Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, I do not have any rights to Harry Potter and I do not make any money from writing these stories.
A/N: Written for the Relationship Bingo Challenge, the Wand Wood Competition, Written for the Animal Competition, Written for the If You Dare Continued Challenge, Written for the Disney-A-Thon Challenge, Written for the Monopoly Challenge.
Prompts: OTP, Secret Relationship, Verb: March, Second Chance, Slash, Random Prompt: Guilt, and Object: Sugar , Remus/Harry, Ron/Remus, write about your OTP (Rowan), Write about Harry Potter (Horse), There is no need to shout, Write about someone who is jealous (Tinker bell), Genre: Suspense, Fear.
Forgive Me?
Happiness swelled in Harry as he stared at his exam results with pride and happiness. A large smile lit up his face as he once again took in each mark, his hard work and determination and the extra tutoring sessions with Remus had helped a lot. At the thought of Remus a blush formed on Harry's face and his heart fluttered, at the memory of Remus' powerful amber eyes staring at him intently as he did his best to impress the man Harry felt his knees go weak.
"I have to tell him, I have to tell him the good news," Harry muttered to himself not noticing the confused stares he was getting from his fellow friends who had joined him in opening their exam results under the large tree near the Great Lake, "Without him I would of failed every single test."
"Thanks to who Harry?" Neville asked suddenly causing Harry to quickly look up into the soft eyes of his long time friend, "Do you mean that the reason you where always sneaking off this past year was because you where getting tutored?"
"Y-Yes," Harry replied as he turned his head to allow the gentle summer wind to blow his now longer hair across his face to hide his sudden blush, "They have been helping me a lot with studying."
"You know that we could of studied together, I would of helped you," Hermione said with a pointed look at Harry causing the emerald eyed male to wince slightly, "There is no need to sneak away from us like you did if you where just going to study."
"I...I know but the person helping me...they are shy and do not like attention so I agreed to keep our study sessions a secret," Harry replied, biting his lower lip nervously, it was the truth to a certain extent as both he and Remus had agreed to keep their relationship a secret until Harry was out of Hogwarts so there would be less problems to deal with and neither of them enjoyed attention, "And well...you where all busy and stressed out enough with getting ready for your own exams that I did not want to interrupt any of you."
"Well you do not have to worry about keeping whoever your tutor was this past year a secret any longer since exams are over and we are about to graduate," Ginny said with a smile on her face, "How about you go and grab your friend so you both can spend the rest of the day hanging out with us? I am about to go and try to find Ron and Luna."
At the mention of Luna Hermione let out a high pitch giggle, blushed and hid her face in her hands, "Luna is still asleep in our bed, I tried to wake her up this morning before I left for breakfast and to get my exam results only for her to tell me to go on ahead."
Silence covered the group as the sun shone down on them, at everyone staring at her Hermione's face went bright neon red and she let out a silent groan.
"Maybe now was not the time to break the news," Hermione groaned out only to pause and look up at Ginny who was trying to say something, "Is something wrong Ginny? Did I insult you? Did I-"
"You and Luna! Damn it girl," Ginny groaned out as she fidgeted about slightly and a light blush covered her face, "You two could of invited me to join in at least!"
"WHAT!" Hermione cried out in shock only for her attention to turn to Harry who let out a loud laugh at Hermione's surprise and shock, "Harry...do you know something that I should know about?"
"Have you not worked out yet just why Ginny suddenly stopped chasing after me one day?" Harry asked with a final snicker as he gave Hermione a raised eyebrow, "Do you not remember how she used to crush on me badly and tell everyone she would one day be the next Mrs. Potter?"
"Yes..." Hermione replied with a frown as she remembered it happening, "I do...but it all suddenly stopped one day..."
"Then why did you not stop and think about why it suddenly stopped for?" Harry asked carefully, not wanting to insult Hermione or anything, "Did you not notice Ginny looking at those around her in a...ah...a new light?"
"Not really," Hermione admitted with a blush as she looked down at the green grass, "I was too busy either helping out in the war against Voldemort or falling in love with Luna."
"Well they do say that the world gets smaller when you fall in love," Neville said kindly as Hermione shot him a thankful look.
"So we are all okay?" Hermione asked as she nervously looked around at each one of her friends only to find them giving her looks of support, acceptance and understanding.
"Of course we are, it would be silly of us to not be," Harry replied with a comforting smile causing Hermione to let out a sigh of relief, "Through I would of thought that you and Ron would end up being a couple, you do go at it like you are an old married couple at times."
"I...I thought that too Harry but once I took a step back and took everything in I realised that Ron was to immature for me," Hermione replied with a sigh before a thoughtful expression appeared on her face, "Besides Ron has started to act strangely, especially around Professor Lupin. Every time Professor Lupin walks past Ron suddenly starts trying to smarten himself up and try to impress Professor Lupin but it always fails. I wonder..do you think that Ron has a crush on Professor Lupin?"
"Maybe," Ginny said with a laugh only to go silent as Harry let out an angry growl, "Harry?"
"I just remembered that I left something in the Defence classroom," Harry lied quickly causing his friends to shoot him worried looks, "I will be right back, Professor Lupin has properly picked it up anyway so I'll go and ask him."
"Do you want us to come with you?" Hermione asked as she started to put her belongings away.
"No, it is alright, you stay out here and enjoy the sun," Harry replied with a strained smile as he quickly shoved everything in his bag and stood up, not giving his friends a single chance Harry turned around and began to walk back to the castle.
With each step he took Harry found himself feeling more and more like he was marching towards what he knew would break him. Each foot he raised and lowered as he made his way across the school grounds where more like a march that was filled with conflicting emotions.
'Remus and Ron are gone far too often at the same time as each other for this to be anything but' Harry thought as his heart began to crack in half as his mind began to add things together in a painful way that he did not want to be true 'If it was only once in a while that they disappeared and not always at the same time...if there was something I could think of that would stop me from jumping to this conclusion I would happily take it.'
Letting out a heavy sigh Harry finally walked into the castle and began to walk straight to the moving staircase, he already had a feeling that he knew where Remus and Ron might be.
'There is a very good view of where I was sitting with everyone from Remus' office window' Harry thought as he slowed down to walk behind a group of students who were also going up the stairs 'They would not of bothered to hide or put up any spells because they can see me through Remus' office window so if I am quick and I get there before Remus notices that I am gone than I should be able to catch Remus and Ron in the act...if they are cheating on me together...'
With each step Harry climbed the worse his emotions and thoughts began, his mind began to feed off of the ideas he had come up with when he was walking through the school grounds a few seconds ago and develop them. With each floor he got to Harry winced and his hope to find Remus alone in his office working grew more and more.
As he climbed up the last staircase guilt began to swell up inside of him, his mind suddenly changed direction from his thoughts of a cheating Remus.
'What am I going to do if Remus is not cheating on me with Ron?' Harry thought as he came to a sudden stop at the top stairs 'What if Remus is just helping Ron out with his school work...but the exams have finished...'
Unable to take anymore Harry pushed himself forwards and turned into the hallway that would lead him to his secret lover. After a few steps Harry's restraint broke, each step he took he became faster and faster until he was jogging along the hallway.
'Please...please let me be wrong, please let it just turn out to be me jumping to conclusions' Harry thought to himself as he began to slow down as he came to a stop outside of the Defence Against The Dark Art's classroom 'Please let Remus be alone.'
As Harry came to a stumbling stop outside of the Defence classroom soft sounds that Harry could not quiet work out filtered through the door. As the sound reached his ears a fresh wave of fear and dread bubbled up inside of him. Closing his eyes Harry winced and opened them quickly when the picture of Ron and Remus making out flashed before his eyes.
'Everything will be alright, everything will be alright' Harry told himself weakly as he reached out to the door handle only to freeze in confusion as his hand came into contact with a bag of sugar.
Frowning in confusion Harry took a closer look only to find the bag of sugar that was attached to the door handle thanks to a bit of string tied around the bag of sugar and the door handle. Noticing some writing on the bag of dangling sugar Harry leant down to read the writing only for cold dread and fear to hit his body like an angry wave during a storm at sea.
"Please return later, I am very busy at the moment," Harry said softly, his voice cracked as tears began to fall down his face as his emotions finally broke.
Harry's whole body began to shake as his mind started to add up all of the clues that he had gathered during his trip over and Remus' and Ron's disappearances over the last few days. Moans, disappearances, both going missing at the same time, strange sounds coming from the defence classroom and the strange message on the bag of sugar hanging from the classroom door.
Taking a deep breath and gathering all of his courage Harry pulled himself together, stood up straight and pushed the door open. The sound of his heart beating hard and fast echoed in his ears as sweat poured down off of his back.
"Please let me be wrong, please let me be wrong," Harry whispered to himself in what was fast becoming a mantra, "Please let me find Remus sitting in his office marking the last few pieces of homework and school work."
Slowly Harry pushed the old door open causing a loud creek from the age hinges to sound causing Harry to wince. Remus with his powerful werewolf hearing was sure to of heard the loud creek and was now properly hiding any prooof of his and Ron's possible romantic activities.
"Well I best move fast if I want to catch Remus and Ron in the act or if I want to catch them hiding any proof," Harry said to himself as tears continued to silently fall down his face.
Harry slowly walked into the classroom and looked around only to find the classroom empty. There was not a single trace of either Ron or Remus in the classroom. The familiar desks was obviously freshly cleaned, there was not a single chalk mark on the blackboard and everything that Remus had brought with him that year, including the jars holding floating eyes in green liquid and other similar things in them that Harry did not even want to know about was missing off of the shelves making them look very bare and empty.
"Where are they?" Harry asked himself softly as he whispered out his question.
Slowly he took a step into the empty classroom, with each step he took he paused and looked around the classroom listening for any tell tale sound that might give Remus' location away while leaving the classroom door wide open. Just as he made it into the middle of the room a low pleasure filled groan came from the direction of Remus' office and filled the classroom.
"Please, no, no, do not let it be true," Harry whimpered softly as tears began to run down his face, "Please let Remmy just be...enjoying himself, please do not let it be what I fear it might be, please..."
Taking a deep breath and forcing back his tears Harry forced himself to stand up tall and straight and plaster on his face a large happy smile. It would do no good to give Remus and Ron any extra firepower if what Harry thought was happening was happening, he would not give them anything to harm him with or find anything extra to use against him.
Holding himself stiffly Harry silently walked through the rest of the classroom and stood at the bottom of the stairs that led from the classroom to the defence teacher's office. Harry closed his eyes and tried to pull his imagination in, one of his hands dropped to the banister and gripped it tightly only for his knuckles to turn a ghostly white colour as another loud pleasure filled moan came from the office with what could only be the voice of Ron grunting out something very softly.
'It is best to just get this over with, putting it off will make things worse in the long term' Harry thought as his ears burned with every new moan that came to him, he was beginning to find himself wishing that he had never of come so close to the office now.
Remembering which ones of the old stairs creaked from his many times sneaking up them to surprise a stressed out Remus Harry silently walked up the stairs while keeping his eyes close. He did not know if he could stomach the sight of seeing his lover and best friend curled up together in each other's arms while making out.
All too soon through Harry found himself standing at the top of the stairs with his eyes still firmly shut and his hand resting on the door handle. His heart pounded against his chest as Harry tried to make up his mind whether he should open his eyes and enter or if he should open his eyes, turn around and walk back the way he had come.
His decision was made for him through when a shocked by happy cry of 'Ron' in Remus' voice caused Harry's eyes to fly open and Harry to push the door open harshly causing to bang against the wall. The sight that met him caused a fresh wave of tears to come pouring down his face uncontrollably, the smile quickly disappeared and was replaced with a pain filled look of pure hurt.
"How could you?" Harry whispered out but to the three of them it sounded like he had shouted, "HOW COULD YOU! I THOUGHT WE WERE IN LOVE!"
"Come on, there is no need to shout," Ron said as he opened his big mouth causing Remus to groan from where he had pushed Ron off of his lap and doing up his clothes, "So it turns out you did not get Remus, so what? You have gotten everything else you ever wanted so what is the big fuss? Is it not about time you feel jealous of someone and not get what you want instead of the other way around?"
"Now Harry love, calm down," Remus said with his hands held in surrender, "You know what Ron is like and how jealous he can get-"
"Me? You are blaming this all of this on me?!" Ron cried out, the pair turned to argue with each other oblivious to the shocked and upset Harry who was still standing in the door way, "You are the one who was jealous of me! You were the one who was jealous that I was getting more action from my lover while yours was saving himself for his bonding night!"
Remus opened his mouth to reply sharply only for it to shut quickly again as powerful magic flooded the room like a bath filling with warm water. Ron gulped in fear as he felt the power in the room, both he and Remus shared a fearful look and turned to face the forgotten Harry only to find their fear grown even more when they saw the look of anger and betrayal on Harry's face.
"So all of this is just because you could not keep your trousers done up?" Harry asked Remus with a sneer making the werewolf professor wince, Harry turned and looked at Ron who took several steps back in fear, "You have everything I want Weasley, you have a family, you have a lover who is loyal to you, you have brothers and a sister, if I could I would swap places with you in a flash. Did you ever stop to think that I could be jealous of you!"
"Harry, love, please," Remus begged as he gave Harry a pitiful look, "We could work this out, what about if we-"
"No, you knew from the very start, from before we even started to know each other as friends let alone lovers that there are only a few things I cannot stand and betrayal and cheating on me like this are just a few of these things," Harry snapped out making both Remus and Ron to gulp, "Weasley, I suggest you go down to the Great Lake where everyone is under the tree in the normal spot and tell everyone the truth and try to keep your other half before I go down there in the next few minutes and tear you both apart!"
Ron did not need to be told twice, with a new found fear for Harry Ron quickly did up his shirt and ran out of the office with his robe in his hand without looking back. As the door slammed shut behind Ron Remus gulped in fear and turned his attention to Harry who had moved a few inches from the door to let Ron pass.
"Give me one good reason why I should not go to the Headmaster and tell Dumbledore everything that has gone on between you and Ron," Harry snapped out darkly as he glared dangerously at Remus.
"Because you will have to tell him all about us," Remus said hopefully, knowing how Harry liked to keep things private.
"Then so be it, at least we were in the clear, at least a student and Professor did not have who knows what sort of physical fun with each other!" Harry yelled out as pain and misery shone in his eyes, "Did you not use that brain of yours and think for a second about why I kept turning you down for? Why I kept saying no to you about getting in the bed with you and doing nothing beyond a kiss or some heavy groping?"
Remus winced and bit his lip, at the start he had wondered why his precious Harry had been like that but after the first few times it had happened his need for physical pleasure had over taken his mind much like a wolf, however ironic that was, and made him lose sight somehow.
Harry upon seeing the expression that appeared on his lover's face gave an angry hiss, "Because of magic, because of the law and what would happen to us if anyone found out."
"I do not understand love," Remus replied, wincing at the cold laugh that feel from his lovers lips at his final spoken word, "Harry?"
"You dare to call me 'love' after I have just walked in on you half naked with my best friend!" Harry shouted out angrily as the pain that shone in his eyes caused Remus to wince, "I am a virgin Remus, if we had sex like you wanted to a lot more than just feeling pleasured would happen! And have you forgotten just what the law is between teacher and student having a more physical relationship while the student is still attending Hogwarts?"
Remus winced, "The teacher would be treated like a common criminal that has taken advantage of the student and put into the Dementors 'care', the student would be questioned, depending on what their actions were during this time they could have anything happen to them from being deaged, their memory wiped and forced to repeat their years of school that they had been with the teacher to joining the teacher in prison. The Headmaster would lose everything as it would be viewed as he could not protect his students while they are under his care."
"And with you being a werewolf and the war just finishing how do you think things would play out?" Harry asked with a dirty sneer on his face only to take grim satisfaction as he watched understanding sink into Remus, "And to think, all of this could of happened just because you could not keep your bloody trousers done up!"
Remus watched as Harry closed his eyes and took a deep breath, a few seconds later Remus found bright emerald eyes full of emotional pain looking out of his office window with a satisfied look on his face. It did not take Remus long to work out just what had happened.
"I take it that you can see Ron trying to explain to his lover what is going on out of my office window," Remus stated more than asked as he licked his dry lips.
"Yes, and for once Ron will not have to be jealous of me or anyone else as he will be getting as much attention as he wants and more," Harry replied as he turned to face Remus with cold eyes, "Give me one good reason Remus, one very good reason why I should not just walk out of the door behind me, leaving you standing in this office alone without a chance to ever see me again beyond what is needed for me to complete Hogwarts?"
Remus' eyes widened in shock and understanding while he took on a deathly pale colour as Harry's words finally sunk into his mind. He let out a low groan as he raised a hand and ran it through is messy brown and grey hair with a heavy sigh before looking sadly at Harry.
"I am sorry Harry," Remus began only for Harry to cross his arms and glare at him, "You are right of course, I did not think or ask you why you were behaving like you were. I should of just asked you, I am meant to be the older more mature one here, not you."
As Harry watched Remus let out a heavy depressed sigh a small spark of emotion bubbled inside of him causing Harry to let out a heavy sigh and his body to relax slightly.
"I cannot believe that I am going to even suggest this but...I might consider giving you a second chance," Harry said causing Remus to freeze and look at him with hope filled eyes, "But if you do a single thing wrong, and I mean a single thing wrong, even if that one things is something as simple and as stupid as breathing at the wrong time then you will of blown your second chance. Got it?"
"Got it," Remus replied with a relived smile on his face as he held his arms out in an invitation for Harry, "Harry love?"
"You have a long way to go before I will trust you again Remus," Harry said, not using Remus' nickname he had come up with for the first time in years causing the Defence Against the Dark Arts Professor to wince as he realised just how deeply he was in trouble, "If you really want this second chance from me than you are going to have to stay far away from Ron Weasley and keep your trousers on and remember what I just told you."
"I will, I promise I will," Remus replied as he shot Harry a pitiful look, "I will be good, I understand now and I will work hard to deserve my second chance. Please love? Forgive me? I know it will be a long and hard road..."
"I will not forgive or forget this," Harry said as he took a step closer to Remus' open and waiting arms, "If I find you gone for over ten minutes with Ron also missing I will come looking for you. This time I will make sure that you are always in my line of sight and I will know every little bit of information on you, which includes where you go and what you are doing."
"Then so be it," Remus said with honesty shining in his eyes, "I know this is sudden love but I want you, I-"
"You are right," Harry said suddenly as he cut Remus off, "Why did you have the sudden change of heart for? Is it because I scared you with the law and with the results of what your lack of ability to keep your trousers on would cause?"
"Well...to be honest that is a large part of it," Remus admitted with a guilt expression on his face.
Without uttering a single word Harry shot Remus a dark look before turning around and walking away from him. Remus, thinking quickly, rushed forwards and scooped Harry up into a hug while doing his best to ignore the harsh painful words that spilled from Harry's mouth.
"Please love, please," Remus said once again, "I thought I would just be truthful and not lie at all to you, I thought you would prefer the honest hard cold truth."
At Remus' words Harry froze in Remus' arms and allowed himself to full rest his weight against Remus while knowing that Remus' werewolf strength would mean he would not fall to the ground anytime soon.
"I am sorry, I am, I just...you are correct, I cannot keep my trousers on me," Remus admitted as he held Harry close to his chest and took in his angry lover's scent, "But I should of not jumped the Quaffle like that, I should of known what your reasoning was, you never do anything without a very good reason love. I...you see I am a werewolf and as such I need-"
"Do not pull that one on me Remus," Harry growled out angrily causing Remus to freeze, "Do not use the fact you are a werewolf as a crutch, you know that it will only make me even more angry with you from experience."
"I am not love, I promise you I am not," Remus said quickly as he did his best to cover his newest mistake, "But because I am a werewolf I need things from my mate that a normal human couple would not have to do!"
"And a quick bit of heavy touching or some groping and kissing would not sort that out?" Harry asked angrily as he began to pull away from Remus once again only to be kept in place by arms that were like two steel bands around him, "Let me go Remus!"
"No, not until you give me a real second chance," Remus said as he leant down and nuzzled the top of Harry's head only for the other male to let out a sigh and stop fighting, "Please love? I promise I will behave, I will not go near Ron, I will always let you know in advance of what I will be doing and where I will be going so you know that I am not cheating on you. Please love, please give me this second chance.
Remus waited with baited breath for Harry's answer, his heart pounded against his chest like a big brass drum while inside of him his wolf howled and whined pitifully as it finally understood what its actions had cost it.
"Do you give me your Wizard's promise that you will not cheat on me like this again?" Harry asked as he turned and looked at Remus with wide begging emerald green eyes as a soft almost unnoticeable white glow surrounded him and Remus, "If I give you this second chance do you promise me? There will be no more Ron and Remus but only Harry and Remus?"
Seeing the large hopeful expression in his mates eyes it was as if a veil around him had been lifted and for the first time since he had started to have his little lustful meetings with Ron he realised just what he had done. Closing his eyes Remus opened them a few seconds later only to show Harry a pair of amber eyes that held just as much pain as Harry was feeling.
"I promise you that there will be no more Remus and anyone else, and there will defiantly be no more Remus and Ron," Remus replied as he slowly leant down and placed a quick kiss on top of Harry's head, "From now on there will only be Remus and Harry, please believe me love, I want you and only you!"
Tears began to pour down Harry's face making the emerald eyed male feel like a female, through he let out a heavy sigh and buried his face into Remus' chest and pulled his arms out of Remus' embrace to wrap them around his Remmy. As the pair shared a hug they never noticed the soft white light turn gold suddenly before suddenly disappearing.
"Promise Remus? Promise?" Harry asked as he pulled away slightly and looked up into his lover's eyes, "This second chance I am giving you will not be wasted or laughed at?"
"No my love, it will not be," Remus promised as he hugged Harry tightly, "I was a fool, your words and the fact that you found us...and well you made me see the light."
"Good, as soon as possible you are going to write Ron a letting informing him that you two are through and you will never be like that again," Harry said with a determined glint in his eyes making Remus chuckle softly but he did not his head, "You are mine, I do not share."
"I know love, and I am only yours," Remus replied as he ran a loving hand through Harry's short messy black hair, "Thank you for this second chance, thank you for forgiving me."
The End.