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Chapter 14: Searching

After searching high and low for Rosie we couldn't find her. She finally declared missing and I couldn't help but feel like all of this was my fault. I had finally stopped crying now but I was a serious nervous wreck! Heck nervous wreck wasn't even the word! I was freaking scared out of my socks!

Rosie was just with me like about two minutes after telling her to meet me at the car. How could she suddenly disappear with my car with her? I swear I kept turning around to make sure Rosie was okay when Jake and I argued. And plus if she were in danger, I could've heard her scream. Rosie had an extremely loud scream even though she has asthma, she had quite strong lungs.

"I want an APP on a 3ft 8 little four year old girl named Rosemaree Masen…I know I'm out of work but I frankly don't give a damn…I don't care about the costs I want you to find her and find her fast! ATT…!" Jacob shouted through his phone.

I continued pacing up and down, with my breathing hitching as I had all these thoughts running through my head. What could be happening to her? My mind was running crazy at this moment. I haven't been crying enough lately and I think this was the time I had to finally break down. Losing Rosie was like losing a limb or even my heart. I cannot live without her. I needed to find her.

But in order to that I had to tell Jacob the truth. I had to tell him everything I knew and how I'm the one who caused all of this! With him losing his job and why Rosie's missing.

It doesn't have to be affirmed that Riley had something to do with this mess. Heck, mess wasn't the correct term. This was a life crisis!

Jacob finally finished his call and came up to me.

"The federal police station of Tacoma is getting right to it. I've ordered 22 cops to search the town and flyers have been posted everywhere." He informed me.

I just nodded as I continued sauntering nervously up and down. Jacob suddenly stopped me by laying his hands on my shoulders and holding my face up to meet his eyes. They were filled with fear and sadness as well but soon diverged into something different…determination.

"We're going to find her, I promise." He assured me. I just nodded and continued my pace. "Renesmee," He said. I just ignored him. "Renesmee," He said grabbing my arm. I turned around to face him.

I immediately ran into his chest and began sobbing furiously in his chest. He cooed me as he stroked my hair and pulled me closer.

"I never meant for this to happen. This is all my fault Jacob, this is my fault" I blubbered.

"No, Renesmee. This isn't your fault." He said to me. I shook my head.

"No this is my entire fault!" I exclaimed. "If I didn't do what he said none of this would've happened. You wouldn't have lost you job and Rosie wouldn't have been missing!"

"Wait Renesmee what?"

"I'm so stupid!" I said moving away from him and cupped my face in my hands. I could feel Jacob coming towards me.

"Renesmee…" He began. "What's going on? What haven't you been telling me?" He asked. I slowly moved my eyes to face him as I sniffled.

I couldn't keep it away from Jacob anymore. I've holding it in for the past months but now I had to let it out. Jacob was definitely going to hate me after I tell him everything.

I took a shaky breath before beginning.

"Um…two-two months ago I reunited with my past. Riley Biers…he-he was Rex's best friend in the industry. He was the one who caused Rex's death."

"Wait. You said Riley was your friend that you met a few years ago. So you lied?"

"I know. I tried telling you sooner but I couldn't find the right way to tell you about."

"Well one reason why I hate him. By that look on your face I know there's more to it." He said, crossing his arms and had a stern yet subtle frown-ish look in his eyes. He was already angry and confusion. I sighed. Here goes nothing.

"Look Jake. What I'm about to tell you will make you hate me and possibly not talk to me but I swear it was for the best." I said. He didn't answer. I think he knew what I was about to say I mean Jacob wasn't particularly dumb. He just didn't want to admit it and I couldn't blame him.

"We bumped into each other a couple of months ago and he warned me about how my life would dramatically change and that I should be careful with whom I interact with because they might not be around anymore. I didn't understand why he said that and what he meant about it and I just took it as a sign that he was bluffing. And now that you lost your job and the whole thing with Rosie…" I said tears continuing to trickle off my cheek.

"Why didn't you tell me this sooner Renesmee?" He asked with disappointment in his tone.

"I was trying to protect you Jake you have to understand that-"

"By lying to me!" he shouted.

He hates me now. Oh god! What have I done?

"Look Jake I-"

"How could you be so stupid not to tell me Renesmee? I'm your fucking boyfriend for crying out loud! I was a cop; I could've done something about it. But then you thought 'hey why not lie to him instead.'" He said angrily. He's eyes were blazing. He was furious and I couldn't blame him.

"Jake I'm sorry I tried to-" I tried reasoning but I knew nothing was going to change the fact I lied to him.

"Well you didn't try enough!" He said. "I-I can't believe you were so naïve and stubborn!"

"I know,"

"I mean Rosie's out there with some psychopathic serial killer and god knows what he's doing to her. You know how psychotically irresponsible it was not to tell me? Our relationship was on trust but it seems like that doesn't mean anything to you huh."

"Don't you think I know that Jake?" I shouted to him through the tears. I collapsed onto the log that was next to me. "I know that. But can you stop being my dad and start being my boyfriend please?"

He sighed and he came over to me. All I wanted were his warm hands around me right now.

"Look I'm not angry at you for not trying to protect your daughter but what I don't get is why you didn't tell me sooner?" He said calmly now as he rubbed my back.

"I just thought you'd hate me after that," I muttered.

"Renesmee…Is that what you were worried about? That I'd hate you?" he asked. I nodded.

"One of the things,"

"Baby I'd never hate you. I love you more than my whole life and Rosie too. You mean the world to me, it's physically and emotionally impossible to do that." He said. I just nodded. "Come here," He said pulling me in his arms. I just let the tears stream onto his chest.

I felt like I just had my heart ripped out my chest and had no meaning in life.

I had to find her…

… …

After six more hours of searching the entire town, and ordering every single cop on duty to help us search for her even The Sheriff whose daughter died about a few hours ago, I really felt sorry him that he lost his daughter but this was my actual daughter who could be murdered soon. Jacob and I took it as a sign to wait until tomorrow. It was extremely late and Jacob thought I needed sleep. But that's not what I needed. All I needed was Rosie in my arm.

We hadn't said a word to each other the whole ride home, we were both in our own thought process. All I could think of was all the wonderful times Rosie's made me happy in life from the moment I laid eyes on her when she was born. She was my anchor. She was the only person holding me to the planet.

When we reached our house, we saw a couple of cars lined up. I frowned when I saw my entire family standing by our house. I looked to Jacob who had the same confused expression on his face as we got out of the car.

Erica came running towards me. She flew her arms around me and pulled me into a hug.

"Embry told me everything." She said her voice breaking as if she was going to cry. "I-I can't believe this could happen to you…" She said at loss of words. I just nodded in my friends shoulders.

My dad saw us and came charging towards us. He looked pissed. He then flung his hands on Jacob and growled at him literally about to beat him into a bloody pulp.

"If you ever break my girl's heart again I'll personally kill you. How could you let this happen you dick? I'll hurt you!" He snarled at him. My eyes widened.

"Dad please don't do this!" I cried in terror. My dad was literally about to kill my boyfriend. I could see it in his eyes.

"What kind of cop are you?" He seethed.

"Edward please don't start. We just lost our grand-daughter heck our daughter just lost our daughter so please no fights today. We've got other things to worry about." My mother said coming into view. My dad didn't stop glaring at Jacob and his hands never moved away from his jacket. "Edward…"

My dad gave Jacob one last look before letting go of his strong grip on him. He turned to face me. His facial expression turned saddened when he saw my puffed up face. Edward then flew his arms and pulled me into a comforting hug.

"We'll find her. I promise we will. She'll be in your arms very soon." He assured me. I just nodded in my father's chest.

After talking to the family for a few more minutes and they assured us they'd look first thing at dusk which was about three hours away, they left to their various venues.

Jacob and I entered the house as it started getting chilly. Jacob threw my handbag on the kitchen counter. I began sauntering to the living room but was stopped when I saw boxes and toys lying around. I saw all the things Rosemaree liked and wanted so badly, from her Tinkerbell and Little Mermaid play set to her bicycle she'd always wanted and it had bells. I couldn't help but get emotional as I saw all of this.

I turned around to face Jake who just gave me a small smile.

"I saw Rosie's list on our nightstand and I knew how badly you wanted to get her them. So I just stopped by Toys R'Us and got her a couple of things." He informed. I turned back to all of the gifts. That was completely generous of him.

"Thank you," I said sincerely.

"It was nothing really. I just wanted her to have a good birthday."

"No it was more than nothing Jake," I said to him.

"Don't worry about it. It was really just-"

"Jacob, could you shut up please and accept my sincerest gratitude?" I asked him. He smiled and nodded.

"What would you like me to get you?" He asked. I sighed.

"I'd really use a bath." I said sadly. I just needed something to cleanse away the stress. He chuckled and nodded.

"I'll get the water running," He said giving me a kiss on the shoulder. I nodded and he left the room soon after. I turned back to the gifts to see Rosie's baby doll in its playful stroller. I snorted at how corny it was and took it out. I decided on heading out just to get some fresh air as I sat on the porch and watched the stars in the sky. I could swear I saw stars building up in shape that reminded me so much of Rosie.

I clutched the doll close to me as I released a few more teardrops.

I wanted my child back…

The vibration on my phone pulled me away from my train of thought. I pulled it gracefully out of my pockets to see the Caller ID as Unknown. I didn't have to confirm it to know it was Riley. I answered it.

"Riley," I said slowly through the phone.

"I'm assuming you're alone right now so I'm just going to get right to the point." He began. I gulped. "How are you?"

"Where's Rosie?" I asked him ignoring his rhetorical question. He scoffed. "Tell me where she is!" I exclaimed through the form.

"Whoa whoa, easy…I'm starting to think that boyfriend of yours is growing on you," He conjectured with a chuckle. I frowned. What did he mean by that?

"What?"

"I mean, wow. I just check his past record and I'm pretty surprised. Short-temper almost led to homicidal compulsions when he got into a huge gang fight and shot a guy in the stomach…he seems like a lot more fun than these cops trying to save the world every day." He alleged.

How come Jacob never told me about this? In fact he didn't tell me much about his past except for the basics like his family and recently how he was influenced by drugs and alcohol as a teen but never his deepest past.

But who was I to believe Riley Biers. The lying asshole!

"I don't believe you."

"Oh why don't you just ask him yourself?" He asserted. "I mean, let's hope he isn't angry by then, that would be a freaking disaster."

"What do you want me to do?" I asked him cutting right to the chase. I could hear his sinister smile from the phone.

"I want you to lure the cops away on another course and I want you to do me one teeny tiny favor." He began. I frowned. What could he possibly want now? He already has what he wanted.

"What now?" I asked angrily. He chuckled.

"It's a tragedy you know. Do want to know what the tragedy is?

"And that is?" I asked.

"I want half a million dollars in my hands by nightfall." He stated.

My eyes widened. Did he just say $500 000? Is he crazy? Where could I get that kind of money in a matter of 24 hours?

"I don't think I can do that,"

"If you really wanted to save your daughter then I'd think you really would," He said. "Oh and just so you know, to get the process going I've set a timer on her. You wouldn't want the timer to malfunction don't you?" He asked with a sinister laugh. Tears began prickling off my pale face. I couldn't believe such a cruel man could do this to a child. He set a bomb on my little girl? Mine!
"The clock is ticking Renesmee…tick tock; the mouse went out the clock…Dickery Dickery dock"

I had to do something fast. I practically only had a few 23 hours left to save my daughter.

"Okay fine. I'll get the money," I managed to say through the tears. He snorted.

"Good. Oh and by the way, I don't want anyone in on our little secret. That means I don't want your family, your friends, the cops and even your recently unemployed boyfriend on it. Got it?" He asked. I didn't answer. "Got it!" he shouted.

"Y-yes." I replied shakily.

"Just…could I please hear my daughter's voice?" I pleaded. All I wanted to at least help me sleep at night was to hear that my daughter was safe and alive.

"Mommy?" I heard my daughter's voice reach the line after 2 minutes. Her voice sounded retched and raspy and broken as if she was sobbing her heart out. Just that sound made my heart break.

"Rosie, oh Rosie!" I cried out. "You're going to be okay baby, I'll come find you. You're going to be in my arms again."

"Mommy, I miss you please can I see you?!" She cried out.

I was flooding with tears as I heard her cry for help. My daughter was drawn into the mess I created and I didn't know how to end it.

"Baby, stay safe, I'll be there as fast as I can, I promise you. I won't let you get hurt."

"I love you mommy," She said.

"I love you too sweetie. I promise I'll-" I retorted but was suddenly voiced out when the call line ended. I slowly removed the phone from my ear.

I had to find her one way or another.

Another vibration my phone came to be and I slowly looked at it to see a text message from Riley.

Old Town, 42nd Street Avenue, Lakebay warehouse down the road, come alone with no backup or the girl gets rest to sleep and that'll be strike two to the people you loved…

I read the message clearly. This was definitely a matter of life and death and I had to be the one to decide.

"Renesmee?" I heard Jacob's voice ring my ears. I turned around to see him standing at the door. "You okay?"

I nodded and gave a convincing smile.

"Yeah," I replied and got up from the porch step.

I had to make sure Jacob wasn't involved in any of this. But how could I do that without lying to him?

… …

After taking my bath, I got into my pajamas and tied my hair back in a bun. I left our bedroom bathroom and into the bedroom to catch Jacob talking over the phone to one of the cops.

"Okay, keep me posted when you get any more news…Tango Chris." He said then ended the call.

"Tango?" I said with a light chuckle. He turned around and smiled at me.

"It's just a code name. It means thank you officer." He said. I nodded understandingly. I rubbed myself as I suddenly felt cold. "I can loan you my t-shirt if you want?" He asked. I shook my head respectfully.

"I'm okay,"

"Um…you can take the bed. I'll sleep on the chair." He said motioning to the couch.

I knew why he insisted I should sit alone. He thought it would've been inappropriate of him to be around someone who was grieving or someone who was stressed like I am.

He walked over to the chair and sat down while I walked over to the bed and got into the blankets. I lay my head down and faced Jacob whilst he faced me. He smiled.

"Are you okay?" He asked. I nodded slightly.

I didn't know how I felt at this point. I don't know if could even sleep tonight.

He nodded then closed his eyes.

"Jake?"

"Hmm,"

"I don't want you sleeping on the chair." I said to him. He shook his head.

"I've woken up plenty of times in this thing…its okay." He said with a smile. I nodded as I watched him shut his eyes.

"Jake please don't sleep on the chair." I said hoping he got what I meant. He widened his eyes and looked at me. I nodded.

He then got off the chair and moved to the bed and got into the blankets with me. We stared deep into each other's eyes, the eyes of love and longing.

"What if we can't find her, what if…?"

"I'm not letting her get hurt,"

"And I don't want you getting hurt, especially because of me." I said to him.

"We're going to save her. We'll figure it out." He assured me.

Suddenly staring into his eyes changed me completely. I had a sudden stir of the stomach as if I had butterflies. Jake had always given me butterflies but that always meant he made me nervous but this was something different. I felt drawn to him in a way I've always wanted to feel.

Jacob must have felt the same way as he leaned in to give me a kiss. That kiss soon became urgent as he roamed his hands all over my body, down my thighs and up my back. I maneuvered myself so I was hovering over him and was straddling his lap. I leaned down to give him a strong and passionate kiss on the lips. He moved his one hand that was holding my right leg and the other up my body holding my by the waist then moving up to stroke my long hair then down my back again.

Our lips never departed until he moved them to my sensitive spot which was my neck. I moaned in pleasure as he nibbled on my neck and up my earlobe. I pulled away suddenly. He frowned.

"I want to try something else." I muttered lowly.

"Something else?" he questioned. I nodded.

"Yeah,"

Then I moved back and removed my camisole leaving me in only my bra. If I needed one thing to relieve some of the stress was this moment right here. He frowned slightly before getting it right, knowing what I wanted from him and pulled me down into a kiss. He flipped me over so that he was hovering over me. He stared down at my chest and looked into my eyes to ask for permission. I granted it with a nod and a huge grin. He moved down so he could plant a kiss right about my right breast. He moved his lips from my chest back to my lips again. I grinned in lust when he moved his lips to my neck and his hand roaming to where my bra lace sat and he unclasped it.

He used his free hand to reach for mine as he interlocked them and closed them tight as we spent those last hours in blissful serenity…

… …

I woke up that morning and checked my clock to see it was 6: 45 am. I looked to the side to see Jacob's bare chest lifting as he slept peacefully. I smiled at him and got off the bed to change into clean clothes.

Jacob and I spent one of the best nights together last night on one of the worst moments in life. We finally gave in to each other and I was happy yes but also felt a little guilty that I was betraying someone and that someone was…Rex.

When I was done preparing I knew what I had to do next. I cannot believe I had to lie to Jacob again. And I couldn't bear talking to him face to face so I decided to write a note.

Dear Jake,

I couldn't explain to you face to face so I just wrote this note.

I'm leaving. I cannot tell you where but I just want you to know that there are no ways to describe how much I love you. Last night was the best night of my existence but I can't help but think we're not meant to be anymore...

Jake I-…

I'm sorry…

I released a few tears as I wrote this so I just folded the note and lay it on his nightstand to save myself the regret and pain I was feeling at the moment. I looked at him sleeping peacefully one more time and planted a small kiss on his lips.

Whatever happened today was for the best I guess. It was either good or bad but I at least have a sense of assurance that everyone would be okay, especially Jacob.

I left the house and began sauntering along and following the directions Riley sent me to. When I finally stopped to what looked like an old warehouse I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

Oh dear god and Rex please guide me… I thought into my head.

This was it. If this was what it took to save my daughter then so be it.

But I knew that it will not end pretty…

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