CHRIS

It's been a week now and she still haven't woken up I been by her side the whole time til Edith told me to go home shower and get some sleep and she'll call me if there's any change I didn't wanna do it I just wanted to stay there with her I wanted to be there when she wakes up but I wont lie I was dead tired and pulse I started to stink and so I did what she said I went home took a shower I think I took 2 showers yes I was just that funky and then I took me a nap and I slept for most of the day longer than I planned I told Mijo and Keeis asses to wake me up in 2 hours but these niggas was just as tired as I was and fell asleep to I wasn't mad at them we been up at the hospital the whole time. now we're back again I came across a few well more than a few fans while I was there and the media knew I was there so with that they shut the hospital down rarely letting people in which I founded kinda crazy I had started using the back entrance but they found that out too so it was like a mob out there for me to get thru but I didn't care I needed to be with Erin so we finally got in and went up to her floor that was locked down no one was getting thru unless you was supposed to be on that floor.

Walking down the hall I didn't know how to deal with what was going on. I didn't know if I could be strong like she is. I know I wasn't ready to lose her. She meant so much to me and she helped me more than she knew. I walked in and saw the same faces and the 2 people who I didn't know from before I found out it was her half sister and her boyfriend I nodded to them when Edith came to me and hugged me.

"So how is she?" I asked hoping for some change.

"Same as yesterday. She's not awake" Edith said and sat back down.

"I'm going to go in" I said and walked to the nurses station and they buzzed me and big pat thru and I walked down the hall to her room got ma a mask and went in and I saw Sarynn, Maya, Zaria sitting there and I walk all the way in and they each got up and hugged me and Sarynn gave me her seat next to Erin.

"Still no change?" I asked and they all shook their heads.

"This is going to sound bad but at least she's getting some rest you know cause she's been unable to sleep lately with out sleeping pills" Maya said looking at her hands and I nodded.

"We'll give you your time with her and Mijo better have my candy or that's his ass" Sarynn said and we all laughed I laughed harder cause I knew he didn't have it. I rest my head on her leg and closed my eyes and I dozed off I was still tired. I slept for about 20 minutes when I felt a hand touch my face I slowly opened my eyes hoping no nurse wasn't feeling me up while I was sleeping and I looked at the hand and followed the arm and saw it was Erin who was touching my face and I shot up.

When she saw me her face lit up. I smiled back, trying my best to show that I was not upset…even though I clearly was.

"Chr—is" She whispered. She slowly held her hand out and I reached for it cradling it in mine."You're he-here." I could see how happy she was. It showed in her eyes.

"I'm here." I said kissing her hand. I wanted to go tell everyone she was awake but I wasn't going to leave her. She needed me and deep down, I needed her.

"Can you s-tay…..for…. a while?" She squeezed my hand and I knew it took a lot out of her to do that.

"I'm not going anywhere. You couldn't get rid of me if you tried." I said smiling as if she could see it thru the mask.

"Goo-d" She laid her head back and closed her I was fighting a battle I knew I was going to lose. I wanted to tell her so bad that I love her that I'm in love with her but I couldn't I had to wait.

"Chris" She whispered without opening her eyes.

"Yeah bae" I tucked some hair behind her ear.

"I know they call you baby M.J but I think it's going to your head" she said

"Huh?" I asked lost.

"The mask" she said and opened her eye pointing at it and she smiled and I throw my head back and laughed.

"They got them on your door they said we had to wear them to make sure we don't get you sick, you wont have our germs." I said and she reached for it and pulled it down.

"So I wanna see your ugly face." She said and smiled weakly and pulled me down to her and she slowly wrapped her arms around tears that had been building up broke through and I started sobbing in her arms. It wasn't fair.I couldn't handle it.

"I'm going to tell Pat to let your Mom and them know your awake" I whispered in her ear and kissed her cheek and she held for a few more minutes then finally let me go and I walked out the room. "Why?" The only word that left my lips "Why?" I yelled. All the nurses looked my way and I didn't care really but I had to say something or I'll be on TMZ Chris Brown goes crazy in hospital. "I'm sorry."

A nurse turned and looked at me with a half-smile.

"Don't be. It's okay. We all had our fair share of break downs. Trust me." The nurse said. I sighed and ran a hand over my face.

"Pat can you go tell them that she's awake" I said and he nodded them hugged me and walked away. I stood outside the room while the nurses checked her and I saw Pat, Edith, Sarynn and Maya come walking to me smiles on their faces.

"Why are you out here?" Maya asked walking to the door.

"The nurses are checking her and they asked me to wait before coming back in" I said

"Oh ok" Maya said and I looked at Edith.

"Edith can I talk to you over her please" I asked and she walked to me and we walked to the side of the hall near the window. I felt horrible. Yes, I was going to lose Erin I knew deep down in the pit of my stomach. I had no doubts about that. But so was her mother. And Erin was her life. She was all she had.

"Um, I was going to ask earlier but I didn't know how to." I said

"Chris. You can ask me anything." Edith said

"Is there anything I can do, to help with… Umm preparing?" I said and I couldn't say the last part. She shook her head.

"No. I can handle all of that." Edith said while staring out the window.

"What about financially?" I had to ask.

"I can't ask you for that Chris." Edith said

"You don't have to ask. I want to help, I need to." I said looking at her.

"Really Chris. I can't. You've done so much already." Edith said

"I haven't done enough." I looked down at my hands. I felt a finger on my chin lifting it up.

"Every time my little girls face lights up, it is because you, if it's your music or your videos or your tweets or if your in the room or phone. Every time she laughs it is because of something you said. Every time she smiles, it is one more smile that I get to remember. Because of you. I know you feel helpless Chris. I do too. But don't you ever think that you are not doing anything for her or for me. You do more than you know." Edith said and hugged me.

"Thank you. For giving her a place in your life that she felt comfortable around. For giving her a friendship. For making her laugh and smile and act like a kid for once." Edith said I hugged her back.

"You're welcome." Is all I could think to say. And soon the nurse said we could all come in and we did I stood to the side next to Sarynn.

"I'm sorry Chris. I'm sorry that you're going through this" Sarynn said

"Don't be sorry for me. Be sorry for Erin. Be sorry for her mom." I said

"Of course I'm sorry for them too. I can't imagine going through what Erin is going through. Or having someone I love go through this" Sarynn said and I looked at him.

"It's okay I won't say nothing" Sarynn said.

"Just the thought of her and her mom having to go through this alone makes me sick to my stomach. I'm glad I met her. She has shown me so much without even trying." I said and Sarynn grabbed my hand.

"I know what you mean. I'm glad you two have each other. But you should tell her how you feel before it's too late that way yall can have some real good times together" Sarynn said After everyone spoke with Erin. She fell asleep and the decided to let her sleep and they was going home to wash and rest then come back all of them left the room but me.

I sat down on the bed next to her and laid down, careful not to hurt her. I must have fallen asleep. I soon woke up to a fingers going up and down my face.

"Chrisssy" she sang. I opened my eyes to see her looking down at me.

"Are y-ou com-fy?" Her voice was hoarse and she was trying so hard to get the words out. I smiled and grabbed the hand on my face, holding it in mine.

"Yeah I am. Sorry." I said about to move but she stopped me.

"No it'-s okay." She said she grabbed the remote next to her but it fell out of her weak grasp. I jumped out of bed and walked around to get it.

"Here you go" I said and she shook her head and I smiled

"Hit p-lay." She said I nodded and hit the play button.

It was me when I was little one of those videos you do in the mall.

"How did you get this?" I asked. She gave me a lopsided smile.

"Joyce" she said

"My mama sent this to you." I asked She shook her head. Huh?

"She was here" she said

"She was here, when?" I asked that sneaky woman.

"Right before she left." She said and smile and I tickled her a little. I looked up at the screen and watched as I danced around. Climb in the bed with her and I kissed her face and she smiled at me.

We watched the rest of the DVD and then we talked some more. She said she didn't want to stop talking to me because she never knew when she wouldn't be able to anymore. We worked on signing again that her and her Mom was doing she was teaching me of course I got the curse words down pack. Of course it wasn't regular signing considering she couldn't move her fingers very well. I suggested her doing Morse code by blinking. She laughed..But I was serious. I also talked to her about electronic devices that would help her out with communicating. There were actually a lot. We looked some up on the internet. She said she would look them over with her mom.

After a few more days she was better she was talking more normal like she did when I met her the meds they gave her was helping her more she was happy today cause she was coming home and I was happy as shit too my baby was coming home. I was standing in the room with her, Sarynn, Edith and Maya and the nurse.

"Okay now make sure you stick to this diet.." the nurse said

"Diet smiet" she said and we all laughed

"I'll make sure she sticks to it" I said and everyone looked at me cause they knew I was a push over with her.

"I'll make sure" Sarynn says and I watched Erin rolled her eyes.

"Okay here are you discharge paper and your list a new meds to fill and start taking today and we'll see you in 2 months for that surgery" the nurse said and left the room.

"Okay I need to get dressed" she said

"Want me to help you?" Edith asked

"Nawl, the girls will help me" she said and her Mom left the room and I stood there and they all looked at me and I smiled and walked to Erin.

"I'll be right out the door if you need me" I said and kissed her forehead and touched her face and turned around and left the room.

ERIN

I sat there and watched Chris leave the room and I smiled he's so nice to me we been getting close and I really didn't want no one new in my life but Chris made his way thru all that and I'm glad I know him.

"What did yall bring me to wear so I can go" I asked and Maya put my clothes on the bed.

"So what's up with you and Chris?" Sarynn asked and I started to slowly get dress.

"What do you mean he's my friend we're friends" I said.

"Really that's it?" she asked looking at me and notice I wasn't pulling on my shirt.

"Yes I mean we hang out but other than that nothing he kisses me but either on the cheek or on the forehead like he did before he left." I said and sat down and took a breather.

"How do you feel about him?" Sarynn asked and came to me and start helping me when she noticed I couldn't button up my shorts.

"I'm crazy about him I mean I knew he was wonderful but now knowing him he's amazing person and he makes me so happy and I'm in love with Christopher , the guy people don't get to see" I said it's hard being in love with a friend let alone a famous friend who doesn't love you back.