Chapter 14
A/n: The italicized words are based on third person POV. It is really important to see what's happening around every scene especially the part that is not visible on the POV of Emily and Paige. I promise to add the POV of Spencer Alison and Hanna when the time is right
Fee: The Hanna and Emily's Pat is already a given fact in this story.. The plot of this is just a more twisted version of toradora the anime. I'm sorry for the flaws but I really have a hard time showing you readers the whole scenario in each Chapter. My way of narrating is really limited especially it is just on the point of view of just Paige and Emily. I'm trying to solve that problem though. I'm following some parts of the said anime show. But thanks for the review I really appreciate it. Sorry again I will unfold the those mystery at some point.
Paige POV
We are all having our lunch. Emily still insists of preparing my lunch I give in after a couple of convincing from her. Who can ever say no to the dishes that one Emily Fields cook! I don't know if Hanna feels better after what we did yesterday. I'm still in shock of what she said about her past with Emily. I really believe that regrets are always at the end. I don't know if I can still help Emily with this one because Hanna told me that her heart is already with someone. I don't want to give Emily false hope in this matter. I can't stand to push her to the thing that I know will hurt her in the end. I hope my chance for Spencer is still there. Sometimes I felt that she wants to be with me but there is more time that I feel that she is just happy to be with someone who can keep up with her energy.
"Hey Paige! Where did you go you just zoned out? " Spencer wave her hand in front of me.
I blushed when I saw that it is her then I replied
"Ahmm sorry what was that?"
"I said what's with Hanna today and why are you both not here yesterday?" she questioned me
"Ohh yesterday I drag Hanna to somewhere so she can unwind from the stress" I said then I look at Hanna who is starring at the emptiness in front of her.
"How will you know when to hold on and to let go?" Hanna said out of nowhere Emily Spencer and I just stare at her. Alison is just busy playing with her foods then she sigh.
"I don't know I guess until there is any small chance and for me it is not how the other person will return the feeling its how you show them what you feel." Emily answered then she looked at Spencer like she's asking her on what's her opinion in the matter.
"No I guess it is not rational if you just give everything knowing that it will only go to waste." Spencer said.
"Yeah I agree why would you pursue something that you know, will never happen?" I said then looked at Emily.
"But what if you feel that there is a chance?" Hanna said
"Then go for it." Emily commented again.
"It is just a feeling the other person didn't said anything to confirm that feeling" I inquired
"Yeah what if you're just assuming that there is something between the two of you?" Spencer said to back up my statement.
"But action is more assuring than words anyone can tell anything that you just want to hear."
The question of Hanna is now a heated topic on our table. When I looked at Alison she is just smirking while shaking her head and looking at Emily then at Spencer.
"Okay let say that this person really have some feelings and the feeling is mutual why would he never admits that he/she feels it too? It is because there is no guarantee on what is going to happens after their confession. It means nothing is stable on their situation and it is better to have something than to have nothing at all" Spencer said then she dips her head and the last part of her statement was almost a muffled.
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"I'm out of here guys, is that speech base on self experience Spence?" Alison whispered to Spencer's then she smiled sardonically
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Emily POV
Alison stood up and whispered something to Spencer I didn't hear it but it makes Spencer looks like her blood is drain from her body. Alison has this power to play with your mind. I wonder how she does that. When I glance at Paige she is looking intensely at Spencer like her world is rotating just for her. Then Spencer looked at her then she give Paige a small smile which was returned by Paige. Is it how Paige gazes at Spencer, love looks like? I really don't know what love is right now.
"Guys where is Hanna?" I ask the two of them. They looked around
"I don't know she is just here a while ago" Paige answered
"Yeah let's find her" Then Spencer Stand up then I followed their lead
"I'll look for her in here" Then Spencer and Paige just nod their head
Paige POV
I didn't notice that Hanna leaves, Spencer and I are looking for her but there is no sign where the hell did she go.
"Caleb wait!" I heard someone who sounds like Hanna
"Caleb I just want to talk" Now I'm sure it's the voice of my best friend because I saw her already running towards someone. She holds the wrist of Caleb. Then he turns around. I can't read his emotion. He removes the grip of Hanna from his wrist.
"There is nothing to talk about!" Caleb yells at her
Spencer grabbed me in the shoulder when I'm about to bolt their and give Caleb some lesson. When I look at Spencer she just shakes her head. Like telling me to leave them have this conversation. I looked again to the direction of Hanna and Caleb but I didn't move. Spencer has this effect to calm me down. We have this non verbal communication that the two of us can only understand or it is just for me?
"Please Caleb just tell me." Hanna begs to Caleb
"Then what?! Stop this Hanna, I need to go" Then Caleb turn and starts to walk but Hanna Hugged him from behind. Caleb removes the arms of Hanna around his waist then he pushed her. He even didn't look at Hanna after he pushed her. Hanna Is now crying there. I really hate to see her cry. Seeing someone cry is my weakness. I don't know what to do in this situation. I don't know if what I will do will comfort the one who is crying or it will just make the situation worst. But I still walked towards Hanna I sit beside her then hugged her.
"Shhhhh it will be alright." I try to calm her down. Then Spencer hand her handkerchief to Hanna.
"I really hate to see one of you cry, you know" Spencer said then she wipes the tear falling on the cheek of Hanna.
"Yeah I remember when I saw Paige cry it is so heart breaking. Wait! you saw that too?!
"Ahmm yeah sorry I didn't want to pry but I heard all of it" Spencer looked at methen give me a shy smile.
"It's okay, like Paige mind it if it was you. wait Spence I never saw you cry how you did that?!" Hanna said now she slightly recovered to what happen a while ago.
"Guys I'm still here and why are you talking like I'm the one who cried" I said and then I pushed Hanna lightly
"Yeah you don't need to remind me that, but I'm just curious is he still bothering you?" Hanna asked then she stands up.
I just shake my head. But Spencer just looks at me quizzically.
"You don't have to lie to me Paigey, let me do the worrying about you sometimes" Hanna Said then she hugged my arm
"You don't need to, you have your own problems right now, and there is nothing that I can't handle" I said
"I don't have any" Spencer mumbled then I looked at her. She smiled at me then continued
"I'm here if you need anything" She said it but she is looking at me.
"Yeah you heard that Paige! Spence will take care of you while I'm busy to my fucked up life" I just shakes my head. Hanna is really just being Hanna I'm still wondering how she manage to be in this state and to another in just a fraction of time.
"So Spence I'm giving you the responsibility to protect my best friend at all cost! Are we clear?"
"Yeah sure I will do that"
Then Hanna hugged the both of us. I really know that Hanna is somewhat touchy but I didn't expect to have Spencer Hastings in this proximity. I'm staring directly at her eyes. We are just a few inches away from the face of the other. Then Hanna Let goes of us. I don't know if i want to kill Hanna or thanked her for that.