pairings: Harry/Draco, Pansy/Neville, Sirius/Serverus, Remus/Tonks

lyrics to 'someones watching over me' by Hilary Duff.

Chapter 9

Pansy wanted to die. And I will have no qualms granting that wish if she doesn't. Let. Me. Sleep. I groaned kicking at the offending person shaking me. The shaking stopped and I heard a door slam. With a sigh I opened my eyes, still so groggy. I was having a great dream, me and Harry were having our first kiss and it was everything I imagined it would be. Sweet and slow yet rough enough to make me feel wanted. Afterwards we ate a tray full of. Fudge. Exactly like the one sitting on the dresser.

My eyes widened and I shot up in bed, memories bombarding my skull so fast I wanted to cry. It was all real. The silence. Luna. Harry. My sensitive ears picked up footsteps coming in this direction and I hastily got up. Dressing quickly in some of Harry's clothes ( I sleep in an oversized t-sirt and boxers so don't go getting any ideas. I'm not that easy.) I grabbed my jacket and escaped to the garden. I needed to do something and I had to do it alone.

It took a lot longer than I remember to become Lyra. Everything was all ready for the video. All I had to do to get started was put the glamor on. But it wasn't the same, it didn't feel right if the others weren't with me. I had to do it though, I needed to finsh the last cover. Then I could put it online for the last time, atleast until I get my family back. Chocking back my tears I closed my eyes and clutched my necklace, letting the glamor take over, enveloping me in it's form.

When I opened my eyes, I was Lyra. Putting my headpiece on I walked to the piano I set up for this song. Checking it I went to through the others till I had no choice but to deem everything ready. Wasteing no more time, with a last good luck kiss to my necklace, I sat at the drums and played.

I found myself today, oh I found myself and ran. Away. But something pulled me back. A voice of reason I forgot I had. I got up from the drums, letting it play itself while I moved to the violin. I was supposed to add my part in anyway. The others already finished thier part. I had the ninth week this month. I had to go to the Weasleys so they were left to do their part for my video without me. It wasn't that much trouble, it adds it in as I go. I ignored the tears as I thought about the others, my family.

All I know is your not here to say. What you always used to say. But its written in the sky tonight. I moved to go to the violin, doing the same thing I did with the drums.

So I won't give up. No I won't break down. Sooner than it seems life turns around. I moved to the piano.

And I will be strong. Even if it all goes wrong. When i'm standing in the dark I'll still believe. Someone's watching over me. I moved to the mic and sang the rest not bothering to wipe the tears. They weren't that much anyway. The song and dance already helping.

... After the song ended I vanished the instruments. Conjuring a chair I sat down and waited a few minutes, just letting the emotions I had hidden so carefully go. They sky cried and the wind howled. It was a long time before the sun came out.

"Technically, we couldn't be famous without fans so really we owe you all thanks. Not the other way around, though we are grateful. It's nice to know we could be liked. I know you want to know who we really are, theres only like 5 letters that ask that question every week, I'm sorry I can't give any of you that answer. Not without lying and our fans mean to much to us to lie. But I can tell you this, and its the utmost truth. You might not know our real looks, but you know our real selves. This is us, when we're on this screen or on stage we don't hide or pretend. Its not what you wanted but I do hope its enough... expecially since we're stopping the monthly-weekly video covers for a time. Somethings happened and my family needs me. I promise though when I get that family back we'll make the best video we ever created. I don't expect you to wait and if you don't we'll understand. Thanks for being our fans for this long. We might've created the Defyers, but it was YOU who kept it alive." With a last sad smile I stood amd turned off the camera. It would automatically send the video off to every computer, muggle or otherwise. Internet is a handy invention. It helped that we added our own quirks to Hermiones 'magic-friendly' labtops.

That was officially the hardest thing I ever had to do. Slowly I let Lyra go, putting my head in my hands and just taking a moment to breath. For as long as I can remember the Defyers were always together. Even when hogwarts wasn't our Maha. Even if she never adopted us and made us real siblings, we were always and will always be family. Putting the Defyers to sleep was like admitting they were really gone. I was alone...but I didn't plan to be for long. They might've been gone for now, but I will save them. Make no mistake about that.

I wasn't overly surprised to find Harry there when I finally decided to turn around. I was shocked to find the rest of the Weasleys though. Even the Weaslette was in attendance. You'd think atleast she would stay away but nope, she's right there. They even Transfigured Chairs. Just how long were they there. They look remarkably comfortable.

"I don't suppose any of you know what privacy is, do you?" That question was just itching to be asked. I allowed Harry to manhandle me onto his lap while I tried not to laugh at the surprised looks they sported.

"I'm sorry, did you want privacy?" I would have been mad but Molly obviously was concerned, not mocking or sarcastic at all. Plus she had a piece fudge in her hands. During a video is really the only way I won't go crazy for fudge when its near. Oh I could still smell it and she really is lucky she gave it to me without delay, but I did say 'during' didn't I. I'm grateful she made it really, considering she already saw me at my fudgetasticness. Not sure that's a word, but it descibes what I want to say so... oh well. Sometimes fudge goddesses stop making the greatness anywhere near me when they witness me like that. I don't know why though, it's only natural to want to protect something so precious.

"Naa, I'm just used to the videos being only me and the others. It's not something for audiences, but then again it's also not something we do alone...it's fine I guess, this doesn't really count anyway. It was a day for abnormalities."

Weaslette, there is no way I'm giving her another name snorted. I wonder if the ginger clan will hate me if I smack her.

"Speaking of others, we need to find this Suri, you said Snape would help with that." I arched a brow. Really, can a person be that dumb or is she just unique. I was pretty clear yesterday when I said Suri WAS Severus. Not 'can help find', Was. Besides what part of 'won't remember' didn't she understand. The prophecy clearly stated that he was injured, as in he has amnesia. We need to plan, not to just charge in there like a pack of hyenas.

"He said Suri WAS Professor Snape, not that he can help find him Gin. Besides didn't that prophecy say something about memory loss or whatnot." I didn't know if I should be more disturbed or scared that the original Weasley voiced my exact, well close enough thoughts.

"The first will die but return with much knowledge. He will not remember but Dragon can change that. First to gain first to save, he will go where his heart leads." Does Mione carry that dang notebook everywhere? Merlin, but she's in desperate need of a fun night. The moment we save Trace, the plan will have to be put into action. Cupid Dragon to the rescue. I shook my head, the things I do for my family.

"Ok so we already established the first to be Sev, he is the first ever to be adopted. We'll figure the knowledge part when we find him. Its not a priority now. I don't know if its amnesia or what but apparently he won't remember much. I got an idea on how I can help with that. As for where his heart leads...uummm. Any ideas"

"Does he have any sweethearts?" Slim Weasley as I dubbed Percy, asked. Everyone stared, honestly this was Severus here. And ok he doesn't look bad. Far from it actually, but thats just it. Only Maha and immediate family knows that little secret. He would have told me if he had a sweetheart. Hes like the unofficial dad and we bugged his life story out of him ages ago.

"You know that actually has some merit. Everyone has someone out there." I blinked, when did Luna get here? Oh well, I'm used to it by now. I'm just that great at adapting.

"Oh please, who would be stupid enough to fall, let alone want to fall for that speecy git." Again redheads really shouldn't sneer. It makes them look like constipated, overgrown monkeys.

"Ginerva Weasley, that is enough. Severus is a perfectly respectable young man. Looks do not mean everything. He is also your professor, and I expect you to show him some respect. Whether he is here to hear it or not." Boy did the Weaslette stick her foot in it this time. Knowing her this will last awhile. Snuggling in my all new favorite green-eyed mattress, I got ready for a good old-fashioned argument.

"Come on mom, even you can't say anything about his looks. And you wanna know why. He DOESN'T have any. Hes so ugly i'm surprised he doesn't kill his students simply by facing them each class."

"That's kinda harsh Ginny, relationships aren't just built on looks you know." Bulky Weasley (Bill) stated.

"No but its important, who would want to be seen in public with a person that ugly. Its embarrassing. "

"Don't you think..." Aleta male-version started.

"...thats a little harsh." Arella male-version finished.

"No one wants to date an ugly person, let alone be thier sweetheart." She was digging her own grave and she wasn't even aware of it.

"I don't know whether to be flattered or disgusted. You did go out with me you know. Was that just a fluke? I'm starting to think I dodged a bullet by dumping you. Can you really be that shallow and mean? Is looks all you really care for?" Is it wrong for me to find the venom in his words a bit of a turn on?

"Oh Harry thats different, you're the chosen one." Dead silence. Harry tensed. I could only stare. Was she really THAT dumb? Sure, I insinuated that with every thought but I never really believed it. I hate her. She's after my man so naturally I over exaggerated. I never thought a person could actually be that dumb. She didn't have to keep digging, her grave was deep enough.

"Thats. .. that's not what I meant. Harry I love you." She tried to come and crouch in front of him, ignoring me. The person who was occupying his lap. I bared my fangs and she stopped, crouching a few inches away. Well, at least she had survival instincts. "Harry you are soo, so hot and brave. You always rush to save the day without a care for your own health. You make me feel safe. I know you'll always be there to protect me. Your like a muggle superhero. Saving every person, even if they don't deserve to be saved. I know that no matter what you would rush to save me if anything happened. The're fan clubs made just for you. The prophet tells your storys. Everybody cares. I love you Harry Potter. You put everyone's needs before your own. I know your confused right now but I love you enough to wait for you to figure it out. You broke up with me to protect me Harry, so I know your in love me too. You can't stop true love Harry, you'll see.. And you can't be in love two people. You can love the Ferret but you can't be in love with him. You'll see it soon enough. I'll forgive you for anything you do, I know you must be going through a lot right now." My jaw dropped. Well, snap my wand. I'm officially proven wrong. Someone CAN be that dumb.

Now I REALLY pity her. Won't make me be nice but still. It's kinda sad. I don't have to be Luna to know she was gonna have problems finding The One. But again. My man. Shes trying to steal MY MAN. Insanity isn't a good enough excuse to forgive that. As far as I'm concerned we all have a bit of insanity in us. Or is that just us. Oh well, shes also , why does that strike a chord. Insanity, azakaban...Anyway we really need to get back on track.

"I agree, you can love alot of people and in alot of different ways but you can only be in love once. But that's what your not getting. Your just not it. I NEVER said I was in love you. Actually I was the one who told about the love and in love differences. Right after I told you that I love you but I don't think I can ever BE in love with you." She looked crushed and I couldn't even gloat. It was too sad."You don't even know me. I don't like any of that stuff. I hate publicity and heriocs aren't the only qualities I have. I'm not a super hero and I don't rush into danger for just anyone. I do have a brain and as much as I like to help, I won't be stupid enough to get killed in the process. And I certainly won't run to the aid of whoever calls. I'm human not a dog!" He was squeezing me a little too tight but hey, who was I too complain. Then his words registered and I gasped. The little chord became a symphony and I remembered.

"DOG!" Ok probably not the smartest thing to say in light of this argument but, it was entirely unplanned and important. I elaborated before they could get the wrong idea.

"Sev, he had tattoo on his heart. It was a black dog. I don't remember what kind of dog it was just really big and scary. But he said it was a reminder of days where he was the happiest. Where his soul felt whole and his heart beat two times as fast. Something about the way he said that made me think the dog itself was the reason for that. What if it was his childhood sweetheart.? What if he never found another?" I was excited. I knew, I just knew I was on to something. Plus it helped to dispell some of the tension the Weaslette caused. Course Harry still held me way to tight and he wouldn't look at her but I wasn't complaining. He was mine.

"But a dog Draco. How could a dog be that strong a reminder? A lot of people own dogs." Mione just had to ruin my fun. But I knew I was right or at the very least close.

"Maybe he was in love with the dog itself." Ahh Luna sweet, sweet... my eyes widened...SMART Luna.

"That's disgusting. You can't fall in love with an animal."

"Slim Weasley has a point but what if it wasn't really a dog? What if Luna was right and the dog was just an animagus form? Do we know anyone that went to school with him and has a dog animagus. It has to be black and big. Could be mistaken for a wolf." I ignored the mutterings of 'slim Weasley who's slim Weasley'.

Behind me Harry stiffened. Despite his strong hold, I managed to turn around enough to see the look of shock on his face. I waited patiently for him to talk even if it killed me inside. Two minutes later I was ready to scream. Merlin how long did it take to get over shock.

"My god father. He has an animagus almost exactly like the one you described." I didn't know why he was whispering, was he that horrible or something.

"Yeah but Sirius hates Severus. Thier like the worst rivals. He practically bullied him in thier school days. And the git wasn't any better. It was horrible, if eyes could shoot fire they'd both be dead." That was Mr. Weasley. I didn't even fight the laugh that escaped with every word that came out of his mouth. Merlin but even Ron was shaking his head. Poor man looked so confused.

"Mr. Weasley would you say I also hate Harry?" He shook his head then paused.

"Well, now you don't but yeah you used to hate him quite alot if what my son said has any truth to it."

I nodded. If thier hate is anything like ours, then we were on the right track. I'm not the only one who seemed to come to that conclusion either. Harry sighed, dropping his head on my shoulder. He kept it there throughout the whole planning. Which was to say, we were figuring out how to explain the situation. All we really had to do was find Sirius to find Severus and turns out he's holed up in my black ancestors manor, Grim-something-wald. I never really could pronounce it.

"Would you be mad if I said this was highly disturbing me?" He murmured. I grinned unrepentant. Personally I thought it was kinda cute.

"Considering Sev was MY godfather, no. No you have leave to be disturbed." I said this with a little too much cheer. Honestly though, it was kinda funny. Harry's moan and subsequent thump of his head on my shoulder made it all the more hilarious.