Apology To Feliciano Veneziano Vargas-Eldenstien

Feliciano...

I remember, when you were just a newborn little baby, and Mama brought you home...

She didn't let me hold you, not yet, I was just a 4 year old back then...

But when she bent down so I could see you, I looked into your eyes, and you just smiled at me.

That perfect, sunshine smile.

And during the 8 years you were gone, all I had to do was remember that smile, and suddenly you didn't feel so far away...

.. Then a year ago, someone rings the door bell, I complain about having to get up and open the door, and suddenly, that same smile appears, except this time it wasn't a memory.

You were there, right in front of me, and all you had to do was whisper "Lovino..?" to send me into hysterics.

Because you were there on my door step, and it was the happiest I had been in years.

But even though you were with me, life just got really hard...

..And I couldn't handle it anymore Feli..

..I'm really sorry...

..I'm sorry I couldn't be the strong older brother you remembered

And I'm sorry I was so caught up in my own problems, and never listened to yours

And I'm sorry that you're going to walk around for the rest of your life knowing that your brother killed himself.

But Vene...

Please...

Don't blame yourself...

..The last thing I want, is for you to become like me, and shut the world out.

I want you to be happy.

I want you to just...Forget about me.

..Forget about your failure of a brother, and keep going with your life, keep getting honor roll, keep your friends, -they seem like good people, even that Ludwig kid I don't like.- Get married, have kids.

LIVE.

Don't let me not being there change your life.

One of the few things that made me happy was your happiness, and I want you to know, that the last thing I'm going to think about, is your bright smile.

As I step off the ledge, all I'll see is sunshine.

So keep smiling because, your smile couldn't save me, but I know that one day, it'll save somebody else.

Keep this all a secret, alright Feli?

Hopefully, I won't see you again for a long time.

YOU KNOW YOU GUYS CAN BE REALLY CREEPY SOMETIMES, I DIDN'T ACTUALLY THINK THAT IT WOULD GET TEN REVIEWS BEFORE 10 O'CLOCK OMFG HOLY CRAP. Anyway, so we start with the apology notes! There are two apology notes, and I think I might split the epilogue into two chapters, also to people who are asking about the notes..Lovi did say it was a secret...Of course, I'm pretty sure goliath beetle can guess who it is ;D. Anyway, originally it was going to end with last chapter, and I was going to leave a lot up to interpretation. But then I remember I hate books that don't answer questions (A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS IS MY DAMNATION I SWEAR TO FUCKIN'-) so I won't do it to you guys! So, 3 reviews, it'll be up in two days, 5 reviews, it'll be up by tomorrow. Also, I know I measure this story by reviews, but I mean, I do it for a reason, and that's so I could get feedback or critiques, I'd really appreciate it if you guys didn't review nonsense, or just tell me to update. OKAY GOOD NIGHT GUYS WISH ME LUCK ON MY FINAL EXAM FOR GEOMETRY (KILL ME NOW)