Dr. Isles, I want to start out today by saying thank you for coming in.
No thanks, necessary, Doctor. I didn't really have a choice. This session is mandatory.
Yes, I suppose it is. Are you opposed to speaking to me today?
Not at all. I feel that I still have some residual fears due to the traumatic stress that I endured that day.
Do you feel as though you are suffering from Post Traumatic Stress? It is quite common.
Yes, it is. It has been shown that over 92% of individuals that experience a trauma are prime candidates of post traumatic stress. The sad thing is that only 17% of those are ever professionally diagnosed.
Why yes, it seems you have your research well in place.
I do. I pride myself on knowing all of the facts, Doctor.
Glad to hear that. Now I want to start on the day that you and Detective Rizzoli were attacked by CharlesHoyt in the prison infirmary. I'd like you to describe your two biggest fears that day.
That Jane would die and I would die.
Which scared you most?
I don't know. I don't think that I could fairly say either.
Ok, well, tell me your fears if Detective Rizzoli had been killed. In front of you.
Oh, I don't think that there are any words that I could use that would accurately describe that feeling. I don't even think that I could imagine that. I would have been petrified. I was petrified, I couldn't move. I couldn't watch, but I couldn't look away.
And when he turned to you, gave you his attention, tell me what you felt.
Oh, I was terrified. His eyes held my fate and for a second, I saw what he had planned for me.
What was that?
If you aren't familiar with the case, Doctor, he would have raped me right there in the prison, had me watch as he killed Jane, raped me again then killed me. After that, I would be buried in a secluded location, approximately two feet down where he would return to my body and satisfy his necrophiliac urges.
And that frightened you more than the possibility of seeing Detective Rizzoli dead?
No.
Define the word "petrified".
Tobenumb or paralyze with astonishment, horror, or other strongemotion.
And "terrified"?
To throw into a state of intense fear or desperation.
Very good. Do you feel that these words accurately describe the feelings you were having?
Yes.
What terrified you the most about his alleged intentions?
I am a lady, I was brought up in certain circles and with certain expectations. I didn't want to be found dead in a shallow grave. I didn't want the image of me to be a corpse that had been abused.
So your biggest fear was your death and the perception of others?
No, that was my fear about myself. We are talking about me, right?
Yes.
If we were to talk about the whole, I was scared because I thought Jane was going to die.
You offer a very complicated answer, Doctor Isles.
I have the ability to organize my thoughts, emotions and actions and compartmentalize everything. If we are talking about me, then I can give you a clear picture without intrusion.
And if we were to talk about Detective Rizzoli?
Just call her Jane.
Why is that?
It's what I call her.
Ok. Jane. If we were to talk about Jane, would you be able to be as objective?
Of course.
Then why is it that ever since the incident, you are obviously in discomfort when she performs dangerousassignments or duties?
I don't…I don't know. I think that maybe it's because I was close to her and watched her almost die so I knew what that looks like now. Before it had been locked away in a box in the back of my head. Now it's in every box.
So she's not compartmentalized anymore?
I suppose not.
Does that worry you?
It should. I might not be as objective as I once thought I was.
Does it affect your duties as Chief?
No.
Do you put her cases ahead of others?
No.
Do you-
Doctor, I am an upmost professional. I would not let my relationship with Jane hinder that. I would not compromise my ethics and reputation.
And what about when you allow her into your bed, Doctor?
That-that-that's not work related. And you make it sound sordid.
But I did fluster you.
I wasn't expecting the question.
I was just trying to find Maura down there inside of Doctor Isles. Don't be angry with me. Your reputation precedes you, Doctor. Now I would like to talk person to person, not doctor to doctor.
Korsak switched off the tapes for a little break and exhaled. He had been holding his breath, waiting for Maura to go off on him with the scary quiet voice she reserved for situations that called for it, but It seemed like they were just feeling each other out.
He stood and stretched, walking toward the coffee pot, making a mental note to buy more creamer.