He thought that he would feel more, or at least feel something. This numbness, this darkness in his soul was confusing him. Should'nt he be angry, scared, hating himself or maybe the rest of the world? He had managed to get up from the floor and somehow take a shower and then spent the rest of the night starring at the ceiling, trying to somehow make him feel anything.

But there was nothing and somehow a new day had started and he still had a life and things to do.
Will starred trough the window, observing and watching the life going on inside the Coffe shop. He was suppose to go inside and meet his mother, who he could se sitting at a table waiting for him. But he could'nt take the last step and go inside. Because sitting at another table smiling and talking like nothing was wrong was Gabi and Nick and even though he was numb inside, just the thought of being in the same place as... Will could'nt think it, could'nt put the words in his head to admit what had happened. Just even that small thought made a cold sweat break out all over his body. He wanted to curl himself togheter on the ground and never get back up again but he didnt have the energy to even do that.
Will heaved in a heavy sigh and was just about to turn around and leave, go back to his apartment and the numbness inside of him, when someone shouted his name and he flinched so hard he was afraid he broke something, the fear shooting through his soul chasing away the numbess from before. He turned around slowly, trying to get his heart to stop trying to beat its way out of his cheast but he could'nt stop the blinding fear and the desperate need to start runing and never stop.
He almost wanted to start screaming when he realised it was Brian and Sonny who was walking towards him, because really could god be this cruel? He could'nt handle seeing Sonny, not right now, maybe even never. Not Sonny who had been the first person he had felt completly and utterly safe with. Because he would never be safe again.
"Well hello there, baby daddy" Brian mocked when they got closer to Will.
Will could see the annoyance rising in Sonnys eyes but he didnt say anything to defend him. And why would he, afterall he was dating Brian now.
"Yea..." Will opended his mouth to say something but his mind was blank.
He could'nt say anything, act like everything was normal. He was broken, just pieces left. It was really first in this moment that Will finally accepted the truth in his heart about what had happened to him. And finally accepting it broke him beyound repair.
"Will are you okay?" Sonny asked and Will wanted to answer him, maybe lie, something but he was to busy slowly dying inside.
Suddenly a hand landed om his shoulder and before Will even realised it he was screaming, in a way he had never done before.
"Will, oh god Will, Im so sorry, please talk to me...
He could hear Sonny voice through his screams of terror and that made him abruptly stop. It had been Sonny touching him not...
He turned his head still shaking all over his body and realised that somehow he had backed in to the corner of where the Coffe shop meet another building and a crowd had gathered around him during his screams. He saw his mother who was trying to run to him but Sonny was holding her back.
"Will please, whats wrong?" he heard Sami asking and Will wanted to start screaming again but he fought the impulse.
It was then he realised that standing in the crowd that was all starring at him as if he was some kind of freak, was Nick with his arms around Gabi and he was smirking. Smirking at Will, at what he had done, at how he had destroyed Will.
"I'm not giving up my baby" Will said, starring at Nick which made Sami and Sonny stop asking questions and turning there eyes towards Nick.
Will didnt know where he found the strenght, the will to stare Nick down and not drown in his pain and fear. Arianna, it had to be Arianna, his baby, his life, the only thing he had left that wasnt broken. He had to protect her.
"Will maybe this is something you, me and Nick should talk about in private" Gabi said and smiled gently towards him, like he was some kind of animal that needed to be calmed down.
"I need to go too the police" was all Will could answer.
Now when he had a goal insight he somehow felt stronger. Protect his daughter. That was the only thing in his life that still had some mening.
" Will... Baby please talk to me"
It was the nickname, the love phrase that Sonny only called him when he really needed Will to feel his love that made him turn toward Sonny again.
"Whats wrong Will, please you are scaring me. Why do you need the police?" Sonny asked and Will could hear the fear in Sonny voice.
But what scared Will in that second, almost more then to be this close to Nick was realising that Sonny didnt affect him. He didnt feel anything starring at the man he loved. He could feel Nicks eyes burning into him, but he just continued to stare at Sonny trying to feel anything. Nothing.
"Please baby, say something" Sonny begged and thats whats finally made him feel something.
Because no matter what had happened, or even the fact that he could'nt find the love inside him for Sonny, he could'nt stand to hear him being in pain.
"I was raped"