Ben and Amy were inseparable for the next couple of days. They were in that honeymoon stage of their relationship that seemed nauseating to the rest of the world. So, Ricky and Adrian started spending more time together, usually at Amy's apartment since, she was usually staying over at Ben's.
"Who would look at Ben and Amy and say that they couldn't even look at each other a few days ago." Ricky said sitting on the couch as he flipped through channels.
"Yeah, but thank god they're back together, I don't think I could take another second of Ben's mopping." Adrian, eating popcorn sitting next to Ricky. They'd been hoping to watch a good movie on TV but hadn't found anything good till now.
"Yeah me either. I'm just happy this second coming of high school is over." Ricky said.
"Do you ever wonder what things would've been like, had you and I never broken up." Adrian asked, suddenly serious.
"Sometimes." Ricky said.
" Do you think we'd still be together?" Adrian asked.
"Maybe. I'd just started trying to be good at the whole relationship thing. I don't know, we had passion, the kind I've never felt before." Ricky said, looking at Adrian now.
"Do you ever wonder?" Ricky asked.
"Yeah." Adrian said.
"What do you think would've happened?" Ricky asked.
"I think we'd be together. I always knew that you'd be ready to commit someday, even before you did. I guess the passion I had for you was so strong that I could wait for that to me and just the thought that you not wanting to get married was about me and not your commitment issues killed me." Adrian said.
"It was about my issues. When we were together, I could barely handle myself Adrian. I'd never had a healthy relationship with anyone except Margret and Shakur. I didn't want to get hurt by imagining a future that I thought would never happen." Ricky said.
"I'm sorry." Adrian said.
"For what?" Ricky asked, fully turning to face Adrian now.
"For always being jealous of Amy, for sleeping with Ben because I was jealous." Adrian said.
"I'm sorry too." Ricky said.
"What are you sorry about?" Adrian asked, confused.
"For taking you for granted when we were together. For cheating on you just because I was scared. I shouldn't have kissed Amy, even if it felt like kissing my sister." Ricky said.
"It's okay Ricky." Adrian said, smiling.
"How did being with Amy go from it feeling like kissing your sister to being in love with her?" Adrian asked,after a while. Catching Ricky off guard.
Ricky didn't say anything for a minute or two, thinking about what to say. "I think after you and I broke up, I felt like I had no reason not to try to be with Amy, for John's sake. I thought that love I had for, was more than me just loving her because she was John's mother. But it wasn't." Ricky said.
Adrian didn't say anything. None of them did after that. A part of Adrian wished that she and Ricky had spoken like this earlier, maybe they'd still be together. But maybe they had to go through hell and back to get here.