Chapter2: Pain and Waiting

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No particular reason for the long wait, ohoho~ maybe i'm just lazy haha so bear with me XD

Warnings: OOCness, abuse of words, typo and grammatical errors, etc.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.

It has been five weeks since they found out about Izaya's pregnancy. Shinra has been strictly monitoring his conditions to ensure their safety and to find out if ever there are complications and side effects of the serum. Now he's nearly five months and fortunately, the pregnancy is going smoothly.

Waking up with everyday with terrible backpains and swollen ankles, Izaya don't know how he survived these. Hell, his morning sickness has gotten worse and so as his weird cravings for sweet things. It has also disappointed him that he can't even stand to smell his favorite ootoro and bitter tea. He even took a 'vacation' from his work to not over stress himself for the child's sake. How he is going to survive the remaining months, he didn't know.

"You're not even born yet and you're already giving me problems." He muttered under his breath while resting his left hand on his bulging and very noticeable abdomen, while looking at the picture taken insistently by Shinra when they found out about the gender of the child about a week ago.

He sighed and slowly get up from his swivel chair and taking a glance from the wolrd below him before turning to his room to get his rest. It's nearly midnight after all and lack of sleep is bad for their health. Thinking very deeply a she laid his aching back, he is lulled to sleep after feeling the heavenly warmth from his soft and fluffy bed.

Izaya stood there, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, as his son cried towards him, with bruises on his face, arms and legs. Out of impulse, he hugged the crying five year-old kid and carried him to their apartment. After a few comforting words and strokes on his son's back, his sobbing has ceased for a bit.

"What's wrong dear? What did they do to you?" he asked his son who has now stopped crying and wiping the tears away from his eyes. He made his son sit on the couch while getting a towel and disinfectant from the bathroom.

"Am I unloved?" his son pouted cutely, while attempting to stop the tears from coming back.

"Why would you think about that? Of course, you are loved. Mama loves you very much." Izaya kissed the little boy's forehead as he continued to clean his son.

"Do Papa love me too?" that question caught Izaya off-guard. He bit his bottom lip.

"O-Of course, Papa also loves you." Damn it, his voice cracked so he quickly placed his smiling mask.

"Mama is lying. If Daddy loves me, then he would be here and do what Papas do." He pouted. Izaya nearly forgot ow sharp his little boy is.

"My classmates bullies me and tells me how I am unloved because I don't know who my Papa is. Ne Mama, he hates me, doesn't he?" the boy looked at him, waiting for his answer and seeing no answer will be given, his little boy started to cry again and Izaya's motherly instincts told him to comfort him so he hugged him tightly.

"Sorry hero. Your Papa will never come back. He hates Mama very much that he don't want to see even my face. I'm really sorry, dear. I can't give you the happy family you want." he hugged the child closer and broke out.

The scene changed.

"My little boy! Where are you?!" Izaya is practically worried. Where is him? Why do he let his guard down? He ran in Ikebukuro, hoping to find his lost child there and also praying that he won't have run to the blonde. He was suddenly stopped from his tracks as a van screeched and stopped in front of him.

"Izaya, go in! We found your child being held by some suspicious men! Hurry!" Kadota opened the door of the van and Togusa sped off to where they saw the kidnappers. His heart is beating erratically, hoping and praying if gods truly exist, for his child to be safe. They arrived at an abandoned warehouse located in the other side of the town. As soon as the van stopped, Izaya nearly jumped from the inside to rescue the kid. 'Oh please be alright baby' He fought back his tears. This isn't the time to be weak; he needed to be strong for his child.

As he opened the door to the warehouse before he can even scream his child's name, a loud bang and a child's scream was heard and there's a puddle of blood.

Izaya opened his eyes, his face wet from crying. He sat up and he protectively wrapped his arms around his abdomen. Nothing's going to hurt his baby. His and Shizu-chan's baby. He called Shinra.

"Izaya? Is anything wrong?" Izaya can see Shinra yawned while rubbing his eyes.

"He looks like him."

"Hmmm. Just like you said, congratulations! it's a boy!" Shinra swung his hand upwards, too happy at the results. Izaya don't know what to feel at the moment. He's still disturbed by those recurring dreams which is becoming more vivid everytime it repeats. He looked at the black and white images in the sonogram, his baby, his child, definitely alive, his heartbeat's giving him hope. He smiled fondly and rubbed his bulging belly while he watched Shinra skipped while saying 'I'm going to be an uncle!'.

[Congratulations!] Celty typed rather excitedly as her hand shook while showing him the message. [I would gladly babysit him if he grows up!] he smiled for the support they are giving him.

"Shinra, can I go now?" he straightened his shirt, holding his back as he stood up and walked towards the door. Shinra nodded before he gave Izaya's monthly supply of vitamins essential for his baby's growth and mumbling a thanks.

"Celty will drive you to your apartment. It's not safe to walk to public places in your current state and people might get suspicious." Izaya sighed.

"Fine."

He is wearing loose clothing now to hide the bump. He specifically wore a large grey hoodie today so he won't be recognized as he has announced that he'll take a vacation from Ikebukuro and his jobfor a year. He has also temporarily closed his office for clients and fired Namie for his privacy. His condition is only known by Shinra and Celty and is kept a secret from everyone. Especially to Shizuo. He's the last person Izaya wants to see and to know.

"Thanks for the ride Celty."

[If anything happens, just contact us okay? :)]

"Yeah, I will." he gave a genuine smile at her. Without them, he'll be a mess right now. The two of them still stood beside him despite him being a bastard and all the bad things he'd done to them. He owed them very much he don't know how he can express his gratitude to them. He stepped into the elevator, pondering what Shinra said regarding to his dreams.

"Dreams can tell the future, Izaya. Maybe Shizuo really needed to know about you and his child. The child in your dream is seeking for a father's care and love, that only his father, Shizuo, can give. Believe me, Izaya. If only I can tell Shizuo about this, I will. I don't want to see you ending up broken because, Every child needs both of their parents, whether the parents love each other or not. Maybe inside, you don't really hate each other very much."

"I don't want to Shinra and I'm going to give birth to this child. Alone. I can handle this." he said sternly, gripping the bag of vitamins tightly.

'You're so stubborn, Izaya.' Shinra sighed and rubbed the back of his neck. "Fine. But you can't change the fact that a time will come when you needed to make up with Shizuo for the sake of your child. Take good care of your body, these next months will be the start of the crucial stages."

It's just noon but he already felt damn tired already. He sat in his swivel chair, comfort suddenly engulfing him. He looked at the oblivious humans below him as they move and move and move like restless ants, making him feel dizzy by the sight. He pinched the bridge of his nose to keep himself from falling asleep. He rested one of his hand above the now very obvious bump. He wondered how can a little unborn creature, bring a god like him, down? How can that creature broke all of his mask and show all the bottled up feelings?

How come he is hurt by the blonde when he don't see him?

I know the dream's meaning is obvious XD Still no Shizuo. This chapter is such a failure oTL . The spirit of laziness is with me. Tell me what do you think, if you want the baby to be an alternate or an OC. You can tell me that through the wonderful reviews XD by the way, the baby will be born on the next chapter so I really need your opinion on the child. :3

Sore jaa, till the next chapter~