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(Mackenzie's POV)

Something was bouncing. Someone was jumping on the bed. I tried to push whoever it was away, but they wouldn't budge. I tried rolling over but someone was holding me still.

"Go away!" I said, hoping that would work.

"C'mon, Mac, wake up!"

"Nope." I decide pulling the covers over my head, causing what I presumed was Dan to fall face first onto the floor.

"WAKE UP!" Dan screamed in my face.

"Never."

"There's food."

"Fine, give me five minutes," I said, shooing him out of the room. I got out of bed and looked at Phil who was still asleep. "Phillllll, Philll, Philllllll," I said, poking him in his glabella.

"Mfff, go away, Buffy."

"Huuuffffff I'm NOT Buffy."

"You're not? Awwww."

"I don't get your guys' obsession with her," I said, leaving the room.

"BUFFY IS THE BEST GIRL IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!" Phil shouted. "Besides your mum."

"I still don't see it!" I shouted back.

"YOU WILL NEVER ENJOY LIFE!"

"NOT TRUE! I just don't get the obsession with Buffy!"

"Just give it up Phil; I've tried for years, she's hopeless," Dan said as we both walked into the kitchen.

"So how were the uni people?" Phil asked, pulling out mugs for tea.

"Good, same as always, still slaving away in class."

"Poor souls."

"Hey, I'm still in classes," I said.

"You don't count 'cause you're not human," Phil said.

"How aren't I human?"

"You don't like Buffy!"

"That doesn't make me non-human."

"Yes it does," Dan agreed.

"Nu-uh."

"Yeah-uh," Dan ccounted back.

"Nu- wait guys, why is the coffemaker making that noise?"

"Guys, DUCK!" Phil yelled and we ducked behind the breakfast bar as the coffee maker exploded.

"*QUACK*" Dan quacked.

"OMG we almost died," I exclaimed.

"Why'd you quack?" Phil asked Dan.

"'Cause you said 'duck.'"

"Really, Dan; really?"

"Yes, really."

"Since we don't have a coffee maker anymore, I'm heading to Starbucks," I said, standing up and heading towards the door. "You guy want the usual?"

"Yeah," Dan said; then the whole apartment went dark. "Holy fuck, what just happened?!"

"The power went out, I think," Phil said.

"Guys, where are you?" I asked, not sure where I was in the apartment. Don't judge, I have really bad perception of places in the dark.

"Here," Dan said, turning on the flashlight on his phone, "walk towards the light."

"Ok," I said and started heading towards Dan until I tripped over an umbrella and fell face first onto the floor.

"Kenzie, are you ok?" Phil asked, running towards me.

"Umph er maybe."

"Here," Phil said, grabbing my upper arm and lifting me to my feet.

"Let's get to the hallway," Dan said, appearing with the light. I grabbed his and Phil's hands and we started heading to the hallway. Once in the hallway, everything was pitch black.

"Well, it looks like we're taking the stairs then," Phil decided before we made our trek down the million flights of stairs.

"Finally, light," I said as we stepped out if the apartment complex.

"Now what?" Phil asked, "We still need to shower and stuff and the whole building is being evacuated."

"Here, how bout this: I'll get us coffee and food from Starbucks and you guys find a place for us to shower and then texts me the place and/or directions, kay?"

"Sure thing," Dan said.

"See you guys later," I said before flouncing off.

(Pj's POV)

I am the worlds stupidest man, like ever. Why did I have to fucking kiss her?! I mean, I've kinda liked her for a while, but still; it was the day of Lindsey's funeral for fucks sake. Uhghghghghghg I'm so stupid.

"Hey, Peej, you gonna be alright?" Jamie asked. I shrugged. "Wanna tell me what happened?"

"I kissed the girl I liked."

"Well, good for you, mate."

"On the day of her roommate's funeral."

"Oh." Yeah. Oh.

"And she probably hates my guts right now."

"I would assume that."

"Any suggestions?"

"Apologize." I glared at Jamie.

"No shit, Sherlock. I mean something that would actually work."

"Apologize to her," Sophie interjected from the doorway. "I'm pretty sure she'll still like you as a friend, writing mentor, editor, and, if you apologize correctly, she may like you more than that."

"How do you know all this?"

"I'm a girl, Pj; one has to know these sort of things when you're a girl." I sighed.

"Alright, I'll apologize. But if the situation becomes worse, I'm blaming you."

"You might want to give her some space, mate; she probably doesn't know what to think."

"Yeah, you're probab-" I was cut off my the doorbell. Sophie went to the door.

"Peej, Phil and Dan are here," Sophie said. I got up and headed towards the door.

"Hey guys, what's up?"

"Dan made the coffee maker explode and then the power shut down and everyone was kicked out of the building," Phil explained.

"I did not cause it to explode."

"You did too!"

"Uh huh, sure."

"Anyway, can we stay here till the power comes back on?" Phil asked.

"Sure no problem, I'll go set stuff up," I said, leaving Sophie with Dan and Phil.

(Third Person)

Sophie watched as Pj walked away and then turned to Dan and Phil.

"Is Mac coming?" Sophie asked, keeping her voice low incase Pj was still nearby.

"Er, yeah..." Phil said, slightly confused.

"Ok good, I'll go tell the others then," Sophie said, turning to leave the main hall. "Oh yeah, make yourselves at home and don't tell Pj about Mac," Sophie added before leaving the two boys alone to wander the house.

(Mackenzies POV)

Yay! Walking to Starbucks in pj pants and a hoodie, fun. Luckily, I grabbed my backpack on the way out of the apartment so I had my computer with me. I swung my backpack around so I could look at what else was in there: contacts, my glasses, a cute knit hat with matching fingerless gloves, five gatrillion books, multiple pencils, and the small camera Dan gave me that used to be his. I took out my current contacts and put on my glasses and the hat and gloves 'cause it was freezing. I looked at the camera for a while before deciding that I should do the vlog I've been planning.

"Hey guys," I said, waving at the camera, "Ignoring that fact that I completely sounded like Phil, HI! So a lot of you guys have been wondering, what am I going to do? Well, I've been thinking that same thing and then the idea hit me. So as you might know I live with AmazingPhil and Danisnotonfire, who is my brother, and I get to meet a lot of Youtubers. Well, here's a secret: I am a HUGE fangirl over most of my brothers friends, so I decided why should I be the only one who gets to hang out with these awesome people, so I'm bringing you guys with me!"

"So it's going to be some vloggy stuff where you guys can see me die of fangirlism, and fangirl with me. Anyway, so as you may have noticed I'm outside. So this morning Dan blew up the the coffee machine, like a huge explosion and then all the power went off in the whole building. So I got sent off to find breakfast at Starbucks while Dan and Phil finds somewhere for us to live for a few days. Question of the day! Side note: omg I just kinda sounded like Shane Dawson, omgomgomg, anyway the question: what is your all time fav thing to get at Starbucks, I don't like coffee, so I always get hot chocolate, leave yours down in the comments. Anyway, I'm at Starbucks now so I'll talk to you when I get to the mysterious location of Dan and Phil's choice." I finished closing the camera and walking in. God, vlogging is hard, like holding up the camera for that long, Joey Graceffa must be fit.

I ordered the drinks, Dan texted me an order that included like eight gajillion drinks, and waited by the counter checking my twitter until they were ready.

"Who ya texting?" someone asked, leaning over my shoulder. I jumped like a foot in the air.

"Whoa, Kenzie calm down, it's me."

"What the hell, Collin, you scared me half to death!" I half screamed smacking him in the chest.

"So you remember me?"

"Yeah I remember you, why wouldn't I?" I asked confused.

"Well, last time we saw each other, you got mad at me and you internet friends basically kicked me out of the hospital. Don't you remember, babe?"

"Yeah kinda, but why didn't you try to visit after that?"

"Your brother had guys watching you all the time and wouldn't even let me get close to you, I promise I tried but wherever you went at least two of those internet people trailed you like bodyguards."

"Oh, wait, are any following me right now?" I asked, looking around the store.

"No, that's why I can talk to you honey. I've missed you a lot, y'know?"

"I've missed you too, wait was it Dan that made us break up?"

"Yeah, he said he'd like gang up on me with all of his friends if I tried to get close to you again."

"That's awful. I hate him," I decided.

"We can still get together, we'd just have to keep it a secret, ok?"

"Really?" I asked.

"Yep, but you can't tell anyone, not even that spring chick or whatever her name is."

"Autumn?"

"Yeah her. You can't tell anyone, got it?"

"Got it. I feel so much better that we're together again."

"Right, so-" Collin was cut off by the girl at the counter calling out my order. "Damn girl, how much coffee are you drinking?"

"Oh no, it's not all mine, erm." I stalled, knowing I couldn't tell Collin that it was for a bunch of YouTubers. "Me and some others from Symes' class are meeting up to review each other's stories, it's all editing now."

"Ok, you have fun Kenz," Collin said, giving me a kiss. As he pulled away he whispered, "Remember, not a word."

I grabbed the drinks from the counter and put them on a table so I could check to see if Dan sent me the directions. He did and they were on the other side of town. Great, just great. I took my Oyster card out so I was prepared and headed for the nearest tube station. OMG riding the metro with nine Starbucks drinks is nearly impossible, plus you get really weird looks. I finally got to the house and I knocked on the door.

"Hey guurrrllll, let me get those," Chris said, taking have the drinks and leading me inside.

"Is this your place?" I asked looking around.

"Nope, it's Pj, Sophie, Jamie, James and Louis place."

"Wait what?!" I asked, almost dropping the drinks. Chris put down the drinks he was holding on the nearby table and grabbed the rest of drinks from me and set them next to the others.

"Kenzie, calm down."

"I am going to kill Dan," I said while pacing. Like what the hell, why would he do something like this to me? He is officially the worst brother ever. I'm so not talking to him, like ever.

"No your not," Chris said, grabbing my shoulders to make me stop pacing. "Listen, Peej doesn't exactly know that you're here either, but you should try making up with him, I know you're not really mad at him, just shocked."

"Well yeah but-"

"No buts, you're not mad at him. You just admitted it right now. Now, I'm not saying that you should go in there and act like besties or bffls or whatever, but be open to what he says."

"Ok," I agreed, "You know your amazing, right Chris?" I asked while hugging him.

"I know, now come on you have to meet everybody, grab some disgusting coffee and lets go."

"I agree, coffee is disgusting."

"YAY! Anti-coffee buddies!"

"YAY! Now you said something about meeting people?"

"Yeah come on," Chris said, leading me into another room that was filled with mostly guys and one girl. Phil and Dan were there, but no Pj. The girl ran up to me and hugged me.

"You must be Kenzie," Sophie said.

"Yup, and you're Sophie," I said.

"Yup, did Pj tell you about us?"

"No, Chris gave me names in the doorway, but I have know idea who you guys are."

"That's Jamie; over there is James, and that's Louis," Sophie introduced, pointing.

"It's impolite to point, Sophie," Louis tease, while pointing at Sophie.

"Sod off," Sophie smirked.

The guys started talking about something that wasn't interesting at all, maybe video games, and Sophie dragged me off into the kitchen.

"Finally another girl, like the guys are great and all but you need some girl time, you know?"

"I get you, if you hang around guys too much, you will forget how to put on mascara."

"So do you know what's up with Pj, he's been all moody for like all of last night."

"Er, well um..." I stalled, not sure what to say.

"C'mon girl, you can tell me."

"One sec, first where's your bathroom?" I asked.

"Just go up the stairs and last door to your right."

"Kay, thanks,"I said. I walked up the stairs and I was looking at a picture on the wall when I ran into something. I almost fell before the something caught my arm and brought me back into standing position. "Thanks."

"No problem. You should really pay attention to where you're going, Kenzie," Pj said.

"Er, yeah I will." We stared at each other for a few seconds, creating a bubble of awkwardness. Like so awkward that an alpacalypse could be happening around us and we wouldn't know it.

"Look,erm, I'm really sorry about last night, it was stupid of me, I should've thought it through but I didn't and-"

"Pj, shut up," I said, interrupting him.

"Ok." He stared at me for a few second before I carefully stood on my toes and pressed my lips to his. His eyes widened with shock.

"What was that for...?" he asked, clearly confused.

"I, erm, it, um..." I stuttered biting my lip.

"Not that I'm complaining or anything," he said, grinning cheekily, "It's just the last time you saw me, I think you wanted to rip out my intestine and shove it down my throat."

"It's... I...er... I don't know." What the hell made me do that? I have Collin, remember? I went to turn away and head back downstairs when Pj grabbed my hand.

"I HOPE I'M NOT INTERRUPTING ANYTHING," Louis announced as he walked into the hallway. "But Sophie made me come up here to make sure Miss Howell hadn't chopped you up and shoved you out the window."

"I would never do that, it would be more like I blended him up and threw him down the drain," I said, trying to get my hand away from Pj's, but he just smirked and held on tighter.

"Makes sense, I'll go let her know you're both alive." Louis turned on his heel and went back downstairs to the lounge.

"Pj, please let go," I said, trying to get my hand away.

"Not yet, I have a few questions," he said, pulling me into a random room and shutting the door.

"Pj wha - where are we?"

"Jamie's room," he said, sitting on the bed that was really just a mattress on the floor.

"What questions?" I asked still standing.

"Why did you kiss me just now?"

"I could ask you the same question."

"Alright, I know it was stupid and shitty of me to kiss you then, but I like you and I kinda got to thinking, what if it was you instead of Lindsey and..." he trailed off. I blinked my eyes to try and keep the tears at bay, I didn't want to think about that stuff right now. I didn't want to think about any of the seriousness of life.

"Pj I..." I managed before few tears slipped past. I tried to wipe them away before Pj noticed.

"Shhh, it's alright." He quickly stepped forward and enveloped me in a hug.

"I'm an idiot, a total idiot."

"No, it's all my fault," Pj insisted. "If I hadn't kissed you in the first place none of this shit would be happening."

"Yes it would, I was supposed to spend that might with Lindsey having a girls night but instead I completely blew her off to go hang with other people. Oh god, Pj what if they were looking for me instead an only stabbed Lindsey cause she was there? Pj, it's my fault she's dead."

"No it's not. Don't say that, don't even think that."

"Yes it is. I'm such a horrid friend, if only I was there I could have stopped it. Everything would have been ok if I was there to stop it. Or if it was me instead of her."

"Kenzie?"

"Yeah?"

"Shut up."

"Wha-"

"I said shut up."

"Why?"

"'Cause you're being a complete idiot."

"It's true, everything would be better if it was me instead of her." Pj dropped his arms, letting go of me.

"Kenzie, let me ask you something: how many people do you see on a daily basis?"

"Erm-"

"Me, Dan, Phil, Chris, Mr. Symes, Melanie, Autumn, Tommy, John, Benny, Dave the barista guy at Starbucks, the rest of the people in your classes, and now Marcus and Sam, Alfie, Zoe, Carrie, the twins... I could go on, but my point is that we all need you here, with us, in one way or another. Even May needs you."

"But Lindsey was going to do something import in the world, she was becoming a doctor, all I'm doing is writing weird stories that are complete shit and spending time on the internet."

"I don't think your stories are shit. Neither does Symes, or your 1504 followers on FanFic."

"It just all seems so pointless now."

"Well life tends to do that to you. But believe me, I'm very glad that you're still here, so you can just forget all those shitty thoughts of you thinking it's your fault or that it should have been you."

"It should have," I muttered stubbornly.

"Are you even listening? Trust me, right now everything you do, you're probably going to doubt yourself, but go with your gut instinct. Look where it's gotten me, or Phil, or Dan, Chris, Jack and Finn, they all trusted their hearts and they're happy too. You're still young Kenzie, you have time to figure everything out."

"You're telling me to go with my gut feeling?"

"Absolutely." I'm totally gonna regret this, I thought. What the hell. I stood up on my toes and put my hands behind his neck and kissed him. To my surprise he kissed back this time. This kiss felt different than all the others, there was a -

"Peej you in her- whoa sorry mate," Jamie said, closing the door again.

"Do you think he's going to tell the others?" I asked nervously.

"Nah," Pj said, although not very convincingly.

"You sure?" I really didn't want anyone to find out anything.

"Not really; maybe we should go back downstairs..."

"Here, erm, you go first and I'll be down in a bit," I said, pushing him towards the door.

"Alright, don't stay up here too long." He winked and walked away. I headed towards the bathroom to make sure my hair and face still looked normal. My makeup was smeared from crying last night and tonight so I just washed it all off and out my hair up in a new bun, then I headed downstairs.

"Hey, you ok?" Sophie asked when I sat down next to her.

"Yeah, maybe. I'm not sure."

"You kinda look like you're glowing or something."

"I don't know, maybe the lighting's weird in here," I said, shrugging. Pj bounced out of the kitchen with the last coffee and plopped next to Dan on the couch, a slightly pleased smirk on his face.

"What's up with you mate, like total moodswing," Jamie asked, grinning.

"Coffee improved my mood," Pj said simply, taking a large gulp.

"Oh really?" Louis asked, raising an eyebrow. Pj nodded. The doorbell rang.

"I got it," Chris said, hopping up and running to the door.

"KEENNNZZZIIII its for youuuuuu!" Chris shouted. I got up and headed to the door.

"Who is it Chris?" I asked, not seeing who was at the door.

"You're coming with me," someone said, dragging me out of the house.

A/N Its a little authors not its a little authors not its a littl authors note where I tell you some import stuff

so on my profile there is a poll for whom you ship Kenzie with, so go do that

and review or pm on any thoughts or ideas and yeah

i hope you had fun hangin with me cuz i had fun hanging with you and i'll see you next authors note GOODBYE AHHH *eats you screen*

and for all intense purposes Pj goes to Manchester, k luv yas bye