Regina awoke from her unpleasant night's sleep. The vicious words that she let escape from her mouth still haunted her mind and she knew she couldn't take back what had already been said. She propped herself against the hard black headboard that helped support her bed. Her hand wandered through the tangled mess of hair and she didn't care to open the curtains to let any of the light in. She wanted to block the whole world out but more than anything she wanted to reconcile with Emma. The previous night she couldn't stop herself, the words kept flowing without any thought. As much as she denied her feelings for the young blonde she knew deep down that those feelings couldn't be brushed to one side like how she would normally deal with things.
Regina leant over the silk duvet and pulled out the drawer of the small bedside cabinet. She ran her hand over the surface trying to detect the location of her phone. As she carried on searching she felt the familiar object. As she scoured through her messages there was nothing of interest and there seemed to be no way of pulling herself out of the slump she was in. She saved Emma's phone number onto her phone from a previous session when she searched through her file. She knew it wasn't the most professional way to conduct herself but she was past those formalities. It was too late to try and act as if nothing happened she was falling for Emma and there was nothing or no one that could stop her.
Regina looked at herself in the mirror that adorned the wall opposite the end of the bed. She had let herself become a shadow of her former self, moping in bed like a sulky teenager. The thought of Emma was a way to spur her on, a way to encourage her out of bed and to face up to the reality of her impending feelings. Regina gathered her thoughts and crawled out of the warm confines of her duvet. She dragged her body into the bathroom and haphazardly flicked the switch. The brightness of the light was an unwelcomed surprise and it took a moment of constant squinting to become adapted to the sudden change.
She grabbed the toothpaste and scrubbed the brush over her whitened smile. After a few minutes of waking herself up the dark haired woman ran a brush through her hair and tried to decide on what she was going to wear to face Emma. She searched through her large collection of blazers and chose the cream coloured one accompanied by a vest top and a pencil skirt. There wasn't time to trawl a layer of make up on her face; the natural look would have to do.
Regina's heart raced at the thought of speaking to Emma again. She couldn't decide what to say and the thought of stumbling over her words and coming across like an idiot was a daunting prospect. Especially to someone that was nearly half her age and her client. She picked up the phone and dialled the number trying to control her hands from shaking. As she waited for a reply her mouth was dry and the thought of Emma completely rejecting her was a thought she couldn't begin to imagine.
After seconds of silence there was a reply "Hello who is this? I don't recognise the number.
Regina pulled herself together in order to give a comprehensive response "Hello Emma, it's me Regina; I know I'm not your favourite person at the moment but I want to apologise and I don't mean a measly sorry. I want to make you realise that I didn't mean to react in the way I did, I'm scared of committing myself to you, your young and vulnerable and I don't want you to get your heart broken."
"You should have thought about that before you even opened your mouth. You treated me as if I was a stranger in your home. I can't help the way I feel towards you and you can't expect me to suddenly switch off how I feel." Emma replied with hesitance but she wanted to make Regina realise how much hurt she has caused.
"I know sometimes I don't comprehend the effect the words I say can have, I want you to come to my house and we can talk properly rather than over a phone call, if you're willing to give me that chance." Regina tried to respond without revealing the hurt in her voice.
"I guess I could come round for a while, I will be round in about an hour just don't expect me to have much to say." Emma cancelled the phone call before Regina could respond.
Regina flopped onto the bed, clutching her cell phone close to her chest. She had spent her whole life convincing herself that she would never fall in love with a client and it couldn't be possible. But this time was different she was drawn to Emma, there were so many unsolved mysteries about her and there was still so much to learn.