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I finally decided not to change the rate from T to M because it wouldn't be fair to the readers that have been following the story and are not comfortable with smut. BUT I want happy readers so I will make an adult version in AO3, just like I did with Moony's wicked adventures, If you want more violence and sex let me know and I will put it in that version ;)

Warnings: sexual themes but just suggested.

16 Lovesick

Sirius Black was so in love, so happy, and so sickly sweet. He could barely restrain himself from using the most ridiculous, cheesiest pet names to refer to his new beautiful boyfriend. He simply loved him that much and was going to make him as happy as it was possible.

Remus's pearly white smile resembled the half-moon they were watching from the museum's garden. The honey haired boy was the most important person in his life and his smile was all the light he needed in the darkest of nights.

'There you are, Sirius; Canis Major.' Remus pointed at the starry sky.

'You are very smart, yes that's my star. All my crazy relatives have names like that. My father's name was Orion, no wonder why I hate that constellation,' added Sirius gloomily.

'You don't talk much about your father.' Remus pointed out.

'He was not a good person; I think it is something we have in common; spiteful, unkind, arrogant, overall a horrible human being.' The Black heir's eyes flashed with anger.

'You are not like that,' Remus assured him immediately, 'you are the kindest man I have ever met. You put a harsh facade just to hide that you get hurt easily,' said Remus even if he knew that Sirius would become defensive.

'What? I don't…' Sirius didn't know how to finish that sentence, he was a hot headed, strong man; not a crybaby, and there was no facade.

'You are much more vulnerable than you are willing to admit,' Remus held Sirius's hand tenderly, watching the gray eyes become unsteady.

After a long pause Sirius spoke, 'Very perceptive, Doctor Lupin. Yes I have been hurt by my closest friends and family, and it's true sometimes I'm not angry but hurt and sad. But I don't have the right to complain about my past, that hurt means nothing compared with yours. After all I have had a privileged life so I shouldn't feel bad about myself,' Sirius said as if that was cold data.

'Sirius, just because your parents didn't hit you, it doesn't mean that you weren't abused. Of course you have the right to feel the way you do about you past,' Remus argued, 'it may sound unbelievable but my childhood wasn't that miserable. The Pettigrews had a very kind woman as their cook. She sometimes held me when there was no one around; she showed so much compassion for me. Even if she couldn't save me from the slavery at least made my life happier. She died when I was thirteen.' Remus gave a sad smile as he finished his story.

'I didn't know that, I'm so jealous…I'm sorry!' Sirius exclaimed when he realised what he had said, 'I shouldn't say something like that. It's just that my parents never showed me any real affection. Never held me with love, just did it to appear as a normal family when in reality, they hated having children. They gave me all I asked them to buy me; clothes, cars, houses, even drugs,' Sirius paused before continuing softly, 'but all I wanted was to feel like I mattered to someone.' Sirius sounded despaired and helpless, no longer bothering to hide emotions.

'You are important, Sirius, you matter to me more than life,' Remus whispered to him honestly and hugged him tightly as Sirius started sobbing.

'I don´t know what's wrong with me, I never talk about my parents. I truly hate my father, he was so cruel to me,' Sirius's tears fell onto Remus's neck.

'It's all right Sirius, it's okay to cry. Free yourself from all that hatred.' Remus rubbed comforting circles over the older man's back.

Sirius cried until he felt numb but relieved; he felt so safe and understood wrapped in his beloved's arms. Maybe he will no longer need to hide behind anger, maybe being himself was okay. In fact he didn't know too well who he really was and it was going to be a huge task to get to know his true self, but this was a good start.

'I don't know what you have done to me Remus Lupin, but I'm no longer embarrassed about crying in public, I've become such a pussy because of you.' Sirius laughed and squeezed Remus's hand before kissing him. They deepened the kiss, each touch becoming more and more passionate.

Their bodies longed for more contact. They hurried to the mansion and reached Sirius's bed, where they snogged and kissed and touched eagerly. Suddenly they felt ready to take a huge step forward into their relationship; Sirius never imagined that they would get intimate so soon, but Remus said he was completely sure about it. So, just like that, they enjoyed each other all night long.

Both of them were pleased and sated after several rounds of shameless, wild sex. Their bodies seemed to be made to slot right into place against each other, like a perfect puzzle as all of their sensitive regions rubbed and they hurtled towards the most delicious orgasms. Sirius collapsed, exhausted and, as soon as he was asleep Remus got up from the bed and kissed Sirius's forehead before leaving

'I love you, Sirius…' he finally whispered.

Sirius woke up when he felt cold; he was sleepy and shaky from the physical effort of last night. Totally worth it! He never imagined that his sweet Remus could be such a beast in bed, very skilled. He knew that his boyfriend wasn't a virgin but he hadn 't expected an expert. Hell yeah, he felt awesome.

Sirius tried to cuddle with his lover but the young man was missing, in fact the spot where he should be was cold, meaning he had left long ago. Sirius waited for Remus to return but he didn't come. Sirius got up, naked and walked with some difficulty; his legs felt like jelly!

Remus was asleep peacefully in his own room, he was even wearing long pajamas as if nothing had happened between them an hour ago. Sirius felt offended but mostly curious. What was going on? Had he said something stupid again? Was Remus mad at him? Sirius gently shook Remus to wake him. The boy opened his eyes and shifted a little to let Sirius rest beside him.

'Hi. Why did you leave?' asked the black haired man softly.

'I thought you wouldn't want me to fall asleep in your bed.' Last time Remus had fallen asleep in the master bed, Sirius had lifted him forcefully; both remembered the incident clearly.

'Oh…of course I want you there,' said Sirius feeling very ashamed of his past tantrums, 'what's wrong, Rem? I thought everything was working fine between us,' Sirius said, genuinely clueless.

'It's my fault, I'm so sorry Sirius. I think I fell in love with you,' admitted the boy, looking truly sorry.

'You think you fell in love with me? Think? What do you mean by that?' Everything turned even more confusing for Sirius.

'I would understand if you don't want me to live here anymore. This shouldn't be happening. I shouldn't be in love with you if I'm your concubine. My obligation during sex is to please you, not to enjoy it, I-I…felt better that I should. It was like a beautiful dream, I'm sorry Sirius.' Remus looked ashamed.

'Con-c-u-b-bine! Is-is that what you think you are?' Sirius managed to utter, shocked by the confession.

'That's what you asked me to be at the restaurant.' As Remus finished the sentence, Sirius felt as if he had been doused in cold water.

Remus thought Sirius just wanted to use him for sex. A concubine? Basically like a prostitute, a sex partner for free. How the hell had that happened?! Now that he remembered, he never used the words "love" or "boyfriend" in his love confession at the restaurant; in fact it was Remus who had sealed the deal.

If Remus was no longer going to clean and cook for Sirius, he thought that he was going to take his clothes off for his amusement. With sex he was going to pay for all that his master had given him. The good news was that Remus said he loved Sirius, the bad news was that he loved him enough to be used as a sex toy.

'I'm a bloody imbecile!' Sirius said loudly and then confessed, 'Remus Lupin, I love you, never doubt it, please. I would never ask you to be my concubine, this was a misunderstanding and it was my fault, not yours.' Remus opened his mouth to argue but Sirius placed a finger on his lips and continued his explanation, 'I really thought you were my boyfriend, I swear. Do you remember what I promised you? That I would never allow someone to touch you without your consent? That I will keep you safe? That deal included protecting you from myself.'

'You love me?' Remus asked, disbelief all over his face, 'Really? I'm so happy, but are you sure? I don't deserve you, you need someone that-' Sirius interrupted his surprised ramble.

'I am the lucky one!' he said to stop Remus from putting himself down.

'This is too good to be real, all of this.' Remus tried to get up from the bed but Sirius moved quickly and straddled him to keep him right there with his back pressed against the mattress and held his face to make eye contact.

'Look me in the eyes, please. I love you and you are my reason to wake up in the morning,' Sirius told him in a heartfelt tone, 'you really don't believe me when I tell you that you deserve a good life, do you? Remus, you have gone through a lot of crap in your life and those horrible people made you think that you are less than wizards, but you are not. You are the kindest, bravest and smartest human being I've ever met. You deserve much more than left overs, ragged clothes and some idiots treating you like a possession. You are so important to me, look what you have done for me.' Sirius stopped and then rolled aside once he was sure Remus wouldn't leave the room.

'I didn't do anything extraordinary as you make it seem, I just cleaned your house,' said Remus modestly.

'You gave me a home,' Sirius responded to that sincerely, 'yes I had always had a pretty house but it was your company that made me feel warm and cared for. It was you who made me a happier and kinder man.' Sirius took Remus's hand and placed it over his chest. 'Believe me, love, because it's true.'

'Sirius…' Remus blushed.

'Remus, you don't have to be my boyfriend just because you feel pressured. I won't get mad nor ask you to leave if you don't want a relationship with me, I swear. I-I know that I'm not the best man to have a relationship with, but I'm really trying my best to be a better person,' Sirius admitted, knowing that he could lose Remus.

'I do want to be with you, Sirius. I would love to be your boyfriend.' Remus replied and then kissed him softly on the cheek, before wiping away the tears in his eyes.

'Please come with me where you belong,' Sirius told him softly and led Remus to his bed, he wanted him there by his side, and he wanted Remus to see that he was not a disposable toy.

They slept and cuddled on the huge mattress, this time as a happy couple.

Thanks for reading,and sorry for the delay, I'll do my best so you don't have to wait too long for the last two chapters.

SORRY THIS CHAPTER HAD COMANDS #/ AND OTHER UNDREADABLE STUFF SO I POSTED IT AGAIN, I DON'T KNOW IF I PASTED IT WRONG OR FF . NET IS NOT LOADING PROPERLY. PM ME IF THE ERROR PERSISTS.