CHRIS
After the dinner blow up I was sitting in the living room waiting on Erin to get back cause after she left as well as the girls me and the guys sat there silent we felt bad for cracking jokes, I sat there thinking to myself why didn't I stop them it wasn't right to let them make fun of her I sat there so long in my own thoughts I didn't hear the door open I was snapped out of it when Erin called my name.
"Chris" she said and I turned and looked at her and got up and went to her and hugged her.
"Hey bae how you feeling?" I asked and she just nodded her head and turned to go to the bedroom but I stopped her.
"What?" she asked looking at me.
"I want you to relax the rest of the night so come with me" I said and walked her to the bathroom and opened the door and I looked at her face.
"Oh wow Chris" she said smiling I took her purse from her and started to remove her clothes from off of her till she was naked and I walked her into the bathroom to the tub and helped her in the tub. She moaned as she relaxed into the tub.
"So you relax and let me know when your ready for me" I said and she smiled.
"Such a big tub for such a small person" she whined and pouted. And I walked to her and leaned down and kissed her forehead.
"It's all about bae" I said and she smiled again and I left the bathroom. About 35 minutes later.
"I'M READY!" Erin yelled And I walked in and she was smiling at me and I grab aloofa and some lavender body wash and started to wash her up she giggled when I got to her breast but I washed her up all over yes even there I might have lingered there longer then I should have but she didn't seem to mind. I then washed off all the soap and helped her out dried her off then walked her in to the livingroom where I had a massage table set up with a massage therapist.
"Bae this is Jessie, she's a cancer massage therapist and she'll be rubbing you down while we're here in Paris" I said and she giggled I knew why to the rubbing you down part. "Come on bae relax and I'll be back"
"Okay love you" she said and I leaned down to her and kissed her. And walked into the other room.
"Hello I'm Jessie" Jessie said and Erin shook her hand and climb on to the table. After an hour massage Erin walked into the room.
"You a naturel sweet not just beautiful
Cause you follow your heart
It makes even more special that you don't know how damn lovely you are
I would kiss a mirror every single day
If I wake up with your face
What are all these doubts fall spinning in your head
Don't you look so sad
Won't you come right here
Set the mind off you
Nobody nobody nobody's perfect but you yeah
You mean the world to me
I can't believe you're true
Cause nobody nobody nobody's perfect but you
Nobody nobody, nobody nobody
Nobody nobody, nobody nobody
Nobody nobody, nobody's perfect but you
When you stand close to me I get paralyzed
I forget how to breathe
Every place is the sake, ain't it feel so wrong
Every time that you leave
You catch me when I'm falling
You bring me back to life
When I'm dying you rise
What are all these doubts fall spinning in your head
Don't you look so sad
Won't you come right here
Set the mind off you
Nobody nobody nobody's perfect but you yeah
You mean the world to me
I can't believe you're true
Cause nobody nobody nobody's perfect but you
Nobody nobody, nobody nobody
Nobody nobody, nobody nobody
Nobody nobody, nobody's perfect but you
Yeah You mean the world to me
Nobody nobody, nobody's perfect but you
Won't you come right here
Set the mind off you
Nobody nobody nobody's perfect but you yeah
You mean the world to me
I can't believe you're true
Cause nobody nobody nobody's perfect but you" I sing
"Awww Chris" she says and I nod at the bed.
She goes and picks up the flowers and smiles then and looks at the letter.
"Can I read it out loud?" she asked smiling.
"Yes if you want" I said and she smiled then cheesed.
"Dear Erin,
Lying' here with you so close to me, It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe, I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile. I've never opened up to anyone, So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms, We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow. Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight, Just a touch of the fire burning so bright.
And I don't want to mess this thing up, No, I don't want to push too far. Just a shot in the dark that you just might, Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life. So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight. I know that if we give this a little time, it'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find, it's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right.
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight, Just a touch of the fire burning so bright, No, I don't want to mess this thing up, I don't want to push too far. Just a shot in the dark that you just might, Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life, So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight.
No, I don't want to say goodnight, I know it's time to leave, But you'll be in my dreams tonight, Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight, Just a touch of the fire burning so bright,
And I don't want to mess this thing up, I don't want to push too far. Just a shot in the dark that you just might, Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life, So baby, I'm alright, Oh, let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight. With a kiss goodnight, kiss goodnight.
I love you
Chris ;)" she read and I walked to her and pulled her close to me and she wrapped her arms around me and kissed me deeply.
"I do I love you" I said
"I love you too" she said
"Let me kick her out go head and get in the bed be right back" I said and spoke with Jessie and sent her on her way and I checked the time it was 1:30am and I went back into the room and saw Erin in the bed and I got undressed and climb in the bed with her.
"OOOHH MY BODY IS SO RELAXED" she yelled and I laughed and We were lying in bed just holding each other. Neither of us was sleeping. Just enjoying the peaceful, warm and comforting feeling of each other's arms. The silence was comfortable but of course I couldn't shut my brain off.
"Erin?" I whispered.
"Hmm?" She replied sleepily.
"What's your favorite oldie song?"
"You mean Vanilla Ice old or Lenny Williams old?" she asked
"Lenny Williams old school"
"Little Walter Why?"
"Because you are my girlfriend and I want to know everything about you."
"Eh I love his singing." She said long pause "It's just a guy who sings." She played it down.
"It's the guy who you said you love his music so it freaking important to me."
She laughed. "You're so corny Ash." I rolled my eyes. "But I love that about you."
She ran her fingers down my face and traced my lips before she leaned in for a gentle kiss. Re-adjusting herself she rested her head in the crook of my neck.
"Erin?"
"Chris?"
"What made you wanna give yourself to me I mean you held on to it so long and you was willing to give yourself to me?" I asked
"I love you and I care about you and you been so good to me and I know you've been stressed and I know me being sick added on to the stress and the media being asshole and you doing shows and going and going and going and I know your stressed out and I heard that sex relieves stress and I wanna help so I offered myself to you I mean I'm sure I'm going to become a woman with you anyway so What's the difference from now or later." She said
"You're amazing Erin but that's not what you should do just to help me out I love you and I want you to wait til we both know it's the right time not some pounding that I would have gave you, cause I would have pounded you then might have felt bad afterwards. But I do thank you for thinking of me tho" I said
"I'm ready now this night was beyond words and you can have me right now I'm ready." She said and I laughed.
"I'm glad that I make you feel that way Bae. But you know what I'm not ready yet it will be a first time for both of us. And I want it to be beautiful." I said
"Beautiful" she repeated me
"Let it be beautiful" I sang and she giggled I rolled on to my back and stared up at the ceiling.
"I wish I could do more for you." My voice cracked. She held me tighter.
"What you have done for me and what you are still doing for me is admirable Chris. You've made a difference in my life. You've given me a reason to smile and laugh. Imagine what my life would be like right now had you not came into that bathroom that day." I said
"I had to use it so bad that it could wait til after sound check." I said and rolled back over to face her.
"Thank you." she whispered. "You have a big heart Chris. You're wonderful." She leaned in and kissed me softly. "So beautiful." Another soft kiss. "And unbelievably perfect." This kiss was a little less soft and she let it linger.
"The first two were a given but I am far from perfect." I laughed. She shook her head and then lifted my hand to her lips. She kissed my hand and then cradled her face with it.
"You're perfect for me."
I gave her a shy smile. For once she had made me blush. Thank God it was dark and she couldn't see my face redden. I would have never heard the end of it.
"Do you believe in fate Erin?" I asked her seriously.
"I do." She said
"I believe that we were meant to find each other. That we were meant to love each other." I said
"Sort of like soul mates huh?" she asked
"Exactly like soul mates." I grabbed both of her hands and held them to my chest right against my heart.
"This feels like forever bae." My voice cracked again, knowing that her forever will end in 2 years and a half.
"I like the sound of forever." She said before burying her head in the crook of my neck again.
We laid there silent for a couple of minutes.
"Erin?"
"Yes Chris." She chuckled.
"I love you."
"I love you too. We should get some sleep Chris." She said cuddling up with me.
"Mmm sleep sounds good after the long, drama filled day we had." I said I kissed her head and whispered good night. I fell asleep holding her in my arms. A few hours later I woke up when the alarm went off. It was rather loud. Somehow we were in the same position that we had fallen asleep in. I was still holding her. This was the first time I had woken up cuddling with Erin I mean we slept in the bed together before but never like this all hugged up most of the time I was on the floor or at the foot of the bed. It was wonderful.
I threw my arm over and slapped the alarm clock and it fell off of the night stand she laughed.
"Remind me to never wake you up. "She said and smiled with her eyes still closed and went back to cuddling with me. "You have to get up Spence." I ran my hand through her hair and kissed her head.
"No. Too warm." I groaned.
"Never seemed to matter to you all the other times we have slept together. The alarm went off and you got up" she said
"This is the first time I have woken up in your arms. Usually I wake up cold." I said
"Let's just sleep in then." She said
"That sounds so tempting." I said the alarm clock started ringing again from the floor and it startled us. I jumped out of bed and nearly fell to the floor trying to turn it off. Erin couldn't hold back her laughter. And I glared at her.
"Sorry Chris. I don't know how I have slept through you and your issues with the alarm clock." She said
"It's not usually that loud." I put it back on the night stand and I watched Erin as she stretched. I caught a glimpse of her stomach and I couldn't take my eyes off of her. I don't know how I was looking at her but she looked at me curiously.
"What?" She asked.
"Uh. Nothing." I said and smiled
"What?" She asked again. Not buying my answer.
"You're so beautiful." I said and winked at her, she smiled with a bit of a blush and then I got back on the bed and she started crawling towards me. She straddled me and leaned in for a kiss. She hovered above my lips and whispered
"I love you."
"Right back at ya bae." I said "We have to get up at some point."
"Some point meaning sometime this afternoon right?" she said hugging me.
"This afternoon?" I asked and looked over at the clock. It was just after 8 a.m. I can't believe we were already up considering we were up to nearly 3.
"Did you have plans?" She asked while lacing our fingers together.
"Yep. And they involve you and me, and something I got very special planned for you." I said and kissed her then suddenly she pulled away and hopped off of me and off the bed. She was almost out the door when she turned around.
"You getting up now?" she asked
"Well since I am fully awake now, yes I am getting up." I said and she chuckled and walked out the door.