Between Betrayal And Salvation

Chapter 7

Disclaimer: Everyone knows that I don't own Shaman King. I only own a Lyserg doll that I made myself out of newspaper and glue!

Warning: OOC NESS, Shounen ai,yoai, mature themes, emotional and sexual abuse, you get my point….

The blond itako frowned at Yoh who was sprawled out on his sofa, ignoring her and continued daydreaming about goodness knows what. Ren and the rest of the gang had went out to the groceries as instructed by Anna so she thought that this would be a good opportunity to speak to Yoh.

In fact it is better to hear it all out if there is no one in Flame Inn except for the engaged pair. It was well planned by her.

''Yoh-kun? ''

Silence.

''Yoh-kun?...YOH! DON'T MAKE ME SLAP YOU!''

Large brown eyes crinkled at the corners as the wild-haired boy looked up with shocked expression, finally snapped out of his reverie. ''Yes, itoshi? ''

Anna frowned as she took in the shocked look on her supposedly future husband. ''I talked to Horohoro. Its been a few weeks since the stupid kissing incident happened and I don't like where this is going.''

Eerily enough, as if Yoh has changed into another person, he frowned at Anna. She swore that he never frowned at her before, not even when they were little.

''So?''

''Stop this, baka. While there's still time.''

''Would you just let go of it?'' Yoh stood up and slammed his fist on the table. Anna backed away, which is something that DON'T usually happen, but then again Yoh didn't show his anger at her before either.

But she decided to press on.

''This…thing with Lyserg Diethel… You have to stop it!'' She pushed herself out of her chair and for a moment Yoh thought she was going to hit him with her infamous slap, but instead…

She dropped to the ground in front of Yoh. Tears formed in her dark eyes. Yoh was taken aback. Unsure of whether to come near her and make her tears stop dropping, or to continue waiting for what is going to happen next. Yoh isn't so insensitive as to let a woman cry especially when the said woman is supposed to be his future wife.

''How can you do this to me Yoh? After all that I had went through just for you, helping you to be the Shaman King! Darn it, how can you betray me? Choosing a GUY over ME? ''

''HoroHoro told you what I said then?''

The blond girl said nothing but Yoh already knew the obvious answer.

Yoh said nothing. Anna placed her hands on Yoh's knees and leaned forward earnestly, her dark eyes pleading with Yoh. ''I…I saw you at the Starbucks, Yoh. And I know that you've met up with him since then. Several times. Why, Yoh? Am I not good enough for you?''

''You followed me.'' It was not a question.

''I saw him, Yoh. I saw the look on his face.''

''And?''

''DAMNIT! Your stupid little plan is working! You cannot go all the way with this! And consider how are you going to explain it to your parents and grandparents?!''

''We're living in the 21st century Anna Kyoyama, most young people today don't need approval from their family for their every deed or every step they make. In fact hasn't this arranged engagement bothered you? We're basically together because other people expected us to be together. You can't keep controlling me just because you won my family's favour, I'm still me. I think I mentioned this to everyone a thousand times when people are freaked out that Hao's twin brother.''

Yoh slowly raised his head and his deep brown eyes settled on Anna's face. The itako felt a chill run through her. The look on Yoh's face. It was something she'd never seen on the boy before. Emptiness. A swirling vortex of vacant hunger, of want, that made her blood run cold. Anna shied back, frightened.

''Yoh-kun…you are not being yourself anymore…I don't know you anymore…''

''If you have known me, you would have known I am always sick of your sarcasm and bossy traits of yours. Even our engagement is out of my own will in the first place. Still it doesn't mean that I regretted we met during our childhood.''

''Are you hinting that after all these time, you actually hated me? I can change, just for you, Yoh... Please, at least I could bear you a future predecessor for the Asakura family. '' Looks like nobody ever knew that I did change after all...

''I never cared if anyone could bear me children or not since parenting is a lot of work, no? And why not, Anna dear?'' Yoh only smiled, splitting his face in two unnaturally. ''Will you stop me then? Weird, you are not like this whenever I'm near Tamao-san or the other girls. Does that mean Lyserg is too good for you? You felt threaten now? You should have treated me with respect and appreciation before all of this ever happened.''

They stared at one another for a moment, before Anna spoke up with moodiness apparent in her tone.

''I'm going to tell Mikihisa-san and Keiko-san.'' Ah, there it is again, the high and mighty Anna Kyoyama using the Asakura family as her shield.

''Don't you DARE. Don't think you can push me around like you normally do. You are not the boss of me, Anna. Jealous?''

''He's going to fall in love with you! How can you be so casual about this?! How can you be so fucking cruel?!''

''One more word from you Anna, you can be sure that our relationship is gonna be over.''

''WHAT! Idiot!'' Anna snapped. She stood up suddenly and slapped Yoh hard. ''What's so special about Lyserg?! What's wrong with me?!'' And then, it just dawned on her that she's hitting Yoh out of anger again. Oh no... Too late to take that back, she thought.

''Anna…'' Yoh didn't know what to answer to that question while holding his burning left cheek. He knew that he was trying to get back at the British boy, it doesn't mean he did think that Lyserg is better than Anna. Although he often preferred his love partner to be gentle, and comparing the two of them Lyserg is certainly more gentle despite being a guy BUT still making Anna cry like this bites at him.

''I won't forgive you'' she suddenly rasped softly. Yoh tensed, knowing where this is going.

''If you do this…I won't forgive you, Yoh. Not ever.'' The girl's eyes were red from anger and tears.

''Anna…I…I…''

''Not ever.'' She insisted fiercely.

''I'm leaving this hall.''

There was no tone or inflection in Yoh's voice that indicates guilt or regret. It was flat and empty. Like Lyserg's eyes. Anna felt tears stinging the edges of her eyes again.

''Yoh…gomen…I…just…''

Yoh looked away. ''I'm. Leaving. This. Hall.''

The girl slowly stood up and stumbled dejectedly back over to the chair. She said nothing as Yoh silently walked towards his room. It was only after he was gone that Anna became aware of the tears sliding down her cheeks.

When Mikihisa and Keiko came home they found her curled up on the chair in the dark, sobbing quietly and for the life of her, Anna couldn't find the words to tell them why.

I know this chapter is crappy and I'm not good enough at trying to express Anna's feelings. Nor Yoh's… Please review and tell me what you think! Thank you!