AN: This is a depressing AU that mentions molestation, forced starvation and suicide. If not your cup of tea please don't read and torture yourself with it. This has been slightly edited. Have a lovely day.
My lips are blue and I can't breath. Can you see me? Tell me you can see me, I need someone to see me. I'm tired of acting. I'm tired of smiling. I'm just so fucking tired. Did you know I can count every one of my fucking ribs? I bet you didn't. I bet you don't even care. Run your fingers over my spine I dare you, I bet you can feel every bone. It's hard to breathe, so hard. I wish this all would end, I just want sleep. But more than that I just want you to care for me. I want someone to care for me. Reach out and touch me, take me into your arms and love me before it's too late... Or is it already too late? There is red on the ground and my lips are blue... I don't hurt any more. My stomach isn't empty... but I'm still so tired. You know whenever you commented on how much I ate it made me feel bad. Made me feel like I didn't deserve to eat. You don't know what he's like, my father. He's a strict father, a leader of a cult but I'm not supposed to know this so you mustn't tell. Promise not to tell? He rations out our food, doesn't give me very much cause I'm not a good girl. I put up a fight, I want to go to school, I don't want them to touch me. I never win though... when it comes to the touching but I get to come to school. That's where I met you and the others... I'm rambling now aren't I? I'm sorry. I'm always rambling. Always getting on everyone's nerves.
I'm sorry... I really am sorry. Sorry that I grossed you out with my constant eating and my constant goofing off. I can't stand the quiet, it makes me think of them and I don't want to... Is it bad that they don't even register as them with a capital 'T' because that's how used to it I am... I wanna sleep. Why can't I sleep!? Daddy will be coming home soon. I hope he doesn't mind that I borrowed his box cutter and some rope. I hope he doesn't mind that I made a mess on the floor... I bet he won't even notice the note I left him... Will you notice the note, Annie? I hope you do. You were what I always wanted to be. Strong, smart, able to defend yourself... I'm so tired Annie... I wanna sleep... I wish my momma was here to sing me a lullaby. Did you know, Daddy killed her. She was gonna take me away. She didn't want to be part of his cult anymore... I think Uncle Mike thinks Daddy did it but he doesn't come over any more. Not since momma died... Oh, hey... I see myself. I'm so pale and my lips are blue. My wrists are red and I'm floating... no hanging from my ceiling fan... Oh... I'm dead aren't I... I guess you haven't heard the words I've been speaking... Why are you crying then Annie? You shouldn't be here. Daddy's coming home soon. Annie? Oh! You found my note! I love you Annie but I know you don't love me back. You love Mikasa but that's okay. This isn't your fault, don't say that! Read the note, see I even say so there! I love you. Why are you grabbing Daddy's box cutter? You're not going to paint your wrists red too are you?... Run Annie, run! Daddy is home! Why are you running toward him? Annie!?... You killed Daddy... Did you do that cause of my note? Who are you calling? Don't call the cops! Oh... You're calling Mikasa... I think I can go to sleep now Annie... I'm gonna miss you. I loved you... Stay safe Annie.