Chapter 4

What if she doesn't like me? What if she thinks I'm weird? I have nothing to offer her, who am I kidding? I'm a nobody, she is probably still after that mutt anyways.

What was I thinking? I should be belittling myself, after all, everyone adores her with her perfect family, perfect life, everything she wants giving to her like air.

While all I have is a lowlife of a dad who, don't get me fucking started, I told him if I saw him again it will be the last time anyone ever see's him. My sisters and brothers, well I never really liked them because they all adore him, apart from Katie. She followed me when we stayed at the Cullen's after the Volterra came. She got adopted by Rosaline who still treats her like a baby, but she's not complaining because she is only six in appearance.

Why did Alice have to bring her? They could have come on their own, but no, they know I have a dislike to her and a reason for it. I know that makes me a selfish pig. I probably am, but it's not like I care. I really don't know why I was excited yesterday, maybe because we were going to have someone like me around. My type of species, not actual vamps.

My life has to be a fucking mess and everything else in it. Huilen's was going to leave me to visit someone in Asia, someone who is an old friend, as she put it, and then I'm lumbered with miss perfect, great.

Finally I arrive at the airport, great.

I had to wait an hour, really? Couldn't they tell us the right time? Oh my fucking god…they had their own jet. Jesus Christ, what's next. There was the girl herself looking as beautiful as ever. "Like I care." I thought scoffing.

Alice was standing in front of me with a big grin on her face. She grabbed me into a hug and said, "Nahuel it's been too long!"

"Yeah Nahuel, where you been?" said a very laid back voice coming from behind me.

I spun around, "Jazz, my man, what's up?" he laughed and pulled me into a hug.

"Great, now that I've seen you. Esme says she misses you a lot," he replied in the same laid back voice.

"I'm sure she does, where are your bags?"

"Jazz, help Nahuel with the bags. I have to talk with Nessie." She gave us a small smile and then turned to Nessie who had a confused look on her face. I wondered if I should say hello, but I decided against it.

"Yes Ma'am! Will there be anything else with that order?" Jasper said. I laughed and then stopped when she gave him a I'll deal with you later look. He's in for it now!

We hurried to get the bags.

"Jeez man, did they bring their whole wardrobe? Why can't women just bring one bag?" he grinned back.

"My thoughts exactly, but as they say, women are women." We worked as fast as we could, which was fast five times faster than an average human, so it only took us 4 minutes. New record!

When we came back for Alice and Nessie, they were still talking. They were talking so fast I couldn't even hear anything, just a steady buzz, women. When they finally noticed us, they smiled.

"Jazz get the car, I want shotgun."

" Alice it's my car, I should drive." She just smiled and walked right up to me stared me in the eyes.

"I'm the guest," she paused to laugh, "My vision might actually come true." What fucking vision? This means I have to sit back with the spoiled princess, great.

I got in the opposite side of the car. Nessie and I accidently touched and I felt a shock go through my body. "Nahuel has changed, I don't remember him being this way. I like it when he smiles and that dream he was in, he was, I know it was him, I know it." She look over at me and gasped with horror realizing that I had seen everything. She moved over as far as she could, and I did the same. Why would she even care?

The rest of the journey went in silence. You might've guessed there was a party in our driveway with the noise Huilen was making.

She dashed for Alice and then Jasper. I pitied them, and then it was Nessie's turn to get hugged.

"Oh Renesmee, it's so good to see you!" She smiled so big she would look like a crazy woman to the humans.

"Huilen, call me Nessie." She smiled back the same way. "Oh, Nahuel, look how much she has grown up." We went inside and talked for hours before Nessie yawned and Huilen sent her to bed. I was told to show her to her room. I only carried one of her bags. Jazz was going to carry the rest up later. She was quiet the whole time, but I was too tired to comment so I opened her door and threw her stuff in before wandering down the hall to my room, which, conveniently, was right beside hers. I sprawled myself over the bed and fell asleep.

APOV

" Alice , what's wrong? Is something up?" I could hear the worry in her voice, but I had to stay calm, I had to for her sake, or things were going to fall apart.

" Ness , Jake is coming. I don't know when, but he's not happy you never told him were you were going. I'm here with you, and I will never, I repeat, never let him hurt you." She looked at me with worry etched in her beautiful face. It's a lot of pressure for her to deal with, but I will help in any way I can, just to see her smile again.

" Ness , Nahuel will come around. It's a lot for him to take in. You're the only one with a mother and father who think your god's angel, but Nahuel thinks he belong to the devil. He's not, but he blames himself for his mum dying." Nessie nodded in response.

" Alice , I could have killed my mum if dad wasn't there." She bowed her head in shame.

"Nessie, you're not to blame, but you have to remember that Nahuel's dad wasn't there for his mum, and he only used her. You have to think of how he's feeling. What if Edward never changed your mother?"

She didn't say anything but I knew she understood.

" Ness ," she looked up behind her bronze curly hair. " Ness I have to leave in a few days, but not until after Jacob comes." She looked shocked, I could see it in her chocolate brown eyes.

" Alice , why I can't stay with him by myself?" I had no idea who she meant, mainly because I was thinking more about Jacob. God I hate that mutt so much, he's ruining her life.

" Ness , I will make sure he leaves. Don't worry, Nahuel will come around. I've seen it." She looked confused, but I had bigger things on my mind, leaving Ness being one of them.

"How about we put a smile on that face, and take you to Huilen's. The guys are looking slightly impatient so let's go."

When we got to Huilen's house and after Ness went to bed I needed to think of a way to get that mutt out of the picture. Jazz came behind me and kissed the bottom of my neck.

"Allie, everything's going to be ok, I can tell. Now, how about we go hunting, get away from what's stressing you out." I turned around to face my wonderful husband and smiled.

"You're too good for me Jazz, really you are. I agree, let's go. Can we take Hulien? She needs to hunt for her trip tomorrow." Hulien had to leave Nahuel a message and after that we left ran into the shadows of the night.

A/N well this is were I got to last time lol it's way better now thanks to xxxcullenloverxxx my new editor who fixes all my mistakes. Anyways I'm taking a small break cause of exams but I will post by the start of june it just really hard to know with essays to write but I stress I WILL get back to it there so much thats gonna happen in this story to bear with me thanks for all your support it means so much .

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