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The Major
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Chapter 5
(JPOV)
Love?
No, that's not possible.
It's a weakness.
She always said it was a weakness and that creatures like us didn't deserve to love, so that couldn't be the unknown emotion I have been feeling from her and myself all day.
I could feel myself start to shake as anger, frustration and confusion started to overtake my senses. My eyes started to darken from red to black.
"Jasper? Jasper! What's wrong?" Bella frantically asked.
My attention snapped back down to her. I narrowed my eyes at her and grabbed her by her hard by her shoulders.
"Love? Love! What do you mean LOVE?" I screamed at her.
"Ouch! You're hurting me!" She pleaded.
"Answer me! Tell me it's not possible! You were lying! You don't love me and I don't love you! It's impossible! She said so! TELL ME!" I demanded.
"W-who? Jasper, please! I can't! I-I'm sorry!" She retorted. Venom was streaming down her cheeks as her golden eyes held so much heartbreak.
"LIAR!" I screamed shaking her small frame.
"No! Please! Let go of me!" I could feel the anger, confusion and rage that I was projecting take over her now.
"Not until you tell me the truth!" I countered. I will not have the very emotion that I was punished so constantly and severely for come back into my life. And I definitely can't risk another Maria in my life. Fuck this!
Suddenly, her hands started to glow blue. She then brought them up as a blue glowing bubble; about 14 inches wide appeared between them and just as quickly as it appeared, she shoved it at my chest and I went sailing down the hall into the wall as pieces of dry wall fell around me. I looked up in shock and saw my Isabella looking at me with a startled, fearful expression as venom tears continued to fall. It was then that I realized what I had done as I got bombarded with all her feelings at once. There was fear, for what just happened, disappointment and sadness for my reaction, hurt, agony, worthlessness, and rejection for her believing that I didn't return her feelings as her mate, if she still even has those feelings anymore. She must hate me now. But the most dominant emotion was pain. The type of pain that just takes over your body and holds you so tightly that you can't breathe, you can't think, and you can't move.
The pain she is feeling is stifling...I wondered how she was able to remain standing. If I wasn't already in a heap on the floor, I have no doubt I would have collapsed.
I curled into myself, wrapping my arms around my middle as if to hold myself together. I screamed at the top of my lungs in agony as I started crying my eyes out. This was a first for me since before the Major in me made himself known. I could feel him rattling his cage in my mind. He didn't like me in such a vulnerable state any more than I did.
But this wasn't a threat. This was my mate and I was the one who hurt her. I couldn't risk his dominating personality ruining things further with my Bella. I just pray that she doesn't reject me as her mate.
A new round of sobs came at the thought of that as my hands and torso started shaking uncontrollably. My whole body, but more so my chest was warped with pain. I may have marked her making her my mate and my mating bond to her indestructible, but she has yet to mark myself, making her mating bond to me incomplete and weak enough to be severed. Our mating gifts don't kick in until both mates have been marked for that reason.
I could feel her emotions also warring with each other about that very topic, causing a sharp pain in my chest. I know since her previous relationship hurt her and I can feel that she is debating on if she wants to risk her heart again. My recent performance is really not helping my case either. Whatever she chooses, I will understand and be there for her however she will allow me to be. I wouldn't blame her for not wanting me though. I wouldn't want me either. I'm only good for one thing and that's destroying anything and everything I touch.
The pain in my chest starts increasing, and I begin to panic. This is it. She is severing her bond to me and there is nothing I can do or say or even think clearly with the pain I am in.
I heaved and jerked with dry sobs and then braced myself in attempt to hold in the screams I am expecting when the pain continues to worsen. I am aware that I have now lost control of my gift and am projecting. Pete and Char are lucky they are not anywhere near.
I manage to picture my mate's angelic face in my head as something to hold on to and picture to attempt to keep my grounded.
Then, by some miracle...it stops all together. At first all I feel is relief from the pain, then shock when I realize what this means. The pain would have gotten worse, equaling the pain from the end of the change or sometimes worse depending on how strong their bonds were. It is the most painful experience emotionally and physically from what I had been told by one of the privates who willingly joined Maria's army for that reason. He was hoping to be killed for that specific reason. Had her bond to me been severed, I would have been in the same boat. Maria had left the decision of him joining up to me since he was not gifted, nor a newborn and after hearing his story and lots of begging on his part, I allowed him to in as long as he stayed for a year. I never had the chance to see his year through, for 5 months later Peter came back for me. I never thought all those months ago that that almost would happen to myself.
Realizing what all of this means, new cries of relief and gratitude begin to rack throughout my body. She decided to keep me. I couldn't believe it. Love must be real then. She must love me to want to keep me! This also means that crazy bitch Maria was wrong and had played me. After all that pain she put me through in every sense to prove her point, and me giving up on the one thing I craved the most in my world full of evil, she had lied. The thought does nothing to calm me from my vulnerable and pathetic stayed on the floor in the fetal position.
I felt a pair of arms pull me to them. Strawberries and freesias. Bella. But why? After how I treated her just now, I still couldn't figure out why or how she could love me enough to still want me and now she is the one comforting me. I decided not to continue to question it and wrapped my arms around her midsection and buried my face in her stomach.
"I'm sorry!" I sobbed. "Please! Don't leave me!"
"Never," She whispered. I felt her tears soaking my shoulder as she leaned over me, holding me as she sobbed.
We stayed like that for what seemed like hours when in reality was only about 45 minutes. I finally sat up and pulled her in between my legs and wrapped my arms and legs securely around her. The thought of not holding her was enough to send me into a panic.
"I'm so sorry." I whispered so softly in her ear that if she was still human she wouldn't have heard me.
She sent me forgiveness and tangled our fingers together.
"Wanna tell me what that was all about?" She whispered in return as she turned her head so she could see my eyes, which I am sure were pitch black by now.
"It's not something I've ever spoken about. Not to anybody. Even Peter doesn't know about it and if he ever found out, it would bother him greatly." I told her.
"Oh. I understand." She said with disappointment evident in her tone as she tucked her head in the nook of my neck.
"But I want you to know. I don't want secrets between us. It's hard for me to talk about, but I could show you." I sighed. I dreaded this greatly, but I knew that it was important for her to understand. If I could ever fully accept that she truly loved me, then she needed to be exposed to my skeletons. I only hope she can still feel the way she does about me.
"Has Peter ever told you my story?" I asked.
"No. He only told he his and Chars. The only things I know about you are the parts you played in their story, education on the Southern Wars where you were describe and who you were in relation and little things that they told me about you in general so I could decorate your study and your room." She said.
"Alright then. I will start from the beginning. It's not by any means a happy story and I'm not proud of the things I did. So if you hate me after you hear this, I understand.
"Let me know when your gift is working. Unfortunately until you mark me as I have you, we won't have all our mating abilities, which we will discuss when it happens." I told her, waiting for her to give me indication that she is ready for me to start.
She took a deep breath to ready herself, and then gave me a nod. I then started picturing my life from the decision that changed my life for good.
"It was 1857 in a small town outside of Houston, Texas when I decided to leave my family and fake my age to sign up to join the Confederate Army. I was 17 and very ambitious. My older brother Dale had already left the year before and I wanted to make my family proud, just like my brother had. I rose through the ranks quickly due to my charisma and strategic ability and was promoted to Major Jasper Andrew Whitlock. I was very good at what I did and was well respected by everyone.
One night, my platoon was assigned to evacuate all the women and children from Galveston. I stuck behind after everyone left to circle around and make sure that nobody was left behind. I just was on my way back onto the road outside the town when I saw them. Three of the most beautiful women I had ever seen at the time were standing on the side of the road. I wasn't sure if they were just stragglers or if they were just arriving to visit someone who lived in the town, but either way me being the gentleman that I was, I immediately offered them my aid.
Their names were Nettie, Lucy, and Maria. I knew that there was something off about them and regardless of the alarm going off in my head, after noticing their red eyes, screaming at me that they were dangerous and to get back on my horse and get out of there. But back then, we men were meant to protect women. Not fear and most certainly not run from them. So against my better judgment, I stayed. They started speaking to each other about me as if I wasn't even there.
"He's speechless." Lucy remarked.
Nettie leaned in towards me inhaling deeply with her eyes half closed. "Mmm...Lovely." she sighed, referring to my scent. When she opened her eyes again, they were black as night.
"Patience Nettie." Maria said inspecting me from a distance and put her hand on her shoulder. "Concentrate."
"He's young, strong...and an officer too." Lucy said.
"But don't you sense it? There's something else there too. I want to keep this one." Maria smirked.
"Then you better do it Maria." Nettie said. "I can never stop once I've started." she finished in a whisper.
Maria nodded and told Lucy to take Nettie and go hunt so I was left alone with Maria.
At this point I knew they were definitely different. Inhuman and something dangerous, especially after watching the other two who looked to have disappeared according to my weak human eyes, yet I held my ground.
"What's your name soldier?" She asked, bringing me out of my shocked state.
"Major Jasper Whitlock, ma'am." I answered her politely, trying not to stutter.
"I hope you survive." She said as she approached me. "You may be of great use to me."
She leaned in as if she was going to kiss me but instead at the last second, she bit me.
For three days I burned and finally woke up in an old shed next to a barn with a camp of some sort. Maria was there standing over me. She explained to me what I was and what my purpose was. She then showed me around camp and set me up in the tent housing the other newborns.
At the time I was only one of ten. Maria taught us everything she knew herself. Our first mission was to take back Maria's hometown of Monterrey that was taken from her, leaving her and her two sisters as the only survivors. We fought and conquered it easily. So easily that you could almost see the wheels turning in Maria's head as greed came through her from time to time in strong waves as she was contemplating expanding her territory.
The way Maria ran her army was very different and way harsher than the way they ran things in the Confederate Army. When we messed up or went against her or her sisters in any way, we would be punished with dismemberment, starvation, torture, and sometimes even rape. If we pleased her or won a battle we would be rewarded with extra blood or sex and sometimes even a "pet" as she called them to do with as we pleased, if we really stood out in a positive manner according to Maria's standards. The three sisters may run the army, but it was Maria who was the alpha of the three, so she always had the final say.
I was special though. I was stronger and faster than any of the other's and my experiences and training from the Confederate Army along with my strategic mind, which had developed further upon becoming a vampire helped me a lot and put every fight in my favor. I was nothing but a blur of destruction on the battle fields. This is what first brought me (specifically) to Maria's attention.
My gift was also discovered early on and with all that put together, I was unstoppable. I still to this day haven't lost a fight.
Out of the ten soldiers, I was the only one with a gift at the time, which was only another reason why Maria held me in a higher regard than the rest. Though this may have been a blessing, but it was also a curse. The other newborns, which were all male, frequently became jealous and tried to pick fights a good amount of the time. Needless to say, they were defeated but not burned per Maria's orders. I only made the mistake of doing that once before I learned my lesson not to destroy another unless the Mistress Okayed it.
My one year mark came and went, and instead of losing my strength and speed along with everyone else, I became faster and stronger. Maria was ecstatic and appointed me her second in command and my first assignment was to destroy the other 9 newborns as they were no longer useful to her anymore and to train the 15 new ones that she just created how to fight.
My gift served her well when it came to taming the newborns. They didn't fight amongst themselves and I was able to easily get them to focus during training. Even the three sisters were working together in harmony.
I was also in charge of carrying out punishments, which were incredibly harsh, and culling the newborns when their year mark was up if they were no longer useful or didn't have a gift that Maria found valuable. I would call them aside one by one, explaining to them that they were getting their yearly review. Little did they know, they would not be returning alive. As soon as they saw the ashes from the newborn before them, they would start to fight or flight as their instincts instructed. With me being faster, stronger, gifted and skilled...naturally they had no chance.
In some if not most ways, worshiped the ground Maria walked on. So I did anything she asked just to please her. I was a young vampire and easily manipulated at the time. Not knowing what I do now about mates or the vampire world at the time, I thought she was my soul mate and that what we had was special. That she loved me as I did her. We would bathe in our victims' blood as we fucked and at the time I found it very euphoric, watching her kill her victims in the cruelest fashions. She also insisted that I use my gift to send bucket loads of fear to our victims to sweeten their blood and to also use it to pleasure her as we fucked. We never made love though. She wouldn't have it, but at the time I didn't think anything of it. I just thought she wasn't into the slow and sensual sex and liked it rough and animalistic.
We were an unstoppable team. I lead her army to many victories over the years and made her army the largest, most well trained army in the south. A few decades later and our territory stretched over most of Texas and parts of northern Mexico before we stopped and kept a group of 12 newborns on standby at all times along with any gifted ones Maria wanted kept around over the years as lieutenants.
Around this time, my gift was picking up emotions from Nettie and Lucy leading me to believe they were going to try and get rid of Maria and me. We won that battle easy enough and disposed of them. My gift also morphed and developed further over time. It is still continues to grow to this day.
One day after I just got back from taking the last group of newborns to hunt, I went to go and surprise Maria by proposing to her. I wanted to make her mine and convince her to finally allow me to mark her and vice versus like a real mated pair in this world and the human world. I was so nervous all day, planning and rehearsing exactly what I would say and how to do it just right.
Finally, I walked into her chambers only to find her getting fucked by one of her lieutenants. I freaked out and she just winked at me and continued with what they were doing. I started to see red as I charged into the room and ripped him off of her. He had a gift similar to Alec of the Volturi's, except it was only your sight and smell. He attempted to use it on me, but with my gift it was no use. I just sent him massive amounts of pain so he would lose his concentration on his gift, then proceeded to rip him apart and burned his dick. When I turned around to confront Maria, she was nowhere to be found, afraid that I would take my wrath out upon her.
Afterward, she brought a few bodyguards with her and found me in my chambers a mess. She didn't even care. She slapped me across my face and proceeded to yell and beat me while all of her bodyguards held me down. She claimed we weren't anything special, that I was just her favorite piece of ass. That this is how it has always been and will never change.
"But we are in love! I don't understand why the fuck you are doing this to me! To us! We're fuckin' mates Maria! You're not supposed to be able to hurt your mate. Please!" I screamed at her with my eyes coated in venom.
"Quit being so naive. I can't stand, when you get any type of emotional. Don't you get it? I needed to build a bond with you to bind you to me! I needed assurance that my best fighter and second will never turn his back on me. And as for me loving you, you are out of your mind. Love is a weakness for only the weak to feel and you are not weak so you better get the fuck over this 'love' idea and fast. Our kind doesn't even feel that emotion. We lose it during the change. Mates are only in lust. In case you didn't notice that there are no mated couples in my army. It is too risky and is nothing but a distraction from what they need to be focusing on! The mating pull is too fucking dangerous to allow anywhere near my army! Any and all relationships here are strictly professional and the newborns just fuck anything moving to fulfill their urges. That is my favorite part about having this army." She laughed. "You remember what it was like to be a newborn." She then winked at me as she remembered my first year.
I could feel the betrayal, anger and rage building up so fast I started shaking. I felt like a fool and she just stood there and continued to mock me and my broken heart. What was this mating pull, as she described. I realized then that there was a lot of information about this life that she hasn't been sharing and I intended to find out what it was one way or another from somebody or other.
At this point I was seeing BLACK for my first time as the Major made his first appearance. He dismembered Maria and her bodyguards, over-powering them easily. Never have I felt this strong or out of control. It was like I took a backseat and another side of me took control. A side I could converse with and depend on. He ran on his vampire side alone and had his own demon that he warned me about. He explained that when he is out, and his demon takes over, I will not remember anything until he accomplished what he so desired.
The demon doesn't speak, and is completely animalistic and dangerous. It won't matter who you are, if you get in the way of him, he will rip you apart and destroy you. The Major went on to explain what Maria kept and gave me the self-confidence and arrogance needed to live in this life without going insane.
He didn't burn Maria or her guards. He called it mercy for bringing him out but next time she won't be as lucky. We went on a feeding rampage for two days and destroyed a whole town. Women and children included. I even raped a few. He killed anyone Maria sent after us once she was put back together by one of her guards. Even ones I considered friends didn't survive our wrath.
When I finally came too, I was surrounded by bodies, blood, and fire. I had nowhere else to go except back to the camp. I didn't know of any other way of life. I was told that this was how things were for our kind and saw no other way around it. At least at Maria's camp, I was held in high standings even if I wasn't really Maria's mate.
When I returned I was punished very harshly. Dismembered slowly and bitten countless times for what I did to Maria, the ones she sent for me and the town in her territory. I was starved in a cellar chained to a wall until I had gone was during that time that I found when I gave myself completely over to the Major, I can cope with everything around me. When I emerged after my punishment was over, I was almost insane. It was the first time the Major's demon came out and it took about a week to come back to myself.
Maria was ecstatic at this new development and took it upon herself to push my demon to come out for every large battle. The newborns learned to stay clear of him during those times, because he would just kill whoever he came across, weather they were on his side or the enemy's. This is where we earned our name. 'The God of War.' Ares himself.
Even when we were training, or around the compound, everyone learned quickly not to mess with me. I demanded respect and submission. I would even rip somebody's head off for looking at me wrong. As time went on I became known and feared by all. I was able to take out entire armies alone. I took pleasure in other's suffering greatly, just as I had suffered over the years.
A few decades later, I met a newborn who became my first and only friend. Peter. At first he would just follow me around and try to make small talk. I would completely ignore him but he was persistent and started cracking jokes or making witty comments. I can't even tell you how many times he lost a limb for not listening and leaving me be. But he would still ALWAYScome back for more, that persistent fuck. He claimed that his gift told him to, and that we would be brothers of the closest nature. He would always have my back weather in battle or at camp during training. Eventually he cracked through my exterior and became like the brother he said he would be to me, as well as a best friend, and an occasional fuck buddy to me.
When his first year was up, I managed to convince Maria that with his gift and skill he was still useful and she appointed him my Captain. We would fight side by side and we were deadly. We were the Major and his Captain. A deadly duo.
His jobs were to "babysit" the newborns, as he called it, inform me when his gift gave us useful information, and assist me with the training, hunting and culling. He worked under me and made my job easier. This went on for a few decades until it was time to dispatch a group of newborns. Peter had been acting oddly the whole time and tried to convince me that some of the newborns in the group were still useful.
When I called for a newborn named Charlotte to come forward, his emotions immediately changed to anger, fear, and desperation. She came into view and he turned to look at her, I felt a strong wave of Love, devotion and adoration on top of it. I was shocked at this, so I went into his mind to find the cause of the emotion that I believed was dead to our kind. I saw that Charlotte was his true mate and a slide show of their most sacred moments.
They kept their relationship a secret since mates were killed upon discovery. Naturally, I was stunned and at a loss of what to do. Peter got down on his knees and begged for me to kill him and let her live.
"I can't do that, Peter. You know what happens when you leave half of mated pair alive." I said.
He dropped his head in defeat while Charlotte held him, sobbing with venom coated eyes.
I took a deep unneeded breath. "Captain." I said. He picked up his head to look at me with pain filled eyes. "Go."'
He looked at me in shock. "What -"
"GO!" I yelled. "Go before I change my mind!" They got up and turned but Peter turned back around.
"Come with us?" Peter asked.
"I'm sorry, I can't." I told him sadly. "If I go with you, Maria will send scouts for me and you will never have a chance."
He nodded in understanding. "I'll come back for you." He said with determination. "I promise." I gave him a nod in understanding and thanks. "OH! By the way...thank you my brother." He said and they disappeared from sight.
I returned to the compound when I finished culling the last of the newborns. I did my best to avoid running into Maria at all costs as to keep her from finding out about Peter and Charlotte as long as possible to give them a chance to put as much space between them and the camp as they could, and hopefully cover up some of their tracks.
Finally, after about 4 hours later, Peter and I were called into Maria's chambers. Needless to say, Maria blew her gasket at the news that Peter escaped. She was furious with me for letting them go.
"You and your idiotic ideas of love and true soul mates. Nothing good comes of it, and only weakens you. I will drill it into you no matter how long or hard it takes that this love rubbish is nonsense." She ranted.
She had her guards dismember me and buried the pieces except for my head. I could see and hear everything around me still. She had her temporary Captain carry my head as he followed her into town. I had no idea what she was doing and couldn't voice my question without my vocal cords.
It was twilight when we arrived in town. We were looking around for a while, for what I didn't know. Finally, we stopped when we came across a couple in a park on what appeared to be some kind of date.
"Do you see them Major? Do you feel the love those humans have for each other? Do you hear the baby's heartbeat inside the woman's womb? Now I will show you what a complete waste and hindrance 'love' can be!" She spoke at vampire speed as to not alert the humans of our presence.
We watched as the couple cuddled on a picnic blanket, and feeding each other what appeared to be strawberries. The love they had for each other was thick in the air and I envied them for it.
Finally, it was dark out and the couple was getting ready to leave. The woman stood up but the man remained on one knee. She seemed confused at first, until he pulled out a black box with a ring inside. She then started tearing up with joyous tears and love and excitement building fast. The male was obviously nervous of her answer and was looking at her with such hope, love, and devotion towards this young woman. He asked his question after a beautiful speech about how he adores her and wants to have a family with her. She agrees to his proposal with happy tears streaming down her face. He stands up and holds her tight as he swings her around while they laugh. Feeling like I was intruding on their beautiful moment, I wanted to look away, but with nothing but a head in the hands of a vampire, I had no choice in my actions.
When he sets her down, she takes his hands and looks into his eyes. She then goes to tell him that she is with child. He is now the one with happy tears as he kisses her face and holds her tightly to his chest.
Unfortunately, this is also when Maria makes her move.
"Why isn't this a beautiful moment." She says as she walks up to the happy couple. Fear and wariness are now their dominant emotions.
"Who are you?" The male asks as she pulls his soon to be wife behind him as if to protect her.
"That doesn't matter at the moment." She says crossing her arms as she starts to slowly circle the couple. "What does matter is that you have a choice to make."
"What are you talking about?" He asks.
"I can either A. kill that pretty little lady you have there and you can go free, never to hear from us again, along with this stack of money." She says pulling out a wad of cash from her satchel. "Or B. you can surrender your life to me to do with as I please, and she can go free and live out her life in peace. Or C. You both can forfeit your lives to me to do with as I please."
"Why are you doing this?" The girl questions. "Please, just leave us alone. We didn't do anything to deserve this! Please!"
"I am doing this because I can." Maria says as she uses he vampire speed to flit around them looking as if she is disappearing and reappearing in different places. "I need to teach my Major a lesson, and this is the perfect way to do it."
Maria turns to look at me to make sure that I am paying attention to what is going on in front of me. She smiles wickedly and turns her attention back to the couple.
Realizing the predicament they are in, the male makes a decision.
"Take me." The man says. "Please. Just let her go free."
"No!" The female screams as she clings to her fiancé. "Take me with you! I can't be without you my love." Tears are pouring down both of their cheeks, but instead of the happy and joyous tears they had only minutes before, they are painful tears full of sadness and desperation.
"No my Cassandra, you can't come." He tells her, holding her face in his hands. "You have to stay. You have to survive for our baby. He or she and you are more important to me than my own life, and I need to know that you both will be safe." She shakes her head no, but before she can open her mouth to speak, he cuts her off with a kiss. "Please baby. Live. Teach our child to be a good person and to love with his whole heart. Teach them to be hard working, smart and respectful. I will always be with you baby. I promise." He kisses her forehead. "I love you."
"I love you too." She sniffles.
He smiles and kisses her lips once more, then turns around and accepts his fate. (Whatever it is) and, walks towards Maria.
I could feel everything they were feeling and it was ripping me apart inside. The love they had for each other was so beautiful and strong, and here Maria was tearing that apart as if it was nothing. I was curious as to what the point was to doing this to these poor humans who were lucky enough to find each other and feel the genuine emotion of love towards each other. I was begging for the Major to take over and help me cope. But he stayed dormant in his cage insisting that I needed to man up and quit being such a softie. We very rarely got along or agreed on anything, except our survival and war.
She knocks him out with her fist and picks him up and flits away back towards to compound with her temporary Captain trailing behind, still holding my head steadily in his hands.
She takes him to the barn where there were a few humans going through the change. She dumped the man down on the bed and bit him, pumping her venom into his veins. She put my head on a shelf so I could watch the three days of his change.
On the second day, Maria had her temporary Captain put me back together. I was very weak after hours of healing. Humans were brought to me so I could build my strength back up. I was honestly surprised that she was putting me back together already. I had been punished by dismemberment a few times before for lesser crimes in Maria's eyes and I stayed dismembered much longer than this.
By the time the man awoke on the 3rd day, I finally figured out why and what was going on. He reacted like any other newborn when they first awoke. Maria had put me in charge of him. She claimed he had a gift that needed to be developed and she wanted him trained by the best in all aspects for he was going to be my new Captain replacing Peter. His name was Demetri. Yes, he now works for the Volturi as their tracker. He is the best in the entire vampire world. But that is a story for another time.
After a week, he was finally sated enough to talk. But he didn't remember her. Nor that she was pregnant with his child. He felt no love when I said her name. It only proved that what Maria said was true. Love does not exist for vampires. If a love a strong and beautiful as his and Cassandra's couldn't survive, then there was no hope. He gave his humanity so her and his child could safely live. And he did not remember. I finally accepted it. This experience however always stuck with me and it is something that I don't talk about with anybody.
From then on out, I did my job in Maria's army. I finally accepted the monster I truly was. When I needed release, I either used a pet I was rewarded with, or when I hunted I had sex with my victims as I killed them. I grew more and more depressed with my life.
For decades, all I did was fight, fuck, and feed. Maria still insisted I sleep with her went she wanted me and I would try to get out of it as much as I could. Finally, Peter came back for me and brought me home. He brought me to my mate, who is now proving to me that love is real for all of us, including the living dead such as ourselves. I was punished constantly and had it drilled into my head that it didn't exist. Now, I see that that notion was just a way for Maria to control us. And I want to find out firsthand what this 'love' feels like for myself...
I watched as Isabella came back to reality and out of my memories. She looked up at me with teary eyes and brought her hand to cup my cheek.
"I understand." She whispers. "And I will show you what it can be like if you can promise me one thing in return."
"Anything," I reply, putting my hand over hers, while looking into her beautiful golden eyes.
"Please...please don't hurt me? I don't think I could survive it." She asks.
"I would sooner hurt myself than even dream of hurting you in any way." I tell her in her ear as I pull her closer and kiss her pulse point where I put my mark.
She shiver's in desire and turns her head back to look at me. She reaches up and puts her hand on the back of my neck, pulling me in for a tender kiss, filled with everything she is feeling. Happiness, devotion, adoration, honesty, and love.
I feel butterflies fill my stomach for the first time. I feel like I am in a dream. This is something I had been wishing for for so long and it's finally come true. I will do everything in my power to protect her and make her smile. She's the perfect mate for me and I feel so blessed. Especially after everything I have done in this life. I didn't deserve her, but I sure as hell was going to take her.
I pulled back from the kiss to look at Bella in her eyes.
"I love you my mate." I tell her, sending her everything I am feeling.
A bright smile fills her expression as happy tears fill her eyes again. "As I love you, my Major." She tells me as she pulls me back to her lips in searing kiss.
A/N: Hey everyone, I'm sorry it took so long to continue with my stories but I am back in business! I hope you guys like everything so far! So what do you think of Jasper's story and what happened to him when he was with Maria? Review and let me know!
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