Musical Inspiration: Better Than I Know Myself, Adam Lambert. From his album Trespassing.
Rating: M.
Ownership: I don't own Glee, but I own my imagination.
Dedication: My Caterpillar, who grounds me and my Alice too.
I don't have any association with anyone for music. I've purchased all that I listen to. I'm just letting you know about the music. If you want to listen, then do so. If not then don't. But if you're going to purchase anything, please don't go down the pirate road. Worst thing to do. I don't ship pirates.
~ Converting Kurt E Hummel ~ Ch 12 A Teaspoon of Sugar ~
Kurt ran to catch up with Sugar, but couldn't get there in time. When he saw her leave the room, he called her name. But not loud enough, he forgot about her hearing loss.
As he reached the doorway, she turned the corner and went down the corridor. Again he called out to her. 'Was she ignoring me, shit?' He looked at his feet, no laces in these shoes. Puzzle and wonder of whether to chase her flowed through his mind, as he looked further down the corridor. 'Damn it.' He swore and took after her once more.
As he reached the exit doors he heard the engine start up. Gear in reverse, brakes and first gear. He smashed the glass doors open. 'Fuck!'
He was running out of the best opportunity he'd seen for months. Why did he hesitate? Why didn't he go with his first instinct, his gut one, when it had initially kicked in?
~ a few moments before then ~
'It doesn't matter how stupid you think of me, I know I'm worth more.' Just a thought, before pushing her chair back.
It had never been intentional, on her parents behalf. It's just what happened. She'd been a sensitive creature since her conception.
She blushed easily, she always felt the centre of attention.
When she learned of the word 'paranoid', she took that as her alter ego name. And it too, embarrassed her.
It was difficult to let any one in.
Way too shy for normal conversations.
It seemed the only way to pry her from her emotional layers was through ridicule.
'Ignore him, he won't like me anyhow.
He'll just make a fool of me, reject me, hurt me.
Ignore him, he won't go away and then I'll be able to watch and be near him, without surrender.'
I love this story, and it's not supposed to be in a specific time line. With Season 5 happening, and I write this with Eps 1 and 2 having been seen. I am like everyone, hesitant for Cory Monteith's dedicated episode, this Friday. I wish you well with your anything and everything. This is going to make it 'real'.
Reflections: Of Converting Kurt Hummel, his love for himself, for Blaine, for Sugar, for his anything and everything. And Blaine and Sugar's love for Kurt, for themselves and their anything and everything.
Inspirations that we all come from love for ourselves, our anything and everything. Treat yourself with kindness. And if you feel risk taking behaviour creeping in, PM me. I'm only as able to be here for you and be of any help, if you want me to. I'm such a social little butterfly, that's all I am. No professional anything, just a {qaf moment} concerned loving citizen.