Hey, sorry it took me so long to update. I just went through a break up and didn't want to write all the fluff. Anyway I won't keep you too long! Tell me what you think. Who do you think the throat clearer is? (Does that make sense)
As I stand over Jace in the hospital I can't help but think how peaceful he looks. It's forced but it works. He never does anything peaceful, ever, he's Jace. He was always nice to everyone in our old public school. The only time he ever had a problem with anyone was because he was standing up for me. I remember one time this kid was picking on me. He was threatening to beat me up. I didn't know what to do, so I told Jace. Bad decision. He tracked the guy down, i don't know what he did, but the guy came back to school a week later with bruises all over his body. At lunch he came over and apologized to me. I know he only did it because he was terrified of Jace but still.
Jace means the world to me. He is my everything. If he dies I'm going right behind him. He is my only love and I can't function without him. When he's gone I can't help but think about him. He reminds me of a character in this book I read. In the House of night series. Erebus, I believe. Erebus is the son of the sun. Haha, puny! Jace shines like him, has the same golden features, and oddly enough Jace kinda shimmers too. Well his mussels do. He is so beautiful, i know I'm so not his type but he just has too know.
"I love you, Jace. Please don't leave me. Where you go, I follow. You die, I die. You leave and so do I. I know I am so not good enough for you. You could have so much better, but I need to tell you. Even if you can't hear me. I'm sorry im such a coward."
I look at his face and I see his mouth moving. I lean in to try and hear better. Is he talking in his sleep or am I going crazy? DID HE JUST HEAR ALL THAT? If he did, will he hate me?
"I... Love... You..." Yep that's the last straw i'm going to call the Silent Brothers and have them look for drugs in my system. There is no way I heard, what i heard.
I get up to leave and as I do I feel the warmth of a hand on my wrist. I look down into the endless gold that are Jace's eyes. He pulls me down so I'm sitting on the edge of his bed. For someone who's supposed to be sick, he's pretty fucking strong.
"Clary, I love you too. I never wanted to tell you because I would rather have you in my life as a friend, than not at all. You are my world. You are the sole reason I'm alive. If it hadn't been for you, I would have offed myself years ago. You, Clary, always have and always will give me hope. You make me feel accepted and loved. You make me feel like me." I try to say something in return but before I have the chance he's flipped us around. He is now hovering over me. His legs are on either side of my torso. I can feel every part of his body, but he's not crushing me. He is so close I can feel the heat of his breath on my face. I look up into his eyes and it's like something inside him breaks. He crashes his mouth into mine. He tastes like blood. I don't mind. I push myself against him, letting him know that I want it. He doesn't move his hands to explore my body, but does something much better. He drags his lips against my jawline and neck. He brings his mouth to me ear and whispers,
"You have no idea how many times I've dreamt this.", he then nibbles on the lobe of my ear. That's when all bets are off. I go all in. I grab his bloody shirt and I pull it up over his head. I rub my hands along the smoothness of he body. Sooner than expected my shirt is off as well. I'm undoing the button to his pants when I hear someone clear their throat.