A/N: in this chapter you get to see a glimpse of what bounces around her mind. :) just read on you will see. It's a tad longer than the others so just bare with meh.

Ch. 5

The next morning I hugged myself, trying to warm up. I loved the cold chilling air, but after a while you lose the feeling in your fingers and toes. I inhaled deeply and exhaled, my breath visible in a cloud of smoke. Rubbing my arms and my legs trying to gain some sort of body warmth. I was shivering and the moister in the air wasn't helping.

I shook my head, the thin strands of my matted hair brushing my shoulders making me shutter. A shaky breath was the only noise that was heard in the now silent chamber. Ever since the two brutes left, everything was quiet. I hated this silence. I made as much noise as I could to comfort myself. The silent cell screamed as I trembled at the non-existing noise.

I stared to whimper, a small whine came from my mouth. I didn't care if anyone could hear me. I just couldn't stand it any longer. I'd rather have the vulgar screams of agony then the silent whispers of death ring in my ears. My feet tapped on the icy surface, I kept shifting my position to rile up some sound. I was completely on edge, ever so restless. With every movement I let out another small whine only loud enough for my own ears to hear.

My body started to ache at the cold air, making my joints creak. I decided moving too much was somewhat painful, having nothing to do but sit here or walk around. I chose option two, my clothes made minimum clatter as I got up. I made sure to step as heavy as I could to have the mind numbing noise sing to my ears. I hate everything about the quiet. It bothered me to no end.

'I have to keep thoughts in my head to keep me from listening to the nothingness. The silence is what kills me the most. I won't be able to keep this up for much longer. The cold air mixing with the moist air and my joints freezing up. I have to keep moving no matter what. I need to make noise I need to keep thinking. I have to. I have to. I have to. I have to….' I inhaled a long exaggerated breath. My thoughts bouncing back all around my head. I couldn't comprehend some of them as the intertwined with each other at an exceedingly fast pace.

My body started to match my thoughts, twitching and turning randomly from one side to the next. Pacing in random directions, at a fast skip like walk. My hands shook and trembled and my eyes glazed over. Having a minor break down, my legs started to wobble and I started murmuring complete nonsense to myself without realizing it.

A loud bang made me freeze. My thoughts and movements stopped at the sudden intrusion. I heard footsteps approaching. I smiled to myself. I backed up to the wall and squat down and let my hands curl around my knees.

It was Deidara. "Get up. Leader- sama wishes to see you, yeah." He waved his hand opening the cell then walked to me. "hm." I grunted to him. I wasn't going anywhere. He offered a hand to help me up but only got a glare in return. "What, un?" the blonde mad now had an annoyed face. "Come on, don't make me drag you girl."

"Youfnjnjnb…." I mumbled. "What was that, un?" he raised an eyebrow. "I said, where were you? You left, but never came back." I don't know why these words left my mouth but I felt oddly angered by the blue-eyed boy then stood in front of me. He covered his mouth with the back of his hand laughing, he actually laughed at me.

Making an unpleased growl at him I buried my head into my knees. "Go away," I said childishly "I want to stay here." He stopped his giggling fit and looked at me. "That wasn't an option, un." Suddenly I was lifted by my arm up into the air onto my feet, "See that wasn't so hard was it." He smiled I glared at the sight in front of me. "I'm sorry, yeah?" I shifted my weight and attempted to pull my arms away from his grasp.

"You happy now? Let's go we can't leave Leader-sama waiting." It was then I felt something wet touch the skin on my arm, which the blonde had in his hand, I shrieked. "What is that?" I said surprised, I'd forgotten all anger I held towards this man. Deidara slightly frowned and held up his other hand. It had a mouth on it, its tongue stuck out and wiggled at me.

My eyes grew wide and I inhaled only to yell out "Whoa! That's sick!" Deidara flinched at my words "I know." He growled. "….its freaking awesome!" I smiled and with strength I never knew I had I ripped my arm out of his grasp and grabbed his other hand and observed it intently watching the mouth. Deidara was shocked and let me stretch his arm closer to my face to inspect his hand. My eyes beaming as I watched the small cavern interact with itself.

I massaged the hand to see what it would do and its tongue reached out and licked my thumb liking my movements and I snickered. Then Deidara pulled his hand away and smirked "Come on, yeah." I could tell the man was stunned by my new demeanor. "Only if you let me hold your hand. They are so fascinating." He chuckled. "Alright fine, as long as you just get a move on it. Leader-sama wishes to see you now, un." The last of his words were bitter and slightly daring me to refuse.

Deidara led me back to the room I was once before I sentenced to the dungeon like chamber. I took note on the turns again to make sure I remembered the way through, only reversed. here 'Right, left, right, right, left ,right, right, left, left, annnnd right once again.' I was practically skipping awhile having Deidara's hand in mine. I played with it squeezing his hand and it licked my palm in response. Before I knew it we were there.

He knocked on the door and released my hand much to my disappointment. "Enter." A familiar voice echoed from behind the door. Deidara opened the door letting me walk in first and bowed to the Leader-sama. 'I refuse to bow to anyone.' I heard a voice say and I looked around and behind me but I saw no one else in the room besides us three. I shook it off as we approached the orange haired man standing on a raised platform.

"Deidara you may leave." His voice was emotionless and had an almost aristocrat tone in it. The blonde bowed one more time and said "Yes Leader-sama." and left without another word. I watched him leave then was drawn away from him by Pein clearing his throat. "Now that I got your attention I apologize for my actions the other day, I was restless and took it out on you no doubt." I just nodded accepting his words.

"And I also apologize that I haven't got to see you sooner….I've had….other previous engagements to tend to." I nodded once again, his voice was strong and honestly intimidated my small demeanor slightly. I gulped as his eyes bore a holes in my skull. "Now I'm going to ask you one more time and this time I am expecting an answer. Who are you?" his attitude changed dramatically and so did the atmosphere of the room.

I tried to speak but no words would come out "…." My mouth just opened and closed. He watch me struggle with my words but didn't falter his hatful glare. "….I…" I finally choked out. His eyebrow raised in waiting for me to go on. "….I….I don't know." The last part was softer than a whisper.

He growled. "Honest I don't remember. I can't even remember my own name, if I knew I would surely tell you! I'm not that type of person to lie," my voice gained its courage getting to a normal tone now but only to shrink once more "….well I don't think." His face went blank once more his hands folded together in front of him. "Don't play with my patients' girl."

He started to pace and roared "I've been nothing but the utmost polite for someone in your situation. You get through the traps without triggering a single one, you dare to snooze right outside our base, you sleep in a cell which most girls your age would cry in but yet you fall asleep there, I'm told that you shoot unexplainable lights out of your eyes and your chest without having any once of chakra that anyone here can sense, yet you deny it all happened," he took in a deep breath and softened his tone as he spoke more. "You also refuse to tell me your name, and at utmost importance your voice changed from the last time we have met. It's like you have more than one side to you that I yet don't understand…." His voice trailed off and he put his hand on his chin and stopped his pacing.

He stood still stroking his chin for several seconds before turning to me. Pein put his hands behind his back and started to walk towards me. "You are a strange creature, a peculiar human, a civilian, yet you stand here as if you aren't intimidated by the god that stands before you." He was right, I couldn't deny any of his words, and I even struggled with them myself. Like a switch was flipped in my head, my whole personality slowly changed. I grew more confident during his speech standing taller, prouder making myself look bigger to show I wasn't at least a smidge bit intimidated by him.

The only thing that I could do was stay still not backing down from my new stance, not showing any sign of weakness. Pein stood before me baring his eyes in mine, his demanding eyes into my determined ones. He broke the stare first looking over my shoulder "Deidara." He bombed by my ear.

The door opened with a creek, "Yes Leader-sama." "Take her to one of the available rooms. Winter is on its way and I can't have her dying from frostbite before I can fully question her." "Yes Leader-sama." I felt fingers grab the hem of my tattered shit and tugged on it to lead me away. Pein's and my eyes locked once again, and I wasn't going to back down.

The headache was back. I involuntarily growled. I saw a spark in the orange hair man's eyes that I couldn't read. I was pulled once again by Deidara's fingers tugging at my shirt more roughly this time. I started to walk backwards what my eyes lock on Pein's. I wasn't backing down.

'I won't back down. You don't scare me you filth. How dare you challenge the likes of me!?' The dark voice went on a rant inside my head and I didn't snap out of it till the door closed in my face. I inhaled sharply being brought back to the real world. I turned around to meet Deidara with a slight smile.

He led me away from Pein's lair. He stopped and turned to look at me. His face was frozen, confused, "What the hell was that, un?" My face copied his as I spoke "What do you mean Deidara-san?" He face changed into shock. "What do I mean!? You had a…..never mind, yeah." He lost interest as he saw my face and we heard footsteps.

Emotion swept his face once he spotted Kisame walking toward us. They shared a nod, Kisame purposely glared at me while walking away. He passed and I watched him thoroughly "Better keep her on a short lease Deidara, before Hidan gets ahold of her. She'll be dead in 2 days tops." He waved his hand as his back go smaller and smaller. My mouth once again ran on its own as did my body turning to the blue man. My voice went to the cold tone which I've come way too familiar with. "That should be entertaining."

A/N: it will all be explained in the end. There is a reason for the different voices and the slightly off personality of the character. So if you want to know why she is so conflicting read on! lol As always follow and review if you want meh to keep writing this story. :3