ERIN

We was sitting there and the waiters came with our food.

"Who had what" the waiter asked and we all looked up and we saw it was Mijo and then we looked and saw it was Chris, CHRIS BROWN and their mouths dropped open. "Well?"

"OH MY GOODNESS IT'S Mijo AND CHRIS BROWN" Marie says we all was silent all but Maya

"I had the ham and cheese omelet with a side of bacon and pancakes" Maya said we all looked at her.

"Shit I'm hungry" Maya said taking her food from Chris soon we all calmed down and got our food from them they was standing there smiling at us then I felt sick.. Oh no not right now I looked at Sarynn and I scooted out the seat.

"What's up ma" Chris says to me as I was scooting out the seat and I took off towards the bathroom and ran in to the stall and started throwing up. After I finally got done I wiped my mouth and flushed the toilet and waked out the stall to the sink and bent down and started washing out my mouth I did this a few times then cut the water off and I was handed 2 paper towels so I was guessing it was Sarynn I took them and wiped my face and took in a long deep breath then looked.

"You okay ma?" Chris asked me and I fell sick again not from being sick but nervous type Chris Brown was listening to me throw up oh my goodness. "Huh are you okay?" answer him stupid.

"Yea I'm fine" I whispered drying my hands

"Hold up" he said and got another paper towel and wet it a little then looked at me."Hold your head up some" touching my chin lifting it up making me look at him I turn my eyes from him and he started to wipe under my eyes. "There you go, how you feeling? Did me and Mijo make you sick?"

"No, I haven't been feeling too well" I said and smiled and looked down and start pulling on my shirt. "Umm so shall we" I pointed to the door.

"Oh yea, wait" he said get a paper towel using it to open the door "My mama said never use your clean hands to open a dirty door" I smiled.

"I know that's why I still had mine in my hands" I said showing it to him and we both laughed and walked out of the bathroom and I noticed Sarynn and them wasn't at our sits.

"ERIN" Maya said and I looked and saw they moved to where I guess Chris and them was sitting.

"Come on, I guess Mijo made them move" he said taking my hand and walking me to the table and I sat down next to him and I looked over the table and I saw Kid Red, Hood, Keeis, Austin, Bu, Sean Kingston,LB, Tumor, Heffa, Baby Drew, Big Pat, Kae and Teyana and Momma J… I think I was more nervous to know Ms. Joyce was sitting there I looked at my friends they was eating and talking like it wasn't nothing to be sitting here with them but Zaria had the biggest smile across her face talking to Keeis.

"You not hungry?" he asked snapping me out of my thoughts I looked at him and then turned my head to my chicken salad.

"No not really" I said I started pulling on my shirt while looking around.

"I make you nervous?" he asked as he started eating.

"No" I said peaking at him those eyes those lips I watched him lick his lips showing just a little bit of his tongue then he did it a again a little slower this time that's when I notice he was watching me stare at his lips and I looked at his face and he smiled showing those dimps and I turned my head and started to blush.

"Like what you see huh?" he asked smiling and I looked at him.

"Nawl I don't like lite skin guys" I said and throw a smile at him and he laughed and went back to eating his food.

I started feeling more and more tired but I was pushing thru it we sat there and ate more so everyone else and we talked and laughed everyone here was so cool and funny I kept giggling I even ended up giving my food to Mijo who said he only wanted to taste it and he end up eating it all and he said he'll buy me another one but I told him it was fin e I wasn't hungry. We must have sat there for the longest maybe 2 or 3 hours I won't lie I was nervous as hell pulling on my shirt like crazy my homies was all cool giggling and laughing like it wasn't nothing well Sarynn kept nudging me with her foot under the table she was nervous but she didn't wanna show it. After the check came Chris took it from us and gave it to Mijo who got up to go pay it.

"Dinner on me chill out" Mijo said running his fingers thru Sarynn's hair while walking passed and she blushed, I looked at Chris who was already staring at me.

"Welp it's time to go, it was nice meeting you all" I said and got up so did the girls and Chris shot up and stood in front of me.

"Wait I don't want yall to leave just yet, come out with us" he said he was so cute but I needed to get home and get some sleep and take some more meds.

"I would love to but I really gotta go it was so nice meeting you in person" I said looking away then back at him and smiled.

"You sure? Yall don't wanna chill with us?" Mijo said walking back to us.

"Yes sorry maybe if our paths cross again" I said and smiled and Chris then pulled me closer to him.

"Yea if we meet again then we're meant to be well at least meant to hang out" he said winking at me.

"Yea 3rd times a charm, nice meeting you" I said and waved by to everyone else and we all left. After about an hour later I was home in my bed laying there I was dead tired and all I wanted to do was sleep after I updated on tumblr pictures of the concert and pictures of me and Chris and me Mijo and my girls and Chris and Mijo the likes and reblogs was going crazy asking how was he in person.

1 month later I was at the hospital for my weekly chemo treatment, my Mom drove me I hate going I wasn't able to see Marie cause she had a cold and with my blood cell count real low I could get it and be in the hospital til I got rid of it so she had to wait til she was feeling better to be around me. And I was kinda sad I haven't ran into Chris brown at all I was looking for him everywhere but oh well he's on the move from his twitter.

My oncologist walked into the room and started vitals, IV catheter, blood draws, then infusion I sat there laying back on the bed I hate this I looked at my Mom and she held my hand and I started to cry.

"Mommy please I don't wanna keep coming back please" I begged she brought my hand to her face and cried she felt like I did tired my body was and is wasting away and this is just slowly down what's happening. So much chemo that my hair was starting to fall out more and more now to the point where I just wear it in a high bun and a bang now. I'm weak all the time they changed my meds to stronger ones if someone touches me to hard I bruise up I really can't keep nothing down and all I do is cry at night and it was confirmed that I do have less than 3 years of life to live and I can't leave my Mom alone I wanna work I wanna do something with my life but school I can't go to cause I would be missing too many class GOD WHY ME? What have I done to have this happen to me I'm still a virgin I drank once maybe twice I' good to my Mom and my friends I rarely see my Dad what did I do wrong! WHY GOD WHY? Please I don't wanna leave my Mom alone she'll die without me, I DON'T WANNA DIE!

"Please stop crying" my mommy said

"Mommy I'm tired" I said and she pulled the sheet over me and kissed my forehead.

"Rest I'm right here" my mommy said and I closed my eyes and tried to relax but couldn't really. Over the last month things have been happening such as numbness or tingling in my hands and feet, what doctors call peripheral neuropathy. And it's be very hard for me to pick up things and buttoning my clothing you know how I fucking feel having to ask my Mom for help buttoning my pants. I now have problems with balance.

A little difficulty walking and I sit in my bed most days some days til I felt rested enough for me to walk and Hearing loss I haven't gotten to that point with the hearing loss and I'm not looking forward to that, if I couldn't hear my moms voice or hear Chris Brown sing I just don't know. Soon I won't be able to speak either and me and my Mom have been learning sign language and she's been written words on card so when the time comes I can tell her what I wanna say. WHEN THE TIME COMES! All this will become worst.

After bout an hour of chemo I was done and tired my Mom helped me up and she went to talk to the doctor and I left the room I was holding on to the counter and I heard laughing and the nurses was giggling and I saw patients was in the waiting area I saw some girls all giggly. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around and saw a smiling face.

"What's up Erin, 3rd times a charm right" he said and he leaned in close to me as if he was thinking about kissing me but he wasn't sure how I would react. "Don't I get a hug?"

"Yes" I said and balance myself pretty good and hugged him he smelt and felt so good we parted some but his arms was still on my waist and my hands slid down his shoulders and came to rest on his forearms.

"So what are you doing here?" he asked smiling at me leaning in closer to my face and my heard was racing.

"Ummmm" I said think of something you can't tell him you're here for chemo "I'm here with my Mom, what are you doing here?"

"I come here a lot to meet the cancer kids and read to them and do some art work for them, this is the cancer ward your Mom has cancer?" he asked looking at me and I looked down and pulled on my shirt.

"I don't wanna talk about it" I whispered then I felt his hand on my chin and lifted it up to meet his gaze.

"Then we don't have too then so are you stuck with your Mom all day or do you wanna go with me and hang out?" he asked

"Umm no I'm not stuck with her all day" I said and smiled I grabbed ahold of his arm when I felt myself lose my balance a little.

"Erin ready?" my mommy said

"Mommy this is Chris Brown" I said pointing at him and she smiled and they hugged.

"I loved you in This Christmas and Takers, and you're all my daughter listens too" my mommy says and I put my head down and blush when I felt Chris's eyes shift towards me.

"Mommy please" I said smiling when I finally looked up "it was nice seeing you again" I moved out of his arms and walked next to my Mom and grabbed a hold of my moms arm.

"Hey wait a minute I thought we was going to hang out, maybe get something to eat" he said biting his lower lip looking at me and I shifted my eyes to my Mom.

"I don't think it's a good idea maybe some other time" I said

"Oh I need to ask the doctor something here take my keys and wait in the car" my Mom said handing me her keys and the moment I saw Chris look away I took off down the hall as fast as I could and got on the elevator. I would love to hang out with him but I don't need no outside people getting close to me only fir them to be hurt in the end I rode in the elevator all the way to the ground floor and walked to my moms car and got in soon after like 15 minutes my Mom was in the car and we was off.

"So why didn't you wanna hang out with the man you love?" my Mom said laughing

"I'm tired mommy and I don't need him knowing about me cancer makes people uneasy and they watch me like I'm going to blow up or something" I said and closed my eyes. Soon we arrived home and I went up to my room and laid there for about 30 or 40 minutes listening to Baseline.

"ERIN, ERIN COME DOWN HERE PLEASE" my Mom yelled and I got up slow and left my room and went downstairs to the living room.

"You yelled" I said smiling at her

"You have company" my Mom said and I walked more into the living room and Chris stood up and smiled at me.

"Okay maybe 4th time is a charm, I got pizza meat lovers and cheese don't know which one you like." He said and I smiled and looked at my Mom and she winked at me and left the livingroom. "So which one you like?"