Characters aren't mine. I've taken the liberties I wanted for the storyline, but the characters belong to Showcase and Lost Girl.

2 for 1 update to celebrate the Seahawks win!

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Chapter 8

"Tamsin? Are you even listening?"

Tamsin looked up at Bo with a slight glare as she sighed and stared at the file in front of her. After she'd left the Morrigan's office she dropped Lauren off at her loft and headed to the Dahl to have a bit of liquid therapy and hopefully forget today ever happened. She had no clue as to what Evony was really talking about and she couldn't figure out why the Dark Fae leader had such an interest in the symbol of the Originals. She'd managed to have a few drinks before Kenzi and Bo turned up and after a bit they'd left the bar and headed to the police station where Dyson was waiting on them. He'd called Tamsin and Bo and told them to come down ASAP because he might have found something that would give them some inkling as to what was going on.

They'd been in the interrogation room for about half an hour going over the case file as Dyson explained he'd discovered a string of victims with similar MO's in Mexico and Scotland, all in the past month, all with the same tattoo. Aside from that Tamsin had basically been tuning him out as she was still trying to make sense of the Morrigan's threats. She knew the woman could be ruthless when she needed to be and Tamsin had a bad feeling that whatever Evony was playing at would result in bad news.

"Lauren, thanks for coming."

Dyson pulled out the empty chair next to Tamsin and handed her a copy of the files he was going over with the other three. Lauren glanced at Tamsin curiously wondering why Dyson was the one who called her down to the police station instead of the Valkyrie but she let it go. She opened the file and glanced at the pages in front of her before looking up with a confused look.

"This makes eight more victims…all with the same markings. It doesn't make any sense."

"Maybe it's not supposed to."

Lauren looked at Tamsin in surprise at her nonchalant comment. She gave her a concerned look but was cut off from saying anything by Bo's annoyed voice.

"You know if you have something better to do you can leave."

Tamsin just smirked at the Succubus, part in frustration and part in result of the effects of the alcohol she'd consumed shortly before they arrived at the police station. She gave Bo a bored look. "And miss all this fun?"

Kenzi looked over at her with raised eyebrows. "Okay what's with the Mean Girl attitude? Maybe you can tone that down a notch or two?"

Tamsin rolled her eyes and silently sat back in her chair as she continued looking straight ahead. Lauren leaned in closer to her and whispered softly to her, "Are you alright? Does this have anything to do with your conversation with the Morrigan earlier?"

Tamsin shook her head but wouldn't look over at her. She took a breath before responding in an equally soft tone, "No, and I'm fine."

Lauren didn't look convinced but she didn't say anything more about it. She looked back at the group and raised her eyebrows. "Well, I think perhaps we would benefit from contacting Katya and seeing if she has any more information on these murders."

Dyson nodded and looked over at Bo who also nodded. The two of them looked at Tamsin who looked bored and annoyed as she nodded her head in agreement.

"Okay, well until we can do that I think we should hold off on speaking with Vex. I have a feeling he knows more than he will let on."

Tamsin looked over at Lauren in surprise at the Doctor's comment. She didn't know Lauren was so adept at reading situations and she was happy to comply as this delay in speaking with Vex would also delay their progress with the symbol. "Okay well until we hear back from our crazy European cousin maybe we should just call it a night?"

Kenzi looked amused. "Boy you just can't wait to get back to your alcohol can you?"

Tamsin raised an eyebrow at her. "Says the girl with the free bar tab."

Kenzi nodded in agreement. Bo watched their exchange with some curiosity before shutting the case file. "Well, since it's still early, I wouldn't mind heading back to the Dahl."

Dyson and Kenzi nodded their heads. Lauren looked over at Tamsin and put her hand on her shoulder as she addressed her softly. "Maybe you can come by the loft first? I think we need to talk."

Tamsin gave her a stare for a few seconds before nodding her head. The group gathered up their things and agreed to meet Lauren and Tamsin at the Dahl. As they were leaving Lauren and Bo walked out first discussing the symbol and its possible meaning while Dyson followed closely behind. Tamsin pulled Kenzi aside and gave her a serious stare.

"I need you to do me a favor."

"That depends. What is it?"

Tamsin bit her lip. She didn't know if she could totally trust Kenzi but she figured the Goth was a better bet than her partner who she still wasn't completely convinced wasn't part of the bigger scheme that the Morrigan was planning. She sighed as she looked down at Kenzi with hopefully not too mean of a face. "I need you to keep Bo busy for a few days."

Kenzi gave her a sly smile. "Why? You got something planned with the Doc and you don't want her snoopin around?"

Tamsin rolled her eyes. Sometimes this human could be so juvenile. "No, I just need her to stay out of the way for a bit until I can figure something out."

Kenzi looked confused. "Figure something out for what? What is going on Tamsin?"

Tamsin looked around a bit before looking back at Kenzi. "Nothing, I just need you to do this okay?"

Kenzi put her hands on her hips and looked up at the Valkyrie with an annoyed look. "Not until you tell me what the hell is going on."

Tamsin licked her lips. Maybe this wasn't the best idea. "I just need you to trust me. Some shit is going down and I don't know exactly what but I need to figure it out before anyone gets hurt."

Kenzi's eyes went wide in shock. "Are you telling me Bo's in trouble? We need to tell her so she can go kick whatever it is's ass. Not sit here and hide it from her."

Tamsin put her hands up in frustration. "Keep your voice down. Look, I swear I'll fill you in later okay? But for now I just need you to do this. Can you handle it? Discretely?"

Kenzi looked skeptical. "And what am I supposed to tell her?"

Tamsin shrugged. "I don't know. I thought scheming was kind of your thing?"

Kenzi rolled her eyes. "Fine. But I can't promise you more than a day or so. You know Bo, when she has her mind set on something it's hard to distract her."

Tamsin looked a little concerned. "I know."

Kenzi nodded. "And you owe me. Big."

Tamsin nodded and Kenzi gave her one final glare before turning on her heel and walking out of the police station to catch up to the others. Tamsin sighed as she followed the petite human out and was met with Lauren and Bo waiting for them.

Bo raised her eyebrows. "Everything okay?"

Kenzi nodded casually. "Yep. Just needed a girl moment. Now let's go…I'm feeling a bit parched and I noticed Trick had the good stuff out tonight."

She headed towards Bo's Camaro with not so much as a glance at Tamsin and Lauren as she walked off. Bo gave Tamsin a quizzical look but didn't say anything as she nodded at her and followed Kenzi to the car. Lauren turned to Tamsin with a curious look in her eye.

"Are you sure everything is alright? You've been extra quiet ever since we left Evony's office earlier."

Tamsin just nodded and took her keys out of her pocket as she started to walk to her truck. "Everything is fine. I'll follow you to the loft."

Lauren sighed as she got into her car and the pair drove towards her residence. Once there they entered the loft quietly and Tamsin immediately went to the liquor cabinet and pulled out a bottle of whiskey she'd left there for times like this. She opened the half empty bottle and Lauren watched her take a long drink before walking over to the couch and flopping down with the bottle between her knees. Lauren set her bag down on the table and walked over to where Tamsin was sitting to join her on the couch.

"Okay Tamsin, enough. What is going on?"

Tamsin took another drink before looking at her with what Lauren could see were slightly blurry eyes. Tamsin leaned back and laughed manically. "You know what's funny? I always thought I'd die in some epic war or something. I mean really…isn't that the point?"

Lauren looked at her cautiously. "Tamsin, honey, you're really starting to scare me. Please tell me what's wrong."

Tamsin looked over at Lauren sadly and spoke quietly. "I don't want to scare you."

Lauren sighed softly as she reached for Tamsin's hand. "Then please tell me what's wrong."

Tamsin looked at her for a long time and Lauren could tell she was internally debating if she should say something or not. Finally Tamsin looked away and raised the mostly empty bottle to her lips as she finished off the amber liquid in two large gulps. She wiped her mouth with the back of her hand before letting the bottle drop to the couch cushion haphazardly. She tugged Lauren closer with the hand the Doc was holding as she reached up with her other hand to cup the back of Lauren's head.

"Tamsin…"

Lauren's protest fell on deaf ears as Tamsin leaned in and kissed Lauren softly but forcefully. Lauren pulled back slightly and stared into her eyes with concern and sympathy. She didn't know why Tamsin was acting like this but she didn't like it. Tamsin pulled Lauren close again but Lauren put her free hand up to stop her and Tamsin looked back at Lauren with a pained expression.

"Lauren please…just let me…"

Lauren held her at bay for a few seconds as she studied the broken woman in front of her. Whatever happened to her between this morning and now was really spooking the Valkyrie and Lauren felt powerless to help. It wasn't lost on her that the taller blonde called her by her first name, something she almost never did, and that combined with the gentle tone of voice she used more so than the way Tamsin was acting really concerned her. When Tamsin leaned in again Lauren didn't stop her and she could feel the emotion behind the kiss as if Tamsin were trying to convey comfort, love and fear all at once.

Tamsin pushed Lauren down on the couch and let her body rest on top of the smaller woman lightly. Everything in her mind was screaming at her that this was not the solution, but with all the alcohol flowing through her veins she was blatantly ignoring her common sense. If Tamsin thought about it, this was the exact opposite of what she should be doing right now, but since she didn't know how to deal with the situation and her emotions that the Morrigan so obviously was taking advantage of. But her mind wasn't quite working as it should and she pushed all coherent thought out of her mind as she kissed the Doctor gently and let her hands wander aggressively over the body of her human lover.

"Tamsin…maybe we shouldn't…"

Tamsin ignored her again and kissed her way down Lauren's neck as her fingers fought with the buttons on her shirt. Lauren took Tamsin's face in her hands and lifted her head slightly to try one last time to convince her this wasn't the solution. Tamsin looked into her eyes for a second before ducking her head and resuming her trail of kisses down Lauren's neck and over her now exposed chest. Lauren sighed as she felt her body give in to the Valkyrie's ministrations and she could feel her heart break a little at the way the taller blonde was handling her obviously emotional dilemma.

Clothes were shed quietly and Lauren noticed that Tamsin seemed to really look at her, well as best she could through her slightly drunken haze, and Lauren felt exposed on a level that she hadn't yet experienced with the Valkyrie. Tamsin took her time mapping out Lauren's body and when she entered her she swallowed the moan that escaped Lauren's lips with a ferocious kiss. This experience was unlike any the pair had shared before as there was usually some level of playful banter or loud moans of appreciation but tonight was different. It was quiet and gentle and when Lauren looked into Tamsin's eyes as she entered her Lauren could see the pain and heartache the Dark Fae was holding inside.

The women moved against and inside each other both trying to bring the other some sort of comfort. Lauren was trying to show Tamsin she could handle her shit and help her deal with whatever was haunting her, while Tamsin was trying to convey to Lauren that under everything that had happened and would happen in the future, that for right now, this was real. This was her best shot at expressing real feeling to the human and she was almost certain she would hold on to this memory until the end of her existence because for a few moments she felt loved.

Loved.

The word had eluded Tamsin for many many life cycles, but this time it caught up to her. She never believed in needing someone, in loving someone because what was the point? Her existence was to bring death and suffering to those around her. Not to develop feelings for another person and in doing so open up a weakness in her armor. No, for many centuries, Tamsin had been the stoic warrior she needed to be. But that's all gone now and what she was left with was the one thing she never wanted to be. She was left with love for someone so pure that Tamsin would easily end her life or anyone else's who dared try and harm the woman beneath her. Tamsin never believed in love because in giving yourself to someone you become weak. And she was anything but. But somewhere along the way, even Tamsin couldn't deny she'd fallen for the Doctor. She didn't know if it really was love or not, but it was something more than she'd ever felt in any of her lifetimes. To make matters worse, the Morrigan was aware of her weakness and Tamsin knew she would use it to her advantage. Like any good battle-minded being, Tamsin knew the Morrigan would apply pressure where it hurt most to get her way. Tamsin needed to figure out a way to keep Lauren safe without endangering her further but she had no idea where to begin.

As Tamsin felt Lauren climax she took note of the way Lauren kept her eyes on her and silently surrendered herself willingly. Tamsin's breath caught in her throat as she watched her human lover's face contort in pleasure and pain as she embraced the situation they had found themselves in. As Tamsin continued to help Lauren ride out the wave of her climax she leaned down and kissed her gently. She kept her eyes open and noticed that Lauren did the same as their lips met in a soft embrace. After Lauren's body calmed down Tamsin stilled her fingers inside her lover and sighed softly into her neck. When she looked back up at Lauren she felt a strange emotion she couldn't quite identify as a single tear escaped her eyes and she whispered the only thing that came to mind.

"I'm sorry…"

Lauren looked at her sadly and brushed away some of the hair that had fallen over her face. "What are you sorry for?"

Tamsin just shook her head as she leaned down and let her head rest on Lauren's chest. She listened to the calm breathing of her human lover and sighed as she thought about how to answer that question. She laid there for a long time and after a while she noticed that Lauren's breathing had evened out indicating that she'd fallen asleep. Tamsin lifted her head gently and watched Lauren sleep as she took in how tired Lauren looked and Tamsin finally realized the past few months had really taken a toll on the Doc. Tamsin licked her lips as she pushed herself up and off of her slowly and covered Lauren's body up with a blanket smiling at how Lauren scrunched her face at the loss of bodily contact with the Valkyrie. Tamsin threw on her clothes like a woman possessed as her mind had suddenly cleared and she had a single thought in her head. Before she left she walked back over to Lauren quietly and kneeled down next to her. She placed a ghost of a kiss on Lauren's forehead before standing and looking down at her sadly. 'I'm sorry for loving you' is what she should have said but she knew those words would never make it past her lips, at least not in this lifetime. She walked out of the loft with a determined look on her face as she jumped in her truck and headed out into the night ready to fight and protect, no matter what the cost.

So what did you think? I'm not trying to make Tamsin a martyr by any means, but I felt it was important to see her motivation, at least for the time being. Next chapter should be more of the Kenzi/Bo/Dyson story as they get settled into the situation as well. Let me know what you thought and thanks for reading!