"You must forget him and move on, Kurt"
"I know"
"I know that this is hard for you, but you have to get him out of your mind if you want to find a boyfriend in New York"
"I know"
"I can see how hurt you are, but you have to get over him"
"Rachel!" Kurt finally yells. They're sitting on the sofa drinking slowly coffee. "I'm calm, I'm not crying, so there is no need to tell me that I need to move on. I understand that he can't be with me and I'm fine with that"
"He left only three days ago, Kurt" Rachel points out. "You can cry, scream, yell. I would expect all of this, but you're so calm. This is not healthy"
Kurt looks down at his mug in hands. He doesn't want to cry in front of Rachel. She doesn't need to see him like this again.
"I know how it feels like to lose someone very important" she adds quietly. ''This is different situation. At least Blaine is safe" she takes a deep breath. "And alive"
"But unhappy" Kurt says placing his mug on the coffee table. His hands are shaking too much to hold anything that can be easily broken. "You can't even hope, because Finn is gone. Every time I close my eyes I see him. His bright eyes and goofy smile. I know that he is somewhere. "
"I still miss Finn. It takes some time to forget someone that really means something to you"
''But I want to remember him"
''But eventually you'll get insane"
Kurt closes his eyes to calm himself down.
They decide to short their holiday a little bit, because Kurt can't stand being in place where everything remainds him of Blaine. He has to come back to New York and start to live his life. Get to know other people and find someone to share life with. He is sure that Blaine is not destined to be with him (they would find a way to be together), so there have to be someone better for Kurt. It is impossible to imagine being with someone else right now, but he can wait for fate to find a perfect man for him.
The night before their flight he talks with Rachel about these feelings and she just nods and smiles at him. Kurt is suprised that she has nothing to say, but he keeps it to himself.
They're in the cab driving towards airport, when Rachel finally speaks up: "You can't rely on fate, Kurt" when Kurt's gaze lands on her, she continues. "You should follow your dreams and you can't say 'if it is meant to happen it will happen'. What if not? What if it is your only chance for happiness. You should go find him"
"Why are you telling me this now?" Kurt asks. "When we're sbout to fly out?"
"Because I think you deserve to be happy''
Kurt can't move. He is not sure what he should do. He can come back to New York and remember everything. It is painful memory, but beautiful. And he can try to find Blaine. They can somehow make it work. Just be together. At least for a couple of months to check if this is really something worthwhile. He can end up heartbroken, but he can also find a love of his life.
"Stop the car!"