MIJO
Later that day Erin, Marie, Maya and Zaria was all there and was all over my house packing up Sarynn's stuff.
"This yours" Erin asked
"Yea" Sarynn says I walk in to the room.
"Hey can yall give me and Rynn a minute please" I say. They nod and leave the room. "Talk to me as your friend.. Sit next to me"
"Nope I'm good" she says
"What I do?" I asked
"I think you know what you did" she said
"I think we both embarrassed ourselves this morning" I said
"I don't wanna do this with you, I need to leave and get myself together" she says I can see her holding back her tears and I can see she's broken. "I'm going to go Erin yall"
"Sarynn look at me" I say and I get up and go to her. "look at me if you want to go I'll let you go as much as it kills me" I hug her tight "Sarynn" she backs up and goes to her bags and wipes her face and grabs them and the girls come back in and get more boxes and bags and Erin walks in sits down and starts bagging the last of Sarynn's things.
"Erin what did I do wrong?" I asked
"She told me all the shit you said to her from what she told me was some hurtful shit. You called her a cunt and told her to get her shit and get out and that's what she's doing. There's no more blunt than that tho so she's doing what you told her to do she's leaving." Erin says
"I didn't mean it I was mad, like I'm sure stuff she said she didn't mean and she's still leaving tho" I say
"She's hurting and she can't heal here not after the blow up yall had you need time as well to see if yall really wanna be together or just stay apart cause all that fighting is unhealthy, for both of yall. Give her time" Erin says
"I know but I love her" I say and Erin slowly walks to me and pulls me into a hug.
"Then love her enough to let her go and heal Barry" Erin said
"Your right" I said and Erin kissed me on the cheek.
"I know I'm right" Erin said and broke the hug and walked back to the box and put tap on a box.
"So where's she staying?" I asked
"I'm not telling ou that" Erin said smiling at me.
"I know I had to try" I said
CHRIS
**1 WEEK LATER**
I was hyped for what was about to happen I work hard for 2 weeks to get this set up and it was finally time and I couldn't wait I had pulled up to the arena and got out and I waved at the fans happy to see them here. Me and the crew walked in and was brought up to my dressing room.
Everything was ready. Everyone that needed to be here was here. We were just waiting for one thing. Erin took an unexpected nap. She was getting weaker and naps were becoming a two or three sometimes four a day thing. And she was downing those 5 hour drinks like crazy sometimes they worked sometime they didn't, she would get this burst of energy that was great then she would lie in bed to tired to move.
"Are you ready Chris?" Zaria asked plopped down next to me on the couch.
"Yeah. I'm a little nervous though." I started playing with the ring on my finger.
"Why? You've done this a thousand times." Zaria said
"This time is different. It's special. I have to be perfect today." I said
"Chris you don't have to be perfect. Erin is going to be so happy; do you think she cares whether or not you're 'perfect'? No." Zaria said She reassured me and put her arm around me.
"I guess you're right." I said and gave her a friendly bump.
"Duh." Zaria said
I shook my head. "I'm still nervous." I said
"Just have fun Chris." Zaria said
Around 2 hours later the preshow had started and Erin and her Mom was finally here they came walking to the side of the stage and I had Erin brought to the stage and I walked out to her and help her to the middle of the stage.
"Chris?" she said
"You inspire me to be a better man and in your honor I started a charity and a foundation in your honor is called A KIND HEART foundation and it deals with family and people who suffer with cancer and all the money raised here goes right to that charity and we got a show for and everyone else here" I say and the crowd cheered the look on her face took away all of my nerves. She was so surprised. Her eyes were wide and she held her hand over her mouth.
"Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. Seriously?" She said she couldn't contain her excitement and I'm sure if she could jump up and down she would have.
I hugged her and kissed and walked her to her seat close to the stage so she could see the show real good the best seat in the house. I had songs ready for her that I knew she was going to love I may or may not have snuck a look at her playlist "My Fave's" on her I-pod last week while she was sleeping. Most of the songs I already knew. A few we had to practice cause the dance steps been awhile.
"Erin I know you wanted to come to one of my shows and it really sucks that you couldn't. Sooo, bring the show to you." I said She was grinning ear to ear and clapping her hands.
I nodded to the guys and they nodded back signaling they were ready and we started the show.
"Ay girl, tell me what you're taught
Pretty motherfucker, I'm a put you on the wall now
Ay, girl, you can get it all
Cause I know you like the way my beat go
Beat go beat go beat goooo
Ay girl, tell me what you're taught
Pretty as a, pretty as a picture on the wall now
Ay, girl, you can get it all
Cause I know you like the way my beat go
(Bassline)
Girls like my (Bassline)
Girls like my (Bassline)
(B-b-baseline)
Shake it to my (Bassline)
Gonna make it to my (Bassline)
Get butt naked to my (Bassline)
(B-b-bassline)
Said them girls like (Bassline)
Girls like my (Bassline)
Girl, you know you like my (Bassline)
(B-b-bassline)
Shake it to my (Bassline)
Gonna shake it to my (Bassline)
Get butt naked to my (Bassline)
(B-b-b-b-bassline)
Yeah, I'm getting money, I'm a name my price
Thousand bottles, on these models; nigga, this ain't your night
Frank mule got a nigga chillin', how the bitch feel with ice
My bassline to her waistline, a nigga 'bout to bust them pipes
I'm wildin', money piling, two dime twins when their thighs bend
In a way I can make Bruce Lee want to throw the towel in
Man, life is just so glorious, you could never worry us
You niggas just be playin' then gravy in notorious
I said them girls in the front, bet that Breezy make 'em jump
Over here we got that loud, over there they got this bump
Boy, we do this every night, you got to save up for a month
And you just say I'm blowing smoke, but nigga, I'm just being blunt
(Bassline)
Girls like my (Bassline)
Girls like my (Bassline)
(B-b-baseline)
Shake it to my (Bassline)
Gonna make it to my (Bassline)
Get butt naked to my (Bassline)
(B-b-bassline)
Said them girls like (Bassline)
Girls like my (Bassline)
Girl, you know you like my (Bassline)
(B-b-bassline)
Shake it to my (Bassline)
Gonna shake it to my (Bassline)
Get butt naked to my (Bassline)
(B-b-b-b-bassline)" I sing
"You have reached your destination" woman s voice Turn Up The Music start to play.
"Turn up the music cause the song just came on
Turn up the music if they try to turn us down
Turn up the music, can I hear it til the speakers blow
Turn up the music, fill your cup, and drink it down
If you're sexy and you know it, put yo hands up in the air
Put yo hands up in the air, girl put yo hands up, hands up, hands up, hands up
If you're sexy and you know it, put yo hands up in the air
Put yo hands up in the air, girl put yo hands up
And
Turn up the music (just turn it up louder)
Turn up the music (I need it in my life, yeah)
Turn up the music (just turn it up louder)
Turn up the music (I need it in my life, yeah)
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh (turn up the music)
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh (turn up the music)
T-t-turn up the music
T-turn up the
Turn up the music cause the sun just came up
Turn up the music if they try to turn us down
Turn up the music, cause I'm tryna hear the speakers blow
Turn up the music, fill your cup, and drink it down
If you're sexy and you know it, put yo hands up in the air
Put yo hands up in the air, girl put yo hands up, hands up, hands up, hands up
If you're sexy and you know it, put yo hands up in the air
Put yo hands up in the air, girl put yo hands up
And
Turn up the music (just turn it up louder)
Turn up the music (I need it in my life, yeah)
Turn up the music (just turn it up louder)
Turn up the music (I need it in my life, yeah)
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh (turn up the music)
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohhh (turn up the music)
Save my life (just dance with me)
All I wanna do is party, so DJ turn it upppp
Girl, dance with me (just dance with me)
Girl, can I see that
I really wanna touch that
Baby can I feel that (t-turn up the)
Turn it up (just dance with me)
Turn it up (just dance with me)
Turn it up (just dance with me)" I sing and the crowd was going crazy and I looked over at Erin who was smiling. Fine China starts to play.
"WHHHOOOOAAAA" Erin screams and I smile
"Owww
Ho
Owww
Baby, does he do it for you?
When he's finished, does he step back and adore you?
I just gotta know 'cause your time is money and I won't let him waste it
Oh no no
Baby, just go with it
'Cause when you're with me I can't explain it
It's just different
We can take it slow or act like you're my girl, let's skip the basics, whoa, no.
He's so replaceable
You're worth the chase you're putting on
It's alright,
I'm not dangerous
When you're mine,
I'll be generous
You're irreplaceable
A collectible
Just like fine China
Favorite. You're my favorite.
It's like all the girls around me don't have faces.
And the saying goes
"Life is just a game" but I'm not playin', whoa.
He's so replaceable
You're worth the chase, you're puttin' up.
It's alright,
I'm not dangerous
When you're mine,
I'll be generous
You're irreplaceable
A collectible
Just like fine China
It's alright,
I'm not dangerous
When you're mine,
I'll be generous
You're irreplaceable
A collectible
Just like fine China
Took me awhile to find your love
Ain't no amount of time in this world
Save me a lot of time and just love me
Feel it, baby, feel it in your soul
Are you ready?
I know your heart's been telling you you belong to me, ah nah nah no.
It's alright,
I'm not dangerous
When you're mine,
I'll be generous
You're irreplaceable
A collectible,
Just like fine China" I sing.. After the applause and screams had ended I walked over to Erin. She held her arms out and I kneeled down in front of her so she could wrap her arms around me.
"That was so awesome Chris. You were amazing. How long have you been planning this? Oh my gosh I am so happy." She said and finally took a breath.
I laughed. "Slow down. I've been planning this since we was in Paris. And I'm glad you're happy. I'm happy that I could do this for you. I was just as excited as you."
"Thank you Chris. For this, for everything. I wish there was some way I could repay you." She said and looked down.
"Hey." I said and tilted her head back up by her chin. "Smile." She smiled and it was another one of those ear to ear smiled that reached her eyes and made them almost sparkle. "That right there is payment enough." She hugged me again and somehow I kept the tears in check. "I just want to see you happy." she held on tight to me. I noticed her arms were cold and she was shivering a bit.
"I am happy. Really I am." She said
"Good. Now let's go get you warm." I said and Pat handed me my coat and I put it on her.
Sean was up performing Beautiful Girl and I sat next to Erin holding her hand.
"You know I'm not much of a fan of God right now but I thank Him every day for sending you to me. It's made all of this a little easier." She said watching Sean sing. I didn't know what to say to that. "It's okay Chris. You don't have to say anything." She gave me a little smile and patted my leg.
"Glad your happy bae" I said Soon we performed Beat it, and Tyga was up he did Tatted up and Erin rapped every word, we did deuces and Fuck for the road, OHB performed, Kid Red did his thing.
ERIN
I was loving the show they was doing their thing The Game was here he stop by me and said hi to me and hugged me he did his thing the whole show was amazing.
"Hello beautiful lady" a voice said to me and I looked and almost fell out my sit it was Nicki Minaj. I grab my crutches to stand up but she stopped me. "No don't stand I wanted to say hi Tyga told me about the foundation and why Chris started it and I wanna say you're a real trooper" and hugged me.
"Thank you" I said and she smile she walked over to the side and Chris started performing Take it to the head. I was watching them preform I didn't like the way they was so close and the way he was on her it made me un easy, but I kept watching.
I saw what I thought I saw him touched her butt and that was it for me. I reached over and grabbed my crutches and got up.
"Erin where you going" Sarynn asked
"I'm leaving" I said
"You can't leave this concert is for you" Sarynn said following me.
"No it's not for me it's for his cancer charity and he just touched her butt and all up on her like I'm not sitting right here fuck that and fuck him I'm out, you stay I'm going home" I said and crutched my way back stage towards the exit.
"Erin , Erin wait" mommy said and I stopped "Okay I'll walk to you"
"I wanna go home I don't wanna be here anymore please, I'm tired" I said and she shook her head
"Baby I'm sorry come on I'll drive us home" mommy said. We left the building and got to the car and drove off on the ride home I held my hand over my face and kept my eyes closed I just wanna get home and get in the bed. After a long drive we was finally home my mommy helped me to my room I had cut my phone off I didn't wanna be bothered with anyone I took off my shoes and pulled off my clothes slowly and went to my door and locked it and I got in the bed and laid there and closed my eyes all I could see was.
I closed my eyes tight til I finally fell asleep I was in a good dead sleep somewhat when I felt my bed shift and an arm around me I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the hand and saw the tattoos I looked at my clock and saw the time was 2:30am I know I got home around 10:15pm I sat up slow and looked at Chris and slide out of bed.
"Chris " I said and he sat up slow.
"Hey baby, did I wake you?" he asked
"Yes you did the fuck are you doing here? Get out please" I said and he got out of the bed and came to me and I pushed his arms away.
"What's wrong with you if anyone should be mad it should be me I throw a concert for you and you fucking dip" he said
"Yea you throw a concert for YOUR foundation not for me and how long after I left did you notice I was gone huh? How long it 2 something now and I left around 10 so that's 11, 12, 1, 2.. 4 fucking hours before you knew I was gone right fuck you Chris I saw you, the way you was looking at Nicki Hoenaj and all up on and you grabbed her ass like I wasn't even sitting there like what the fuck Chris" I said
"Bae look" he says and goes to touch me again and I slap his arms away again. "Erin what's wrong"
"DON'T TOUCH ME I HATE YOU, YOUR JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER MAN IN MY LIFE YOU PICK ME JUST TO LET ME DOWN I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU" I screamed.
"Erin calm down talk to me" he said
"I'm sick of it! I'm sick of all of it! I hate my life!" I yelled and I never yelled so loud and was breathing deeply and looking every which way desperately while backing against the wall with tears gathering in my eyes. I felt like I was having a panic attack.
He approached me cautiously, and I reacted just as he knew I would. Punching and screaming with all my might, I fought against him. He dodged every blow. I couldn't understand. Why wasn't he fighting back? Why wasn't he angry? Why did he care? Why? Something he'd said before came back to my mind. 'I would never hurt you.' My fight was dwindling, and before I knew it, he had his arms around me. It was comforting and soothing and I didn't struggle.
"Shh," he whispered. Chris softly spoke to me "It's alright. Everything's alright. You are not alone. You'll never have to be alone again." Me and Chris slept right there on the floor he stayed with me the whole night. That morning around 8 we had breakfast together and I had no choice but to end our relationship I could see Chris wasn't happy about it but it had to be done, I went back to bed before he left and just cried to myself.