Chapter 12
~Hospital~
Sam stayed outside the rooms with Andy standing next to him. Steve and Gail was in on girls room, Traci and Jerry were in the room with Sarah. Sam could see Sarah but she couldn't see him. Andy looked sideways to Sam. He was staring ahead she couldn't read him. "Sam are you ok?" Sam looked at her like he just woke up. He looked at Andy he didn't even realize that she was there. "Umm, Still trying to figure everything out. Isabelle and Josh have gone through so much because of her!" Sam pointed to Sarah. He was pacing in front of Sam. "I should hate her, I shouldn't want to want to help her." He stopped walking and walked toward Andy. She grabbed him and pulled him into a hug. He hugged her back and put his nose in her hair and inhaled deeply. She always knew how to calm her down. "I still want to help her Andy. I don't get why I want to help her. I want to get to know my niece and nephew. I don't know if they will like that but I want to help them." Andy pulled back and looked into his eyes. "Well how about you start by calling them and letting them know that she is awake. Also we can go in there and talk to your sister and figure this out." Sam nodded his head and call Jamie to let them know that Sarah was awake. Sam and Andy waited outside the rooms. The interviews really didn't take that long.
They stepped out of the rooms and walked up to Andy and Sam. "So what did you find out?" Sam asked his friends. They looked at each other trying to see who was going to go first. Traci spoke up first. "Well asked Sarah what had happen." Traci looked at Sam. He nodded his head and looked at her. "She told us that she had gotten clean about 15 years ago when she was pregnant. About 5 years after that she fell off the waging. After 5 years Anton came in helping her out and her kids. She once again fell of the waging. You heard about that from Isabelle. After that she started to work for Anton. He kept feeding her crack which is her chose of poison. She didn't even know if her kids are alive. We didn't tell her we figured that you should." Traci looked at Sam. He nodded his head. He looked over to Steve. "This girl name is Kim Brown. She is only 20 years old. She got addicted with her boyfriend. He over dosed but he still owed money to Anton and she had no money to pay it. So she started working for him. They both from what I am seeing and hearing they are hookers." Sam let out a breath. He had a feeling that's what they were. "Umm ok well get back to the barn and write-up the reports. I am going to go in there and talk to Sarah." Everyone nodded their heads and walked away.
Sam blew out his breathe and walked into the Sarah's room with Andy behind him. Sarah looked up and saw Sam. She looked scared and sad. Sam stood at the end of the bed while Andy leaning against the wall behind him. Sam just stared at her he didn't know what to say to her. "Hi Sam." Sarah whispered at him. He just looked at her she looked so valuable now. "Hi Sarah." She smiled at her brother. She studied him he looked good. "So...Umm how have you been?" His eyes went hard to her. How can she act like nothing is going on. "How have I been? How have I been!" Sam screamed Andy walked up and put her hand on his shoulder. He whipped around and saw Andy standing there. She rubbed his shoulder to calm him down. He looked back and Sarah who had tears running down his face. "Sorry." She whispered. Sam looked at her and shook his head. "Don't say sorry to me. You say sorry to your two kids. The two kids that you left you chosen drugs over them. God Sarah you chose drugs over you own blood. I am not surprised you did it once before. Do you even know where your kids are? Do you even care?" By this time Sarah was sobbing. Sam was shaking he knew that he shouldn't have yelled at her but she needed to understand that she had ruined two kids life. "Sam I am sorry that I choose drugs over you. I shouldn't have done that but I can't go back and fix it. No I don't know where my kids are at. I hope that they have a better life then what at the time I couldn't give them. That's why I gave them up and choose drug over them. I know that you think I am low for saying that but at the time I couldn't help them or myself. He could so i gave him my kids." Sam started to pace while Sarah talked to him. Andy watch as Sarah didn't even look at him she just played with her hands in her lap. When she stopped talking Sam stopped pacing and looked at her. He looked angry at her. Andy walked up to him and rubbed his back. She whispered into his ear. "You need to breathe. You need to think before you speak. You can't fly off the handle. You need to breath." Sam looked up at Andy. She was surprised to see tears in his eyes "I can't be here. I can't do this right now." Andy nodded her head. Sam turned around and walked out of the room.
Andy looked over at Sarah when Sam walked out of the room. Sarah started to cry harder and started to breathe hard. Andy walked over to her and held her hand. "You need to breathe. You need to calm down." Sarah looked over to her. Andy noticed that she had the same eyes as Sam. Sarah started to calm down while Andy rubbed her hand. Sarah smiled up at her. "I am glad that he has someone there for him. He has never had that other than me and I walked away from him." Andy looked out the door and didn't see Sam. She started to worry now. "He needs time Sarah. He just found you and found out this." Sarah nodded her head. "I have a question for you?" Andy looked at her. "Go ahead." Sarah took a big breath. "Ok do you know where my kids are. Do you know if they are ok?" Andy looked back out the door and saw Sam standing there. It was like he was reading her mind and nodded his head at her to tell Sarah her answers. "Umm actually yes we do. They live with Anton Hill well they did until we took him to jail. Now they are staying with Jamie Brennan. They want to come see you. Would that be ok with you?" Andy noticed a panic look in her eyes. She squeezed her hand to let her know every thing was ok. "Umm if they want to yes." Sarah couldn't believe what she was hearing. They wanted to come see her. "Ok let me go talk to Sam and then hopefully they will be here soon." Sarah nodded her head while Andy squeezed her hand and walked out of the room.
~The hallway~
Once Andy stepped out of the room. Sam came up and wrapped her up in a hug. He breathed in her sent it calmed him down. "I am sorry." He said in her hair. She pulled away and looked at him. "Sorry for what. You needed to step away you needed a break. I understand why you did it. I am here for you." Sam nodded his head. They heard footsteps coming up to them. They turned their heads and saw Isabelle, Josh and Jamie coming towards them. "So she is awake?" Sam nodded her head at her. Josh and Isabelle looked into the room. "You ready for this." Isabelle asked Josh. He looked at her and nodded his head. "Do you want to come in?" Sam noticed that she was asking him. "Are you sure you want me in there?" Sam asked "You are family. You have a right to be in there. Also I think it might help you understand things." Sam nodded his head. They walked into the room together. Andy looked over to Jamie he was leaning up against the wall. He was looking in the room with sad eyes. "They will be fine." He looked over at Andy. He nodded his head. "I know they have been through a lot. I know they are going to be fine." He just kept looking in the room
~Sarah's room~
Sarah looked up when the door open. She saw two teenagers walk into the room with Sam behind them. "Hi." Isabelle and Josh looked at her while Sam leaned against the wall. He let them do what they needed to do. "Wow. I imaged what you would say when you saw us. Hi wasn't one of them. Sorry, Can you forgive me, I don't know what I was thinking." Sarah looked at Isabelle. She was surprised to see her eyes cold. "I don't know what to say to you guys. I don't know how to make this better. You have every right to be mad at me. Please understand I did this because it was what was best for you." Isabelle started to shake her head with tears rolling down her cheek. Josh was just staring at her with cold eyes his hand was gripping her bed. "What was best for us. We wanted are mother. What was best for us was that you were there. Instead you chose drugs over you children. Do you know what you put us through. Do you know that we went through hell. All of that because you were weak." Isabelle was screaming by the time she was done. Josh put her hand on her back and started rubbing it up and down. "Honey. I am sorry I really wish would let me explain." Isabelle couldn't believe what she was hearing. "YOU DON'T GET TO CALL ME HONEY. YOU CRACK WHORE." Sarah was shocked at what Isabelle's out burst. Sam was watching Isabelle. She was shaking and Josh was trying to calm her down but it wasn't working. He pushed off the wall and walked up to the bed. He put his hand on Isabelle's shoulder and squeezed. She turned looked at Sam. "I thinks that's enough for today." Isabelle shook her head and stormed out of the room. Josh looked at Sarah he turned around and walked out. "You have broken them. So don't think that they are going to come in and be all happy. I wouldn't blame them if they don't want to come back." Sam walked out of the door. Sarah looked up and looked out the window that looked into the hallway. She was staring at a pair of blue eyes. A pair of blue eyes she thought she would never see again.