Wake up. Jade... come on, wake up. Wake the fuck up!

I jump awake when cold water's thrown on me. "Dude, what the fuck?"

Skylar glared at me. "I'm not sorry." she sighs. "What the hell was last night about?"

"What about it?" I ask angrily as she throws me a towel, I only then notice that I'm naked. "Uh."

"Exactly! What the hell, Jade?"

"I don't know! It's not my fault!"

"Yes it is!"

"No, it's not!"

"Yes!"

"No, dammit. I don't ever remember."

She rolls her eyes and collasps back on the bed. "Don't give me that. I was shitfaced and I still remember 'kiss the prettiest girl in the room' and 'whoever you kiss you guys get the room across the hall for an hour' I mean, really?"

"Did we...?"

"I don't remember."

"Shit," I whisper. "Oh, fuck oh fuck, oh fuck me."

"What? What is it now?"

"Tori."

Her eyes widened and I almost throw up, but not from the alcohol. Definitely not from the alcohol. "Shit, West."

"Let's go."

We throw our clothes on, not bothering to take a shower, grab our shoes that somehow ended up outside in a bush and we got in my car. "Where the fuck did she go?" I yell in frustration, pounding the steering wheel.

I fucked up.

I fucked up bad. We're stuck in traffic, like, bad LA traffic. So, I take my phone out and dial Tori's number

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ring

"No, no, come on, come on pick up, please."

"What do you want?"

"Tori! Thank fucking god I'm-"

"You juss nooowww call mee?" I blink and look over at Skylar.

"Are you drunk?" A sigh and then a hiccup.

"What's it to you missy? Hmmmmm?" I sigh and lean back into my seat. I ask her countless times where she is, and she always replies with 'you would know if you weren't an asshole.' Which actually really hurt because she's never swore. But she's right, she's so fucking right and I hate her for it. But not nearly as much as I hate myself. I need to know where she is, so Sky and I drive around to every bar that's within a reasonable walking distance of that house, but we can't find her. Again we look at all the parks within reasonable walking distance and then it hit me.

Tori doesn't have any money. She doesn't have an ID, so really, the only way she could be drunk right now is if...

"She's in the alcohol room at that kids house," I say with a sigh of relief.

"How do you know?"

"I just do." So I drive, taking the back roads so I can go as fast as possible without it being impossible to stop and we make it back there, my heart aching and my lungs burning. "What do I say?"

She shrugs. "Tell her the truth, it's the only thing she'll except." I almost got out of the car, when I needed one more clarification. "What?"

"Pull down your collar," I say as I hold my breath. You see, whenever I fuck someone, I always leave a bite mark just above the pulse point. Be it a fetish or not, if I'm taking something, I'm gonna make sure people know that it was me. But, when I had sex with Skylar, it wasn't just a bite mark; it was hickeys, bite marks, and scratches. And when she pulled down her collar, tears threatened to leave my eyes, but I wouldn't let them.

I'm still in love with her, but there's Tori now, or there was. I sniffle and crack my back before opening the door to get out. "Jade, we have to talk about this."

"I know," I sigh, "but I need to do something first." She nods and I take a deep breath before entering the unlocked door. I jogged through the kitchen and stood I front of a large white wooden door. I creaked it open and she was there, staring at the walls. "Tori," I breathe.

"Jade?" I blinked and scrunched my eyebrows in question.

"You're not drunk?"

"No, just hungover." I give her a questioning look and she sighs. "I figured if you thought I was drunk, you'd go looking at every bar, not here."

"Tori," I sigh, "you have to let me explain."

She stood and smiled this sad, longing smile and it made my heart hurt. "You don't need to explain, there's nothing to explain. You're still in love with Skylar, and that's okay, Jade, really; it is.I just wish you could have found a better way to break up with me."

"No, no, Tori you don't understand I love-"

"I have to go back to campus. Do me a favor and don't come back, okay?" She's crying now and I hate myself. "It'll hurt too much for both of us, so just, do what you need to do but let me stay out of it, okay?"

"But-"

"Jade. Okay?"

I swallowed the infinitely growing lump in my throat. "Okay," I whisper. "How are you getting back to campus?"

"Your mom said she'd give me a ride."

"Can I give you a ride?" She started to shake her head and I pleaded again. "Please, if this is going to be the last time I see you, I want it to last longer than this."

"Okay."

And then we were driving, silently back to their campus. I should have hated every second, but the few times she would sneak a glance at me or ask if I was okay, I didn't. When we made it back to CA, my hangover struck me like lightning. "You can stay the night, Jade, it's okay."

And sometime around 11:30 pm, I fell asleep to my favorite worst nightmare.

"I love you," I whispered, wrapping my hands around her waist.

"I love you, too." And then she kissed me, and there were hot breaths, pleads and whimpers and it was all too much so I took her dress off, and she took mine off as well and we lay there completely vulnerable and I loved every second. But then came the worst. "But I can't be with you."

CRASH

I jumped awake, hitting my head on the ceiling and then hearing bone meeting bar, it was followed by Tori's voice. "Owieee."

"Fuck," I mutter

"Language, Jade!"

"Sorry guys."

"It's okay."

"No you're not."

"Jade!"

"Tori?"

"Ha!"

"Shut up, Skylar!"

"Jade!"

"Double ha!"

"Shut the fuck up!"

"Jadelyn!"

"Victoria!"

"Skylar!" I blinked and looked over the railing into the moonlight darkness. Tori peaked her head out to look up at me, and together we both looked at her. "Why'd you say your own name?"

"Because donkey did in shrek."

"Oh my god." I am in a world of idiots. Tori and Skylar burst out laughing, and as much as I wanted to not be a complete loser, I couldn't help it and started hysterically laughing.

Literally seven minutes later, it stopped, for the most part. There was a chuckle here and there on my part, but not the point. "Okay, wow, I really need to go to the fucking bathroom."

"Enough said, Sky," I roll my eyes as she walks out of the room. "Tori I-"

The door creaks back open and Skylar smiles. "Sorry, just uh... I'm going to sleep at Megan's tonight so... have fun, bye!"

"Skylar!" we shout in unison before she groans and I sigh. "Tori?"

"Yes?"

"Can I sit with you?"

"Yes." I let out a breath before climbing down the ladder and sitting on the edge of her bed, my elbows in my knees, hands locked together and staring at the floor feeling like a complete fucking loser.

"I'm sorry, Tori. I really really am. I just get so messed up sometimes, and I really wish I didn't because I liked you, I still like you and you're just-"

She laughs and puts a hand on my back. "Breathe, Jade."

I half smile. "Sorry, I just want you to know that I'm genuinely sorry. I know that you know that I know that I still like Skylar, and I'm sorry for that; because you're an amazing girl. You're pretty, you smell really fucking nice and you're talented and I'm just so sorry. And I love you, Tori."

I searched her eyes for something, absolutely anything; but even I couldn't tell what she was thinking. "Listen to me, Jade. Date Skylar, she still likes you too. Loves you even. And I don't care if you come around because I can't keep you from someone you're meant to be with. And maybe we could be friends in the future, but not now. Just not now, okay? I'm sorry."

And then she's hugging me and I'm crying. I don't know how long we hug for, and I don't care because I lay in my bed feeling slightly better than before. All I could hear was the soft breathing of this girl who changed me into who I used to be in seven days. I could feel love again, I could fucking feel like a decent human being. But now, this girl that took the weight of the world off my shoulders, has now put it on here and telling me to go on with my life. And I don't think I've ever been more in love. "I'm sorry, Tor," I whisper into the dark. "I'm so sorry."

Okay so. It's been like six months since the last chapter, and I'm not going to sit here and tell you about all the excuses I have, because who the fuck would want to listen to that? You're right, no one. But I'm sorry for making you wait so long. One more thing: would you like to see Jade and Skylar get back together or no? And for everyone who has followed, favorited, reviewed and stuck with this piece of shit, thank you. You're amazing.