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One day I will write a story when they met, inmediately snogged and ended up married by the afternoon XD! Forr now lets get angsty:D

Warning: Bad languaje, adult themes.

11. The fall

Sirius was sitting at the kitchen bar, glaring at Remus with pure hatred. He was growing more and more impatient as he watched the servant burn the dinner two times, being extremely clumsy and shaky.

That servant didn't deserve to feel bad. Sirius was the one who was disappointed. Sirius was the one who had exposed his heart just to be betrayed. Sirius was the one hurt. One day, just one day, was all that the miserable servant needed to laze around and take advantage of his trust. To use his bed as if he owned it.

Now that scum couldn't even cook for him, and dared to have tears in the eyes as if he was sorry. But there was something else besides the tears, he had dark circles around the eyes, his face was oddly flushed and had a thin layer of sweat on the forehead…Oh no!

'Are you sick? You little piece of shit! Come here!' Black was practically chasing Remus around the table. They ended up in opposite sides and the table as a barrier.

'Why didn't you tell me?! You did this on purpose, you knew we needed you for the trial, were you trying to sabotage us?!' Black was outraged.

'N-No! It wasn't like that.' Remus was crying.

Sirius took him forcefully by the arm and placed his free hand on Remus's forehead. He was burning, the fever was very high. He screamed in frustration. 'WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!'

'I-I was scared. Didn't want you to yell at me…' Remus answered between sobs.

'WHAT?!' Black tried to breathe deeply and calm down a little. Not to yell anymore.

He took the smaller man to the bathroom, he knew that St Mungo's would never give service to a dark creature and all the healing was going to depend on him. So he had to calm down and tried not to scare the boy even more. Black filled the bathtub with water and dissolved medical powders. That mixture had to be enough to control the fever. He heard Remus struggling to breathe.

'Take off your clothes, please, and enter the bathtub.'

Remus was very surprised because his master was watching his tone trying not to shout at him. He undressed shyly. Sirius couldn't avoid staring at the slender figure in front of him, of course he found it attractive but it was not that what kept his attention. It were the scars and bruises he had over his body.

All kind of marks: scratches, burns, bites, faded bruises…how could someone dare to hurt him? Watching those he felt very guilty for even raising his voice at him. The boy had been too scared to tell him that he was feeling ill. All his life he had to endure much pain and used to be silenced with abuse, no wonder why he kept it to himself. Remus deserved better, someone better to take care of him.

Remus entered the bathtub and hissed at the contact with the water, the temperature change was very uncomfortable. He was looking very tired and found it difficult to breathe. By the time the healing water did its effect the boy was unresponsive. Sirius wrapped him in a towel and carried him in his arms.

It felt so wrong to get him into the cupboard, so he let him stay in his bed. The bath had lowered his body temperature so the fever could disappear; now he needed to be warmed. He wrapped him in his best blankets and secured his head with the most comfortable and fluffy pillows. Having done that he dashed to the Potters' for help.

'Lily! You have to come with me!'

'Hi, Sirius. Good evening. I'm doing great and you?' The beautiful pregnant witch said sarcastically.

'Yeah, I'm sorry you are right. It's that I really need you to help someone urgently. You are the only healer that would help a werewolf, remember all the muggle shit about equality you are always talking about.'

'Muggle shit?'

'I'm sorry, could you pleasecome with me. Remus is important.'

Lily hurried to the mansion; Black had never used the words please or I'm sorry before, this really must be an important person. Lily checked Remus and he no longer had fever but he seemed to have something more severe going on. She asked Sirius to bring her medical kit and some specialised equipment. They were lucky she had her medical materials at home because she took them to monitor her own pregnancy. Then she asked Sirius to leave the room so she could concentrate better and get a full diagnosis.

It felt like hours when Lily finally exited the room. She headed towards Black and smacked him so hard that her hand got printed in his face. Surprisingly she smacked him a second time on the other cheek.

'What the hell Black! I can't believe what you did to that innocent young man!'

'But…'

'No buts! Even with the upbringing of a pureblood I had never imagined that you could be so cruel. This is disgusting.'

'Wait! It's not what you think, I neve—'

'Right! It's not what I think, it's what I see.' She began to read her quick notes. 'Lung infection, anemia, malnutrition in general. Low pressure. Sprained ankle. Broken ribs poorly mended. Bruising and trauma to the body…a-abused…this boy has been sexually abused. His system just shutdown, couldn't take it anymore.'

'Oh my—shit! Oh, Remus…I didn't know. Lily, I didn't touch him, he has been here only three months. You can ask James, he brought him here. These injuries were made by his past owners. This is horrible. So damn horrible.'

'I believe you,' Lily said after a pause, 'you didn't do it. But I can't believe that you haven't seen ANY signs of pain in all this time. Any sign of weakness or fatigue. WHY UNTIL NOW?! He is very ill and wouldn't have survived the night without the healing. By morning you would have found his dead body. You knew he is a werewolf and never reached for medical attention after the transformations. Why?'

'I-I didn't realise. Merlin, I'm a selfish bastard that only cares about himself.'

'At least you helped him with the fever, that was very good,' Lily tried to make him feel better before turning serious again, 'I hope I can stabilize him before the full moon.'

'What can I do to help him?' Sirius asked and Lily nodded before speaking.

'He needs bed rest. Absolutely no activities which means someone must take care of him. If you are too disgusted with the idea of nursing a low-class werewolf, it's necessary to hire someone who will do it.'

'I will do it myself,' Sirius told her, 'thank you Lily, sorry for the trouble so late at night. I'll escort you home.'

Sirius was being far too polite, humble and looked genuinely remorseful, so Lily decided not to complain or make him feel even worse. When they were back at the Potter Manor, the witch gave him the potions, vitamins and instructions for the care and agreed that she would check on Remus the day of the full moon.

Black arrived home pale as a ghost and tearful. He lay beside Remus, not even bothering to get comfortable. Just collapsed. He began to caress the honey colored locks whispering that everything was going to be alright; praying for everything to be alright.

He had the time to think about everything he had done wrong. He was exhausted yet he couldn't sleep. Then he got up to get some cold milk and rested on his favorite couch, where he and Remus used to watch movies. He looked at the cupboard, for surely, being in that cold space had made him even more ill.

He had something very important to do during that restless night. For the first time in his life he was going to put another person's interest ahead of his own. And he was going to do everything in his power to make him happy. Motivated by guilt? Love?

He didn't know for sure.

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