The Way It Should Have Been

by wwritingisrightt

Dimitri tells Rose that his love for her has faded. What he hasn't told her is that what he said isn't exactly true. Drowning in guilt, he doesn't want to risk dragging her down with him. With a few friends help; however, Rose soon learns what will happen to Dimitri's and her love. Follow Rose, Dimitri, and the rest of the gang in this story that begins near the end of Spirit Bound

13. Chapter 13

Sorry for the long wait for these few chapters, but I had a terrible case of...writer's block. Anyway, enjoy! P.S. Take the POLL on my profile, please! Disclaimer: I don't own VA! Onward!

"Roza," my voice broke through the silence of my bedroom. I dreamt about Roza. Sure, it was just like my other nightmares, but this time, she survived. This time, we had a conversation. This time, she didn't awake only to fall into a void again. This time, she kissed me. It's not a lot, but that one kiss, fiction or reality, gave me all the confirmation and confidence I needed. Roza forgived me. It was time to forgive myself. Despite my pushing her away, she still loved me. She loved the monster that I was. That I am. With Roza in mind, the guilt no longer ate away at me. I knew I had sinned, but the bitter feeling of self-hatred had disappeared. I continued along with my day which inched along slowly. I knew one thing for certain: I must see Rose. I stopped by her dorm hoping to find her there, but to no avail. After knocking on the door three times to no answer, I decided to go to the gym to train. When I walked in, the room was empty. With no sparing partner, working on my defensive skills would be difficult. I began to warm up on the track. Speed because I needed to find Roza and fix this mess soon. After twelve laps, I went and lifted weights. Strength, because I needed to be strong for Roza. When the door opened, I was only marginally startled and was able to keep my guardian mask on. What frightened me the most was that my Roza walked through the door, wearing the most heart-breaking expression. Finally, my senses came rushing back to me. "Roza..." my voice came out as a feeble whisper. She glanced at me once, took her shoes off, and went towards the mats. "Come on," she commanded. "Let's spar." I followed her silently. The moment I stepped on the mat, she delivered a fierce jab to the left side of my face. "That was for calling me 'Roza'." I opened my mouth, but not before she slapped my other cheek. Hard. I didn't flinch, I just stared at her. "That was for having no hope when you were a Strigoi." Her knee came up and met the location inbetween my legs none-too-gently. "And that," she said whilst watching me gasp in pain. "That was for leaving me." Oh, Roza, If only you knew. We sparred and I finally managed to pin her to the mat. "Roza," I murmured. "Dimitri," she breathed. We continued to stare at eachother for a while. I found myself getting lost in her chocolate eyes, her wonderful scent, her beauty. And then,

Five reviews for the next chapter? Please? I appologise for the horible formatting. I lost the ribbon that allowed me to do italics, the horizontal line and slingle line breaks...:( If anyone can help with this, please... I need your help.