The fact GCSE's are now over is such a relief. The endless studying with Rick and Faith, it had taken over my life so quickly everything else had stopped. As soon as they were done a massive weight and the long holiday which followed was perfect. Faye was always out doing some sort of sporting event so Rick and I basically had the run of the house. It was a totally unique feeling, such a large space shared between the two of us and occasional care worker. It also meant privacy we never had before.

We spent the mornings sat in pyjamas watching goofy cartoons and Disney movies. It was such a novelty not having to share the TV that we made the most of it. It was great, cozied up in blankets me leaning into his chest, his legs protectively either side of my body. The natural closeness between us showing. Comfortable in each other's company that we didn't need to talk.

The routines of the day normally followed with lunch and we would then sit up stairs and Rick would teach me something on the guitar. His face was always so calm when he played guitar just watching him calmed my thoughts. It had always been completely innocent and Rick seemed content with that but me… I wasn't.

I generally couldn't believe it, after everything I had been through I was the one who wanted to take the next step. Every time things started to get heated between us he would be the one to pull away. It's not like there was anyone around to worry about so I don't see what's stopping him.

I turned the page of my book absentmindedly. I was even sure if I had read the page but I had definitely been staring at the page to long and it was looking suspicious. I jumped as I felt Ricks mouth press onto my neck.

"Good book?"

"I am not really sure, I was distracted."

He pushed my hair over my shoulder his kisses traveling further down my neck.

"You, always you."

"Am I just that handsome?"

"Oh totally."

With that I twisted in his lap my legs straddling his hips. Stoking his cheek I made my way up to rest my hands in his mop of brown hair. His arms snaked round the back of my waist pulling me closer as we began to kiss. Things were getting heated the once again Rick pulled away.

"We should probably stop, someone could walk in."

"Rick it is the middle of the day everyone is out, it is just you and me in this massive house."

"They could come back it is getting close to 3 and that is when the younger kids het home."

"It only just turned two."

"I know but…"

"But what Rick? What is wrong? Why every time we start to go a little further you put the brakes on. Is it something to do with me?"

"No of course it's not. You know it's not."

"Then what Rick, I don't see any reason why we can't even make out for more than 3 minutes."

Rick had stood up now as he began to yell.

"Because I don't want to become one of those guys from you past. Who pushed up and hurt you, I love you and don't want to be that person. The people, who give you nightmares, have you forgotten about them."

"Of course I haven't, but from me just being how I am with you surely that has told you that I trust you in a way I have never trusted anyone else."

"I don't want to lose you Anna and that makes me want to wait. I want to show you that these things don't have to be a thing of force like you have always known. I want you to have a real first time and I want it for myself to, I think we both deserve it."

"Rick I would be with you, I don't need some ridiculously romantic experience. Just you, you're all I need."

I didn't wait for the reply; I didn't want to argue anymore. Instead I kissed him and waited for his response as I pulled away.

"Anna you know I want you in every way possible. We have a lifetime; I don't want to rush it."

"Then we won't, I won't push it any further. It is up to you."

"Now I feel emasculated, I swear it is supposed to be the girl in the relationship who doesn't want to rush."

"Always the stereotypes, I think it is romantic. You really are a true gentleman."

"I needed to prove that?"

He said with a wink, returning to his seat behind me on the bed I leaned into him.

"I am sorry we had to fight. Everyone has always been so forceful to me before I forgot that the way to your heart doesn't have to be physical."

"I would be pretty… no extremely happy with the physical thing too. I just know you are the one thing in my life which won't disappear and I want to make the most of that feeling. If we jumped straight into things I would feel like you would up it and leave."

"You know I never would. Not in a million years. Besides we live in the same house, you are stuck with me I am afraid."

"That I can definitely live with."

"I was hoping you would say that."

I lay back against his chest and he twisted a stand of my hair. It was perfect and even the simplest thing would be as long as it was with Rick.

I have just reached the same time of year as Anna and Rick with the GCSE's and I am totally envious, I wish I had someone constantly there! I spend most of my time bored out of my mind! I feel like I have come to the part in the story where I know how I want it to end and shall be writing the last few chapters hopefully before I have to go away in a couple of weeks. As this is coming to a close I wanted to know if there was anything you guys wanted to see. I normally find it hard to take ideas as I tend to stick on my own ideas and can't let go but I only have a rough idea of what to write and want to make it as perfect for you as possible. Thank you for reading and I will update soon!