when i write, i like to listen to nicole dollanganger, florence + the machine, and arctic monkeys. especially nicole, bc holy shit her voice is gorgeous. i was listening to coma baby, valley of the dead, ghosts, dog teeth, and barren while writing this. also anything with florence is amazing tbh
sasukarin – colors theme
representations of purple;
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soothing
There are rings under his eyes.
Again, she adds.
More often than not, she'd seen those dark smudges under his eyelids. She was familiar with them, and they appeared on her face more times than she'd liked to count. In her dreams—nightmares, really—it was usually his face. Or her mother's face, her father's face; it was always someone's face, but it was mostly his, and it kept her awake at night.
"Sasuke."
Her fingers tug on his sleeve, egging him forward. He does not move backward, but does not willfully come forward either. Karin scoots forward, arms snaking around his figure and embracing him tightly.
"You're not alone," she whispers, voice hoarse and strained. Sasuke makes an attempt to pull away, but to no avail; she is persistent, and her embrace is becoming more and more welcomed.
"I get them too, Sasuke. The nightmares."
He relaxes against her, his face falling to her shoulder and his eyes to fluttering shut. Sasuke brings her closer, tightening his hold. Karin responds by leaning into him, a soft, pleased smile crossing her features. Caressing his scalp seemed to lull him further—if it was possible; he was already pressed so closely against her— and she likes the feeling of his messy charred locks under her fingertips. Karin enjoys it a little too much.
Moments later, he is breathing evenly, his face calm and passive. And she is happy, happy to see him rest and forget everything for a while. With that, she too falls asleep, in a tangled mess of limbs, where she cannot tell where she ends and he begins.
vulnerability
He makes her vulnerable.
Any other man, like Juugo or Suigetsu, had no chance of piercing her like Sasuke does. They are important to her, and she holds them dear, but no one can hurt or heal her like Sasuke. Karin tells herself that her ribs are steel, cold and stiff around a very warm heart; she doesn't need trivial things like love. Yet Sasuke melts her away, his smile melting her resolve and breaking down her walls.
It frightens her sometimes.
She'll follow him into hell if he asks, and she'll follow him into heaven. Karin swears that she'll follow him anywhere.
When he asks if she'll save him from hell, she is surprised. Karin is the vulnerable one and Karin is supposed to be saved by him. And here he is, asking for her to pull him out of that darkness if he says to do so—because she is the one that makes him open up.
A meek nod, she promises, just like always.
selflessness
"What do you mean you forgot to get a fourth bento?"
Suigetsu shrugs, smirking playfully. Karin wants that slap his ugly, smug look right off of his face, and beat the life out of him.
"I forgot that you were here. Not my fault you didn't put in your orders for food, you dumb bitch. Maybe next time you'll remember to wash my—"
"Fucking dipshit! You're fucking stupid!"
Her fist meets his head and water sprays across the room, splashing across the floor and soaking her feet. Juugo frowns, placing a calming hand upon the small of her back and easing her away from him. Sasuke watches, eyes scanning her movements. She's panting heavily and rubbing her temples in an attempt to relax herself.
Juugo picks up the forgotten bentos, brow creasing when Karin glares at him. He gives out the meals and tenses when her stomach growls quite loudly, as if scolding him.
Fuming, the redhead stands to yell again, when Sasuke's voice prevents her from doing so.
"Karin. Here, you can share."
It was unexpected of him to show such selflessness, but she accepts his small act of kindness. He makes room for her next to him, splitting their rations and giving her most of the onigiri—he knows she likes it most.
Karin wipes away a stray grain of rice from his cheek with a tender smile.
"Thanks, Sasuke."
He nods, continuing to eat.
uniqueness
She's like no other, he thinks.
Karin is separate from the few people he knows—there's women like Hinata, and Ino, who all blend into indifference with him, and there's women like Sakura (and once upon a time, his mother) who are close to him in ways that give him reason to show kindness. Then there's Itachi, Naruto, and there's her, who he holds dear in silence.
When he calls out to her, she spins around in surprise, to be caught by his arms and brought into his chest, as if she could fill up his heart and become part of his being. She's stunned and a stuttering mess, fiddling with her glasses in her lap.
"Thank you."
fragility
He asks to make love for her, but as soon as her compliance tumbles from her anxious lips, she utterly regrets it.
Sasuke's moving downward, his lips leaving a trail of fire upon her skin. Karin's breathing shifts to ragged, nervous pants. But everything stops when he finds the fleshy mark upon her chest.
He presses his lips to it, murmuring softly. Karin can't suppress her tears now; they roll down her cheeks, warm and thick, choked sobs escaping her lips. Warm, roughened hands grip her back, pressing her body closer to his, closer, closer, they need to be closer—
"I-I'm sorry, Sasuke, I… I have to go."
They both know she won't make any move to stand from the bed. His head buries itself into her chest, a sigh escaping him. And suddenly, he's kissing her again, rougher, harder, faster, her needy moans spurring him on.
But the image of the scar upon her chest leaves a fresh wound, aching deep within his ribs.
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i'd like to apologize for the lack of updates, everything has been so hectic and stressful and EMOTIONAL LATELY ugh. i'm working on the fourth chapter though, im so sorry my darlings! it's been since may oh i am trASH orz hopefully the fourth chapter is done by this weekend.