Chapter Sixteen
There was a light knock on my bedroom door, "Go away!" I answered through my tears. I wasn't just crying because Seth knocked me down, and saw me naked. I was crying for my past, my life, and Seth, and everything and nothing all at the same time. I hated how my mind and my heart were playing against me. Last night I finally came to terms with my feelings, I was starting to fall for Seth Rollins, the only problem, he has a girlfriend. You're not good enough, or pretty enough to be with someone like that. My mind was telling me, and I couldn't help but believe it. Again came the knocking, "Please Nikki, I just want to talk." It was Seth, "At least let me say I'm sorry, and say good bye to you before I leave." My body stood up, and unlocked my bedroom door, why I did not know, I didn't want to see him, and I didn't want him to see me like this, oh how everything enjoyed working against me. I walked back over to my bed, and hid under my sheets. I felt the bed press down, and an arm around me, before I felt him tugged my shield away from me.
"Why do you always have to be so closed off?" Seth asked, hovering over me. I didn't know how to respond to that. I wasn't closed off, I was just cautious, so I turned around, and faced the wall, anything but him, which apparently was not what Seth was looking for. Seth turned me over, holding me down in place, staring directly into my eyes. What was he looking for? Whatever it was I didn't have it, or so I thought. Seth leaned down, still holding me, and pressed his lips to mine. His grasp and me, and the pressure against my lips was firm, and passionate, enough to take my breath away.
"I don't want you to think that I'm just trying to get in your pants. I really like you, a lot actually. You're a really sweet girl, your funny, you're beautiful, and you're real. I like that. So stop shutting me out, ok?" Seth opened up to Nikki, leaving her speechless, laying under him with shock all over her face. He leaned down once more, and kissed her forehead. "I have to go. I have a flight to catch, but I'll see you again real soon. Nikki stayed completely still. She had never had a real kiss before, nor had she ever had a boy spill his heart to her before. Any time she had ever been with a guy before, they were completely trashed, and wanted a quick fuck, or a blow job. Easy cash for a homeless person who hadn't had a think to eat or drink in days, you'd do about anything at that point. Nikki had never enjoyed sex, in fact she found herself loathing it. The guys she was always with never cared about her. They didn't care about the pleasure she received. They worried about pleasuring themselves, and leave her. Most of them laughing at her, and left her half naked in an alley way, or in a cheap motel room.
I didn't know how long it had been since Seth left, all I knew was I was deeply confused. Did he want to have a relationship with me, behind his girlfriends back. Was that what he was asking me? I wouldn't do it. As much as I had started to become fond of Seth, and trust me when I say I was really starting to like him. He was really an amazing guy, and his kissing was unbelievable, I just couldn't allow myself to come between two people that seemed established already, I refused to do it.
"Hey, Nikki, are you going to lay in that bed all day?" Jon's voice came from the doorway.
"Maybe. Why?" I asked, not bothering to look at my older brother.
"Because I was thinking we should go do something together that siblings do. You know, just to catch up, or whatever."
"What did you have in mind?"
Another update in the same night. Ehhh... I already had it written anyway, and it's not a big chapter. So let me know what you guys think in the reviews. I'm super excited for you guys to see what I have in store for the next chapter. Also, this story is coming to an end. Might only be a chapter left, maybe two, not sure yet.