?"

"Yes." I confirmed. That followed by him writing 1997 on the board.

"This week we are going to sing songs from 1997." Finn declared. "Charlie do you want to start us off?"

"Okay…" I replied as I uneasily got out of my seat. "This is a song that my mom used to sing to me as a lullaby when I was a baby."

How do I get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life

And tell me now

How do I live without you? I want to know
How do I breathe without you? If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I
Oh how do I live with you?

Please tell me baby
How do I go on if you ever leave?
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know that you're everything good in my life?

And tell me now

How do I live without you? I want to know
How do I breathe without you? If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I
Oh how do I live with you?

"I love that song." Sugar admitted. I didn't really need a reaction from anyone. Once practice was over, Sugar came up to me. "So my family got invited to your party this week. I was wondering if you wanted to hang out at it."

"Well I was going to invite Marley and Sam's going to be there." I pointed out.

"You can hang out with more than just your best friend and your boyfriend." She argued. I guess she had a point. It wouldn't hurt to have more.

After school, I was going to meet Quinn. She was throwing me a small party in the apartment. I guess I was glad to spend some time with my sister.

"So what are you doing in Glee this week?" She asked curiously.

"Well Finn had the idea to do songs from 1997 in honor of my birthday." I explained.

"I know a good one." She said as she sat at the piano.

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like I'm an angel
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you

I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child I'm a mother
I'm a sinner I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
And you don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child I'm a mother
I'm a sinner I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

"So I have something that I need to tell you." I responded. She perked up. "Sam told me that he loved me."

"What did you say?" She quizzed.

"I didn't say anything. We were both falling asleep and I want to pretend that I didn't hear it." I stated.

"You know he's going to say it again." Quinn pointed out. "Do you love him?"

"I don't know, okay." I explained. "I'm not sure what love feels like. I don't know what to do when he tells me for real."

"You probably need to figure it out." Quinn responded. "You shouldn't lead him on like I did."

"I'm not leading him on. I like him. I definitely like him." I pointed out.

"It's going to be okay." She replied as she gave me a hug.

"I really wish that you could be at my party." I told her.

"Our father banished me and frankly, I'm glad about it." Quinn admitted. "You're going to have to deal with it on your own. You'll have friends there, won't you?"

"Yes." I responded.

"I did get you something." She replied. "We know that you're getting a car for your birthday, so you're going to need this."

She pulled out an iPod touch. I opened the box and found out that there was an inscription on it.

"Hey, Charlie, have a bitching birthday, Slash." It read. "How did you get this?"

"I made some connections and managed to get a hold of him." She responded. "I would have let you meet him, but he was busy this week."

"You are the best friend sister ever." I replied as I wrapped my arms around her.

"I'm glad that you like it." She said, chuckling.

The next in Glee, Ryder was in the center of the room. You know I forgot to say earlier that the Warblers were disqualified and we were retroactively declared the winners.

Oh this is what you do, this is what you do
This is what you do, this is what you do

You make me wanna leave the one with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come with
You make me, you make me
You make me wanna leave the one with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come with
You make me, you make me

Before anything began between us you were like my best friend
The one I used to run and talk to when me and my girl was having problems
You used to say it would be okay, suggest little nice things I should do
And when I go home at night and lay me head down all I seem to think about is you

At this point, the situation's out of control
I never meant to hurt her, but I got to let her go

And she may not understand it while all of this is going on
I tried, I tried to fight it, but the feeling's just too strong

You make me wanna leave the one with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come with
You make me, you make me

Okay, so I could tell that Ryder still liked me. This made things even more complicated.

The following night was my party. I was in my room getting ready with Marley. I had loaned her one of my dresses to wear. I really didn't like that I had to do it like this.

"I don't want this party." I stated.

"You don't need to be so down. It's your birthday." Marley pointed out. "I know how to cheer you up."

"Why does everyone sing to get emotional reactions out of people?" I asked.

"I guess it's just a good way to practice." Marley remarked. Okay, that's plausible.

I've been long, a long way from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos
And drank till I was thirsty again
We went searching through thrift store jungles
Found Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampoo
And Benny Goodman's corset and pen

Well okay, I made this up
I promised you I'd never give up

If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

We've been far, far away from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos
And everywhere in between

Well okay, we get along
So what right now if everything's wrong?

If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

"Okay, I'll admit, that does make me feel better, but it would have been better if you played it on guitar." I critiqued.

"There isn't a guitar in here." Marley responded.

"Do you know how to play?" I questioned in surprise.

"Jake has been teaching me." She answered.

"So how are you and Jake?" I questioned.

"We're good. I want to tell him that I love him, but I'm not quite sure how." She admitted. I couldn't give any advice in that regard.

We went downstairs and found some of Lima's wealthiest, and Sam, were at the party. It was really more of a gala than a party. It's kind of ironic that my best friend and boyfriend were both lower class. We found Sugar and I took the two of them to the cake. I needed to let Marley know that she could have cake. I wasn't going to be blowing out candles, so the cake was free reign.

"Okay, so isn't as fun as I hoped it would be." Sugar admitted. "So I have a bit of an issue."

"What is it?" I questioned.

"I like Artie and we danced at the Sadie Hawkins, but I kind of do want a guy who can move his legs and I kind of like Joe." Sugar explained.

"You just need to decide who you want more." Marley suggested before I noticed Sam walking to me. He had a microphone.

"So I can't get really afford to get you some super present, but I can give you the gift of music." He stated.

Finally, I figured out, but it took a long, long time
Now there's a turnabout, maybe cause I'm trying
There's been times, I'm so confused
Down my road, will it lead to you
Just can't turn and walk away

It's hard to say what it is I see in you
Wonder if I'll always be with you
Words can't say it, I can't do
Enough to prove it's all for you

Rain comes pouring down, falling from the sky
Words without a sound, coming from your eyes

It's hard to say what it is I see in you
Wonder if I'll always be with you
Words can't say it, I can't do
Enough to prove it's all for you

Hard to say, whoa it's hard to say
It's all for you

Sam then walked over to me and Marley and Sugar dispersed from my side. I felt like we were alone in a crowded room and once again, I felt uncomfortable.

"Charlotte Fabray," He started. He used my real name. I had a feeling that this couldn't be worse. "I just wanted to tell you and everyone in the room that I love you."

Okay, I had to do something. I couldn't just leave him hanging. I don't know if I could make the words leave my mouth. I instead just kissed him. That seemed to work. Everyone woman in the room, seemed to like it, including my mom. I guess even rich women liked romance. I didn't know what I was going to do though. It was like there was something wrong with me. I couldn't tell him that I loved him. I had to figure this out soon.

The next day after school and after Glee, I found Ryder was in the auditorium.

"I broke up with Jordan." He replied. Jordan was more commonly known as Neckbrace Cheerio. I don't know why she always wore a neckbrace. I'm surprised that it hasn't healed by now.

"So what are you here to tell me that you love me too?" I asked him.

"I don't know if I love you, but I really like you and I would never do anything to hurt Sam." Ryder replied. "He's my friend."

"Well, I don't know what to do." I vented. "I just can't say that I love him. I can't think of a good reason why I can't. It's not that I don't love him, but I can't say it."

"Is there anything that I can do?" Ryder asked.

"You can hold still." I requested. I probably shouldn't do this. I know I should do this, but I need to figure out if I can feel things. I needed to see if I was normal and I could feel emotions for people. I got up on the stage and walked over to him. Against my better judgment, I pressed my lips against his.

So I originally thought that Naked was the episode after this one. I wanted to do this chapter before I did Naked, because it's going to involve Charlie trying to work on her emotional issues and also coming clean to Sam, but don't expect them to be over for good. The songs in this chapter are "How Do I Live" by LeAnn Rimes/Trisha Yearwood, "Bitch" by Meredith Brooks, "You Make Me Wanna By Usher", "If It Makes You Happy" by Sheryl Crow and "All for You" by Sister Hazel. Please don't forget to review.